People ask me all the time. Why didn't you stay in the army, why did you leave the army, and you will understand after reading it

I, a soldier of the republic, may not be a good soldier, but I love this military uniform and like the profession of "soldier", which is my childhood dream and my current choice, and it is my pursuit without regrets. I don't dare to be a soldier for the rest of my life. Suddenly I was very sad, and suddenly I looked back and thought about whether it was worth being a soldier.

I am not afraid of hardship, nor am I afraid of tiredness, but I will be afraid of being upset, I will be afraid of being confused and at a loss, and after staying in the army for a long time, will I no longer have the courage to face the disturbances of society after getting used to that kind of life, and I will no longer have the ability to adapt to the "open and secret fighting" in this real society, and can I find the mentality of "starting from zero"?

After staying in the army for a long time, I found that the ideological education of the instructors could no longer calm my anxious heart, and after a long and bitter speech, I would no longer be as respectful as I was when I was a recruit, pluck out my ears, and continue my youthful sacrifice. More often than not, it's boredom and helplessness...

Walking down the street in casual clothes, I don't remember walking on my own a few years ago; I always feel that I can't get used to the colorful clothes, the colorful hair makes me feel very weird, the bright place makes me feel very strange, I feel a kind of inexplicable resistance, I forget that it used to be my proud dress, and I forget that it used to be my favorite hairstyle, and I can't remember that it was the first choice for myself and a group of brothers to go to entertainment a few years ago! Compared with me, I am still willing to wear a grass green military uniform, and I would rather stay in this isolated paradise of "one wall, two worlds"; When I occasionally looked at the billboards on the commercial street with English descriptions that I didn't recognize, I suddenly felt very sad; I want to go back to the unit at once, to the unit that I was so tired of an hour ago, but feel safe an hour later! Because that's where I'm familiar, where I'm used to living, where I have my own turf, where I have fun, where I don't have the panic of being left behind. But can I escape for a lifetime with such an escape, and one day I will face society, what should I do???

I understand that the army is not a place where you can retire after all, and it is impossible to solve the problem by escaping, and when you are discharged from the army, you have already missed it. The most daring age to struggle, the dream of youth, enlisting in the army, non-generals should not be !! When I was discharged from the army, I lamented and dreamed.

After being a soldier for a long time, my heart will be ruffian, I am used to being bored, I am used to the unbridled growth of weeds in my heart, waiting for Socrates' education, but I am tired of being able to pull out weeds, so many personnel changes and the world is cold, how much positivity has not been wiped out?

Someone once said, "The greatest panic is the wandering of the mind." ”

Dedication is youth, no complaints when you are a soldier, love this hot barracks, like the sweat on the training ground, get used to the life mode of "busy with both eyes until the lights go out, close your eyes and raise vigilance", cherish the unforgettable love between comrades-in-arms... But when a person is quiet, panic will still take over the heart.

The recruit company, who had just put on his military uniform, shouted loudly and proudly, sent his comrades, don't be a veteran, and asked himself how many times he planned to watch a large group of men in the military camp hugging their heads and crying? There will always be a day when I will leave, and I will shout out those bold words, but there are vicissitudes and bitterness in my voice.

I don't dare to stay in the army for too long, the deeper the emotional cultivation, the more reluctant to part, I love this military uniform, and I love my youth even more, I can't be a soldier in the next life. Many people, after being a soldier for a long time, walk out of the barracks, do not necessarily have a soldier's appearance, walking, sitting and lying, behave, behave and deeds, and are accustomed to treating themselves as veterans, maybe a few years ago, I still discussed with others the question of whether being a soldier is worth it, and after ten years or more than ten years, I will not discuss with others the question of whether being a soldier is worth it.

When a soldier does not dare to be a soldier for half his life, it is not because he is afraid of dedication, not because he doubts whether it is worth it or not, but because he does not want to feel the heart-rending pain when he leaves in the future, so he chooses to leave the army and renew his life.

Understand me, I want to leave the army, I will not stay in the army for the rest of my life. Don't say I'm not a good soldier, I dedicated my youth and sweat without regrets