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I still didn't push the door in, because I suddenly didn't want to talk to the two of them.

I stumbled back to the bedroom and lay down again.

"Ah Xiang, haven't you slept yet?" The beautiful woman next to the pillow seemed to move.

"Well, I've been waiting for the adults to come back," Xiang Ji turned to the side and faced me, "My lord, does Xiang make you feel annoying?" ”

"Nani?!"

"My lord, you'd rather go to read a book than be with Ah Xiang......"

"Ah Xiang, don't think too much! I don't hate my family...... Including you! Well, don't say anything, sleep! I brutally interrupted Kahime's words and closed my eyes.

Xiangji didn't say anything more, this is her character, even if she is wronged, she is not willing to rebel against me.

But that's exactly the last thing I want.

Ah Xiang, why are you always so well-behaved in front of me? This will make my guilt as a cold, selfish, pretentious, and incompetent husband continue to increase! If you are angry with me now, or simply lift the quilt and point at me and scold me, I may still be able to fall asleep in an atmosphere that I despise myself, but why do you listen to me so obediently?

Early in the morning, I walked out onto the balcony.

The summer colors are in full view, and Lake Biwa can be seen in the distance. The blue sky and white clouds, the wild chrysanthemums bloom at the feet. This boring war, which took place between the Japanese, has been going on for a hundred years, starting with the Onin Rebellion...... It's hard to believe, but it's still relatively peaceful in the summer in the middle of the day, that is, in the territory of Oda or other powerful daimyos, but in the areas of the minor daimyos, the war still shows no sign of stopping, as evidenced by the ragged people you see there from time to time.

The people have come to believe that war will not disappear from this world. The peace of the Heian Dynasty and the Nara Dynasty can only appear in dreams, and this world is forever full of suffering. If this world is the cycle of suffering, then as a reincarnation, giving birth to a child is a sin, and being born in the world is a disaster......

Hey, wait, have a baby?

It seems that I was almost a father in my original world...... Haha, don't think about this kind of past thing, I'm no longer the past me, Ye Ye is dead, and now the name of the owner of my body is Akechi Kogoro Shinmitsu, whether I want it or not, it will always be like this.

The retainers often ask me, why can't I bring a "little young master" to the family? Although the father and mother did not say it explicitly, their eyes often conveyed the meaning of passing on the incense of the wise family.

My thoughts on this are...... Anyway, if I have the chance, I have already discussed with you the seemingly absurd but real question of "whether people who are separated by 500 years can reproduce offspring".

In the territory of Azuchi Castle, the birds are singing softly, and the ears of rice are swaying heavily in the wind. The pine trees on both sides of the road are leafy, and all kinds of grass seem to enjoy the joy of life. Why is it that I, as a human being, am the only one who suffers?

Perhaps this is what Pascal said, "A thinking reed feels its heaviness."

At some point, Fifteen Lang came to my side.

"Big brother, what are you looking at?"

I looked at him and suddenly became interested.

"Nothing...... Fifteen Lang, let me ask you a question, have you ever hated me? ”

"Nani?!" Fifteen Lang was shocked, he didn't understand why I asked this question suddenly.

"Without my words, Wise Fifteen Lang Guangqing is the real young master of the Wise Family, isn't it...... Haha......"

I laughed and left, leaving Fifteen Lang standing there.

Fifteen Lang has every reason to hate me, in history, he is the real young master, and I am just a person who does not exist.

Oda Nobunaga's order came down, and half a month later, he raised an army to attack Araki Murashige, with his father as the general general.

In the afternoon, Keiji Maeda, who had disappeared for more than a week, appeared in front of me.

"Hah! Do you remember being my retainer? You can't see anyone now...... Tell me, did you lose all your money in the casino and come to me to withdraw money? ”

"Nope! Young Lord! Maeda Keiji said with a straight face: "Young master, I have something to tell you!" ”

"You want to withdraw all the money in advance, but that's not okay."

"That's not what I'm talking about...... It's a question about the future of the family! Keiji Maeda seemed a little angry.

"The question of the future of the family," I glanced at the guy in front of me, "then you can say it, I'll listen to you." ”

Maeda Keiji said: "My lord, what I want to tell you today may be extremely rude, even offensive, making you furious and beheading me here...... Still, whether or not you forgive me for this offense, I will keep talking, and even if you do want to kill me, I don't care. From the first day I served you, I put life and death on the line. ”

"Oh? Kill you? Why do you say such things? Do you have an opinion about me? ”

"No, young master, you misunderstood," Maeda Keiji shook his head, "I have always admired the young master, I did everything possible to shirk at the beginning, but you still insisted on hiring me as a retainer, and then I was in the wise family for a few years, and I did more than one or two ridiculous things, Saito, Mizoo several family elders have long had opinions about me, they don't want to let the wise family as a scholar be like me like this" Wild boy's waste, what's more, several adults are Mino people, and there is instinctive resistance to me, the Owari people who wiped out Mino Country, is the young master, you have been speaking for me in front of the lord, and communicating for me in front of the adults, so for my sake, this kind of kindness, Keijiro V reincarnation, can't be repaid. ”

"Hehe, why do you say such things, I can trust you, so I protect you so much, if you think you can't repay this kindness, then you have always owed it, and it is always not easy for you to owe a favor...... Okay, what the hell are you going to tell me? ”

"Then I'll say it...... Young master, let me ask you, do you understand a woman's mind?! ”

"Huh?"

He even asked me this question, which I didn't even think I would have thought about.

"With all due respect, young master, you are no different from an idiot in terms of the relationship between men and women!"

"Idiots? Bastard thing! How dare you talk to me like that! ”

"Nope! As long as you are alive, you have to say! No, even if I'm dead, I can't shut up. The young master has passed the age of twenty, but he still has not made much progress in family affairs, not only did he not give birth to a boy and a half girl for the wise family, but it made the young lady Xiangji feel very cold......"

"Feeling snubbed? Xianghime? What the hell do you want to say, do you want to take care of my family affairs too? ”

"Don't dare! I just think that you, young master, as a man, even let your wife be wronged when there is no other woman. How can such incompetence understand a woman's heart? The woman's wrist is the same as the tactics of the samurai who gallops across the battlefield, initiating madness, without regard for life and death......

"Enough! Not so exaggerated! Keijiro, you're too alarmist! ”

"No, young master, you have not yet realized the seriousness of the matter, so you can easily judge women. Young master, why don't you answer? Don't you know my style of doing things? If you keep silent, then I will look down on you! ”

"You !! guy" I did get angry and grabbed Keiji Maeda, the disobedient retainer, by the neckline.

“TMD！ Do you think I really don't dare to do anything to you, you bastard?! I'm telling you, you'd better take back what you said, or I'll kill you right now!" ”

"Even so, as long as I live, I will finish what I just said!"

"You !!"

I punched him, but Keiji Maeda didn't fight back and was knocked to the ground by me.

"You're a playboy yourself, what's the right to say anything to me."

I seemed angry, but I actually acquiesced that he was right.

"Young Master, I can understand the reason why you snubbed the young lady Xiangji, because the young lady is the daughter of the general (Oda Nobunaga), and the young master, you actually have complicated feelings for the general.

On the one hand, you most admire the heroes who stand up to the sky, expand the territory, and hold up a piece of the sky like the general, but at the same time, you also have a deep understanding of the general's tyrannical and unkind character, so you have a deep fear of the general, unconsciously, part of this feeling has been transferred to the innocent young lady, don't be so surprised, how are you about the young lady, the recognition of our family is clearly in the eyes......"

"You all know that...... That's right," I was a little dazed, "In this world, the person I'm most sorry for is Ah Xiang." ”

"No, it's not just Young Lady Xiangji."

"It's not just Ah Xiang? So who else? ”

"Humph! Young master, you're really a forgetful person, Miss Akuni of Izumo Taisha Shrine, you haven't forgotten everything, have you? ”

"Ah Guo ......", a name that I hadn't pronounced for a long time, is now coming out of my mouth, and it feels so strange, as if I don't know such a person at all.

"Young master, you are actually a person with great feelings...... If you could have held Miss Ah Guo tightly when she left, and left all obstacles and burdens to keep her by your side...... Young master, you have long been happy! ”

"Happiness ......"

These two words seem to me to have become a goal and a fantasy that can never be achieved.

What is the happiness of Akechi Shinko?

Protect the wise family, glorify the ancestors, and make contributions!

That's how it should be.

But I'm not only wise and faithful, I'm also Ye Ye.

As a "leaf night", shouldn't I have happiness?

Tears flowed down the sides of my cheeks.

As a "leaf night", I have completely achieved happiness in another world...... But......

Why do I die? Why did I come into this world? Why should I be the son of Akechi Mitsuhide? Why do I have to carry a burden that doesn't belong to me in the first place......

My happiness? What exactly is it? Where the hell is it? When exactly will it come?

If you really ask me what happiness my heart desires, I would answer:

Is it okay to send everything back to square one?