Chapter 87: Rebuke and Forgiveness
While Julie was asking her sister for help over her husband's affairs, her husband also came to the room of the elderly Count Delier to seek help for his current difficult situation.
Led by the servant, Lucien-Leflair came to the Count's side, the elderly former Chancellor of the Seals, who now squinted slightly, as if he were still sleeping. However, after Lucien approached, the old man snorted softly, indicating that the old man was actually still awake.
Lucy looked at the old man quietly and fell silent for a moment.
Although he knew that Lu Dao should ask the other party for help softly at this time, but those words that his wife had taught him at this time, he didn't know what Lu Dao was talking about, and he couldn't say anything. And so the strange silence continued, and he stood straight next to the old man, like a soldier under review.
The room was quiet, except for the babbling of the rocking chair, as if to remind of something.
After a long silence, it was the Count of Delier who spoke first.
"You seem to have done something stupid, sir." The old earl, still squinting, said softly.
Lucien breathed a sigh of relief when he heard the Count finally speak, but he did not answer, but listened quietly. Until now, he still doesn't think that he had done something wrong by disobeying orders before. But he didn't come to quarrel today, so of course he could only continue to remain silent.
"As a military man, it is against your duty to disobey the orders of your superiors. You wouldn't question that, would you? That's not the stupidest thing you do, though. Still half-squinting at the clock on the fireplace, the Count said, "What is most unacceptable about you. After making this decision, he didn't tell us beforehand! I know what you're doing here, and you're afraid we'll stop you, so you just choose to be arbitrary. When it happens, you spread your hands and say, 'Oh, I'm sorry, I've done the stupid thing!' ’。 It turns out that you did a good job, and you surprised our wife by leaving you at a loss......"
This accusation. Lucien bowed his head slightly—since he had made the decision to disobey Charles' encouragement, he had not told anyone, including his wife, in order to prevent others from shaking his will, so he received the news that Lucien had been imprisoned for disobedience. Julie almost broke down. It took great difficulty to recover, and it took him all over the place to avoid being sent to a court-martial. However, although he is not subject to military law, such disobedience is of course punishable, and he has now been relieved of all military duties, and may even be removed from the army.
Even today, he has never regretted his decision – at least I didn't get my hands dirty, and my conscience. He thought to himself.
However, he will rightfully feel a little guilty about his wife. And this kind of guilt also made him can only lower his head and listen to the reprimand of this noble lord.
"But, I suppose you already knew the consequences you were going to face before risking your future, right?" After a few words of accusation, perhaps the anger subsided a little, and the earl's tone slowed down a lot, "So it doesn't make much sense for me to accuse you like this now." Now, I'd like to ask you a few other questions...... As Julie's husband, you must be able to answer me with your heart, right? ”
He opened his eyes suddenly, staring at Lucien coldly, making the soldier who had always been fearless on the battlefield feel a little furious, and it took him a moment to come to his senses, and then nodded, indicating that of course he would answer.
"Lucien, I want to know, what do you think of us so far? Do you think of us as relatives, or as aristocrats who command you from above? Do you see us through the eyes of my grandson-in-law, or through the eyes of the grandson of the murderer? ”
The old man's first question made Lucien feel a little headache, and he didn't know how to respond. Although this is also the first time he has heard the other party shout "Monsieur de Leflaire" instead of "Monsieur de l'Fleur", but "Lucien".
"I don't hate you right now." After a long silence, Lucien finally spoke, looked at the other party, and replied earnestly.
The implication is that they don't feel close.
Although he came to ask for help, he decided to tell the truth, even if it angered the other party, it was better than telling lies against his heart to flatter the other party.
As he himself said, after nearly a year of contacts, although there is still that kind of estrangement from origin, he does not feel that the Dilieon family is the kind of aristocratic lord who is flying and domineering in the old legends, and there is no one in his eyes, so the original antipathy to the aristocracy has been diluted a lot, but if it can be completely regarded as relatives who share weal and woe, it is definitely not realistic.
Therefore, Lucien's perception of the Diliion family is very subtle now: he does not feel close, but he does not hate it, but because of his past experiences, he does not want to have too much contact with the family—but unfortunately there are too many things in the world that do not go according to people's wishes.
"Oh?" After hearing his words, the Count bowed slightly, indicating that his answer was expected. "So, would you like to hear what I think of you?"
"Say it, please." Lucien nodded.
"To be fair, you're a nice young man, but you're not so good that you're incomprehensible, and I don't think you're the kind of grandson-in-law I'd like to have, and I'm even more disappointed by your best performance." The Count said slowly, as if he were not afraid to provoke the other party, "You want to stick to your principles?" Well, heh, principle...... But if you are so principled, then why don't you dare to speak to us in a serious way? You won't pester us because you're more afraid we'll pester you, right? You don't think we're going to take your personal opinion into account at all, right? ”
After a pause, he glanced at Lucien before continuing. "I'm not mad at you for sticking to your principles—as ridiculous as it sounds, I'm most angry at you for being so arbitrary! Now that you've come back with Julie, you should understand that sometimes people don't live for themselves! ”
In front of the somewhat agitated old man, Lucien had no choice but to choose silence again.
"At the end of the day, it's your preconceptions that are too deep. You always think that we are selfish and look down on others, yes, we are indeed selfish, but that is external, if we can't rely on each other as a family, then who has the capital to be selfish with outsiders? You don't have to wonder about that, do you? In that case, why don't you trust us? The Count continued to ask, and then he sighed softly, "Perhaps you think that we look down on all the commoners because we have a knighthood. But you are absolutely wrong, we do not despise civilians, but all those who have no brains, all who do not plan well for themselves...... In these decades, one of the people I admired the most was one of my former subordinates, he was also from a civilian background, and when he was a child, his family had no power and nothing, but he himself understood what he wanted, he saw what was best for him, and his mind was very bright! He was admitted to a semi-official student and entered a middle school, and then ran into the government to drill the camp himself, and now he is ...... He has become the tax commissioner of Lyon! I've always had nothing but respect for such a, but can you get my respect now? No, no, sir. ”
[At that time, in the top middle school in France, Henry IV Secondary School, the children of commoners could pass the examination and study in the situation of semi-official students. 】
After saying a long time, the old man's face showed some blush after excitement, and he stopped a little panting.
"Now that you've done that, it's useless for us to say more, and I'm not interested in punishing you for anything, who called you already Julie's husband, the father of her daughter? I will find a way to help you solve your current difficulties. In short, in the future, I hope you will be able to figure out what is good for you and what is bad for you. ”
It was clear that he had received the Count's promise, but Lucien's heart became even heavier.
"I'm sorry." In a spontaneous sense of guilt, he subconsciously apologized.
"It's not me who you're sorry for." The Count replied in a low voice, "But yourself!" You don't know what kind of future you should have! ”
His words were clear, and he was not disgusted by Lucien's decision, but rather at Lucien's arbitrariness.
"Even now, as long as you can repent and figure out that we are not your enemies but your helpers, it is not too late, don't you understand?!"
This earnest sentence made Lucien a little stunned, and he looked at the earl blankly, not knowing how to answer.
"Yes, I still have some mind about the way you and Julie get together, but...... That is all in the past, and now, we should all look forward! I've forgotten all the unpleasantness of the past, can't you forget it? Sir, don't mess everything up and ruin everything that could have been yours! ”
Lucien finally understood what the other party meant.
The old man suddenly raised his hand, and then motioned to Lucien.
Lucien stretched out his hand and took it. The hand was limp and wrinkled, but it seemed to weigh a thousand pounds.
"My grandson-in-law," the Count sighed softly again, "and now we have at last met frankly. Please keep it that way in the future, I want you to assure you that it will do you no harm. ”
"You ......," Lucien thought for a while, and finally spoke, "you...... than I imagined...... And be open-minded......"
"That's because the unenlightened nobles have already been guillotined, or they have already rotted together in the countryside holding the estate." The Earl replied with a sneer, "We are the remnants of the old era, and of course we must understand what the new era is. (To be continued......)