Since I made up my mind three months ago, I have developed the habit of keeping a diary, and at first I forced myself to write, that is, to record the hard work of the day, and to review whether I was lazy in the day. Over time, it has persevered.

I remembered the conversation between Yang Tian and me at noon on the day of the assessment, I remembered my hard work in the past three months, and the ideals and beliefs in my heart were so easily shaken by the company commander's behavior, fortunately, it was Wang Ruoshi who woke me up.

"I will walk my own way, and I will act my own show!" I wrote in my diary.

Suddenly, I remembered a verse from a foreign poem I saw two days ago, "The Road Not Taken", and I wrote the verse in my diary:

Two paths are divided into the yellow woods,

It's a pity that I can't get involved at the same time,

I stood at that intersection for a long time,

I looked out toward a road,

Until it disappears into the depths of the jungle.

But I chose a different path,

It's barren and very lonely,

appear more seductive and beautiful,

Although on these two paths,

There are very few footprints left by travelers.

That morning the leaves fell all over the ground,

Both roads are unpolluted by footprints.

Oh, leave a path and see you another day!

But I know that the path is endless,

I'm afraid it will be difficult for me to return.

Maybe somewhere in many years,

I will look back on the past with a soft sigh,

Two paths split out in a wood,

And I chose the one with fewer people,

From then on, the path of my life was determined.

After reading it softly twice, I reaffirmed my faith, and at the end of the diary I wrote eight words: Keep going!

The next day, I lit a fire with the newly bought thick black school, and of course I also took a photo and sent it to Wang Ruoshi, I wanted to tell her, I figured it out. Then, I started training again, although the year-end assessment is over, although winter is coming, but the hard work can never stop.

On the weekend, I took leave to go out, and found Wang Ruoshi in a hurry, I sincerely apologized to her, and thanked her, I said: "Ruoshi, you are the noble person of my life, if it weren't for you, I would be lost and fall into the abyss." Fortunately, you pulled me back. ”

Although Wang Ruoshi was very angry on the day I scolded me, after I sincerely apologized to her, our relationship returned to normal, and even closer. She said something to me that day, and it had a huge impact on me in the future. After our relationship returned to normal, she said to me in a serious tone: "Although I don't know much about what the development of the army is like? However, judging from what I have learned, if we want to develop better in the army, training alone will certainly not be enough. I think you should read more books, learn more theories, improve your ideological quality, and be a thoughtful person. Anyway, I think that in this society, those who stand above are all thinking people, and those who are capable are commanded by thinking people. ”

From Wang Ruoshi's words, I came up with a truth: This society is divided into four categories of people, the fourth category is people who are incapable and thoughtless, the third category is people who are capable and thoughtless, the second type is people who are incapable and thoughtless, and the first type is people who are capable and thoughtful. In a nutshell, it is better to have a mind than to have ability.

So, from that day on, I made a plan for myself to study and read, and I would read for at least two hours a day.

I thought it would be a dull winter, and in the midst of it, I would read lots and lots of books. But life is often not peaceful.

The first is the notification of assessment results.

A week after the end of the assessment, the results were announced. With the efforts of the whole company, the focus is on the organization of the company commander, and as expected, our company has won the first place in the whole regiment, and continues to write the glory of our training pacesetter company.

Due to the impact of my injury, my grades in several subjects were not very satisfactory, and I finally ranked 7th among the 33 platoon commanders in the regiment. Although the results were not too outstanding, I was still praised by the regiment leader, mainly because I went into battle with an injury and a bleeding head, and I still insisted on running the 400-meter hurdle. When the regiment commander praised me, a photo of that time was even shown on the big screen, with blood on my face and hands soaked in blood, gritting my teeth and clutching the horizontal bar of the ladder. Looking at myself in the photo, I was touched by myself.

Because of my perseverance, I ended up winning the same award as the top three.

This is just to be expected, although it was a little unexpected to be praised, but it is still within the acceptable range. What happened next was enough to surprise people, or at least I was stunned.

After two months of peaceful life, the first major event that happened surprised me and surprised me. It was already winter, the snow was already covered, and people were already wearing thick down jackets, and we were also wearing cotton clothes, cotton pants, and cotton coats. In the past two months, I have not only worked harder in training, but I have also used all the time I can to study. Even when I have weekends off, I stop playing games and watching movies, I just read books. Going into winter, work is less busy and training is less so. I also have more time to read books, and I have really read a lot in the past two months, reading seven books, which are basically masterpieces, "Home", "Spring", "Autumn", "Ordinary World", "White Deer Plain" and so on. It's so much fun to read. At that time, I even had the idea that I would read all the books in the company library.

In the army, there is a tradition in winter, called "cat winter", which I understand to mean that the cat will get up in winter. It's a reality, and it does have to cats up. Because our winter is so cold, it was here that I first cried when I was a child. It was December when I had just graduated and came to the company to experience winter for the first time, and the temperature here reached minus twenty or thirty degrees Celsius when it was not too cold in other places. In such weather, our training can be adjusted appropriately, but the border duty cannot be adjusted. We are border guards, this is our duty, we must be on duty every day, we must check the situation at the border, and prevent any enemy from invading. The time on duty must not be all daytime, naturally it is rotated during the day and night. It's okay to be on duty during the day, at least you can feel the warmth of the sun, but at night it's hard to endure. One night I was at work, just in time for the cold day, so cold that as soon as we went out, we were freezing through and feeling like I had nothing to wear. Even so, we can only move on. It was impossible to go back and add clothes, because I had already put on all the clothes I could wear, I was wearing a set of autumn clothes and pants, a set of sweater and pants, a set of cotton pants, and a cotton coat on the outside, and even then I still felt very cold. Along the patrol road, we walked to the duty site for observation. We're going to be here for two hours, as requested. The sky was really cold, as time passed minute by minute, several of us were frozen, holding the group did not work, stomping back and forth did not work, at that time I had a kind of heart that wanted to die, from the heart felt cold, cold heart hurt. At that time, tears flowed unconsciously, and I began to regret why I came to be a soldier, why did I come to suffer this crime, you said that in such a cold day, besides us, who else would be stupid to freeze outside, and if you are blessed or not, you want to come to the army to suffer. It was almost crazy. After holding out for more than an hour, we really couldn't hold on any longer, and an old squad leader on duty said, let's walk back and forth, because we will definitely not be able to stand it just by staying in this one place, and it will be hot to walk. So, we walked back and forth, back and forth, until we got back to the company, and I didn't feel any heat. The next day, I had a high fever of 39 degrees.

What I mean by this is that there are really not many things to do in the winter of the army, the main one is snow clearing. We have a lot of snow here, every three or five days, and the snow is still thick, usually up to the feet and necks, and sometimes to the knees. The company's camp is still large, and under normal circumstances, the next snow will be cleared for at least two or three days, which is exactly the same as the frequency of snowfall.

Just as we were clearing the snow as usual, a meeting of cadres was held in the regiment. At the meeting, an order was announced for the reshuffling of cadres at the end of the year.

It was supposed to be a normal routine, but there were a lot of surprises.

The first surprise was mentioned by our instructor, and after our company commander, our instructor also mentioned it. Since coming to the company, although we have been very strict in managing and demanding very high standards, we have also gotten along with the instructors very well, often shouting "Brother Chen" and "Brother Chen." When the instructor mentioned it, our company commander also set up a table to see off the instructor in a grand and lively manner. From the promotion of veteran company commanders to the promotion of instructors, I have pondered and summed up a principle: There are only two kinds of people who can be successfully promoted in the army, one is a person with strong ability and quality, and the other is a person with a relationship. Therefore, I think that since I have nothing to do with it, if I want to be promoted, I can only improve my ability and quality as much as possible.

To be honest, the first accident was not an accident, because our instructor had been in the company for almost four years, and we originally thought that he would mention it first, but it was preempted by the later company commander. Just when everyone thought that the instructor would complain, our instructor remained the same, without any complaints and complaints, and did whatever work should be done, and the standard of completing the work was not lowered in any way. Although the company commander has been adjusted, the role of the commander in stabilizing the morale of the army has become more prominent, and this has also enabled our company to develop and advance smoothly without major ups and downs. At the end of the year, the instructor finally brought it up. That's what we expected.

The second accident was too unexpected, and the second accident was mentioned by both Yang Tian and I, I became the deputy company commander of our company, and Yang Tian became the deputy instructor of the fourth company of the first battalion, and Yu Xueren, the deputy instructor of the fourth company of the first battalion, became our instructor.

I was completely shocked by this series of orders. There are too many situations that I didn't expect, I didn't expect me to mention it, I didn't expect Yang Tian to mention it, I didn't expect Yu Xueren to come as an instructor. I still don't know the specific reason for this, and of course, I don't want to know about it, so I didn't even bother to inquire about it. Everyone has their own way, everyone has their own way, and everyone has their own way. I have no interest in knowing other people's methods, I just know that I should continue to work hard.