I met you on the Internet, to be honest, how we first met, and what we talked about at that time, I can't remember.

I only remember the first meeting with you, it was the first time I met netizens, and it was the only time, and I thought it was amazing when I thought about it later.

You took a late-night train from Changsha to Chenzhou, and we chatted all the way, and neither of us slept.

After you arrived at the station, you transferred to my county seat, and I also arrived at the station early to wait for you.

It was the morning of the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, before seven o'clock, it was raining lightly, I was standing on the side of the road with an umbrella, and then you got out of the car.

Before I saw you, I was always very nervous, after all, I was meeting netizens, there are too many unknowns, although we usually don't have a lot of videos, but I also want to see what a real person is like, worried about what many people say about seeing the light, worried about the embarrassment of meeting, what to do if you can't talk.

But all these worries disappeared the moment I saw you, and it was very cold during the Spring Festival that year, and you were wearing a very thin coat.

I didn't want to take your hand directly, complain about why you don't wear more, and ask if you're cold.

You smiled, you really looked good when you smiled, and you held my hand and said that it was not cold to see you.

I laughed too.

Later, I asked you how you felt when you first met me, and you said that you will never forget the heat and warmth transmitted from my palm to your heart when I took your hand and asked you if you were cold, if you liked me very much before we met, then after meeting, you fell in love with me.

We had breakfast hastily, because both of us didn't sleep all night, and seeing that you were dressed so thinly, we found the nearest hotel and opened a room.

When I entered the room, I was full of the word sleepy, and now I think about whether to say that I was too innocent at that time, or if I trusted you too much, I don't know.

Anyway, I told you to take a break, and when I woke up, I went to buy you a thicker coat, and then fell asleep.

It was past one o'clock in the afternoon when you woke up, and you were lying on your side with your right hand and head on my face.

When I woke up, you laughed and scratched my nose and said I was careless, and I fell asleep as if he didn't exist.

At that moment, I realized something, and said with a smile, I don't believe you, you are a righteous gentleman.

You smiled and asked me if I was hungry, got up and went out to eat, and said that you don't know what you're going to do if you don't get up.

I was so frightened that I immediately got up from the bed, washed up and left the hotel.

Thinking that your clothes are thin, I first bought a thick coat at the nearest shopping mall, and then found a dumpling restaurant to eat dumplings.

During this period, my best friend called me and asked me where I was, I didn't know how to say it, but she guessed and asked if it was your online boyfriend who came, I said well, she said that it would not disturb your love, and then hung up the phone.

I looked back and found that you had been staring at me, and suddenly I remembered that when I was talking to my girlfriend just now, I burst into a few foul words because of habit, and I promised you to change this bad habit.

Just when I didn't know how to get past, you said that it's not good for girls to swear, forget it this time, don't make an example.

I immediately patted my chest and promised, never to say it again, you smiled and said it was really good, I hurriedly leaned over and asked if you had a reward.

Because of my approach, you were stunned for a moment, then kissed me on the cheek and said that this is the reward.

At that time, the dumpling restaurant was full of people, especially the couple at the table next to us.

I only felt that my face was so hot that it could smoke, this was the first time I was kissed by a boy, or in public, I couldn't lift my head, and I didn't eat dumplings.

You came over and whispered to me, feeding me one by one, and from time to time I heard your muffled laughter.

We didn't know what to do after eating, at that time there was no cinema in our small county, and it was cold outside, so the two discussed it, went to the supermarket to buy some food and drink, and went back to the hotel.

If you want to say that when you go in in the morning, because you are sleepy, you don't think about it so much, and when you hold your hand and go in, you always feel weird and uncomfortable.

You may have seen my discomfort and amused me and relaxed me by talking funny things about our online chat in the elevator.

That afternoon we just lay in bed, eating snacks, chatting, and playing TV.

Had dinner with my younger siblings and my sister's boyfriend in the evening, and now that I think about it, you really take care of me.

During the meal, you kept giving me vegetables, knowing that I only ate green vegetables and eating leaves, you picked them out for me, knowing that I only ate lean meat, and gave me the fat ones and the thin ones.

What I admire the most is that after only one meeting, you subdued my younger brothers and sisters, and after a meal, they treated you with a brother-in-law, including my sister's boyfriend.

After eating, we went to sing together, and then sent my sister and me home.

I remember that you secretly asked me if I could not go back, and I righteously refused, you sighed lightly and said okay, and then hugged me tightly and went back to the hotel by yourself.

When I got home, my mom asked me and my sister to squeeze into the room, because my grandmother was going to sleep in my house, so my sister and I had to get out of the bed.

But the bed in the guest room is very small, and it is okay to sleep one person, but two people are very crowded.

I complained at the time, I didn't say it earlier, I said it earlier, I went to the hotel and slept with my girlfriend.

Because my best friend's sister married in another place, I went home for the New Year, and opened a room in the hotel for a few days, but because my in-laws had something to do and went back early, the hotel slept alone with my best friend, and I did ask me to accompany her, I said it was too troublesome to go.

After hearing this, my mother thought it was okay, after all, the bed in the guest room was really small, so she said then you can go.

When I said it, I really didn't think about it that much, and I didn't expect my mother to agree, and she was stunned for a few seconds.

I told you about it, and I don't know what I thought at the time, probably because of the expectant eyes when you asked me if I could not go home, or the loss when you turned around after I refused.

You asked me if I was going to my girlfriend's, and I sent a god to say go to you, would you come to my house to pick me up, and it was already twelve o'clock at that time.

You said you were coming soon, I didn't wait for you, I also went out, and we met halfway.

You hugged me, under the street lamp, I saw your eyes, shiny, full of smiles, and I couldn't help but hook the corners of my mouth.

I went back to the hotel, because I took a shower at home, I just took off my coat and lay down, and you also lay down.

The two of them just lay flat, no one spoke, my heart beat very fast, a little nervous, I wanted to say something, but I didn't know what to say.

Suddenly you moved, approached me, took me in your arms, looked into my eyes and called my name, and I just looked at you with my eyes wide open.

Then you said you loved me, and then your face kept zooming in front of my eyes, and I didn't dare to look at you anymore, and closed my eyes tightly.

You kissed me, it was a real kiss, soft, the temperature around me began to rise, and my mind went blank.

Just as I was letting go, there was a tingling pain in my lips that I couldn't help but mutter.

Subconsciously opened my mouth to ask you what you were doing, and your tongue came in, and I felt that my face was about to smoke again, this time completely stupid.

I don't remember how long I kissed, it felt like a long, long time, and I felt very fast, you let go of me.

I don't know your expression at that time, because I didn't dare to look at you at all, and after pushing you away, I said hurry up and go to bed and immediately covered my head with the quilt.

You laugh and try to pull the quilt open, but I don't let you, and then you ask me if I'm shy, and I still hide in the quilt and say no.

You smiled again and said that you don't want to sleep, how can you sleep with your head stuffy like this, come out obediently, I will sleep with you in my arms.

I slowly put down the quilt like this, looking at you with a pair of eyes, and asked you to promise to just sleep with your arms and not to mess around again, you said okay.

Then I really fell asleep with my arms in my arms, and when I woke up the next day, you were still looking at me with your head on your hands, and you said good morning to me with a smile.

I don't know why, but I suddenly thought of the picture of you kissing me last night, and I felt uncomfortable again, and then got up to get dressed, washed, and urged you to go out.

We went to Martyrs' Park, climbed the East Tower, went to the school where I used to study, ate my favorite snacks, went to the Internet café I frequented, played games together, and told you interesting stories about my past.

Whether I'm laughing or laughing, as long as I look at you, I will see that you are also looking at me, and your eyes are full of happiness and satisfaction.

Every time I see your eyes like this, my heart feels full and sweet.

Time always flies, it was supposed to come for three days, you stay for five days, and on the morning of the sixth day, you have to go.

I still remember when I was waiting for the bus with you, you took my hand and looked into my eyes, you didn't say anything, and your eyes made me dare not look at that time, too much reluctance and sadness.

Speaking of which, I was really a little heartless, at that time I just thought you were making too much of a fuss, and it wasn't that I couldn't see it, and the people who came and went around me, you just pulled me like this, looked at me, and made me feel so embarrassed that I kept avoiding your gaze.

The car came, and you hugged me hard for a long time, until the driver urged you, you got into the car, and reluctantly let go of my hand.

That's when I feel uncomfortable, you're really leaving, and then the car starts, and you sit by the window, when the car really starts moving.

I saw you crying, and my eyes couldn't help but turn red, and I wanted to tell you that I remembered to miss me, but the car had already gone away.

I could only turn around and walk in the direction of home, and the phone rang.

I picked it up, and your voice pierced through my ears, with a choked voice, and you said that if you want me to miss you, you will come again.

I asked you if you were crying, and you said no, and I said I saw it, and you said I really wanted to take you away.

After that, it went back to before we met, but it was different, you were more clingy to me.

Call me whenever you're free, even if you're busy.

At that time, I was too young, and I just thought you were so annoying, why were you so grinding and chirping.

Then you always wanted me to go to Changsha and said that you could support me, but I never agreed.

Later, you said that you would come to Chenzhou and let me go to Chenzhou as well, so that I would be close to home, but I still hesitated.

I don't really want to talk about the rest of the matter, and every time I think about it, I feel that I have gone too far, and I can't help but regret it.

There were countless opportunities for us to meet during this period, and even once I went to Changsha, but I didn't see him, no matter how many calls he made or how many messages he sent, I didn't reply.

I think it was that time that made him completely disappointed and dead to me, and every time I think about it, I regret it, and I regret it again and again.

But it's useless to regret it, the boy who smiled and watched me make trouble will never come back.