After lunch, as usual, it was a cigarette after dinner, and Yang Tian and I were still smoking cigarettes in the old place and letting ourselves fly.

Glancing at my bandaged left hand, Yang Tian asked puzzledly, "Why are you doing this?" What's the point of sinning yourself? Who cares about you? ”

After a long puff of cigarette, I smiled and said, "I think it's enough to be meaningful, why care about others?" ”

"You are really a model for my generation, there are 18 platoon commanders who came together this year, two of them have been transferred away in the first two years, and there are four or five who are ready to report for a job at the end of the year, and most of the others are waiting, only you are so desperate, I really don't understand what you think? Haven't seen the reality yet? From Yang Tian's tone, I heard a trace of ridicule, maybe a trace of envy, I don't have the heart to discuss these boring questions with Yang Tian, the road is all walked by myself, I go my own way, why care if other people's roads are smooth.

"I'll work for another two years, I really can't go again, I'm a little unwilling to leave now, we come to the barracks with ambitions, it's like going to a show, we're not the audience, we're actors, we can't just look twice, feel that the show on the stage is not what we want, we give up, and we don't even have our own show. If the show on stage is not what we want, then let us do what we want, isn't that okay? I said what was on my mind.

"You want to play it yourself, is it possible? Will the director allow it? Will the screenwriter allow it? Have you prepared your props? How many hinder you from thinking about it? After a long time, you can only follow the requirements of the director and screenwriter to play what they ask you to play, and the leaders on the rostrum like to watch. Yang Tian asked me mockingly, and it was indeed in my heart.

But I still firmly said: "Maybe, but I want to try again, although now I am only an insignificant little actor, but when my ability level is enough, I also want to try if I can write, direct and act in a play I want to play." ”

"I hope you can succeed in saving the whole army from countless meetings, countless activities, countless materials, countless inspections, countless investigations, and countless registrations."

"Huh." I really don't want to say more, Yang Tian's tone is more direct to show his sarcasm and ridicule, since this is the case, the Tao is not the same, why bother to say more. I am confident that I am not a savior, that there will be people who will solve all kinds of problems in the army, that I am just a small platoon commander who has been in the barracks for two years, and that I just want to work hard to achieve my life goals and embody my own life values, and the heavy task of saving the officers and men of the whole army has not yet fallen on my shoulders for the time being.

In the afternoon, it is a physical fitness assessment, or five contents, armed with six kilometers, 400 meters of obstacles, sit-ups, horizontal bar pull-ups, and combination exercises. You can use your hands on 400-meter hurdles and pull-ups. I analyzed it, and it seems that I can only continue to fight.

After moving the body, the first step was to start the assessment of combined exercises and sit-ups, which were carried out by the whole company in two groups at the same time. The combination exercises mainly include two-headed ups, push-ups, frog jumps, switchback runs, snake runs, sprint runs and other movements, the intensity is not too big, and the main test is flexibility and coordination. This is a pediatric for the majority of officers and men, and only a few officers and men who are really bulky in their legs and feet and have poor coordination have poor grades. My grade was 100 points, which was expected. And sit-ups, I did ninety in two minutes, and the score was still 100. The two simple lessons are completed, and the rest is the difficulty. Pull-ups, in particular, simply can't be done with one hand. Although my heart is full of worries, I still move forward fearlessly, how many times can I fight in life, and when I don't fight at this time.

I stood under the horizontal bar, prepared a little, and jumped up on my knees, holding the bar with both hands. "Hmm!" I snorted, and the palm of my left hand on the horizontal bar felt a tearing pain, and my body almost fell off in pain, but fortunately, I finally held on with my right hand to keep my body.

How can this be pulled? It hurt a lot more than expected, and I didn't dare to use it at all. Hanging on the horizontal bar, my mind is in a hurry, since I have reached this step, let's fight, it hurts. Thinking of this, I no longer hesitated, "Ah! "I yelled, with both hands, pulled one up, and then continued like this, shouting and pulling one, pulling one and shouting.

By the eighth time, I felt a pain in my hand like a knife cut, the wound that was supposed to be stitched was opened, and the blood slowly oozed out of the gauze and left down my arm. Glancing at the blood on my left arm, I ignored it and continued to pull upward.

At this time, the fighters waiting in the back all saw my blood-stained arms, but they did not dare to disturb their platoon commander, they looked at the company commander from time to time, and they hoped that the company commander would stop the platoon commander and let their platoon commander rest and rest, and stop pulling.

But no one can stop me, only I can stop me, when I pulled to the sixteenth, I finally fell off because I couldn't hold the bar, but fortunately, Chen Li, who was protecting me next to me, held me so that I wouldn't fall to the ground.

"Platoon commander! You are our role model! Hold me up, Chen Li said firmly.

I smiled at him and walked back to the line. I asked Liu Haitao to quickly deal with the wound, and there will be other assessments later.

Looking at my already tattered palm, Liu Haitao didn't know how to start, he asked, "Can I still take the test?" ”

"It's all in the end, I definitely have to take the test!" I said, but my voice revealed weakness and exhaustion, but it could not hide the same determination in my heart.

Every soldier who was preparing for the assessment looked back at me who was still dealing with the wound, and they all had the same thought in their hearts, the platoon commander's hand was injured like that and he could still hold on, why couldn't we persist anymore. Under my influence, the officers and men of the whole company were able to pull at least two more horizontal bars than usual, and some even broke through their own limits and pulled five or six more. Although my results were a little lower than usual, the results of the whole company improved a lot.

"Do you have any anesthetics or painkillers?" Sprinkle some on me, and I'll be done soon, and I'll fight again. "Watching Liu Haitao tending to the wound, I asked.

"There is no anesthetic, and our company does not have it, and this kind of medicine is not allowed to be used in the company. I'll sprinkle you with some painkillers, which have the same effect as anesthetics, which can reduce the sensitivity of the pain nerves so that you don't feel so much pain. As he spoke, Liu Haitao took out a bottle of white pills from the first-aid kit, poured out two pieces, crushed them and sprinkled them on the wound on my left hand. Now the skin around my wound is rotten, and there is no way to suture it again, and Liu Haitao pondered for a long time, but he couldn't find a place where he could get a needle. Finally, only a cotton pad for hemostasis can be applied and wrapped in gauze.

After the wound was treated, the horizontal bar over there had just been completed, and I followed the team to the starting point of the six-kilometer armed cross-country course, preparing for the penultimate lesson. Running is the one I am least worried about, this is the one I have practiced the most in the last two months, except for the rain, almost every morning I will get up an hour earlier to run, five kilometers and ten kilometers lightly loaded, I am interspersed with exercises, non-stop running. No pain, no gain. There is a reward for what you give. My performance has improved by leaps and bounds, from more than 22 points to more than 19 points in the light 5 kilometers, and from 32 minutes to 28 minutes in the armed six kilometers.

Sure enough, there were no accidents, I played at a normal level, and completed the armed 6km in 27 minutes and 40 seconds, achieving a score of 82 points. The grades weren't too high, but I did my best. I believe that if I continue to practice like this, I will definitely run faster in the next assessment.

Finally, it was time for the last assessment subject, the 400-meter hurdles. I stood in front of the starting line, holding my breath and preparing for my last stand.

A "Let's go!" I rushed out like an arrow from a string, knowing in my heart that my injured left hand would definitely have an impact when crossing the obstacle, and that I had to be faster at first to buy some time.

Three-step piles, deep pits, low walls...... I try not to use my left hand as long as I can to climb over every obstacle. Halfway through it without a hitch, the time was okay, about the same as usual, I relaxed a little bit and got through the last few obstacles.

"Ahh "Platoon commander!" "Xiaofei!"

I fell off the barrier.

The fifth-to-last obstacle is the ladder, which requires both hands to grasp and alternately move forward. When I jumped up and grabbed the first bar and swung towards the bar in front of me, I didn't realize that my left hand couldn't use any force at all, it couldn't support my body at all, let alone a forward momentum. So, my hands fell off and I fell horizontally to the ground, hitting my head the pillar of the ladder.

Liu Haitao rushed over as soon as possible, and hurriedly checked my condition, I struggled and remembered, "Don't move!" You really can't move again this time, and if you move again, your life will be in danger. Your head is bleeding and must be stopped immediately. ”

"It's okay! Let me complete the assessment! I pushed Liu Haitao away and jumped up from the ground again.

This time I was very cautious, keeping an eye on my left hand, but luckily, I grabbed it, and then I walked forward one by one. At this moment, my face was covered with blood, and the world in my eyes had become red, a blood-red world. Even so, I didn't stop, I kept running, and I kept telling myself that I had to finish the test, that I had to get a good score. No one can stop me, no one, not any injuries.