Infatuation is always hurt
What can be understood is not fate.
To put it clearly, it's not called love.
What you forget is not a regret.
What can be heard is not sadness.
What can be avoided is not fate.
Guess it thoroughly, it's not called life.
ββQuoted from Da Bing's "Okay, Okay"
This is a rich and noble family, and the man is seventy and dies. Relatives and friends all celebrated with crowns, celebrating the lack of a "playboy" and "unkind" person in the world.
"Zhu Yun, it's time to hit the road." Black and white impermanence arrived as scheduled, and came to Sona for the soul of the male master.
"You are really a failure, look at these relatives and friends of yours, see you die, they all celebrate and laugh." Bai Wuchang scoffed. As a ghost, he has appeared in the mourning hall many times, but he has never seen this scene like today. When the elders died, they all laughed heartily, and no one cried.
"Would you like to hear my story?" Zhu Yun not only refutes, but tells the story with great interest.
"Huangquan Road Chief, you can say it."
Zhu Yun closed his eyes, immersed in his memories, and said for a while: "Her name is Liu Luan, she looks ordinary, and she can even be described as ugly, but she is the love of my life." β
"I took seven or eight turns with her to get to know her, and if there was a slight deviation, we wouldn't be able to meet in the south, and she would never leave her hometown in the north."
"If we can't see her on weekdays, we will contact us by letter, and if we can't receive a reply from her one day, my heart will scratch my heart, and I always feel empty."
"I really don't have any accomplishments in music theory, but for her, I racked my brains, visited everyone, and finally wrote a poem 'Northern Beauty', and she wrote back and said 'crying'."
"I was originally a wooden person, and I couldn't speak honestly, but in the face of her, I became brazen and stalked. The most heartfelt 'love' was also spoken out loud. β
"It took seven or eight turns before we could meet, this is a rare fate, it's good to meet you. I, love you. β
When she heard this, she just smiled awkwardly and said nothing. Since then, all the poems in my head have become love stories. β
"It's you in my eyes, in my heart, and in my dreams, it's almost impossible to pretend, let's love enough."
"Your voice and appearance are becoming clearer and clearer in my mind, you have settled in my heart, and I have fallen deeply in love with you."
"The correspondence could no longer satisfy my love for her, and I decided to move. I left my old villa and rented a modest attic near her house, just across the street from her. β
As the distance gets closer, Zhu Yun and Liu Luan have more time to see each other, and the two often meet together to eat, go shopping, and watch lantern shows. And it is not that Zhu Yun unilaterally asks Liu Luan, but mutually, from time to time, as long as the two are free at the same time, they will walk together.
"We have a tacit understanding, we can always talk to one place, she tells me everything, I tell her everything. I thought this was love, and my heart was as sweet as honey. β
Just like what is written in the poem, "Guan Guan Ju dove, in the river island." My Fair Lady, Gentleman. My Fair Lady, I covet it. I can't ask for it, and I toss and turn. β
"There is a beautiful woman who will never forget it. I don't see it for a day, and I think like crazy. β
"At a lantern festival, there was a shadow puppet performance, which played a pair of men and women who liked each other, but they refused to bow their heads first because of a little conflict, and finally parted ways and started their own families."
I sighed, why can't a lover be a family? I took her hand and said, 'Luan, marry me'. β
"We're not suitable." This is Liu Luan's answer at the time, Zhu Yun only thought that his proposal was too sudden, Liu Luan was not psychologically prepared, so he no longer persecuted, and the two still maintained this "ambiguous" relationship, like a little couple, dating from time to time.
"But that day, the three strawberries on her neck were like a thick needle piercing my heart, and I was bleeding nonstop, and the whole person seemed to have fallen into a cold pool, and my whole body was cold."
"She told me that she was single, otherwise how would I pursue her! How could I be a dignified gentleman and do such a ridiculous thing as taking someone's wife? The elders always tell me that you don't need to be too beautiful to find a wife, otherwise you won't be able to keep it. Okay, then I'll find an ordinary-looking one, and promise her to be white-headed for the rest of her life. But in the end...... Hahaha, thinking of all the stupid things I did for her in the past, tossing and turning, it was really ridiculous, ridiculous, ridiculous. β
Zhu Yun returned home, and the more he thought about it, the more angry he became, so he wrote a letter to Liu Luan, "I'm going crazy, I have to figure out today, are you really single?" Who planted the strawberries for you? What am I in your eyes, a creep, a spare tire, or a joke? β
Liu Luan replied: "I already have a lover, and after watching that shadow puppet show, I got back together with my original lover." I never treated you like a creep, just a good friend. β
"Hahaha, I watched the shadow puppet show at the romantic lantern show with me, and then turned around and got back together with my ex, it's good, it's good, it's really good."
"Infatuation is always ruthlessly hurt. From that moment on, I swore that I would no longer be a gentleman, I would become a scumbag. Men in the world are not bad and women are not loved, they can hug left and right, why can't I wish Yun, and I am not short of thousands of family wealth. β
Visiting the building, entering the casino, drinking heavily, smoking heavy cigarettes, robbing the road at night, in short, he has learned all the habits of scumbags. This world is really strange, no one wants an honest gentleman, but the playboy keeps attracting bees and butterflies, and some are even willing to post upside down.
"If you go, I will not look back."
Zhu Yun hugged left and right, and abandoned the chaos at the beginning, and I don't know how many good family girls have been ruined, and the strange thing is that those women who have been discredited have defended him, and even protected him at the cost of their lives.
"You say, am I crazy, or the world is crazy."
"It's crazy." Bai Wuchang was stunned, he felt that this world was so strange. The people of the yang world really know how to play.
Liu Luan died in front of Zhu Yun, died in his hometown in the north, when Zhu Yun learned the news, it was already a month later, that year he was fifty-five, risked his life alone in a carriage, ran to the north, and appeared in front of Liu Luan's grave like a miracle.
Although Zhu Yun has avoided everything about Liu Luan over the years, she has also heard some news about her from time to time: she got married, gave birth to a boy and a girl, and her husband drove her back to her parents' house when she married another, and it was useless not to let her see the child and beg for it......
Zhu Yun looked at the lonely grave and didn't say a word from beginning to end, but when he left, he sprinkled a handful of "red beans" in front of Liu Luan's grave.
Red beans are born in the south, and a few branches are sent in spring; May you pick more, this thing is the most lovely.
"Untie and go." Black impermanence allowed Bai impermanence to untie the soul chain on Zhu Yun's body, and let Zhu Yun complete this Huangquan road easily.
Zhu Yun looked back, but he didn't know what he was looking at, let alone who he was looking at.
This life, the next life; Goodbye, farewell.