Someone once asked me, is it unpleasant to kill someone?

I thought about it for a long time, then slowly shook my head. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

"Words to kill...... Shouldn't there be a thrill? I've seen a lot of mystery novels say this. ”

"Huh...... It's not normal, okay? You stupid nerd who reads books. ”

The other party looked at me with the eyes of a strange beast.

Now that I think about it, I was really a child with strange thinking at that time.

Rigid thinking, behaving like a robot, repeating the same actions every day as yesterday.

And so it goes, day after day, year after year.

It wasn't until the heavy rain that made me sigh at the wonder of life that I felt like I was still a person.

So, is it unpleasant to kill someone?

Now I can give the answer to this question.

Absolutely.

It's not just unpleasant.

And they will carry a heavy feeling of guilt.

It's breathless.

Even if it is not you who kills with your own hands.

The lives lost in that fire clearly coincide with the lives lost in this fire.

Sometimes I wake up from a dream at night and look down at my hands,

There will be a strange illusion and touch of countless people's blood dripping from it.

“…… Who am I? ”

“…… Did I do these things? ”

“…… Me, when did it become like this? ”

In this way, he silently recited these words calmly and flusteredly in his heart.

At the same time, as if he was making excuses for himself, he covered his chest and muttered these words.

"I can't help it...... It's still the Sengoku period......"

I just kept muttering.

“…… I was forgiven for doing so. ”

However, even if he keeps excusing himself with such an excuse, he still can't erase the guilt in his heart.

“…… Sure enough, I still don't belong to this era. ”

After sighing, after thinking about it, he fell back into the futon.

"Now think about it, how many people are there in Edo......

Thinking about this meaningless question, I walked into a deep dream.