Chapter 15: Memories and Reflections
"Power is indeed an intoxicating thing." Xu Jun sat in the back seat of the wide car, looked out the window at the streets of Warsaw, and sighed softly.
"General, what are you talking about in front of you?"
Hans, who was sitting across from him, turned his gaze back from the window and asked suspiciously.
"Nothing. Hans. ”
Xu Jun raised his eyes to look at the adjutant's clear eyes, and replied with a smile: "It's just a sigh." Xu Jun said as he took out a delicate silver flask from a small drawer next to his seat, which, judging from the logo on it, contained Bordeaux red wine from 02.
"Oh." Hans nodded, and seeing that the Commander was fine, he turned his head and began to look out the window again.
Xu Jun gently took a sip of the red wine that exuded a faint fragrance, leaned his head on the comfortable cushion on the back of the chair, and slowly closed his eyes. What have you done since you came into this world? How did I become like this, why did I fall to such a point? Xu Jun closed his eyes, he thought back to the road he had traveled since he came to this world, and he couldn't help but feel a lot of emotion.
A month ago, I was an ordinary graduate student in the history department, a Chinese student who was not very honest but was also a good one. A young man who aims to be as great a historian as his grandfather. If you were still in the original time and space, you must be able to spend your life in peace and happiness. But now, everything is illusory, and those pleasant memories have become so far away from me, as far away as the memories of past lives. Yes, it was indeed a previous life, and in that world he was already dead.
Xu Jun smiled bitterly, opened his eyes, he raised his head and took a big sip of Bordeaux from 02 years, the rich fragrance and wonderful taste made him feel a little better. He looked up at Hans, who was sitting across from him, and the adjutant was still curiously watching the scenery outside the window, not noticing himself. Xu Jun sighed softly and closed his eyes again.
I am no longer the confident and happy young student I used to be. Since coming to this world, Xu Jun has found that he has slowly begun to change with the world, becoming more and more strange and more and more frightening. When those battle plans and intrigues jumped out of his mind one by one, even he didn't believe that such things could be come up on his own.
He was terrified of the changes he had made, and he had never thought of harming anyone, let alone killing thousands of people he didn't know. But now, he has made a plan to kill hundreds of thousands of British and French soldiers who have nothing to do with him, and he has even set up countless conspiracy traps that even he feels despicable and shameless in order to realize that plan.
I used all the knowledge I had learned before on how to kill people more, faster, and more perfectly, and I used the knowledge that should contribute to the development of mankind to the political struggle against intrigue and deceit. This is something that the teachers who teach them will never think of it.
Xu Jun felt that he had become more and more bloodthirsty from the moment he came here, and every time he won a battle, he felt extremely excited, proud and proud of his plan to kill countless enemies, but he rarely thought about how many families his plan had brought pain and sorrow. Why? Is it simply because they are enemies? I have been saying to myself that if I don't defeat those enemies, then I will be defeated by them, so everything I do, whatever means I use is reasonable, and I am defending myself.
But he knew very well in his heart that these were just excuses, and he had been deceiving himself. When you get pleasure and satisfaction from the blood pool of those soldiers, you are no longer pure, you are fighting to satisfy your own **, and you are fighting for the incomparable excitement and bloody stimulation that the war brings to you. At that time, he had completely ignored that he was on the side of injustice, that he was invading other people's homes, and that he had come up with countless vicious schemes and traps just to satisfy his vanity and get that kind of stimulation. Even he was still complacent about receiving those beautiful medals and honors, but he never thought carefully that behind these medals and exploits were the corpses of countless soldiers who sacrificed their lives to defend their country and their dignity. My heart is actually full of war ** like Hitler's madman, but by the time I understand this, it is too late, I have already fallen into it, and I am completely addicted to this bloody game.
Another thing that changes oneself is power, the most magical thing in the world, and countless people are willing to give their lives to pursue it. It's the huge power you have, the power that you can do what you do, and the dark ** in your heart.
Let Germany embark on the path of justice, let those evil deeds disappear from the world, and let their motherland China stand on the top of the world again, these glorious ideals have set themselves on the road to seize more power. In order to obtain enough power, he began to become unscrupulous, but when those powers were really in his hands, he found that these powers had been stained with the blood of countless innocent people. And whether he who has been tainted by those blood is still qualified to achieve those noble and glorious goals, Xu Jun really doesn't want to know.
He only knew that those ideals had now become the excuse and motivation for his crazy power-grabbing behavior. His actions in Poland had become completely out of touch with justice, and nearly half of the Nazi officials he executed were completely innocent workers, who fell victim to the purges he had launched to vent his anger. And he was still there thinking about using this massacre to make a complete break with Hitler, although he was indeed full of disgust with Hitler and his Nazi Reich, but this could not be used as a reason for him to be so anxious to turn against him. In the bottom of my heart, all I wanted was the power that Hitler had, and there was no other high-sounding reason.
That power has been tempting you from the beginning, and with that power you can do everything you want in the world, you can make national policies based on your likes and dislikes, and you can use the huge power you have at your disposal to accomplish those ideals. Is it all about ideals? The biggest reason is to satisfy your own **.
Thinking of this, Xu Jun took another big sip of wine.
I have already begun to fall, since I have fallen, then continue to fall, as long as I still have those great ideals in my heart, even if I am soaked in the blood of innocents, but there will still be a clean pure land in my heart. What if you become a demon yourself in order to achieve those goals? Fall, in the dirtiest and most chaotic era in the history of this country, only the fall can be successful, and those who still maintain a righteous heart in the dirty political struggle will have no chance of survival, and in a country controlled by evil, only more evil than evil can defeat evil. In this case, simply let the darkness in your heart burst out, let those devils know that there are more evil demon kings in the world than them, and let them taste all the pain they have brought to others and return to the place where they came from and return to the place where they came from, to the place with remorse.
Thinking of this, Xu Jun smiled bitterly again. It seems that his sense of justice is indeed deep-rooted, and now he is looking for reasons for himself again, and the ** who wants to satisfy himself is the real reason. It seems that he is still not sober enough, and there is no justice or evil in this war of politics and interests, and justice only belongs to the victor. And those innocent people who died in the struggle should be considered to have sacrificed their lives for the sake of justice. Since your goal is righteous, then the evil in the process can also be written off, and then who will know that you are evil except yourself.
However, this is not entirely accurate, in fact, there is no difference between absolute justice and absolute evil in human behavior. It is only in human consciousness that there is a difference between these two things, and they are constantly changing according to the different angles from which the observer observes things, and there can be righteous evil or evil justice, and everything is between people's thoughts. Now I just need to follow my own path according to the ** in my heart, since fate has pushed me on this dusty road, then simply let go of my mood and dye black feathers to be a real fallen angel, it is also a thousand times happier than the hypocritical apostle of God who is afraid that his robe will be dusty.
Xu Jun finally let go of the burden in his heart, since he is no longer an angel, then let's be a successful demon, anyway, the goal of both is the same, to send everyone to heaven, but the means are different.
Thinking of this, Xu Jun had a smile on his face, and he took another long sip of wine to show his celebration of the fact that he had figured out a problem that had been bothering him for a long time.
Xu Jun looked at the street outside the window and felt extremely relaxed in his heart. Now the whole of Poland is under his control, and everything is back on track. Although Xu Jun had selected some of the Nazi officials who had survived the purge to reorganize the administration, the management was still very flawed, and as a result, Xu Jun simply used a large number of former Polish municipal officials to run their cities, and the work of these officials was still supervised by German officials. The Poles did a good job, and it seems that there will be no major fatigue for the time being, at least for a short time.
Warsaw and other Polish cities were back in business for a day, with little change except for the fact that the guards who had patrolled the streets had been replaced by Waffen-SS soldiers. Xu Jun is very satisfied that he has completed the restoration of social order in such a short period of time.
At this moment, a group of Waffen-SS soldiers walked on the sidewalk not far from Xu Jun's car, and they saw the most conspicuous luxury Mercedes in Warsaw from a long distance, and the Nazi party flag and rank mark painted on the fenders proved the identity of the owner. The soldiers waited until the car approached and stood upright, and then neatly saluted with guns, and Xu Jun also gave those soldiers a military salute in the car after seeing this scene.
Loyalty, seeing those soldiers, Xu Jun secretly sighed, can he really gain everyone's loyalty?
At that meeting the day before yesterday, he had obtained the oath of allegiance from all the officers, and he was so moved that he could not control his feelings. But after thinking about it carefully, whether he really gained their loyalty, maybe not. Some of these officers are indeed loyal to themselves, such as those officers of the army, who were all raised by themselves. These are real front-line combat officers, who were only mid-level ranks until they were promoted, so they haven't had time to be corrupted by the social circles of those high-ranking officers, their oaths can be trusted, and their loyalty can be trusted. Not to mention their three lieutenants, they can let Jack with them means that they don't have any background of power, and their identities are absolutely clean. And I haven't been wooing them any less during this time, so there won't be any problems with their loyalty.
I was worried about the Waffen-SS officers, who, although they swore allegiance to them, were a little more compelled by the situation. They probably also know that if they don't pledge their allegiance to them, they'll be the next ones they want to kill. These officers are not stupid, they know that the circumstances they find themselves in do not allow them to make the second option. However, since they have sworn an oath, they just want to reassure themselves about them, so if these officers are promoted a little in the future, and then give them a little sweetness, they can still be loyal to themselves, but it will take some time.
However, he was well aware that there were actually two traitors among those who had taken the oath. Immediately after returning to their residence, they reported to the Imperial Security Bureau what had happened at the meeting, and ironically the report was on their desks an hour later. They underestimated their own strength, but they also made themselves attentive to the officers who had sworn allegiance. It is also true to think that the Waffen-SS officers, unlike the army officers, must be a loyal Nazi party member before they can be an officer, and many of their speeches at the meeting yesterday were directly aimed at their great Führer, and of course they will be resistant. But these two guys completely miscalculated the form, if they reported to Hitler before they took military power, then they and the officers attending the meeting would definitely not be able to escape Hitler's punishment, but in the current form, Hitler could not do anything to himself. Their loyalty to the Führer would not only bring them no benefit, but would also cost them their lives. After careful consideration, Xu Jun decided not to touch these two fools for now, and kept them to maybe come in handy in the later confrontation.
They made Xu Jun deeply feel the weight of Hitler in the minds of Nazi party members, and he seemed to be 10,000 more careful in this direct confrontation with Hitler.
Xu Jun knew very well in his heart that now was the best time to pull Hitler off the horse, and if he didn't fight him down now, then he would never have such a chance. If the French campaign had been won, Hitler's prestige in the eyes of the German people would have risen to the highest level, and the generals of the army would have turned to the Führer according to the situation at that time. By that time, it was too late to do anything. Only now, when he is on a par with Hitler in the limelight and power, can he succeed.
Xu Jun knew that he was making a gamble, and the stakes were on the country, and the winner would own the country, and the loser would lose his life. Now that he has played his first card, it is now up to the Führer to suppress his cards with what kind of cards he will use, and none of his plans can be implemented until Hitler makes his move, and what his next move will now depend on Hitler's actions.
But what makes Xu Jun puzzled now is that after three full days, Hitler still has no reaction, which makes people feel very abnormal. Xu Jun felt that there was always a little bad feeling in his heart, and he clearly knew that if he couldn't catch Hitler's next card, it would be a disaster to wait for him.
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