Chapter 67: What is Letting Go?

In the silent late autumn night, although the wind is not strong, it can pierce into the bare skin and still make people shiver unconsciously. Wan Yan Jin's deep eyes looked at the little girl fixedly, the surroundings seemed to be very quiet, except for the little girl's whimpering in her ears, the sound of occasionally a few crows flying over and flashing their wings was also very loud, and the sound of firewood burning, nourishing, the flames jumped and jumped, I don't know if it was deliberately to give some different colors to the quiet night.

Wan Yan Jin's eyes fell on the steamed bun that rolled off the man's body on the ground, and then he understood why the man was physically exhausted, not that they didn't give them food, but that he was unwilling to eat it, and kept the steamed bun to give to the sick little girl to eat.

Picking up the steamed buns, Wan Yanjin approached the cage where the little girl was kept, squatted down, and was about to hand the steamed buns to her. When Zhen Ai saw it, he stopped him in time and said, "Young master, you can't approach her. ”

Locked in a cage is to separate them, the poison is very easy to infect, although they all carry medicine bags, they are not afraid of anything, but why risk their lives to touch them? Zhen Ai is going to be in a hurry, I don't know what Wan Yan Jin thinks, do you really not take your body seriously?

The little girl's dark eyes dimmed a little more, she had seen her sister become what she was now, and she had seen her sister come to her face, and she never woke up again, and his father told her the same thing at that time, saying that she could not approach her sister. Do you want to be like my sister, who suddenly collapsed and never woke up, and then was transported to the pile of corpses as high as a mountain?

At that time, her father told her that her sister had gone to see her mother, and she was still very envious of her sister. But her sister and mother never came back, she never wanted to see her mother again, she couldn't leave her father alone.

The little girl's cry was suppressed, and there was despair in her eyes that should not have been in the eyes of a six-year-old child, as if she had no hope for life, like all the despair in the eyes of those who were about to die.

After Yan Jin scolded, Zhen Ai was so frightened that she trembled, lowered her head and didn't dare to look at him, waiting for Wan Yan Jin to fall. She really shouldn't care about what the main master does, and she also knows that he has a sense of proportion, but she still can't help but want to think more about him.

Wan Yan Jin's tone was very low, even a little hoarse, his cold eyes fell on Zhen Ai's body, and said: "Take this man back, arrange a place for him to live, and you can also go back and have a good rest, you are not needed here." ”

Zhen Ai was full of grievances, but after hearing Yan Jin's words asking her to have a good rest, all the grievances and sadness disappeared. didn't finish reading Yan Jin again, because he was afraid that his eyes were cold that he didn't want to see, so he only said that he knew, and then walked back without looking back.

Wan Yan Jin's gaze fell back on the little girl, the little girl saw that her father was taken away, she was so frightened that she didn't even dare to cry, and a pair of black eyes stared at Wan Yan Jin tightly, afraid that he would also lose her temper with herself.

Wan Yan Jin sighed lightly, picked up the stone on the ground, and slammed the lock on the cage, and the hard and cold iron cable was smashed like this, but the little girl was even more afraid, and her whole body curled up to the side, only revealing a pair of black and shiny eyes staring at Wan Yan Jin.

Wan Yan Jin squatted down, handed the steamed bun to the little girl, and took off her coat to put on the little girl. The little girl's clothes were only enough to cover the vital parts of her body, and even her arms and thighs were exposed, how cold it must have been on a late autumn night. When I entered this small cage, I realized that although there were curtains around the surroundings, the temperature inside the iron cage was not higher than that outside, and it was even bitterly cold.

The wide clothes were draped over the little girl's back, wrapping her whole, but it was still not warm enough, and her body was still shaking.

"Little girl, what's your name?" Wan Yanjin said, the good-looking eyebrows are actually rare gentleness.

I don't know if he feels too cold, but the little girl still looks at him vigilantly, without a trace of relaxation. Wan Yan Jin sighed and said to herself, "Your father is a big hero, so that you can go into the water and cross the river to see you." I'm going to make him well, and I'm going to make you feel better, and I'm going to make you and your dad live well, so don't worry about being scared, you know? ”

The little girl was still looking at him vigilantly, but she could see that she was moved by what she said, and was listening intently to what she was saying, not as scared as she was just now, but staring at him very curiously.

Wan Yan Jin looked at those eyes, and the corners of her mouth unconsciously hooked an arc, "There used to be a little girl with eyes as good as you, but she is not afraid of me at all, do you know why?" ”

Seeing that Yan Jin looked at herself and waited for her to speak, she shook her head.

"Because I can always tolerate everything about her, even if she is not well-behaved and disobedient, and often makes herself dirty, she also knows that I will never blame her." When Yan Jin spoke, there was a smile in the corners of his eyes, and even he didn't notice how relaxed and natural he was when he said this.

The little girl seemed to be infected by his gentle tone, and when she looked at him, she could tell that she was listening to him, and she was waiting for what he had to say next.

"Little girl, are you still afraid of me?" Wan Yanjin asked.

The little girl shook her head, and although she was still a little hesitant, she could be sure that the person in front of her was not as terrible as she imagined. Children are so simple, as long as you give her the impression that you are a good person, she will not think that you have any other intentions. And Wan Yanjin gave her the feeling of being a bad guy at first, but when he spoke, it felt too gentle, which made people unconsciously rush to peace of mind, and in the little girl's heart, he was like a very good big brother.

"Brother, can you really cure me?" The little girl spoke very carefully, and her tone was not as crisp and pleasant as that of other children, but she could also hear the longing in her words.

She longed for herself to get better and live with her dad instead of being locked up in a cold cage.

The words were very light, but they fell into Yan Jin's ears with a sense of heaviness, he was not 100% sure that he could cure her, but he still nodded, who made the little girl's eyes when she spoke that people were reluctant to refuse. So he has to fight hard to live up to the trust she has in her eyes.

"Can you tell me your name now?"

"My name is Xiyan, and I have a sister named Xirong, and my father and mother both call me Xiaoyan. Daddy said that when choosing the name, the word Xi was not good, and the word Xi symbolized the sunset, which was a bad sign. My father said that my sister and I had this disease, and I don't know if it was because of the bad name. The little girl thought back to her father's words, in her heart her father was her safe haven, whether her father was right or not, she would agree, who made her father the most powerful person in her eyes.

"I don't know if my dad is right, but I always feel that there is some truth, otherwise why would my sister and I get sick." The little girl said innocently.

Wan Yanjin's heart was very uncomfortable, and that feeling of powerlessness spread throughout his body, and he didn't even dare to look at the little girl's dark eyes.

"What about your sister? Where is she locked up? ”

The little girl lowered her eyebrows, was silent for a while, tears came out of her eyes, a pair of festering little hands wiped away the tears, and the stubbornness in her eyes was what she shouldn't have, she said: "My sister and mother are gone, and my father said that they will never come back, and the place where they went is far, far away." Daddy told me to listen to him in the future, otherwise Daddy would be the only one left in this world. She said, tears still slipped down the corners of her eyes, she knew how lonely a person should be, just like when she was locked in this narrow iron cage alone, she had experienced that kind of helplessness, so ah, she would definitely be obedient, and she would never leave her father alone.

"But I'm not afraid now, my brother said that he would definitely cure me, right?"

Wan Yan Jin no longer knows how to face the little girl in front of him who is only as tall as her waist, he can be as cold as an iceberg in front of his opponent, never blink when he stabs down, or he can be powerful in the court, play tricks, calm and calm on the battlefield, with a thousand, but in front of a little girl who is only his waist height, his head is so heavy that he can't lift it.

He could understand why the little girl kept asking him if he could cure her, but he couldn't promise her the same promise he had at the beginning.

To be honest, he is not sure in his heart, he is not Zhen Ai, he does not have superb medical skills, if there is, he can still do his best with his own strength. But now the only thing that can be expected is Zhen Ai, if she has no way, he can't do anything.

But the little girl's eyes are so pure, they can tolerate all the dirt and unbearable, he can't say some comforting words to fool the past, but her eyes are so pure, he is not willing to deceive her at all, but he is not willing to shatter the expectations of him under her eyes.

Wan Yan Jin didn't know how to get out of that narrow cage, when everything seemed so pale and weak, it seemed that even the steps would unconsciously become heavy, with a trace of helplessness and a trace of silence, all deeply imprinted in the footprints that walked through.

He always thought that as long as he was strong enough, those things he wanted would be at his fingertips, but the reality was to gradually destroy his arrogance, whether he obeyed or not, in short, he hollowed out first.

He couldn't help but think of what Nanyun Pavilion Master Nan Lichuan had said to him many years ago, he said: "If you don't annoy yourself, no matter how others do, they will never be able to give you chagrin." In the end, it's because of your own heart, and you can't let go. ”

Because there are too many things hidden in the heart, there are too many things that cannot be let go, so it is never possible to be fearless. Because of this, he was not suitable for the position of Nanyun Pavilion Pavilion Master at that time, and Nan Lichuan's position had never been replaced, and he was waiting for the day when he was truly fearless to take his place.

Wan Yanjin thought, maybe he was still not suitable now.

The evening breeze was blowing, as if someone was cutting the soul with a knife.