Just reading the short words of the first paragraph, it made Sun Yumin's heart sour, this is too rare for Sun Yumin, he hasn't felt this way for a long time, and the last time he heard the news of Chen Yun's death was when he heard about it.

The little girl lowered her head again, and she didn't know if the tears in her eyes would fall because she bowed her head at this time, Dean Su still sat on the chair without saying a word, and a pair of slightly confused eyes kept looking at Sun Yumin, as if she wanted to see his inner thoughts. Only Chu Jiu in his arms seemed to sense something, obediently leaned his head on Sun Yumin's shoulder, and occasionally called "Dad", if he wasn't looking at the letter in his hand, Sun Yumin would definitely kiss his daughter's little face a few more times.

"These days, I often think of the scene in the city of Nanjing, when three soldiers carried a wounded officer into the hospital, begged for help everywhere, and even knelt down in front of me. I couldn't help but look at it curiously, this was the first time between us, and I didn't expect that the seriously injured man in front of me would be my future husband. ”

After reading this paragraph, a smile appeared on the corner of Sun Yumin's mouth, and his thoughts also returned to Nanjing, back to that unforgettable memory, different from Lu Man, the first thing he thought of was Zhou Hong, Zhou Hainan, Liu Tou, the elder of the cooking squad, the soldiers who died in the second battalion and the second regiment, the head of the regiment, and the senior deputy head of the regiment, of course, he would not forget the anxious little nurse who woke up from the coma and saw it for the first time.

You didn't expect that I would be your husband when I was seriously injured at the time, but what I heard in my coma, the voice that kept calling my name, was deeply rooted in my heart. Sun Yumin muttered to himself, he still remembered that when he woke up in the hospital, what he saw was not Chen Yun, not Tie Guts, not Huzi and Wen Zhi, but Lu Man, a woman who had a great impact on his life.

"Later, the city of Nanjing was broken, and followed you all the way to Wuhan, although I was just taking care of you as a nurse and a doctor, but not much, one day I suddenly found myself incorrigibly in love with you, and you are a famous person, forgive me for my willfulness, I really don't want to destroy the beauty of others, but I just can't restrain myself, I'm afraid that if I'm not selfish, I will regret it for a lifetime. Since that day, although I have not confessed to you, I will pay attention to you all the time, laugh for your laughter, and worry for your sorrows. You are a man, maybe you can't feel anything, but Chen Yun feels it, women are naturally so sensitive. I was originally like a sister and her, so there is a slight estrangement, although there is no contradiction, but who can tolerate their good sister touching their lover. Later, you also saw that I left in a bad mood, and she reluctantly went to Yan'an. ”

Seeing this, Sun Yumin finally understood why Lu Man didn't say goodbye in a fit of anger after arriving in Wuhan at that time, while Chen Yun also went to Yan'an in anger and disappointment. At that time, she thought that it was because she refused Chen Yun to let him go there with her, she was angry and disappointed, but now that she thinks about it, she really feels a little stupid.

"When I met my father, and saw that although you were mistaken for someone I liked, but did not refute it, do you know how happy and happy I am? Although the winter night in Wuhan was so cold, I shivered from the cold when I hid to the side and eavesdropped on your conversation, but my heart was warm. ”

Sun Yumin's face had more smiles, he remembered the events of that night, and even more remembered the lavender pillow that made him obsessed. He really wanted to tell Lu Man that he really liked her, and it was on that day, otherwise he would have hugged her impulsively. Sun Yumin still remembers that when he hugged her, although she was resisting, the strength of the resistance was not so great, maybe she was willing to hug herself. Thinking of this, Sun Yumin's face had more smiles.

"If you want to build a field hospital, I used all my connections, and I also pulled my best friend Su Ting to the army, you must know that the field hospital on the front line is much more dangerous than the hospital in the rear; The hospital asked for medicines, and I sold all my valuable jewelry, and even went to my brothers and sisters to play tricks, in order to help you reduce the burden on your body. When a person is doing so hard for the sake of another person, who dares to say that he is not selfish? Of course, I have it too, so when the hospital is built, I can also follow you in the name of it. Yumin, you know, that time was the happiest time of my life, and those days are experiences I will never forget. originally thought that we would continue like this forever, but I didn't expect that Chen Yun came, and she came to her side with her mission. Do you know? In fact, I have known her identity for a long time, and this is what I hesitate the most, because she is my comrade, and I share her beliefs and goals. So after she arrived, I deliberately distanced us. But, you know, every time I was expecting you to come and see me, but I was always disappointed; And I couldn't bear the pain of longing, and when I went to see you secretly, I only saw that you cared about her. If I hadn't had Su Ting by my side at that time, and Sister Yuying had not supported me on the side, I might not have been able to support myself and become an emotional 'deserter'. ”

Sun Yumin's gaze temporarily withdrew from the letter, and he looked at Dean Su, wanting to get the answer he wanted from her eyes. As if knowing his thoughts, Dean Su spoke, she said: "Xiaoman looks like a strong girl on the surface, but in fact she is similar to everyone else, she will also be angry, she will be jealous, she will also be heartbroken, she will cry, she will also feel helpless, she also needs the care of men." However, you have never given her what she needs, you have only kept asking for her, but you have never given anything in return! ”

Su Ting's voice changed from a gentle voice at the beginning, and directly turned into a roar in the end, even if she was facing the lieutenant general and her immediate boss, she was not a little afraid, and she would not feel regret.

Sun Yumin naturally wouldn't be displeased because of her roar, in his mind, Su Ting could always be counted as his own person, would anyone be angry because of his own people's anger, and blame him?

If Su Ting's rebuke and angry scolding had any effect, it was that Sun Yumin was ashamed and turned his gaze back to the letter again.

"Daddy, Daddy, is Mommy really gone?"

Sun Yumin was about to continue watching, when the sound of the first nine milk teeth sounded in his ears. The little guy was obediently leaning on Sun Yumin's shoulder, Su Ting's loud voice scared her, she didn't understand why this aunt, who was still wearing a white coat before, scolded her father,

A smile appeared on his face, and he turned his head sideways and said to his daughter: "Mom won't leave, Mom is reluctant to leave our junior high school." Besides, there are so many people in our junior high school, there are aunts, aunts and fathers, and there are many, many uncles, you see how happy, even if our mother is not around, we will be happy in the ninth day of junior high school, right? ”

The little guy is only two years old, where can she understand this, she only knows that being in her father's arms is the happiest thing, and the rest is not important, she smiled and said, "I just want Dad." Perhaps thinking that her words would make the little girl sad, she actually looked at Xiao Yuying and said mischievously: "And my aunt." Although Chen Lai is her aunt, her status is obviously not as high as the two of them.

The little girl had been keeping her head down, but after hearing this, her head quickly raised, and she stood up, wanting to hug her over, after all, Sun Yumin hugged her with one hand, and it was not convenient to read the letter with the other.

But the little guy seemed to know that she was going to do this, and his two little hands were tightly clasped, and his head was buried on Sun Yumin's shoulder, for fear that he would be forcibly taken away.

Sun Yumin nodded at the little girl and shook her head lightly. Xiao Chujiu is enjoying his father's arms, but he is not enjoying his daughter's coquettishness.

After Su Ting vented, although he was still panting, his eyes were no longer so hateful, which could be regarded as a small episode.

Sun Yumin turned his gaze back to the letter and read it carefully, and the past was like a movie, floating in front of his eyes.

"Later, I also told you that after Chen Yun learned my identity, she took the initiative to leave your side, fulfilling you and me. She was a good woman, a good comrade, and a trusted comrade-in-arms. So how surprised and guilty I was when I learned of her death. This is also the reason why I love Chu Jiu so much, dote on Chu Jiu, treat her as my own daughter, and even care about her more than you and myself. ”

What Sun Yumin said in this letter is actually clear, and he also knows that Lu Man's motherhood exuded from the ninth day of the first month is because she really regards this poor little baby as her own daughter. Her guilt, or rather, is her use of love to make up for her guilt, it doesn't matter, in the eyes of everyone, Chu Jiu is Lu Man's daughter, and Lu Man is Chu Jiu's mother.

"Yumin, if it weren't for this incident that made me shameless to face you, and this thing that all men in the world couldn't accept, I was really willing to continue to be your wife and the mother of Chu Jiu. Speaking of which, I have to thank you in advance for still choosing to be tolerant and still being so kind to me when I know that I am no longer innocent. In those days in Huoshan, I almost forgot that I had done something that would make you forever ashamed. If none of this had happened, how good it would have been, with a husband who loves him, a daughter he loves, and the happiest thing in life is nothing more than this. ”

Sun Yumin took a heavy breath, he wanted to say, "Xiaoman, who can be without fault, not to mention that the accident was not your intentional fault, why are you bothered about it." What was written next in the letter completely stunned Sun Yumin, and even his legs were a little weak, if he hadn't been holding Chu Jiu and remembering his daughter, he would even have fallen to the ground.

"Yumin, the time we have been together is not too short, you also know how much I want to have our own children, but I have not been able to do so, I originally thought that God was punishing me and robbing Chen Yun's lover, so that I would not have the opportunity to be a mother. But I didn't expect that the accident between me and Ruan Yunxi actually made me pregnant with his child, do you know the shock when I learned this fact? I really feel like the sky is about to collapse, as if I have been spurned by the world, this feeling is really desperate, too suffocating, I will never want to feel like this again. That day, I went from Baoding to Beiping, just to tell him about it in person, and then destroy myself and this life that should not have come to the world, and go to heaven to find you. But I never expected you to appear there, in a place that would not have been possible, and I saw people who should not have been seen, and I saw my husband, who was long dead. Things in the world are like this, I have a determination to die, but when I see you, don't say this determination, anything else is thrown out of the clouds. I forgot all about my ideals, beliefs, wills, and mortal hearts, and I had only one thought in my mind at that time, which was to stay with you a little longer. Although I was resentful, angry, and crying, I had only one thought in my heart, my husband was not dead, and I wanted to be with him. After following you to Huoshan, I found the happiness of being a mother from the ninth year of junior high school, but because of this happy feeling, I can no longer do anything to the child in my womb. I was thinking, the child's life is innocent, and I am not qualified to strangle him, but this reason is so unconvincing to you, even I will not believe it, let alone others. Gradually, I understood that it was motherhood, the love for the child, that prompted me to make a decision to give birth to him. I also knew that when I made this decision, it had actually blocked the road between us, and we could never be together again. But I don't regret it, even if I still love you deeply and have to face the fact that I lost you forever, I still don't regret it! Just like I didn't regret snatching you from Chen Yun back then, and I didn't regret calling other women's names in your mouth on your wedding night, but still giving yourself to you completely, I don't regret my decision to give birth to a child. ”

"Please forgive me for my selfishness, please forgive me for not saying goodbye, and let this letter be my 'Hugh letter'. Well, after all, I said so much to you, after all, because I really can't say goodbye. My dear husband, my beloved love, I hope you can forget me as soon as possible, we will never see each other again in this life, and I will be your wife in the next life! Love your wife Lu Man forever and ever. ”

Sun Yumin's eyes finally shed tears, he didn't remember when he cried last time, it had been a long, long time anyway. Lu Man left, this time he really won't return to himself, he will never appear by his side again, if he won't be sad like this, then what else in this world will make him sad? He turned his head to look at the little girl, then at Chen Lai who was standing at the door, and finally at Su Ting, and said to her: "Lu Man is gone, she won't come back, she won't come back!" ”

Seeing Sun Yumin's tears, Su Ting's tears also flowed. Since being pulled by Lu Man to the 20th Division, she has not moved the place, even later, Sun Yumin and Lu Man left one after another, even if the 20th Division has changed from a Type A strengthening division to a Type B division, she has not left, because she is convinced that her persistence will eventually be rewarded. But she didn't expect this persistence, but finally let her witness the separation of these two people, she knew that this was the case, why did she spend more than three years waiting for this result!