One month after the training team was concentrated, the participating units returned to their original units one after another, and I took the officers and men of our third company back to the third company. After returning to the company, the first thing we all did was to mourn.

The battle is over, and the topic of fighting has been stopped as time goes by, but the fallen comrades are always worth remembering. Although during the teaching team, the superiors had already held a solemn memorial service for the sixty-eight martyrs who had died, and at the same time awarded medals. But as comrades-in-arms living in the same company, we still want to commemorate the martyrs who sacrificed their lives for the country, our good brothers, In this battle, our company sacrificed a total of six soldiers.

The memorial activity was organized by the instructor Yu Xueren, in the activity, Yu Xueren left tears, the whole company officers and soldiers left tears, looking at the photos of the six comrades-in-arms, we really miss it incomparably, more than a month ago, we were still in some crawling and rolling, more than a month later, we were separated forever, they can never come back, can no longer train with us, live together.

During the commemoration activities, I blamed myself very much for saying that as a platoon commander, he did not fulfill his responsibilities and did not bring my soldiers back from the battlefield, and I am ashamed of everyone. Although the commemoration activities are only temporary, the martyrs who sacrificed their lives will surely live forever in the hearts of everyone. Six soldiers entered the honor room of the company, became the first martyrs in the history of the company, and became the heroes of the company. Of course, the thirty officers and men of our company who participated in the battle were all heroes.

After returning to the company, the first thing I did was to make a phone call to my parents and Wang Ruoshi, report to them that I was safe, and tell them that the exercise was over and that I had returned to the unit. My parents heard me and told me that they had been thinking about me for so many days, and now they are relieved to hear from me. However, Wang Ruoshi knew that I had gone to war, but Wang Ruoshi did not expose me on the phone, which was a white lie, and since I came back safely, Wang Ruoshi was relieved. The two of us agreed that Wang Ruoshi would make me something to eat on the weekend.

Life has since returned to the right track, and the life of the army is like this, the cycle repeats itself and remains the same. If it weren't for the constant maturity of my appearance, the constant change of clothes, and even sometimes I would have the illusion that I couldn't tell what year it was and what day it was. It's really the same every year, it's the same every day, what you were doing at this time last year, what you're doing at this time this year, what you're doing today last week, what you're doing today this week, it's almost the same.

Only when you look in the mirror and notice the increased wrinkles on your face and the reduced hair on your head will you realize that time has not stopped.

It's April, it's the season of recovery, the snow is slowly melting, and as the temperature rises, it's time to increase the intensity of training in the troops. As a deputy company commander, it was time for him to start studying vegetable planting.

No matter what kind of training it is, vegetables cannot be left unplanted, and in April every year, the company's greenhouse should be green, otherwise, when the superior leaders come to inspect, it is time to criticize the company's work for not being active or proactive. Therefore, after returning to the company from the training team, I was sent to the greenhouse by the company commander and asked me to lead the planters to make sure that vegetables grow in the greenhouse within half a month.

After I returned to the company, I separated from Liu Chaoju and He Yao, and the three of us were in different companies, so naturally we couldn't talk and chat together anymore. And Yang Tian has already gone to the fourth company, and now in the company, except for talking to the soldiers, there is no friend to confide in, but fortunately, all along, I rarely talk to others, and what I have in my heart is often put in my heart.

However, the world is unpredictable, and unexpected things often happen. Three days after returning to the company, Liu Chaoju was transferred to our company and served as the deputy instructor of our company.

On the day he came, I happened to be working in the greenhouse, Liu Chaoju came to the company, and did not find me, after inquiry, knowing that I was in the greenhouse, he simply packed up his things and then came to the greenhouse to look for me. As soon as Liu Chaoju entered the greenhouse, he saw me and the planter Zhang Ke only wearing autumn clothes, turning the ground with a spade. Liu Chaoju said with a smile: "Xiaofei, you are really all-round, you can really carry a gun to fight, and you can carry a shovel to farm!" You say, if we train in the army again, will we be able to pick up bricks and build buildings? ”

Seeing Liu Chaoju, I exclaimed in surprise: "Damn, you came so fast, and you didn't say a word, I will welcome you." ”

Liu Chaoju said with a smile: "Don't be useless, you are so busy, what do you need to greet." Hurry up and plant vegetables, it's too late to plant again, and the vegetables of our second company have sprouted. ”

I was shocked: "So fast? Then don't talk cool about it, since you're here, come over and help. ”

Liu Chaoju didn't see outside, took off his clothes, picked up a shovel and came over to turn the ground together, Liu Chaoju said: "We are really almighty, we were still fighting on the battlefield two days ago, and when we came back, we went to the vegetable field to grow vegetables." ”

I said while turning over the ground: "If you want me to say, we are not omnipotent, we are obeying orders, we will do whatever the leader tells us to do, let us fight, we will go on with guns, let us grow vegetables, we will come with shovels, not we can do anything, we can learn." ”

Liu Chaoju said while digging: "What you said is reasonable, but have you thought about it, we are a troops, not a happy farm, and we also raise pigs and grow vegetables; this year I heard that the leaders have encouraged them to increase their breeding efforts to ensure that officers and soldiers can eat the eggs laid by our own chickens every day, and the second company is going to raise 100 laying hens and 100 broilers. ”

"It's pretty much the same." I then said in a somewhat low tone: "Chaoju, since I participated in the battle this time, I have also been thinking, I am also confused now, what should we do?" Is it to continue to work hard in the army, to complete all the tasks assigned by the superiors, to grow vegetables, raise pigs, raise chickens, raise ducks, and jointly build poverty alleviation and help the poor. Or turn around and go home? In my mind, our troops should focus on training, and they should focus all their energy on training, studying training, and carrying out training, but what about now? I shook the shovel in my hand, and the meaning was self-evident.

Liu Chaoju said: "Although I was transferred to our third company as the deputy instructor this time, I have already made up my mind that if the situation in the army is still like this within three years, I will definitely change jobs." Actually, I don't think being a soldier in the army is very tiring, nor is it so remote and hard, even if the training is hard and tiring, I am not afraid, even if the conditions are difficult, the key is that it is meaningless. ”

I nodded and said, "yes, it really doesn't make sense. There is no meaning in living, it is better to live in vain. Well, I have to think again, this kind of life-threatening decision is not so easy to make. ”

Although it was meaningless to say in my mouth, although I felt useless in my heart, I still took it seriously and finished planting the greenhouse, and if I didn't understand, I asked, asked the villagers, asked the backbone, and even called my mother to ask how the vegetables were grown.

Hard work pays off, as long as you work hard, you will have achievements in whatever you do. Half a month later, a lot of green has been added to the greenhouse, and the lettuce, chrysanthemum and other side vegetables have sprouted, and from a distance, it is a piece of green. The cucumbers and beans planted are all seedlings, and they are all growing very well. Because of this, I was severely praised by the leaders of the regiment, praising me for thinking about things, admitting things, being able to do things, and being capable.

I laughed at myself and thought, what kind of ability is this? The two peasants who brought in them were much better than the ones they planted, so wouldn't they be extremely capable. This really seems to be what was said in the sketch of the Spring Festival Gala, a cross talk actor who can't drive is not a good director, and a soldier who can't farm is not a good driver.

I also told Wang Ruoshi my thoughts, especially now that I am confused and helpless, I hope to be able to get guidance from others. As my girlfriend, the two of us have known each other for almost ten months, and we have a deep understanding of me, and we can also see the changes in my thinking over the past year, sometimes I am very positive, I hate to have to sleep without rest, and use all my time and energy to train to learn to improve myself, and sometimes I am decadent, as if I can't see hope and can't find direction, and I don't know what to do.

This time, after I told Wang Ruoshi about my views and understanding of the troops, Wang Ruoshi analyzed me from both positive and negative aspects, Wang Ruoshi said: "I am not a soldier, and I don't know anything about the situation of the troops you mentioned. But the reality of the army is like this, it's not something you can change, and since the reality is like this, then you can only accept it. And you say that there is no point in being in the army, and you do some meaningless things every day, I want to say, how can there be so many ideal places and ideal jobs in the world, and how can there be so many meaningful things. Isn't it all meaningful things that you want to do, and if you can't find something meaningful in the army, you will definitely be able to find something meaningful when you go back to the place? I can't see it. To put it more seriously, you're running away, making excuses to run away. Besides, I can feel that you are in such a mood that you are anxious about the building of the troops, and you hope that the troops will be as you hope they will be, but the development of the troops will certainly not be achieved overnight, and they will be whatever they say, but they need to be developed step by step. Don't you say that the current army is much better than in previous years, and maybe in a few years it will be even better than it is now. This requires you to work hard and contribute to the troops. ”

Wang Ruoshi said a lot, I listened to the clouds in the fog and stared, but fortunately, after listening, my heart of depression and depression weakened a lot, back to the company I put into the great construction of the time, and with the breeders together to catch 4 piglets, catch 200 chickens, but also buy 5 pairs of rabbits, the whole logistics construction shows a thriving scene.