In the final analysis, Gao Yuan understands that this is because Xiao Zhan doesn't want him to die, it is to protect him, although he is very angry, but in the end, he can't blame Xiao Zhan anymore, he doesn't want to receive this love, but whether he wants to or not, he has already received it.

Seriously, in that case, the plateau could really die.

"Still angry?" Xiao Zhan asked with a smile.

Gao Yuan didn't pay attention to him, didn't even look at it, and boarded the bus by himself.

"Hey, hey." Xiao Zhan smiled, followed the car and sat beside Gao Yuan and said, "You're still a man, what's the matter?" ”

"Big deal!" Gao Yuan muffled.

"Big deal? What is a big deal? Xiao Zhan stared at the plateau.

The smile on his face vanished, replaced by a seriousness that had never been seen before.

"What I'm most afraid of is that my brothers around me will die one by one, and I can't let you die when only you are left in the end." Xiao Zhan said to Gao Yuan in a deep voice: "The mission has been completely out of the plan, and one more death is a senseless sacrifice. High school team, you can be angry, you can be upset, you can be angry, but I don't want to see you continue to die. Living is worth much more than dying. ”

When he said this, the depths of Xiao Zhan's pupils were filled with pain.

This kind of pain is not a superficial emotion in the ordinary sense, but a kind of pain where the nerves are twitching.

Pain in the ordinary sense can be performed, any professional actor can do it, but the pain of nervous twitching is not something that can be expressed by acting, it is simply the embodiment of the deepest part of the soul.

From the time he came back to the present, Xiao Zhan didn't show much sadness, he didn't attend the memorial service, but stayed in the hospital and played with Long Luoshui all day and night, and he didn't show any difference from usual.

But that doesn't mean he doesn't have pain.

Every night when he went to bed, he would always dream, first of which he was killing his brothers, and then he dreamed of Niu Dali's death, and then they were intertwined, and finally he became one of the brothers he killed.

It was mental endless torture, and he felt guilty more than anyone else, more painful than anyone else.

Because he is the captain, he is responsible for the whole task.

"Xiao Zhan, you ......"

Gao Yuan, who originally wanted to shake off Xiao Zhan's face, was stunned when he saw the painful eyes that Xiao Zhan's pupils stretched out, and then swallowed the words he wanted to say.

What he saw from these eyes was not only pain, but also Xiao Zhan's unknown experience, if there was no such experience, a person's eyes would definitely not fall into the entanglement of pain and confusion.

"To be alive is to be lucky...... Gao Yuan spat out the sentence.

A strange dull feeling rose in his heart, and this dull feeling was the emotion brought by Xiao Zhan, and even made him feel the urge to howl and vent.

What did Xiao Zhan go through? He can bring such negative emotions to people!

Gao Yuan didn't know, but he knew that he would never be able to understand the deepest part of Xiao Zhan's heart, not because the relationship was not good enough, but because the man next to him knew too much how to carefully disguise himself as a happy person.

"Whew...... I only have three days, and after we have been to Ye Fan's house, we have to go to Shi's house and Niu Dali's house. Xiao Zhan rubbed his face and said, "If you have enough time, come with me." ”

"What I have is time." Gao Yuan nodded.

"Hmm."

The bus was moving, the people in the carriage were drowsy, Xiao Zhan also fell asleep leaning on the chair, Gao Yuan stared at him blankly, slowly turned his head and stared out the window, showing a daze.

Suddenly, Xiao Zhan's body trembled violently, his fists were clenched tightly, his cheeks became hideously twisted, and the green tendons on his forehead and neck burst out, giving people a feeling of fear.

Gao Yuan hurriedly held him down and kept whispering in his ear: "Relax, relax, it's not your fault, it's not your fault......"

Maybe it was Gao Yuan's words that worked, or maybe he finished his dream.

……

Ye Fan's family is an ordinary family, with parents and a younger sister at home.

After receiving the news of his death, the whole family fell into heart-rending grief, especially his most beloved sister Ye Yu, whose sad spirit was a little out of control and fell into the darkest stage of her life.

Walking to the door, Gao Yuan knocked on the door, Ye Fan's parents walked out and saw two young men in military uniforms standing at the door.

The old couple were very haggard, because this incident hit them too hard.

"You are ......"

"We are Ye Fan's comrades-in-arms, and we are on a mission together in country F." Gao Yuan said.

At this time, an unexpected scene occurred, Xiao Zhan knelt straight in front of Ye Fan's parents.

"It's ...... Get up, get up. ”

Ye Fan's parents were stunned for a moment, and hurriedly reached out to help Xiao Zhan.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I couldn't come back alive with Ye Fan, I'm sorry ......"

Xiao Zhan made a hoarse voice, the guilt on his face was almost like a sinner, and his cheeks, which were full of vitality before, would become extremely vicissitudes, and the plateau next to him had a sour feeling.

"Kid, the leader of the unit has already told us about it, and it's not your fault." Ye Fan's father persuaded.

"yes, it's really not your fault, get up, kid." Ye Fan's mother wiped her tears.

Just then, a girl's voice came from inside.

"What are you wearing here? Just get down on your knees? Why did it be my brother who died, and why didn't you die? Get out, get away from my door, I hate you, I hate you to death! ——”

This is a girl full of youth and beauty, but her face is full of meanness and hatred.

"Ye Yu!" Ye Fan's father reprimanded heavily: "Don't be so rude, this is your brother's comrades-in-arms, they did their best." ”

"What do you do? Didn't you kneel down without seeing him come? Putting on a face of guilt is simply pretending, why is it my brother who died, why didn't they die!! ”

Xiao Zhan, who was kneeling there, felt more and more guilty and painful, he gritted his teeth and slowly lowered his head.

When he came, he thought of everything that might happen, and it was common sense that Ye Fan's family was emotional.

"We don't want Ye Fan to die, but ......"

Before Gao Yuan's words were finished, he was interrupted by Xiao Zhan.

"She's right, Ye Fan shouldn't have died, he died to cover us." Xiao Zhan stared at the plateau and said in a deep voice: "You and I owe him a life, I came to kneel for Ye Fan." ”

Gao Yuan swallowed the words and smiled wryly.

Xiao Zhan slowly stood up, took out a note with a phone number written on it and stuffed it to Ye Fan's mother: "If necessary, call this number." Ye Fan is dead and can't come back to life, but as long as I'm alive, I'm ......"

"Get out! It's all !! - Why don't you die? Hurry up and die! ”

……

Xiao Zhan left with Gao Yuan.

"Xiao Zhan, why bother?" Takahara asked in a low voice.

"Hehe, everyone is dead, aren't people allowed to lose their temper?" Xiao Zhan shook his head and said, "Those who are alive will definitely have to bear more, as long as we live, we can afford it." ”

"But how much can you bear?"

"I don't know, it's as much as I can bear."

"You can explain!"

Xiao Zhan smiled and strode forward.

He never explained, did not have this habit.

……