I said to Ah Yue, "It doesn't matter, no one can stop us."

After getting out of the taxi, we went back to my grandmother's house at the National Conservatory. My grandmother was alone at home, and before I entered the house, I heard the sound of my grandmother's guqin. When my grandmother was alone at home, she would play the guqin. My grandmother played the ancient song "Guangling San", a song that made people sad and broke their souls. I don't know if this song is my grandmother's nostalgia for the past or my grandfather's nostalgia? But how can my grandmother miss a broken love? I guessed my grandmother's thoughts, a grandmother who was categorically abandoned by my grandfather in her sixties, did she hate or love my grandfather? My grandmother loved my grandfather all her life, but my grandfather, who abandoned her, only gave her a ticket to leave the United States. Moreover, due to my grandfather's sensitive status in the United States, my grandmother was monitored by CIA agents in the United States, and she almost couldn't go back to her home country. A grandmother who was abandoned by a man who vowed to love her for the rest of her life was not only abandoned by love, but also lost the trust of that country, and the United States even thought that my grandmother's return to China was a conspiracy, so when my grandmother left the United States, she had nothing but a cheongsam and a plane ticket. My grandmother turned out to be a student at the Faculty of Liberal Arts and Law at Yenching Women's University. If she were a science and engineering student, she would not have been allowed to leave the United States, and if she was a science and engineering student, then the CIA would have thought that her grandmother must have her grandfather's nuclear physics formula in her head. Grandma never dreamed that her life would fail to such an extent. Therefore, the song "Guangling San" played by my grandmother tells her life, and whenever I hear this song, I feel a kind of heartbroken sadness.

When I got into the house, I said to my grandmother, "Grandma, I'm back." and introduced Ah Yue to my grandmother, saying, Grandma, this is my lover Ah Yue. ”

Grandma was shocked and said, "Lover?" Grandma couldn't understand what Ah Yue was wearing. "This girl is from that country. ”

Ah Yue bowed down and said respectfully in English, "Hello, grandmother."

I said to my grandmother, "Her name is Ah Yue, and she is from Yunnan. But she grew up in a Southeast Asian country and doesn't speak Chinese. Her family is a Chinese businessman in Southeast Asia, and she studied in England and France, but she doesn't know a single Chinese character. ”

Grandma took Ah Yue's hand and said, "Come on, child, don't stand, sit down and say, sit down and say."

Ah Yue took out a jade bracelet from her bag and said to her grandmother: "Grandma, Grandma is too far away from Beijing, originally I wanted to bring some fruit to my grandmother, but then I thought that fruits must be available in Beijing, so I decided to bring bracelets to the people in the family." This bracelet is my family's old mine in northern Myanmar, and I specially asked someone to bring it from Myanmar. Grandma try? Ah Yue couldn't help but take her grandmother's hand and put the bracelet on her wrist.

Grandma said, "Child, no, no, you can't, you can try."

Ah Yue said: "Grandma's cheongsam is to be paired with a bracelet. Grandma has a noble temperament and is beautiful, and she wants to wear the best bracelet in northern Myanmar. ”

Grandma said, "Child, your mouth is sweeter than honey, but Grandma is really happy to hear it, but Grandma can't ask for such a valuable gift."

Ah Yue said: "Grandma, gold is priceless and jade is priceless, this bracelet is indeed very expensive, if it is in a jewelry store in Yangon, there is no price, only a price will be marked negotiable." But for grandma, it was a good-looking stone that Ah Yue gave to grandma. ”

My grandmother wanted to take off the bracelet, but she couldn't take it off, and my grandmother said, "Why can't I take it off?"

Ah Yue said: "There is a saying that when jade meets a destined person, grandma can't take it down, which means that this piece of jade is with grandma."

Grandma said: "Child, grandma still thinks it's inappropriate, let you spend money like this when you meet for the first time, grandma understands it." Grandma still has to take off the bracelet on her wrist.

Ah Yue said: "If grandma rejects Ah Yue's wishes, then she will drive Ah Yue away." Ah Yue had no choice but to leave. With that, he stood up.

Grandma pulled Ah Yue and said, "Sit down, sit down, grandma thank you for the gift." When he comes back from Yunnan, Zijin is going crazy, if you really leave, he will fight with his grandmother. ”

Ah Yue took her grandmother's hand and said coquettishly: "Grandma, if I like him, I like grandma." I'm here because I'm afraid he's going crazy. Because, grandma, Ah Yue will go crazy if Ah Yue doesn't come. ”

I sat next to them and couldn't interject from them, as if I was the guest.

Grandma said to Ah Yue: "But, what about the child? Zijin wants to give up studying abroad, and he doesn't want to work in the National Oriental Chinese Orchestra. No, write me a note today, saying, 'Grandma, I went to Yunnan', if it weren't for you, Grandma would be worried about how to explain to his parents. ”

Ah Yue said to her grandmother: "Grandma don't worry, I won't snatch him away, I can't ruin his life because I love him, he has his own way to go, I came this time because I was afraid that he would run to Yunnan desperately, so I came to stop him."

Grandma took Ah Yue's hand and stroked it and said, "Ah Yue, how can there be such a sensible child as you?"

Ah Yue said: "Grandma, Ah Yue is not sensible, Ah Yue really can't do without him, but I can't let him go to Yunnan without caring about anything." Grandma, I won't let him give up what he is pursuing, but I will find a way to be with him. ”

Grandma said to Ah Yue: "If you think like this, grandma will be relieved." Grandma will work with you to figure it out.

I said to my grandmother and Ah Yue, "You all treat me as air." If you want something to drink, I'll go get it with you."

Grandma said: "I think so, find time for me to gather the people in the family to meet Ah Yue, now, grandma is going to your aunt's house is a little trivial, and I will stay at your aunt's house tonight." Grandma left the world of the two to you. How's that, Ah Yue? ”

Ah Yue instantly became shy, and said coquettishly: "Grandma is the best grandmother."

Before my grandmother went out, she told me: "Ah Yue is so far away, you are not allowed to bully Ah Yue, ah?"

I said to my grandmother, "Grandma, don't worry, she is the only one who bullies me."

Ah Yue pinched my back and said to my grandmother with a smile: "Grandma don't worry, he will only be Ah Yue's patron saint."

My grandmother said as she went out, "Then I'm relieved."

Ah Yue said to her grandmother's back: "Grandma pay attention to safety, goodbye grandma."

Closing the door, I said to Ah Yue, "You can't just tap it, I almost screamed."

Ah Yue said: "I always feel a little unreal, it's when you scream that I feel that you are real in front of me." Hurry up and hug me. ”

I said to Ah Yue, "I think you're a little perverted."

Ah Yue said: "As long as you are in front of you, the pervert will be perverted."

I said to Ah Yue, "Let me take a good look at you."

Ah Yue said to me, "No, I want to take a good look at you too."

It was only two months since we left Zosa, but for us, it seemed like a long, long time. It's as long as the distance between past and present lives. We're all afraid of tomorrow, we're afraid that tomorrow we'll not be together. If it's just like Ah Yue said to her grandmother, then Ah Yue doesn't want me to go to Huisa. If I hadn't come to Wassa, then our encounter would not have been a long-term encounter, but only a brief reunion. If this is only a brief gathering, then none of us know tomorrow, let alone the future.

Ah Yue said to me: "It seems that you don't want to miss the appointment, knowing that you are going to go to Huisa, Ah Yue's heart is so warm, Ah Yue didn't see the wrong person." You are trustworthy and dependable. ”

I said to Ah Yue, "Why did you change your mind?" I just want us to be together. ”

Ah Yue said: "It's not that Ah Yue changed his mind, you are not the kind of person who has no ambitions, in addition to loving me, you also have your family's expectations for you, I don't want you to face all the problems alone and have difficulty in making a choice." That's why I choose to stop you, as long as you know that I love you. ”

I said to Ah Yue, "Ah Yue, you are so good."

Ah Yue said to me, "So I'm thinking, do I want to meet your parents?"

I said to Ah Yue, "Of course I want to see you."

I said to Ah Yue: "Beijing is a 600-year-old ancient capital, with four distinct seasons, green grass in spring and falling leaves in autumn.

Ah Yue said to me, "What does it matter? Beijing, as long as there is my lover, it's fine. That's what Beijing is all about in my heart. ”

Ah Yue slept on my right, I lay on Ah Yue's left, I remembered that we were lying in the woods of Zosa, and I remembered the night of the mountains in Eusa. If the time of the years can be paused, I really wish that there is some time that can be paused, such as this moment can be eternal. Time never stops, and every moment makes us constantly face choices, which is the real cruelty of time.

On the morning in Beijing, I took Ah Yue through the streets of Beijing, and my grandmother said that she would make two cheongsams for Ah Yue, saying that Ah Yue was the body of a model.

I think Ah Yue, who is dressed in a cheongsam and 7cm high heels, must be amazing when she walks through the streets of Beijing.

Ah Yue is still wearing her indigo shorts and shorts unique to Yiche women, exposing her long legs and walking with me, the silver on her chest rings like wind chimes, her straight long legs step on 7cm high heels, the morning sun of Beijing shines on us, A Yue's long hair flutters in the morning breeze of Beijing, at this moment we are surrounded by friendly people from all over the world.

Someone asked Ah Yue to say to me, "I'm an Associated Press reporter, what kind of clothing designer is this costume of yours from, are you Chinese?" ”

Ah Yue replied: "I am Chinese, a Chinese Yunnan Yiche person, and the clothes on my body are what our Yiche people have worn for generations, why, is it not as good as you Americans?"

The Associated Press reporter replied: "NO, NO, you don't understand what I mean, your fashion is the best fashion I have ever seen in the world, you are perfect."

A brown-haired foreign girl said to Ah Yue: "Miss, miss, I'm a British BBC reporter, can I take some pictures for you?" Chinese, perfect, Chinese girl, perfect. ”

In the spring of 1983, the streets of Beijing, A Yue's beauty was forever frozen in the morning light of Beijing at this time. Foreign fashion magazines used "China's most perfect girl" as the cover of A Yue. No one knew that this girl was my lover.

In the ward of my father Huang Weiguo in the Zero Military Region Hospital, my mother and my grandmother, as well as Ah Yue and I accompanied my father for a whole afternoon, my father Huang Weiguo was still like that, looking at us like a few strangers, as if he had nothing to do with this world, he was immersed in his own world. I don't know what's going on, and my mother certainly won't explain what's going on. My mother looked at Ah Yue in amazement, she wanted to say something but didn't say it, and her whole attention was on my father for the time being. But I could see that my mother had a lot to ask me, and the night was dark, and when it got dark, my mother proposed to go out to dinner, and Ah Yue said: Go ahead, I will accompany Abba.

Mother said: That's fine, we'll come back in a while and bring some delicious food back to Ah Yue. I saw my mother's questioning expression, and I deliberately wanted to avoid Ah Yue's interrogation of me.

Ah Yue accompanied my father Huang Weiguo alone, Ah Yue was very bored, and hummed the old song of Yiche people in a low voice, which is the song "Wake Up":

The lyrics mean:

The spring breeze awakens all things

Love awakens death

Faith awakens conscience

You wake me up

In Ah Yue's singing, my father Huang Weiguo's eyes suddenly lit up, as if it was suddenly activated, my father Huang Weiguo stood up on the bed where he was lying, took Ah Yue's hand and asked: Who are you?

Ah Yue said: I am Ah Yue.

My father, Huang Weiguo, asked again, "What did you just sing?"

Ah Yue said: It is an ancient song of our Yiche people, called "Awakening".