Chapter 18 True Feelings

A deep darkness, a bottomless nothingness, with no existence in sight.

I don't know how long it took, but in the blur, a white light seemed to appear in front of her, and finally made her remember where she was.

Consciousness was finally reclaimed, and Fran suddenly opened her eyes.

At this time, she found that she was no longer in the room that was no different from purgatory, but in the bedroom arranged for her in the middle of the homestead. And Agnes wasn't by her side, but someone else.

"You're finally awake." When her sister opened her eyes, Charles said with relief.

After Agnes left, the servant came to clean the room and found Miss Trevier sleeping in a mess. Horrified, she immediately reported it to Charles, who was shocked and left her own business behind, and had her sister taken back to her room to rest.

"yes, I'm awake." Fran smiled slightly, "I'm sorry for the trouble. ”

"It's not your fault." Charles shook his head, then stroked her hair lovingly, "You're a victim. Well, tell me, what the hell is going on? ”

Fran closed her eyes slightly, letting her hair be gently stroked. "Didn't Agnes tell you?"

"No," Charles shook his head, "she just left a note and left, and she didn't say anything about the reason for your dispute, so I can only ask you." ”

"Then aren't you afraid that I will take the opportunity to speak ill of her?" Fran asked in a low voice. "If you just listen to me, I'm afraid it won't help you much to understand the facts."

"Okay, don't be angry at this time!" Charles frowned, as if to scold her, "Now I'm confused about the situation, it's better to be able to ask someone about the situation than not to know anything." Besides, it's not that easy for you to make up a lie to fool me. ”

Why are men always so confident? I've lied to you so many times, and I still think I can't fool you...... Fran thought, almost laughing.

However, her brother's anxious expression made her feel very relieved, and she didn't plan to sell it anymore.

She ...... She beat me up because she made a request to me and I didn't want to give in to her request......"

"What did she ask of you?" Charles immediately asked.

He had the impression that Agnes was not an unreasonable person, and that she was extremely self-respecting, and would never beat her niece at will, although the niece's ancestry was questionable, so he did not believe that Agnes had suddenly gone mad.

"She told me to leave you, forever and ever." Fran replied. "And I didn't promise her, so I ......"

"She wouldn't do such an unkind thing, tell me, what the hell did she tell you!" Charles interrupted her, "I'll tell you again, I've been with her for more than ten years, and I know better than you who she is. ”

"I didn't lie to you! She told me to give up my love for you, to find someone else, to find any young talent to marry, and not to cause any trouble to you or anyone else. Fran had to explain right away, "For me, it's no different than asking me to leave you forever......

She ...... She asked for that? Charles finally understood.

Then he was speechless.

A few days ago, Agnes told him to his face that he wanted to restrain his desires and not make a big mistake, at that time he felt that something was wrong, this time she insisted on coming along, and the uneasiness in his heart became more and more intense, he didn't expect such a thing to happen so soon today.

"yes, that's what she demanded, and I didn't hesitate to refuse her, telling her I would never do it." Fran nodded, "Looks like my attitude has angered her"

All of a sudden he didn't know what to do, and although Agnes beat Fran, he ...... It's clearly for him.

Should she be blamed for being too zealous and interfering in other people's private affairs? Or do you blame yourself and Fran for causing a catastrophe that worries everyone?

He didn't know either.

Fran saw her brother's rare vacillation, and she understood that in her brother's heart, Agnes's status was really not low, so it was definitely not okay to deliberately say bad things, but she had another way.

"Sir...... It's all my fault. She closed her eyes slightly, "I deserve it, don't waste time here, go back and rest, it's not early, you have more important things to do." ”

"I don't have anything more important to me than your safety at the moment." Charles shook his head, "I'm just...... It's just that...... I don't know what to say. ”

"I put you in this situation, and if you want to blame, then blame me." Fran said with great sorrow, "I have committed a sin and deserve to be punished, and who will come back and have mercy on me?" Who needs to have mercy on me? Agnes is right, it's all my own self-willed self-inflicted fault. I...... I let myself get bogged down, and I was to blame for that. ”

"Alright, don't talk about it." Charles interrupted her in a muffled voice, "Don't you think I don't feel sorry for saying this?" ”

His hand slowly slid down his hair and landed on her neck.

Looking at the horrible redness and swelling around Fran's neck, Charles suddenly felt a pain in his chest.

"Ahh Fran suddenly screamed in pain. "Don't put your hands there, it hurts!"

When she was fiddled with by Agnes like this just now, she didn't beg for mercy or even cry out for pain, but now she kept crying out for pain, and finally called out the love in her brother's heart.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Charles immediately removed his hand, but his heart ached more and more.

"It's okay......" Fran smiled wryly.

Agnes ...... When Agnes left, she left me a note. After a moment of silence, Charles said slowly, "She told me to figure out all the consequences and make a decision myself." ”

"So what do you want to do?" Fran asked immediately. "Of course, you have complete freedom."

"What if we do what she asks?" Charles asked suddenly.

"What if...... If you do, I won't do much. Fran laughed wriekingly, "Really, I won't make a fuss about those things back then, and bring shame to the family and cause trouble for you...... I'm just going to leave, where you can't see, maybe...... Maybe that's a good solution for everyone, right? Perhaps many people are looking forward to such an ending. ”

"Why don't you understand, I don't want to see you die, I don't want you to die before me!" Charles couldn't control himself anymore and yelled at the other party, "You're still so young, God knows what kind of happiness awaits you, why...... Why always talk about this! ”

"I told Agnes just now, and I can tell you again...... I love you, sir, and it is not a sudden impulsive desire on my part, but the result of careful consideration. Everybody says we're precocious, and I'm sure that because I was already thinking about my life when I was in my early teens, how could I not think about it? Surrounded by a bunch of cold and even malicious people, everything is so disgusting, I ...... I look around the whole world, where does anyone exist? It's just a beating cold heart, wrapped in a skin bag with a false smile...... It's just you...... Only you are hot, shining, as if you know everything, can answer anything, but you love me with all your heart, and I feel alive only when you hold me...... Sir, hug me! ”

Her call seemed to have some magic, and Charles subconsciously opened her arms, and then Fran collapsed into his arms.

"Under such circumstances, how could I not fall in love with you at that time? How can you reproach me for being blindly infatuated with you? Fran's body almost trembled because of the excitement, "That's right, I later learned that I had a dream, a dream that made everyone sad, but even so, I still ...... I'm still proud of my decision and determined not to change it, absolutely never! ”

As she spoke, she suddenly coughed violently, apparently still aching from the injury she had just received. But she endured the pain with great courage and continued to shout, "You have the right not to respond to me, but you have no right to prevent me from disposing of my own life, yes, you either get it or die, I have only left myself two ways...... And already determined enough to go. ”

"Don't do this, don't do this, okay?" In the midst of the dilemma, Charles couldn't help but cry, "I am the Imperial Minister, I am powerful, and everyone flatters me...... I play God in front of others, you know? It's been a long time since I've begged anyone, but I really want to ask you, don't die, okay? I've seen you die once, and that time was so painful that I would never repeat it again, wanting you to die before me. So, count me in begging you, okay? Don't talk about life and death! ”

"As I said, it's just you...... Only you care so much about my life and death, which makes me believe that my choice is the right one, and it can't be more correct. Fran couldn't help crying, both as she was confessing her heart and feeling sorry for having pushed her brother to this point. But...... But if I really leave you, living like this is a kind of torment, a torment that makes people want to die immediately! You said that you had seen me die before, and it was very uncomfortable, but the time I died, I was not uncomfortable, on the contrary, I felt relieved...... Because I was devoured by despair then! I didn't want to experience the feeling of being consumed by despair again, it only made me want to say goodbye even more. ”

"Of course...... If you must implore me, I ...... I'll try to survive," Fran smiled wryly, "after all, even those ascetics survived, didn't they?" I don't think it's more painful than they are. I promise that if you really choose to do so, I will not blame you, because you made a decision that is beneficial to everyone, and I will not die until the moment when I really can't stick to it. ”

"No...... No, I must not accept it...... I can't accept that you're living like this. Charles shook his head miserably. I'd rather let our brothers and sisters be willful once and let everyone down once. I've lived long enough for my grandfather and for everyone, and I only want to be willful once...... It should be okay to be willful only once, right? ”

"You ......," Fran was ecstatic.

"Okay, okay, I promise you, but not now." Charles took her into his arms, "Now I don't have enough henchmen, my allies aren't strong enough, I can't do whatever I want, I can't do anything and just leave one thing completely in the dark. ”

"I can wait, I can afford to wait!" Fran replied immediately. "I can make any sacrifice for the sake of our happiness. Believe me, sir, and I will help you become the one who can dominate everything! Please, keep me by your side. ”

"Until then, you'll need to get some sleep." Charles let go of his embrace and put her back on the bed.

"I'll sleep for you all day." Fran closed her eyes in obedience, and then suddenly seemed to think of something. "By the way, how could she know so many things? Could it be that she told ......"

"Never speak ill of her in front of me!" Charles yelled, interrupting her, "Do you know how sorry we are for her? In the future, if you say anything bad about her in front of me, I will beat you! ”

"I'm sorry, sir." Fran didn't dare to say more, so she pulled up the quilt and covered her head. (To be continued.) )