In the spring of 1983, when I returned to the hospital with my mother and my grandmother, my father's ward was empty.

The doctor on duty replied: I don't know, are there any patients in this ward?

This answer kills people as if the ward and the patient never existed. But in the Zero Military District Hospital, there is nothing surprising about this. Ever since the murder of my father, Huang Weiguo, and the unsuccessful murder of my father, my father's security has been taken over by the members of the Operations Bureau of the Second Bureau of the General Staff. So it's normal for the doctor on duty not to know about my father's existence. But my gut told my mother that something must have happened.

My mother called Tang Weidong and couldn't get through. My mother called Zhao Hanbing again, but she still couldn't get through. My professional habit told my mother that there was no other way but to wait. When it's time to let us know, someone will come to us. My mother said to me and my grandmother, "Let's just wait patiently, and naturally people will come to us." My mother watched me and my grandmother try to maintain a calm mind, and I could see the anxiety hidden behind my mother's calm face.

My grandmother complained, "I can't stand this kind of mystery."

My mother looked at my grandmother and said comfortingly, "Mom, don't worry, nothing will happen."

My grandmother said: will there be no problem? Is this called going to be fine? People don't know where they go, and they say that nothing will happen, and they really lie to themselves. I don't care about Huang Weiguo's affairs, and I can't control it. But what about Ah Yue? Ah Yue has nothing to do with you at all, and it's gone, what is this?

My mother said to my grandmother, "Mom, don't make a mess, okay, I'm worried about it."

I'm really worried about Ah Yue, what happens to people like my father is not my worry. But how could it involve Ah Yue? But looking at my mother's lost soul, I can't say anything more. As my mother said, there seemed to be no better way than to wait.

The doctor on duty said to my mother, "You better go home first."

My mother said to the doctor on duty: No, let's wait.

I could tell my mother was judging what was going on. Could it be that something more serious happened to my father? But what about Ah Yue? What does all this have to do with this girl? Why is this girl gone? My mother's mind came up with one conjecture after another, and then one after another.

In this way, we waited for news in calm anxiety.

I said to my grandmother, "Grandma, why don't I send you back first?"

Grandma stubbornly said: How can it be done? I can't see Ah Yue, I won't go back.

It was in this kind of waiting that the day dawned.

At this time, a soldier came up to us, stood up and saluted, and said, "Is it Director Huang's family?"

My mother said to the soldiers: Yes, yes, yes, we are.

The soldier said, "The chief has sent me to fetch you."

My mother said anxiously: Is it not good to defend the country?

The soldier's face did not have any expression at all and said: I don't know, I just carried out the order.

My mother said to the soldiers: "So where are we going?"

There was still no expression on the soldier's face, and he said, "You come with me."

We followed the servicemen and did not leave the hospital, but came to the intensive care unit of the Zero Military Region Hospital. Standing at the door of the intensive care unit, my mother stopped, I saw the desperate expression on my mother's face, my mother must have guessed that my father was not working, the phone calls of the two chiefs could not get through, and now they came to the intensive care unit as soon as they came, so what good results would there be? Looking at my mother's desperate expression, my heart hurts, I know what my mother is worried about, and my heart is the same as my mother, but my strong grandmother cries silently.

But when the soldier who was walking in front pushed the door open, we were all stupid. We saw that my father, Huang Weiguo, was like any healthy person, but it was Ah Yue who was lying on the hospital bed.

My father, Huang Weiguo, said to us: This is a child from there, why don't you know anything? When you went out, I saw her singing, and suddenly she fell to the ground, and she didn't know anything.

I said to my father, Huang Weiguo: Dad, weren't you still lying on the hospital bed just now?

My father, Huang Weiguo, said to me: I am not sick, I just miss you, and now that you are back, my illness will naturally be gone.

My mother and my grandmother looked at each other, you look at me, I look at you, look at each other in confusion, look at my father, and at the same time say to my father: Peace is bliss, it's okay.

I looked at my father suspiciously and said, "Dad, how could this happen?"

My father, Huang Weiguo, said to me: "The doctor just said that they did a test with this child, as if to say that the child seems to have something wrong with his head, as if he doesn't know anything.

Ah Yue looked at me with clear eyes, as if we had never known each other. I remember that the doctor once said to me when I was in Tsusa, "Maybe one day she won't know you." "Could it be that this day came so soon?

My Ah Yue said: Do you know me?

Ah Yue said to me: Who are you? Have we met?

I said to Ah Yue: I am Zijin, Huang Zijin.

Ah Yue said to me: I don't know you.

I said to Ah Yue: Do you know who you are?

Ah Yue said to me: Do you know who you are?

I said to Ah Yue: You are Ah Yue.

Ah Yue said to me: Who is Ah Yue?

When I was in Huisa, the doctor told me that Ah Yue might not know me slowly, that he didn't know me slowly, and he was fine just now, why did he suddenly look like this? I said to Ah Yue: It doesn't matter if you don't know me, as long as I know you.

Ah Yue repeated my words: It doesn't matter if you don't know me, as long as I know you.

I said to Ah Yue: Do you know me?

Ah Yue still repeated my words: Do you know me?

I didn't expect Yue's illness to recur so quickly. I said to my parents, as well as to my grandmother, "Go home, I'll stay with her here, and tomorrow I'll ask the doctor for a comprehensive examination and see what the doctor says."

Tang Weidong, who was standing next to him, said: I came to see Wei Guo, since Wei Guo's condition has recovered, I have nothing to worry about, your family is reunited, I still have something to do, go first.

Zhao Hanbing, who was standing next to Tang Weidong, also said: Since Weiguo's body has recovered, I am relieved, and I have to go first. Zhao Hanbing walked to the door, stopped, turned around and said: Why doesn't this girl know anything? Wei Guo, I also informed the hospital and asked the best doctor to do a comprehensive examination for her.

After Tang Weiguo and Zhao Hanbing left, Ah Yue suddenly cried and said: I want to go home.

Grandma also cried with Ah Yue, hugged Ah Yue and said: Child, why did you become like this? Wasn't it okay yesterday? How is this all there?

Ah Yue pushed her grandmother away and said, "Who are you?" I don't know you.

Grandma said, "I'm grandma." Grandma showed the bracelet on her wrist and said to Ah Yue: Child, I am your grandmother, look, this is still the bracelet you gave to your grandmother, why don't you remember?

Ah Yue resolutely pushed away her grandmother and said: I don't know you, I don't have a grandmother, I want to go home.

I was mentally prepared for Ah Yue's appearance, but I still didn't expect it to come so quickly and so suddenly.

Ah Yue can not know anyone, but he can't not know me. I looked at Ah Yue and said: Ah Yue, I'm Zijin, why don't you even know me?

Ah Yue looked at me and said, "What kind of Zijin are you?" I don't know you.

I looked at Ah Yue's eyes full of love and tenderness, but she said she didn't know me.

Ah Yue took my hand, held it in her palm, and said to me: I know you, you are my brother------ Ah Suo, brother, you take me home, let's get out of here."

My father, mother and grandmother left the ward, and Ah Yue and I were left in the ward, it was a desperate and dark night, Ah Yue did not let go of my hand, as if she was afraid to let go of my hand and never see me again, I looked at her with tears in her eyes.

The next day, the result of the hospital examination was a deep brain injury, and the doctor said: With a condition like this, the loss of memory is already the best outcome, and being alive is already the best accident.

Ah Yue still didn't let go of my hand, took my hand and said: Brother, take me home, let's get out of here.

My father, Huang Weiguo, said to me: Zijin, it seems that this is the only way, inform his family.

I said to my father Huang Weiguo: No, I have to accompany Ah Yue, I can't leave her.

My grandmother said to me: Zijin, my grandmother supports you and has no regrets about falling in love.

My mother said to my grandmother, "Mom, you are ruining your grandson."

My grandmother said to my mother, "How can it be destroyed?" What could be more important than love?

My mother said to my grandmother, "Mom, I'm not going to break them up, do you think it's appropriate for me to do this now?" Ah Yue doesn't remember anything, how did they live for the rest of their lives?

Grandma stubbornly said: I don't care how long they live, no matter how they live, as long as they love each other.

My mother said to my grandmother, "Mom, why are you still so naïve?"

While we were arguing, Ah Yue sat aside, as if the matter we were arguing about had nothing to do with her. While we were arguing, Aso appeared in front of me, and I said, "Who informed Aso?" How did Ah Suo know about Ah Yue?

My father, Huang Weiguo, said: I informed you, and we have to face reality.

Ah Suo said to me: Big brother, I am here to take Ah Yue back.

Ah Suo said to Ah Yue: Sister, my brother will take you home.

Ah Yue said to Ah Suo: Who are you? Whose brother are you? I don't know you?

Ah Suo said to Ah Yue: I am your brother.

Ah Yue took my hand and said to Ah Suo: You are not my brother, this person is my brother.

Aso cried and said, "How can this be?" How did it come to be.

For me, all the sadness ends with Ah Yue's departure, and also begins when Ah Yue leaves.

Ah Yue was finally taken away by Ah Suo.

In this way, Ah Yue disappeared in my world, disappeared forever, as if we had never known each other, as if there had never been any Ah Yue in my world. But how is that possible? Ah Yue's warmth is clearly still in my hands, still in my heart, in my long life, I once tried to completely forget Ah Yue, but I didn't do it, because she has become blood flowing in my body.

I didn't know that my father cheated on me, when I watched Asuo take Ayue on the train, I left the Beijing West Railway Station, my father and the people from the Central Investigation Department took Asso and Ayue together in the Beijing jeep and flew away from the train station.

That night, Ah Yue said to my father, "Abba, can I call you that?"

My father said: Of course, son, I'm sorry for you.

Ah Yue said to my father: Can you take me to a place where there is no one?

My father said, "Of course, but I have to ask for instructions, the Central Investigation Department has a security team for you, and you have to go wherever you go with the approval of the chief."

That night, under the heavy protection of the security team, my father took Ah Yue to the cemetery in Xiangshan. My father, Huang Weiguo, said to Ah Yue: Child, cry if you want to cry.

Ah Yue cried loudly, and shouted bitterly at the empty cemetery: Huang Zijin, Zijin, I love you, forever.