50. Kill yourself

The porters were watching, and a few people discussed quietly, and an old man who was a little old came over, sat in the place where the shopkeeper was sitting just now, and said to Sangou:

"I said little brother, didn't you just lose a few chicken * cents, you don't need to think about it like this, do you want to take Pucheng with me? Eat fragrant and drink spicy food together, and ensure that you live a happy life. ”

“……”

After a while, the porter seemed to be a rough man, and he wouldn't say more persuasive words, so he just went back and forth these few words, and seeing that Sangou had not spoken, and there was no way, he sat quietly for a while, smoked several barrels of dry tobacco, and then left silently.

……

When night fell, the surrounding snoring was everywhere, and the three dogs were still staring at the black roof, two lines of tears quietly slipped down, and asked the sky: "Is this the heavens better than me?" ”

I have a home, but I can't go back; There are beloved, but they can't meet; There are brothers, but they have no face to see; My whole being is a rebellion from my relatives; As soon as he went out, he was saddled with a huge debt.

I can't pay back the money I owe Mingyue, so I still have the face to see her again? How did I live such a failed life, God, why don't you open your eyes and take me away.

Since living in this world, from childhood to adulthood, it has basically been bitter, and it has not been better for a few days, and it will definitely be the same in the future, so it will continue to be bitter, so why bother? It is better to die early and be born early, reincarnate in a good family in the next life, and live a good life.

Cease! Cease! Cease! It's better to wait until tomorrow, go out and find a land, and make your own decisions. Although Sangou feels sorry for himself, since he is still a man, he still has a little conscience, and he is not in a hurry to die, he can't die in this inn, and the boss is so good to himself.

Although he can die, but it will definitely bring a lot of trouble to others, the government has been checking endlessly, that is, just a dead person in this store, don't think about doing this accommodation business, how can anyone dare to sleep in.

After making up his mind, Sangou put down everything instead, slept soundly for a while, and had no dreams all night.

When he woke up, Sangou cleaned himself up a little, got up silently and walked out of the store, after all, he hadn't eaten anything that day and night, his eyes were black, his legs and feet were weak, he stumbled on the threshold, and almost fell on the road at the door.

The shopkeeper ran out and asked him where he was going, Sangou just shook his head at the kind-hearted man gratefully, and said thank you boss, I'm going home, and the shopkeeper asked, where is your home? I'll find someone to take you home; Sangou shook his head and said, No, I'll go by myself, not far.

The shopkeeper grabbed two fresh steamed buns, stuffed them into Sangou, and said, eat something on the way, you didn't eat all day yesterday, you will be hungry, and you won't be able to walk. Sangou felt that he was dying, so he didn't waste this food, and besides, although he was hungry, he just didn't have an appetite to eat.

At this time, a porter came next to him, grabbed the shopkeeper's steamed buns, and waved his head at the boss to make a look, and the shopkeeper had to say while retreating: "Little brother, then you have a good journey, take care of your body......"

The third dog head raised his hand without replying, saying goodbye to this kind shopkeeper, and silently recited in his heart: "I hope the Bodhisattva can bless you, a kind person, and you will be safe and smooth all your life, and I also hope that you can get rich as soon as possible and live a good life." ”

It can be regarded as saying goodbye to this unlucky place, but now, it doesn't matter if you are unlucky or not, you can only blame yourself for being careless, and you can't blame others for it.

Alas, it doesn't matter if you are careless, everything will be scattered with the wind, like the tiny dust on the road in front of the school yesterday afternoon.

In the hot summer morning, the sun came out very early and very fast, and all of a sudden some of the morning fog was dried without a trace, and the front was the moat of the north gate, the time was relatively early, and there were few people on the road, just right.

Thinking that his water quality is very good, it is estimated that he will not die if he jumps into the water for a while and a half, so Sangou looked for half a circle on the side of the road and found a big stone, so that he could hold the big stone and jump into the moat and sink to the bottom immediately.

Think about what if you can't hold back and let go? Sangou took off his shirt, tied a big stone, and put his hand in it to wrap a dead knot, so that he couldn't break free.

After getting ready, Sangou sat next to him, silently thinking about his relatives and friends in his heart, the first thing that came to mind was his mother, and then his father, his younger brothers and sisters, grandparents, Mingyue Mingcheng guarded the city....., etc., oops, I can't think about it anymore, and my heart will soften if I think about it again.

I made up my mind to get up and hold the stone, but I couldn't hold it all at once; No, I used to be able to hold such a big stone, but what's wrong today, my hands and feet are weak and I can't use my strength, I should be hungry.

Unable to hold it, the three dogs pushed the stone to roll, and when they were about to roll the stone to the bank of the moat, they were grabbed back by someone on the shoulder, and felt that the strength was huge, and the whole person was grabbed and overturned on the road, and I didn't see who did it, and then my ass was kicked by someone, and there was a screaming and scolding sound in my ears:

"Mara is a bazi, he is young, he seeks death and life, I let you die..... I let you die...... I can't kill you ...... you useless thing."

It turned out that this person was the man who had just made a look at the shopkeeper at the door of the inn, and Sangou was bent on seeking death at that time, where would he notice, and he would definitely not notice that he had been following him all the way.

The man was beaten and scolded with his head and face, and the last strength of the three dogs was used up when carrying the big stones, and he was powerless to resist, so he had to lie on the road and not move, allowing others to beat and scold.

The three dogs lying on the ground, their eyes were just pierced by a beam of sunlight, and they were suddenly black, they couldn't see anything, their bodies were light, as if they were flying in mid-air, and they were really the same as the flying dust, floating in the air at will, very comfortable and comfortable......

I don't know how long it took, Sangou felt that he was choking on himself and opened his eyes, and he reluctantly left that comfortable feeling, and when he opened his eyes, he found that he was back on the bed in the inn, and several porters surrounded him, and shouted happily:

"Wake up, wake up ......"

"It's okay, it's okay......"

It turned out that the porter found that Sangou was lying on the ground and seemed to be unconscious, no, how serious his own attack was, he knew very well, it was impossible for this little offspring to be like this.

When I touched Sangou's chest, it was okay, it was still hot, and there was still breath in and out of my nose. I couldn't fight anymore, it was estimated that the child had fainted, so I quickly untied the stone's clothes and carried the three dogs back to the inn.

When the people in the inn saw it, they hurriedly gathered around, moved the three dogs to the bed, and asked the man with their mouths, and it was a mess, but fortunately, the shopkeeper hurried over, and knew that there was nothing big about it at a glance.

He ordered someone to bring a bowl of rice soup, and asked someone to pinch the middle of the three dogs while pinching his mouth, and slowly spooned some rice soup into it, and he didn't know whether the three dogs woke up by pinching the people, or were choked by the rice soup, anyway, he woke up like this.