At that time, when Dad said this, he didn't go any further.

I guess it's because Shi Yuanzheng's circumstances have caused him to remember his own past, because his bad past is not much better than Xiaopeng's father.

The most cruel way to deal with a person is to find a mirror so that he can see himself clearly and see what he really is.

Although my parents refused to tell it anymore, I could still hear the follow-up from relatives and friends, and of course, it was also after years of trivial fragment organization that I made the next story show its original appearance.

In fact, at first, I couldn't understand why witnessing the execution this time would have such a big impact on Xiaopeng's father, so that he was from the slump of Murong Xuan Chapter 14 and could no longer return to the rude and indulgent and unscrupulous state he had at the beginning?

It stands to reason that he has seen a lot of killing, no, even if he kills people with his own hands, he is used to it, just because the concubines and their families are killed, how can it bring him such a big blow? According to common sense, he should shrug his shoulders, say a few bullshit nonsense such as "destiny is like this, red face died early", and then put this experience behind him, that is what he "Yellow King" should do.

Later, after a long time, I gradually understood the reason for this: quite simply, his fortifications for many years had collapsed, and even from the day it was moved out of the Tang Dynasty, it was gradually weathered.

It was Director Liang's words that completely chiseled through the cornerstone of his life, and his simple questions turned Shi Yuanzheng's life creed, which he had firmly believed in all his life, into a ridiculous monkey trick, making him suddenly glimpse the absurdity of his decades......

He was struck in the midst of unprecedented confusion, confusion and self-questioning.

What's more, I didn't learn until later that the girl who questioned Tang Xizong had also left indelible traces of Murong Xuan Chapter 14 in Shi Yuanzheng's past life.........

It is said that she is the daughter of the Li Tang clan, and after the royal family, she was already married, and she was waiting to get married when the time came.

The girl's family was married to a high-ranking family, and although the girl's father was a member of the royal family, he was also excited to be able to climb the Shi clan.

However, while waiting for the wedding, Huang Chao's army captured Chang'an City, and the girl's family, who did not have time to escape in preparation for the marriage, were all captured, including her fiancé's family, which also fell into the hands of the rebels. The girl was sent to the Yellow Nest along with a large group of women with the same clan background as her. And she was the first to be selected because of her beautiful appearance. So far, her family's life has also been saved.

But the pampered girl never showed a happy expression, always a faint look, her coldness attracted Huang Chao's attention, and after inquiring, he learned about this girl.

So, Huang Chao promised her that as long as she was kind to herself, then he would release her fiancé and his father.

Otherwise, he ordered them to be killed. After thinking about it for a few days, the girl finally changed her attitude.

I often wonder why girls should change their attitudes. She was originally a fierce woman, which can be seen from the final ending, although the other party is her son-in-law and father-in-law, but this marriage was arranged by her father, and her parents may value each other's family more than her own happiness. Although they want to marry into a famous family, in fact, two unmarried men and women, I am afraid they don't have much true feelings. And what she has to face at this moment is the recklessness that crawled out of the mud, and asking her, a royal girl, to let go of her dignity and turn to meet a bandit leader, it should be more uncomfortable than death.

But she did, she really became warm and gentle, and like the other women who were afraid of angering the Yellow Nest, she gave up the coldness and reserve that she had held on to before.

Does she really love her husband and in-laws that much? Or is she finally tired and wants to abandon her dignity and live a little easier?

I'm afraid it's neither, she's here to save those two lives.

Her transformation made Huang Chao very happy, he felt that he had conquered another woman, she was so beautiful and arrogant, as untouchable as an iceberg, but now, she still bowed to him and was willing to be one of his concubines.

So, after spoiling this girl for a while, Huang Chao lost interest in her.

Yes, she is very beautiful, but there are hundreds of women sent in the palace, and there are always different styles to attract the taste of Huang Chao, no matter how beautiful she is, for Huang Chao, she loses her challenging.

It didn't take long for him to leave her behind, including his promise to her.

It was after some time, through a very fortuitous chance, that Huang Chao learned that the girl's fiancé and his father had been killed by drunken subordinates for no reason, and the body was thrown on the street without anyone to clean it up.

It was just one of the thousands of tragedies at that time, in the late Tang Dynasty, after the royal family, the Shandong scholars...... These illusory names are even worse than a firewood knife for self-preservation.

Huang Chao, who learned about this, regretted a little in his heart, he felt that he had broken his promise, it was he who personally promised the girl to save her fiancé's life, and now he did not do it.

But what can be done? Huang Chao thought, anyway, it's not a day or two for his subordinates to come here, which day will they not kill three or five royal families to vent their anger? He couldn't control these men, so he had to let them go.

Fortunately, he doesn't love her anymore, he broke his promise, so it's good not to see her again.

Indeed, he never saw her again until ......

Until I saw her head, which was cut off to the ground with a knife.

As a mere spectator thousands of years later, I still feel sad when I tell this story. As a party to Shi Yuanzheng, the impact must have been thousands of times more severe than that of an outsider like me.

He should have fulfilled his promise to rescue the girl's husband and father-in-law, and he could obviously send the unmarried man and woman out of Chang'an City and let them continue their lives that had nothing to do with him. If you are reluctant at first, then you will lose interest later, and you can always let go.

He could have saved her life, but he didn't do it because he was "too lazy to do that."

He had broken his trust in the world, and now he had lost his trust in her.

He's a man who can't keep any promises.

Again, he didn't cherish anything he had in his hands at all, and he didn't seriously think about the future at all.

So, after a long period of silence and depression, Shi Yuanzheng put forward two requirements: first, break up with Ling Juan; Second, I hope that the institute will send itself back to the Tang Dynasty - the latter, to put it bluntly, is to throw himself into a dead end.

During that time, Shi Yuanzheng did not eat, drink, or speak, 1 Xiao said α

Almost driving her girlfriend crazy, she cried all night, begging him not to always think about death, she begged him to come out of the dead end, try to think about the future, think about the future of both of them. She also didn't agree to break up with him, she said that she didn't care who he was or what he did, in short, she wanted to be with him. But Director Ling's plea had no effect, and it was no wonder that Xiaopeng's father's sense of self-worth had been reduced to zero at that time, and he even doubted his own existence, he felt that he should have died a long time ago, it was better to die in the Tang Dynasty, and he should not live one more day.

He even told Director Ling that the breakup was for her good, for so many years, he had never brought any happiness to the people around him, and if he was with him, he would only be unlucky, and he would be unlucky, he would be a tireless bastard. Now he had nothing left but her, so he couldn't destroy the only treasure anymore, or he might as well die immediately.

Shi Yuanzheng's pain caused Director Ling's pain, and in the end, the young woman actually blamed Director Liang for all this, if Director Liang hadn't come up with such a poisonous plan to hurt them, she could have started a happy life with Shi Yuanzheng.

Then, Director Ling went to Director Liang, and she told Director Liang that she was going to marry Shi Yuanzheng. It is said that Director Liang looked at her like watching a funny movie!

"Married?" He said, "You're crazy?!" Married to a Tang Dynasty man?! And he's a murderous reckless! ”

But this angry young girl doesn't care about what kind of murder is like hemp or recklessness, she just wants to marry Shi Yuanzheng, this is the only way she can think of at that time, she hopes to use marriage to re-tie up Shi Yuanzheng who has broken up.

Originally, the matter of marriage was a matter for the two of them, and whether Director Ling wanted to marry Shi Yuanzheng or not was up to her, but when it came to the formalities, it was not their own business.

Shi Yuanzheng didn't even have an identity certificate in modern society, and Director Liang originally planned to wait for him to fully adapt to it, and then go through this series of procedures for him, but later because his behavior angered Director Liang, he simply stopped all of this, "As for when to give him an ID card, it depends on his future performance."

There is no hukou, no identity certificate, there is no way to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to get married, at that time was still in the early days of reform and opening up, that era is not like today, no marriage, cohabitation is still no problem, at that time there is no specific identity, there is no solid "unit", people in the society is simply difficult to move an inch

Therefore, the biggest problem in front of Director Ling is to get this identity for Shi Yuanzheng.

But she also knew that as long as Director Liang didn't let go, Shi Yuanzheng would not be able to get a legal identity, and their marriage would become a flash in the pan.

Director Liang thought that as long as he didn't regress on this point, then the student would have no way to achieve his goal, but he didn't expect that a month later, Director Ling came to the door again, and this time, she brought a physical examination.

"I'm pregnant." She said, "Director, please approve my marriage to Shi Yuanzheng." ”

The inspection report brought by Director Ling was like a heavy bomb!

Director Liang is so angry that he wants to go crazy! He said that Director Ling had lost his mind, and he also said what made you dizzy and do such a thing?! Do you know what you're doing? You're ruining your life!

But Director Ling said that it was her own business to ruin her life, and it had nothing to do with Director Liang, in short, Shi Yuanzheng could not be sent back to the Tang Dynasty now, otherwise the child in her womb would have no father, and she must immediately give him an identity, otherwise the child would become an illegitimate child - the disciple of the famous returned scholar Liang Yi was unmarried and pregnant, and gave birth to a child of the Tang Dynasty.

Director Liang was enraged, he even suspected that the pregnancy or something was done by Director Ling himself, and the examination report was simply forged, Director Liang found a doctor from the affiliated hospital of the institute to re-examine Director Ling.

The inspection report came out, and Director Ling was indeed pregnant.

At that time, Director Liang stared at the report, and his face turned pale!

But looking at it, he realized that something was not right, according to the date of pregnancy, Director Ling was conceived at the time when Dr. Xu left, which means that it is very likely that when she was pregnant, Dr. Xu had not left.

After realizing this, Director Liang thought he had grasped the key, and he laughed.

He said, Xiaojuan, do you want to lie to me with Xu Zhongheng's child? If you are pregnant, it is best to inform Xiao Xu as soon as possible and let him come back to the office.

Well, I think that Director Liang's thinking fully interprets four words: self-deception.

He didn't believe that his proud protégé Feng Feng could do such a thing, so his sophisticated mind quickly found a reasonable explanation for him.

Even if a fool can see it, the explanation is pure nonsense.

Then Director Ling smiled bitterly. She said that the child had nothing to do with Xu Zhongheng, because Xu Zhongheng had never touched her.

Director Ling's words broke Director Liang's self-righteous assumptions.

He stared at Director Ling like a poisonous snake and said, "So, when Xiao Xu was still by your side, you got together with that guy?" Have you forgotten who he is? Are you willing to lie down for a man who can be your father? ”

Director Liang's words were extremely ugly, and even his tone at that time had a harsh sound similar to metal scraping, which was an extremely uncomfortable feeling.

"Oh, you're wrong." Director Ling's voice suddenly became very brisk, and a happy smile appeared on her face, "That time, I seduced him.

In the office, it's as quiet as a grave!

You may be surprised, why I, a junior, even know such unspeakable details, and you can't blame me, because it was not only Director Liang and Director Ling who were present at that time, but also the two doctors who sent the medical examination report, and they didn't even close the door of the office, and the fierce argument could even be heard in the corridor......

I think Director Ling did it on purpose.

She was very happy to see her teacher hurt and poked by her words, just like a girl who has always been obedient and obedient, insisting on her will for the first time, and after arguing with her parents fiercely, she saw the other party trembling with anger The kind of vicious happiness.

I even doubt that there is much truth in her words, because it is obvious that Director Ling is no longer stating the facts, she just wants to fight back, and wants to take revenge on the person who hurt her and her husband.

Director Liang stared at his students as if he didn't know her at all!

He has always treated her as a good girl who is pure, clean, self-disciplined and rigorous, who would have thought that overnight, she would become a shameless and bottom-line swinger.

Over the years, they have been as close as a real father and daughter and trust each other, but no one expected that in the end, the relationship between the two would become so awkward that they had to stab each other to maintain it.

I think that was the first time Director Ling had tasted that kind of happiness: the joy of trampling on all established rules.

It was Shi Yuanzheng who changed her, it was his "chaos" that made her aware of the boredom of her previous rules, although she was extremely resistant to this "chaos", Director Ling was still deeply attracted to him......

So later, I often wondered why Director Ling wanted to divorce Xiaopeng's father later, was it really because of the reason she said, "I am constantly aging"? She obviously knew that Xiaopeng's father didn't care about that.

Maybe it's because she is disappointed day by day to find that the transformed "good" Shi Yuanzheng, the spikes of thousands of years ago, have been completely dulled by this numb era, thus losing the arrogant and unbridled moving charm of the early years. He could no longer break the rules at will, but had to be timid in order to obey them. As a result, the more Shi Yuanzheng integrates into modern society, the more he is at ease in this era, and the more he is promoted and makes money, the shallower and fading his primitive charm becomes, although this is once the result that the couple hope to see together.

What Director Ling's intellect wants is a sound modern person, an ordinary man who can adapt to the development of modern society; But what her emotions want is the recklessness of the Tang Dynasty who is rude and cares about all the established rules. Just like before, her reason understood that Xu Zhongheng was the right husband candidate, but in the end, she went to Shi Yuanzheng's arms.

There is no such thing as a truly "sensible" person in the world, and if the prefrontal cortex, which controls emotions, is damaged, this person will not become extremely rational and intelligent, he will only watch his life fall apart, and he will sit on the ground and be at a loss.

Because he has no "emotion", that is the cornerstone of all human choices and judgments.

In the activity of human beings, reason has never really triumphed over emotion, not in the past, nor in the future.

…… So, in the surprised eyes of everyone, Director Liang slowly walked back to the desk and sat down.

His student, still standing in front of him, crossed her waist and head held high, looked proud like an Amazonian warrior.

In the end, Director Liang didn't say anything more, he just waved his hand dejectedly and spit out two words: out.

A week later, Director Ling dragged Shi Yuanzheng, who had just obtained a new identity that day, to the Civil Affairs Bureau.

The feud between Director Liang and Director Ling lasted for nearly a year, and it was not until Shi Yunpeng was born that the two were reluctantly reconciled, but after that, their master and apprentice could never return to the original state of no suspicion.

And Shi Yuanzheng's state only improved after the birth of his son, because he finally found that he was not really worthless: there was a woman who loved him who wanted to live with him, and there was a child he wanted to be raised by him. These are all ropes, pulling him out little by little when he almost fell into the abyss of despair.

Of course, his son later suffered such a catastrophe that he almost pushed him into the abyss of the old past...... That's for another story.

It's just that when I knew everything, when I saw the man again at the gathering of relatives and friends, I was surprised to find those vicissitudes hidden in the subtle traces. He is indeed not young anymore, no, I'm not talking about **, but, his body has long lost the brilliance of the legendary "Rushing General" in the past, the kind of gorgeous brilliance that is dazzling because of anger.

Over the years, he has struggled so long and tired that he has even forgotten the meaning of the struggle itself.

So, in the long years of washing, he gradually became a gentle, quiet and tired ordinary middle-aged man.

Appendix

BG: Su Rui's "Love is Complete".

Su Rui is the kind of veteran female singer who was popular in the last century and is no longer young, but she is very suitable for Ling Juan, and the lyrics are very good. In addition, there is Lun Yongliang's version, which is another flavor of the male singer, both can be found in Sogou, please choose according to your taste!!