At the beginning of the morning, a man went up the hill to chop wood with the sound of warblers and birds, and his vigorous steps made it impossible to tell that he had passed the age of confusion, he chose the best wood from a pile of firewood, split it into five sections, picked up one of them and sat on the wooden chair beside him and carved it carefully.

His gaze was as gentle as water, and his palms were firm and powerful, and he soon carved three pieces of wood, but when he picked up the fourth piece of wood, his eyes were full of moisture, and his hands began to tremble, and it took him a long time to stabilize his mind and concentrate on carving, and afterwards he carefully placed this piece of wood on his left hand side, and picked up the last piece of wood, unlike the gentleness of the first three pieces of wood and the excitement of the fourth piece of wood, he looked at the fifth piece of wood with empty eyes, and there was no sadness or joy on his face. The movements of his men are fast.

He sandwiched the carved five pieces of wood between the many pieces of firewood, carried it on his back and walked back, and saw the curling smoke coming out of the chimney of his house in the distance, and hurriedly quickened his pace and hurried back to the courtyard. I saw that in the center of the courtyard surrounded by aromas, there was an extra table and two chairs, and on the table were two dishes and one soup that had been prepared.

Yiyou, who had just brought out two bowls of rice from the room, saw him and said, "I'm back, sit down and eat." ”

Qiu Zeyuan put down the bundle of firewood, washed his hands, looked at the fragrant meals on the table, and praised: "Your cooking skills have really been good in the past two years, and you are no longer the little girl who can't even wash the dishes." ”

Yiyou smiled like a flower, "That's natural, don't look at who my master is?" ”

Qiu Zeyuan saw this face that looked like Dai Xun, and the sadness in his heart replaced his unwillingness, and after he had a meal with Yiyou with peace of mind, he said, "You clean up the dishes and chopsticks first, and I'll go and set up your aunt's spiritual position." Later, we will pay tribute to her. ”

The movements on Yiyou's hand froze for a moment, then returned to normal, and replied lightly: "Okay." ”

Yiyou had something on his mind, and the two pairs of dishes and chopsticks were washed for nearly two quarters of an hour, but fortunately, Qiu Zeyuan was also preoccupied, and the speed of placing the tablets was extremely slow, and he didn't notice Yiyou's abnormality.

But no matter how slow it is, there is a moment when things are done. Yiyou finally walked into the house, and when she saw Qiu Zeyuan's arrangement, her whole body was so stiff that she couldn't move, "This...... This ......"

Qiu Zeyuan could understand Yiyou's shock, he grabbed Yiyou and stepped forward, "Let's take care of your aunt's Tan sacrifice first, and then talk about the rest." ”

Qiu Zeyuan and Yiyou put three sticks of incense on Xin Daiyu in turn, and Qiu Zeyuan said: "Huai'er, I was supposed to hold a grand sacrifice for you, invite guests, offer sacrifices for you, and ask Taoist priests to make Jiao and set up tombstones for you, but now I am trapped in Pangu Mountain, and I can't do anything for you, so I can only carve a simple tablet for you and offer a few sticks of incense." Please forgive me in the Spirit of Heaven for my distress and forgive me for my impotence. ”

Yiyou also knelt on the ground with Qiu Zeyuan, buried his head deeply, chatted about respect, and said tens of millions of sorry in his heart......

Qiu Zeyuan said to Xin Daiyu in his heart: "Xiao'er, I still have something to ask you for today, please allow me." Youyou and I were victimized by Tong Baiyi and made a big mistake. I wanted to arrange a good place for Yoyo, but she was pregnant, and it was difficult for her to have a place in the world except for me, so I wanted to ask you to forgive me for my promiscuity, and I wanted to ask you to allow me to marry Yiyou as a stepmother. Far from this life, a thousand sins, when he is under the nine springs, he will bear the guilt to you, let you deal with it. ”

After kowtowing three times, Qiu Zeyuan and Yiyou got up. Qiu Zeyuan's eyebrows were peaceful, but his eyes were barren, "Youyou, it has been more than three years since you knew your life experience, and you have never mentioned the matter of recognizing your ancestors and returning to your ancestors, and I have not reminded you." If you think about it carefully, it's my fault, so in addition to holding a Tan sacrifice for your aunt today, I also hope that you can recognize your ancestors and return to your ancestors, you should be the original Yiyou, not the Qiu family, let alone Yiyou. ”

Yiyou had already guessed what Qiu Zeyuan wanted to do, but she still stared at the spiritual position in the field on the desk, and said categorically: "I don't want to recognize my ancestors and return to my ancestors." ”

Qiu Zeyuan also guessed that she would have such an attitude, so he said: "Your aunt was Xin Daihuai in the first half of her life, and Qiu Daiyi in the second half of her life, only at the last moment of her life, is Qiu Xin Daihuai." If you don't recognize your ancestors and return to your ancestors, you can only be Qiu Yiyou in this life, not Qiu Yuanyou. ”

Yiyou narrowed his eyelids slightly, and after a moment of silence, he said word by word: "Okay, I will listen to your words and recognize my ancestors and return to my ancestors." ”

There are no elders in the original clan, no genealogy, no ancestral hall, Yiyou can only pay tribute to his parents on the simple tablet on the incense tablet.

Qiu Zeyuan closed his eyes, covered the pain in his heart, listened to Yiyou knelt on the ground, and said: "Unfilial daughter Yiyou knocks on her father and mother." ”

Yuan Yiyou didn't even want to say a word, so he got up directly and put three sticks of incense on Yuan Ye and Xin Daihuan. Qiu Zeyuan also offered incense to the two of them with her, and he bowed down and said: "Today, Zeyuan wants to ask the two to marry Ling Yuan, and I hope that the two of them will be gracious." The two of you can rest assured, as long as I still have a breath in the future, I will not let Ling Yuan suffer the slightest grievance. ”

Qiu Zeyuan turned to Yuan Yiyou and said: "Yoyo, I am no longer honored today, but as long as I am for one day, I will protect you for one day." You go inside and change into a red dress, and we will go to the church today in front of my parents, your parents, and your aunt, shall we get married?" ”

From the time Qiu Zeyuan said to Yuan Ye and Xin Daiyun's spiritual position that she wanted to marry herself, Yuan Yiyou began to cry, and now she is even more in tears, she wants to calm down her emotions, but the more she thinks about it, the more she can't do it, so she can only say intermittently: "Yes...... Don't ...... I can't...... Can't promise you ......"

Qiu Zeyuan thought that he had heard it wrong, but when he saw her crying silently, he clearly realized that he had heard it correctly. In the end, he watched the child grow up, and seeing her crying like this, Qiu Zeyuan couldn't bear it, he walked over and grabbed her trembling shoulders, and coaxed softly: "Yoyo, what's wrong with you?" Don't cry anymore......"

Feeling so tender, Yuan Yiyou couldn't stop his tears, and Qiu Zeyuan also found that the more coaxed he was, the worse the situation became, so he didn't say anything more, and quietly waited for her to calm down, but he didn't expect that the first question she asked after she calmed down made it difficult for him to answer.

"Do you love me?"

Qiu Zeyuan thought for a long time and replied: "Of course I love you, there is no doubt about it. ”

"Why do you love me?"

Qiu Zeyuan couldn't answer for a while, and Yuan Yiyou asked again: "Do you love your aunt?" ”

Qiu Ze narrowed his eyes and replied, "Love." ”

"Then why do you love her?"

Qiu Zeyuan seemed to understand what she wanted to say, and said hurriedly: "Yoyo, don't think nonsense......"

Yuan Yi interrupted him clearly, "I have never been more awake than I am now. Of course I love you, there's no doubt about it. What a nice thing to say...... It's a pity, but it's not a love story. Dai Xun Dai Huai, the difference between one word, the difference between one sound, but the difference is a lifetime of love, but the separation is a lifetime of bonds. Because I am Xin Daixun's daughter and my aunt is Xin Daixun's sister, I am also your daughter and my aunt is also your sister. Of course you love me and my aunt, and this love is the love of my daughter and sister, but our love for you is the love of a woman for a man. This dooms nothing to come of it between us and you. I used to be stupid and hope that I could do what my aunt had not done in her life. Now I can't help but ask myself, how can I do this? ”

Qiu Zeyuan's heart sank more and more as she spoke, "It's me who is sorry for you, your aunt and your mother." ”

The temperature of Yuan Yiyou's eyes rose a little more, "I don't dare to say mother and aunt, but I, you don't have anything to be sorry for me, and you can even say that I am the luckiest of the three women." It was their departure that made your rock-solid heart shift and decide to marry me. It would not be an exaggeration to say that everything I have received before is because of them. But you endure the pain of your heart like a knife today, and let me recognize my ancestors and return to my ancestors, not for the Xin Daiwei you love deeply, nor for the Xin Daiwei you owe, just for my original intentions. Because you let me recognize my ancestors and return to my ancestors, it is equivalent to admitting that I am the daughter of the wilderness, and admitting that I am the daughter of the wilderness, that is, admitting that Xin Daixun is the wife of the wilderness. You are willing to let your mother go for me, you are willing to bow your head in front of the person you hate the most in your life, and in your lifetime, you can see you, just for me to do one thing, and I will die blindly. ”

Qiu Zeyuan also wet his eyes unconsciously, "Yoyo, I'm not worth it...... You ...... for me like this."

Yuan Yi smiled and said, "Is that mother worth your life as a widow for her?" Whether it's worth it or not, only we know in our hearts. There is only one reason why I reject you today, and that is that there is an unbridgeable gap between us - my aunt. On that day, I thought that I was going to go to Huangquan with you and Shu Yi, and I would soon be able to see my aunt and make amends to her, so I dared to go with my heart. But now, our lives are still very long, and if we make mistakes, we are afraid that we will not be able to pay off our debts to our aunt in the next life. I can't comfortably possess a man she hasn't gotten in her life, and I'll have a hard time dreaming of it. ”

Saying that, Yuan Yiyou walked to the incense case and said to Xin Daiyi's spiritual position: "Auntie, I will give him back to you, no matter before or after death, Qiu Zeyuan only has a wife that Ming Media is marrying." ”

Qiu Zeyuan asked, "Then you...... What to do in the future? ”

Yuan Yiyou tried to squeeze out a smile, turned around and said, "Lu Tiansheng is you, not me." If I ask Yuqing for help, Lu Tiansheng should allow me to leave for the sake of her face. I will first go back to Yejin to pay tribute to my parents, aunt, Uncle Tong, Aunt Tong and Qiu Tong's ancestors, and then go to find a place to stay. Shu Yi can't leave me all the time, so I will leave her for you as a companion, and I will come back twice a year in the future to see Shu Yi, and when she grows up, I can also take her out to see the outside world. ”

Qiu Ze saw that she was thoughtful, obviously not just preparing today, and couldn't help but sigh: "Yoyo, you have really grown up......"

Yuan Yiyou smiled bitterly, took a deep breath and smiled: "Without further ado, I'll go and call Yuqing now." ”

Tong Yuqing was surprised when she heard about her plan, "What?!" Yoyo, have you really figured it out? Did Uncle Qiu say something? You give him the phone, and I'm going to hear what he thinks......"

Yuan Yi sighed leisurely: "Yuqing, this time is really a decision I made after careful consideration, and no one forced me to ......"

Yuan Yiyou roughly told Tong Yuqing what he thought, and finally said: "The specific thing, let's talk about it after we meet." Anyway, your top priority now is to tell your father-in-law that I want to leave, okay? ”

Tong Yuqing said again: "I'll ask you again at the end, did you really decide not to marry Uncle Qiu?" You know, this is not a trivial matter, and there is no room for reversal. ”

Yuan Yiyou replied affirmatively, "Yes." Can Miss Tong help me find someone? ”

Tong Yuqing sighed secretly in her heart, "Okay, I'll call my father-in-law at noon today, and I'll give you an answer tomorrow night at the latest, you wait for the news." ”

After Tong Yuqing put down the phone, she went to the Pangu Mountain outpost for another phone call after half an hour, and after hearing Qiu Zeyuan's thoughts on this matter, she put her mind at ease and pleaded with Lu Tiansheng.

Seven days later, Yuan Yiyou said goodbye to Qiu Zeyuan and her daughter, and left the Panyu Mountain where she had been haunted by her dreams, and she sat in the car and looked back at the mountain until she could no longer see the shadow of Panyu Mountain.

A square handkerchief suddenly appeared in front of her, and a familiar voice echoed in her ears, "Miss, don't cry anymore......"

Yuan Yiyou was stopped by this voice and the steady stream of teardrops, "Brother Bingzhi? ”

Yan Bingzhi smiled: "It's me, miss." ”

Yuan Yiyou was surprised and delighted, "It's really you!" I really didn't expect to see you again in my lifetime, why did you come to pick me up? ”

Yan Bingzhi replied: "Naturally, it was arranged by the Overseer and Miss Tong, who were worried about your safety on the road, so they specially ordered me to pick you up and send you wherever you wanted. ”

Yuan Yi said hurriedly: "Brother Bingzhi said cautiously, Zeyuan is no longer an overseer, and you shouldn't call him his old name anymore, this is a curse for you and for him." Also, I am no longer Miss Qiu Jia, I can't afford the honorific title of Miss, you can just call me by my name in the future. ”

Yan Bingzhi laughed, "I also saw that there were only you and me in the car, so I called the old name." ”

Yuan Yiyou said: "No matter what time it is, there is nothing wrong with being careful. ”

Yan Bingzhi glanced at Yuan Yiyou through the rearview mirror and said, "Miss, I haven't seen you for two years, you have really changed a lot." If I hadn't seen your face, I would have thought Miss Tong was talking to me. Rest assured, I will be careful in the future and will not call it again. ”

Yuan Yi smiled and asked, "Then what should you call me?" ”

Yan Bingzhi opened his mouth several times, but he couldn't call her name, so he couldn't help but say, "Miss, I'm really not used to calling you by your name." ”

Yuan Yi smiled like a flower, "It's okay, the road from Panlong Mountain to Yejin is very long, I have enough time to get rid of your problem." If you're wrong once, I'll let you change it once. Follow me now, ......"

"Meaning...... Meaningful......"

Yuan Yiyou nodded with satisfaction, but Yan Bingzhi was uncomfortable, "Miss, I'm still ......"

Yuan Yiyou looked into his eyes through the rearview mirror, "Yiyou......"

Yan Bingzhi had no choice but to compromise and "...... leisurely"

Yuan Yi smiled and said, "That's right, it's much smoother than the first call." I haven't asked you yet, where have you been placed by the Overseers these two years? ”

Yan Bingzhi knew that the Overseer in her mouth was referring to Lu Tiansheng, so he replied, "I am the Overseer...... Oh no, I was Uncle Qiu's henchman, and the Overseers naturally guarded me, and after the city was broken, he transferred me to the Shengwei camp in the western border of Puxi to guard the western border for him. ”

Yuan Yiyou didn't know anything about the situation in Puxi, so Yan Bingzhi told her about the changes in Puxi Prefecture in the past two years, and Yuan Yiyou didn't understand anything about it, but when he heard about the changes in the Bai family, he was very vigilant, and planned to ask her in detail after seeing Tong Yuqing. As the two of them asked and answered, the sunlight projected from the sky gradually slanted westward......

Stepping on the land of her hometown again, Yuan Yi Yu understood the words "things are people" more than ever, she found her mother's safe place, carefully wiped her tombstone, and placed tributes and incense candles for her.

Yan Bingzhi stayed in the car and waited very interestingly, only keeping her in his sight, and looked at the words on the tombstone - Qiu Xin Daiyun's Tomb Qiu Ze stood far away, with a thousand thoughts in his heart, but he didn't know where to start......

She set her eyes on the birth and death year on the side, and when she saw that familiar day, she finally spoke: "I've always wondered, why every year in Fuzhong, there are five brothers who celebrate their birthdays, and they also celebrate the birthdays of Yuqing and Yuhao, but never celebrate my birthday?" My birthdays were almost always celebrated by Yuqing taking me to her home. Now I understand, because my birthday is your death day. Zeyuan can treat me as his own at any time, but on this day, he can't face me, because he will remember that it was my arrival that prompted you to leave. In fact, from the most basic human sense, I should be grateful to you for bringing me into this world, because I am already a mother, and I know how difficult it is to have children. Back then, you were able to overcome all difficulties and give birth to me, giving me the opportunity to experience the flavors of life, giving me the opportunity to know Zeyuan, and having a place in his heart, I thank you. ”

Saying that, he knelt on the ground and kowtowed three times, then got up and continued: "What I want to say next may offend you, but I still have to say it, so I'm sorry to you in advance......"

Yuan Yiyou adjusted his breathing and said in a deep voice: "The reason why I haven't come to see you after learning about my life for so long is because I am jealous of you and hate you. I am jealous of you, there is no substitute for the position in Zeyuan's heart, no matter how many vicissitudes of life, no matter how many women have walked past him, as a man, he will always love only you. Only you can be born on the same day and in the same month and in the same year, and die on the same day and month in the same year. I said that he died because his heart had already been buried in the loess with you, and the remnants left behind were only because he was the only heir of the Qiu family, and he still had unfulfilled responsibilities. I hate you, you love so selfishly, for your own happiness, you directly or indirectly ruined the happiness of so many people. You eloped with Yuanye, Ze Yuan's life is better than death, and your grandfather and grandmother were blamed for your actions, so you could only move your family away from Pudong. Others call me a wild seed, and I can't refute it. Although your aunt's succession is not all for you, you also have an unshirkable responsibility during this period. My aunt has been widowed all her life, and Uncle Tong can only grit his teeth and swallow it in his stomach. Tong Baiyi was able to use me to set up a situation and kill Uncle Tong and Aunt Tong because of your status in Zeyuan's heart. Yes, even if there is no you, Tong Baiyi will think of other ways to design Zeyuan and Uncle Tong, but there is no if in this world. It was because of your existence that Yuqing and Yuhao became orphans overnight, and Yuqing would abandon the love she loved in her heart and marry someone she didn't love for the sake of family feuds. All of this has traces to follow, there is a source to trace, these people who have been hurt because of you are my dearest and dearest, I really can't help but hate you. ”

Yuan Yi wiped away the tears on his face and sighed: "No one should have said these words to you, but I, the person who is least qualified to blame you, blames you." Don't blame me, I just want to settle all the things that should be done before I leave. From now on, I will never say these words again, every year Qingming, I will come to see you, for you to put a stick of incense, to comfort you under the lonely spring. ”

Originally, Yiyou wanted to replace Xin Daiyun's tombstone, but after thinking about it carefully, she dispelled this idea, turned around and left, just took two steps and remembered one thing, turned around and said goodbye to Xin Daiyun: "Mother, I'm leaving, you take care over there." ”

Yan Bingzhi wanted to drive her to the burial place in the wilderness, but she politely refused, "Brother Bingzhi, Zeyuan said that he was buried not far from his mother, I can just walk, you can wait for me here." ”

Yan Bingzhi said: "I'll drive with you, don't worry, I'll wait in the car and don't bother you." ”

"No matter how much Uncle Tong hates you, he gave you a place to bury, and he also used soil to raise this place high, so as not to let passing vehicles and pedestrians run over or trample on you, this is upbringing." I don't know where you came from, but I know that you came back from a study tour and put into practice the theories and ideas of the outside. I've also been fortunate enough to come across some ideas about freedom, and I'm going to talk to you about them today. Montesquieu said in On the Spirit of Law that in a society with laws, freedom is simply the ability of a person to do what he ought to do, without being forced to do what he ought not to do. Political freedom is not about doing whatever you want. The Declaration of the Rights of Man, the programmatic document of the French Revolution, states freedom as the right to do anything harmless to others. ”