Section 30 The Most Familiar Stranger (3)
"I'm sorry, why am I sorry......" Yao Jin suddenly felt that her heart was beating so hard that she was even breathing rapidly, one hand tightly grabbed the placket of her chest, and she couldn't help bending down to hold the knee that seemed to have recurred with the other hand, she couldn't help repeating: "You have never been sorry for me, I am sorry for you! Only I am sorry for you...... Back then, you were taken away by the people of the first emperor, I know, but I didn't take Xiao Nanguo to exchange you with the first emperor, I didn't do anything, I didn't do anything...... It was I who gave up everything between us first, and it was I who had to go to Little South......! Why are you saying sorry, why are you saying you're sorry!"
"No, it's me. Wei Yan slowly bent down, and then slowly knelt on the ground, "It was I who agreed to the marriage of the eldest sister and the Yao family, I was very disappointed at that time, the days when I was brought back to the capital, they said that no one could let me out unless you came to save me, but you never came-I was too ignorant at the time, I didn't think about the inextricable relationship, I just thought you let me down, I thought you only had power in your heart, I thought-"
"You're right! I'm that kind of person!" Yao Jin interrupted her loudly, and then squatted down in pain, she lowered her head, and let the tears fall on the pink dress, turning into a ball of red, "I thought that if I got Xiao Nanguo, I would be free...... I thought I was free, and you could come with me...... But I don't dare to regret it, I can't regret it, everyone doesn't allow me to regret it, I just keep moving forward, keep ...... keep going."
"That's why you're in such pain now—Yao Jin, do you know that if you really hand over Xiao Nanguo, you will really have nothing! Your Majesty won't give you a chance to explain at all, everyone, everyone in the world will think that you gave up Xiao Nanguo for Lin Yuebai, and no one will know everything that happened in between! At that time, all those people in Xiao Nanguo will hate you, you can't go back to Caiyun City, and Your Majesty won't let you stay in the capital peacefully, where should you go, what should you do in the future......
"Future?" Yao Jin gently and carefully bumped Wei Yan on the forehead, and an ugly smile appeared in the tears on his face, "Do I still have the qualifications to consider the future?"
Wei Yan stared into her eyes and said very slowly, "Perhaps, I can help you." ”
"No, Wei Yan, please don't do anything for me, be your county horse, the middle of the imperial history, and follow your path well!" Yao Jin's eyelashes fluttered uncontrollably, but her tone became more and more firm, "Maybe Li Yao is not a good person, but he will be a conscientious emperor, you can do things for him wholeheartedly, but don't be his closest courtier- If possible, persuade your sister not to compete with Lin Yuebai for favor, no matter what position Wei Nanyan and Lin Yuebai are in the harem in the future, I can assure you that Yuebai is the kindest woman in the world, and she will never harm people's hearts!"
Wei Yan's smile was a little bleak, she tilted her head and turned her gaze away, and said softly: "It turns out that even you know about my eldest sister. ”
"Maybe I knew it before you......"
"Very few people know about this matter, if she hadn't gone to Yunli Temple, she wouldn't have even told me, who was it, who would have found out about this and went out of her way to tell you-"
"Don't you still understand?" Yao Jin looked at Wei Yan, there was pain, incomprehension and doubt in his eyes, maybe he still hadn't figured out why his eldest sister would have such a relationship with Li Yao, why Wei Nanyan, who had been silent for many years, became a real person who prayed for the blessing of the country, maybe it won't be long before she became a concubine in the harem - Wei Yan in Yao Jin's eyes still seems to be the pure teenager back then, but his sister, everyone around him, and even himself, in order to live, to live better, In order to get what they want, everyone has tried their best to fight each other in this world, but he is not, he has never been-Yao Jin closed his eyes and said word by word: "Wei Yan, although I don't have any evidence that I can get my hands on, my people have confirmed that His Majesty will pass on the news of having an affair with your sister to me today, and he is here to let me enter Beijing, and for today." ”
"This ...... How is this possible!...... Your Majesty, you should have entered the palace to congratulate you on the day he ascended the throne, and he didn't need to tell you such a private matter in advance, but it was just to let you enter the capital early-"
"Maybe he was worried that I would make an excuse not to come on the day he ascended the throne, maybe he was just anxious to get Xiao Nanguo, or maybe he ......" Yao Jin shook his head, "No matter what it is, there has never been pure affection between him and your eldest sister, I don't know how they came together, and I don't know if there have been promises or exchange conditions between them, maybe for a high emperor, everything is just to serve his country." ”
"Yao Jin, you...... Is it reminding me?"
"Who am I to remind you of today? It's just that I'm afraid we won't have a chance to meet again in the future, so I just thought, I'm just ......"
"It's a kind reminder for the last moment before you say goodbye, isn't it? ”
The word "farewell" in Wei Yan's mouth was like a sharp knife stabbing Yao Jin's heart, her face couldn't help twitching, she squatted for a long time, her calves and feet seemed to be numb, she struggled to get up, but her knees suddenly had a sharp pain, and she suddenly fell in the direction of Wei Yan when she was unsteady-
"Yao Jin!"
Yao Jin, who didn't have time to exclaim, was firmly held by Wei Yan, and he immediately got up and stretched out his arms to catch her the moment he saw Yao Jin fall to himself, so Yao Jin's forehead slammed into Wei Yan's chest, her golden crown was crooked to the side, and a double-flying butterfly hairpin behind the bun fell to the ground, making a crisp sound of "clang".
The hairpin of the double flying butterfly is very exquisite, and there is a pair of butterflies with cloisonné blue on it, fluttering and fluttering, which is very smart. Wei Yan looked at the hairpin and suddenly fell into a trance.
"Brother Yan, I'm really happy that Jiaxi can marry you!"
"Jiaxi doesn't like the legend of Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, although they ended up together, they could only turn into two butterflies that couldn't speak - Jiaxi also wants to make a pair of butterflies with Brother Yan, but it's not such a bee butterfly flying in the wind, we want to be the happiest pair of butterflies in the world!"
"Brother Yan, if you haven't fallen in love with Jiaxi now, it doesn't matter at all, don't pretend to be okay in front of Jiaxi, Jiaxi doesn't want to see that Brother Yan!
These words, as well as the person who said these words, that childish face, and their children - Wei Yan suddenly let go of Yao Jin, he knelt down heavily, and kowtowed heavily: "The minister deserves to die, he dares to offend Her Royal Highness the eldest princess, the minister deserves to die, the minister deserves to die......"
The repeated sentence after sentence of "the minister should die", accompanied by the sound of Wei Yan kowtowing, like basins of ice falling on Yao Jin's body and smashing on her head, she smiled desolately, didn't say a word, and dragged her aching knees out step by step.
If this is an eternal farewell, then I would rather forget this farewell forever, as if we did not meet again, you will always be the one under the osmanthus tree, and I, never know, you have completely abandoned me.
When Yao Jin walked to the gate of the palace, he turned his head to look, and it seemed that Wei Yan was still kneeling on the hall, his shadow was a little blurry, but it left a deep imprint on Yao Jin's heart forever.