I don't know when I felt old. Do you know what it means to be old? It's that there are a bunch of phone numbers saved, but there is no one who wants to call; is that there are thousands of WeChat friends, but there is no one who wants to chat; It is the urgency of staying at home every day, afraid of leaving the comfort zone, but always looking forward to the parents and relatives to have time to visit at home.

It's ridiculous that among the people I want to see me, my parents are the first and foremost to come and see, as if they were younger than me. In fact, it is not, mainly because I have just become a mother of a second child recently, and my husband always works in the field, and he takes two children alone, in addition to physical involvement, the most important thing is the psychological emptiness of no one around. I always feel the need for a sense of security, to add an inner strength to my tired body. Besides, apart from my parents and three aunts, I don't seem to have any other relatives to look forward to in my life.

After living all these years, it is only now that I gradually feel strongly that the dependence of family affection is a kind of spiritual and spiritual comfort. When I was young and frivolous, I was not afraid of heaven and earth, and I always felt that I was the whole world. Now that I am getting older, I know more about cherishing the relatives around me, and I want to have more reunions and more meetings. I am inconvenient at the moment, so I look forward to the convenient other party to come to see me all day long.

When I finally lived to the age where I had been longing to grow up since I was a child, I realized that life is not easy, and growing up is a pain.

It is not easy to give us too many responsibilities and burdens in life, whether we like it or not, whether we are willing to bear it or not, there is nowhere to hide, only to forge ahead. The pain is there, we grow up, we have a lot, but we also lose a lot.

These days, I always wonder if my grandparents were still alive, would even they want to come and see me? I think so, grandma loves me the most, don't look at my grandparents in their eighties, I feel like another generation of old people, but I always feel that they understand me very well. A lot of times, without saying much, they can feel my feelings, sense my thoughts and feelings. If my grandmother was still alive, I could imagine what she wanted to say, how she hobbled to see her eldest granddaughter, who was alone with two children, and her grandson-in-law was not there, and she didn't have a mother-in-law, how could she have a distressed expression on her face, blaming herself for being old and useless, otherwise she would want to help me take care of the children......

It's a pity that they're no longer there. In this life, from the moment I accepted the departure of my biological mother when I was two years old, there are not many people in this world who love me, and the departure of my grandparents has made very few people in this world who love me.

Actually, none of this matters. How about love, and what about not love? Over the years, there have been ups and downs, bumps all the way, and have stumbled to today. Lived to this age. In the years to come, what I need more is for me to love others, instead of longing for how others love me. Because I'm no longer the kid I once was.

Yes, we are no longer young.

Because we are no longer young, my favorite grandparents can no longer bear the superposition of the years; Because we are no longer young, the faces of our parents and elders have gradually become more weathered by the years; Because we are no longer young, our once youthful and frivolous temperament is now much calmer and calmer; Because we are no longer young, we begin to know more and more about cherishing and forgiving.

In the past, I was a very serious person, and I was always ugly when I encountered things, and I tried to be clear. Now, especially after having children, when I encounter some unreasonable personnel, most of the time I will admit "cowardice", just like a friend said, mainly because I feel that there is no obligation to educate others, after all, people nowadays, life is so stressful, what kind of people have, in case of disputes, unfortunately they have become the last straw that crushes the camel, but they can't afford to hurt. If we can't afford to provoke us, we can afford to hide. Life has given us the ability to find the good, and we should take the initiative to avoid the darkness, not fight it – that is the job of the people's police. And we are just ordinary ordinary people, as long as we live safely, healthily and healthily.

Speaking of which, it is because we are no longer young, and the years are like a frosted stone, which will not only wear off our edges and corners, but also wear off our sharpness. Therefore, we have become much gentler, much more light, and even our hearts have become much softer.

The years are urging people to grow old, and they are always silent. Although, we often say, people live with a state of mind. But in the end, it can't get rid of the urging of the passage of time. If you also feel that you are no longer young, then what are you waiting for, hurry up and grab the tail of youth and live a good life.

Do what you want to do but always want to wait for time, money, and that, and have always been excited but have not acted. Life can't stand the wait, wait and wait, and the years go by. Give yourself a trip that you want to go but have never been willing to spend money on, and see your relatives and friends who you want to see but don't have time to visit......

Because, we are no longer young, the rest of our lives are not long, cherish it, leave no regrets, will have peace of mind.