biu！ biubiubiu！

All morning, Peter was playing in the garden with his daughter Sophia, while father and daughter were engaged in a frenzied 'shootout', firing each other with their fingers in the style of a pistol.

biubiu！

Woo - hate Daddy! Lazy! You're cheating! Hate Daddy!

Three-year-old Sophia, led by Peter, looks more active than the other girls, and she doesn't get tired from running all morning.

"I don't do anything that's good for my body and bad for my family. I don't do anything that is good for my family and bad for my country... Whew—"

Catherine, who was also sitting in the garden reading a book, looked up at the magnificent blue of the blue sky and couldn't help but sigh.

As soon as she remembered the story that Peter told her at the early morning dinner, Catherine felt a great deal of greatness.

"What's my black apple? What should I give up? ”

If you ask yourself, Catherine has never felt that others are sorry for her. For the sake of her mother's vanity, she endured hardships all the way to St. Petersburg, and had to play with the fool in the harsh cold winter and under the nose of the empress who pierced her heart like an ice blade; In order to change the fate of the poor little German princess, who has only two dresses to bring out, she must force herself to learn basic conversational Russian writing and royal etiquette in three months, betraying the faith she was given at birth and changing to Orthodoxy... Isn't it all about having a loving family and a pair of lovely children?

Obviously, I have endured so much, and I am about to achieve what I want, I will no longer be despised, looked down upon, and despised, and I can have what I really like and do what I really like, but I was beaten by my husband as a stuffy stick, and I was at a loss, as if I suddenly fell into the cracks in the ground, stuck in the air, desperately struggling to climb back to the ground but couldn't move, and I couldn't move if I wanted to indulge myself like this. And so on, struggling helplessly. The light is like a thin thread that can be closed at any time; The abyss is like the boundless night sky, deep and unfathomable. At this moment, only books are like a small branch growing horizontally on the cliff, just catching the panicked and confused self. But, God, this tiny branch is about to break... No, it's not a branch, it's a dark hand that is teasing itself! Why, did you turn to this sentence? What else can I do? I can't do anything, I! Lord, what are you trying to imply with Montesquieu's words? What more can I give up? Oh my god - is that fool deliberately teasing me and taunting me?

Once upon a time, Catherine had always called Peter a fool in her heart. In fact, long before their wedding, Catherine had lowered her expectations for this marriage. Although he is not the tall, handsome and graceful duke who is like a prince charming, he is finally the heir of a huge empire, and he will become a country at all, so he can bear it with his nose. It's a pity that I underestimate the crazy rulers and stupid successors of this crazy empire, and my bottom line has dropped again and again. After five years of marriage, he can maintain his virginity as if no one is around; Even though he knew that the fool was out there and other women, he could go to balls and dinners as if nothing had happened; Except for Mikhail, who knew astronomy and geography, and was well-versed in modern and modern languages. Dean Romanosov himself can almost say that he has no friends to talk to. Of course, if you have a spiritual exchange with the author of your favorite book, then your friends can be considered all over the European continent, hehe.

But now, everything seems to be about to collapse, and the vase-like character I set for myself is about to shatter... What is this? Do you want to force yourself to sacrifice more? I still... What else can be paid? For this so-called home, I have endured so much pain, so much helplessness, so much grievance and depression, and countless compromises in my heart, but in exchange for more compulsion and compromise! As a mother, she can't even take care of her own children, and the vicious woman who forcibly took her brother away is an existence that she can't resist no matter what! However, his husband never even had the will to resist, he, is he a fool? No, he's not just stupid, he's just stupid, incompetent scrap! Why, why is his fate so bumpy? After learning that her newly married husband was infected with the dying smallpox virus, she had already decided to be buried together, why didn't she end it all together? If...

Forget it, it is meaningless to think back to the past, but the thing in front of you is the cruel status quo that you will eventually face no matter how you escape it, whether you take the initiative to break this branch that maintains the light, or wait for it to break slowly but inevitably, is the choice you will eventually face.