"It's all the result of your nonsense, don't complain, just blame yourself! This life can only be lived by hard work, and there will be no good things in the sky that will drop pies, and there will be times when it can't hit your head. If you are old and not old, you don't want to be ambitious, sad and hateful! As the saying goes, 'you can afford to raise pigs, you can afford to raise pens, you can afford to manage food'. Why are you still marrying a wife and having children? Isn't that a bad thing?" Liu Xingmei dropped these words and turned around and walked out.

"You don't-"

Chu Yunzhao didn't say the word "go", he squatted on the ground and covered his face and made a choked sound.

Low self-esteem and self-esteem are two coexisting twins, interdependent and mutually exclusive, which is why ambivalence can occur.

When people arrive, dignity is to be fought for, and inferiority is given by themselves!

Liu Xingmei spat on the ground angrily, and left without looking back. I was thinking in my heart: If a woman falls into such a man, she will have fallen into blood mold for eight lifetimes, and it will be her misfortune!

She hurried straight to the field on the east side of the village, scolding angrily along the way: "Coward! Impotent! Instigating! Damn it! Sometimes the days go by, the chest is shy and the majesty is all sides, and when the days go by, I hate to be able to stick my head into the crotch and hide it, I look down on such a man!"

When you cross a small dirt slope, you can condescendingly look into the distance, there are a few adults gathered on the surface of the fairy river, from a distance it looks like they are digging ice fishing, the surface of the river that has not yet melted can still bear people, but there is also a certain danger lurking, and it is very likely to happen if you fall into the ice cave.

Looking at the seemingly empty field, it was easy for the three figures of the mother and son who were dancing to jump into her eyes, and she saw that her eyes were sour, and she quickly rushed down the dirt slope, and the gusts of wind fluttered the long braid behind her like a black snake writhing.

Chu Ge's eyes were sharp, and he saw Liu Xingmei when he turned his head. So, the mother and son all stopped.

When Liu Xingmei came to her, she looked at everything, but she looked expressionless.

The faces of the mother and son were all embarrassed, Liu Xiang pursed the corners of her lips, without the kindness and enthusiasm of the past, Chu Ge's little face was frozen as if it had the color of a purple radish.

Shen Qinqi straightened down and asked lightly, "Why are you here?"

"Can I find out what you're doing if I don't come?"

Shen Qinqi smiled bitterly, she wiped her sweaty forehead with her sleeve and said, "Let you see you laugh!"

"Do you think I can laugh out?"

"Yes! I don't think you can laugh either. You see, just this egg-headed land, there is not much grain harvested in a year, and in a good year, the four people eat, and those who don't eat rice just drink thin, and they have to dip it like sesame salt in less than a year! Is it easy to dig in the dirt? Now that the horns have been opened into the ground, there are more rocks here, and I can't wait to turn the earth over and plant them! In the past, sometimes I was stupid and didn't think about the future! What do you say this day is messing around, what do you want, I have lived enough, and I can't see a head if I scratch it tightly, it's really better to die and be calm!"

"You have to think widely, don't be like Liu Cuihua, don't look at anything else, you have to look at two underage children! In any case, you're going to have to make these two little rice bugs bigger, it's the responsibility of parents. Life is no matter how hard and difficult it is, you have to live, at least there is a family with both children and daughters, and when you die, you will leave everything behind, can you, a mother, bear to let go? When you close your eyes, your heart is calm, but what about them? Don't say anything, pack up and go back with me. If there is a difficulty, you have to go back and find a way to solve it, the living can not let the urine suffocate to death, there must be a road before the car reaches the mountain, and there is no flame mountain that cannot be crossed. ”

"Is it that I can't live?"

"It's hard for a good woman to cook without rice!"

"At what time is it difficult for a clever woman to cook without rice, and there is no food, and there is no way to stare at it, this family of four can't stare at the neck and wait to starve to death! But these days are really getting more and more boring! There is nothing to eat, let alone seeds that need to be ploughed and planted!"

"It's not that sentence, the more the days go by, the more lazy you are! Don't say anything, it's all your fault, who told you to stand up to a man who doesn't fight?!"

"What could be done now? It's useless to say anything! During the period of grinding tofu in the past, I was busy in the middle of the night on the fifth watch, although I couldn't make a few dollars, I didn't have to worry about food and clothing, and my life was also steady, and I was more than enough than the top. But since he learned to smoke and gamble, his life has been worse day by day, and he has not done his job all day long. In the past, there was no gambling here, so he secretly ran out of dozens of miles away to gamble, and he also learned to smoke a big cigarette elsewhere. He would never have thought that there would be a time when he was so hungry that his chest was pressed against his back, and his three intestines were idle for two and a half! Not to mention food, not even a pack of matches and a handful of salt noodles! Seeing that the two children are getting older day by day, what can they do if they have nothing to do, they almost starve to death!"

"I regret that I can't buy it! No matter how poor and hard the days are, I have to stutter up, look at my brother and his flat head and straight face, a big man encounters a little difficulty and becomes a pile of mud, at the top is a coward, I really look down on such a man! If this man is not angry, the woman will wait for her share of sin! What dignity does a man who wants to die save face and suffer sin? When something happens, it becomes a turtle with a shrunken head, how can such a nest of waste support a family! ”

"Now it's useless to resent him and hate him, people can't accept their fate in this life! People are sick and suffer by themselves, the days are difficult when they go uphill, and the things that go downhill are slippery, who doesn't want to be good, they have to have that life, right?! I never dreamed that there would be a time when I would fight with rats for food! The child's father doesn't have any brothers and sisters, so he doesn't have a foil to take care of each other, so it's naturally not easier than others. This single-family family will inevitably be lonely. His father and mother died early, otherwise they would have to suffer (sin) with them! ”

"That being said, but don't forget that 'if you are not rich, you will not be full', and when you will have to rely on your own rake for firewood, and rely on your own small padded jacket to survive the winter. It is important to remember that 'rainstorms are fleeting, but water flows forever', and what is needed to live a life is to be diligent and thrifty. ”

Liu Xingmei raised her foot as she spoke, and kicked over a dustpan containing rat food, which was packed together and about touched to have a small handful of sorghum, mung beans, millet, and bud rice, which was also mixed with grass clippings and mouse feces, which had been sprinkled all over the ground at this time. Look at a dig that has been excavated with a half-human pit and a hole the size of a rolling pin. If it weren't for her arrival, the mother and son would have continued to track and dig until the rats had nowhere to hide, and it was unknown whether they would suddenly have an appetite for rats!

"Can you eat this stinky thing? Mei Xiang, Chu Ge, don't be stunned, hurry up and pack your things and go back, don't suffer in this windy howl. ”

The sister and brother hesitated for a moment, but they were still obedient and began to carry their own shovels and dustpans. With the arrival of Liu Xingmei, the sister and brother can see the hope of no longer starving.

"Go back?" Shen Qinqi said blankly.

"There will be a way to go back. Is this smelly thing that people can eat? It doesn't matter if it's dirty, if you get sick or something after eating, it's even worse! Besides, with this, can you manage a hunger and a hundred full? How much food can you find in a day!"

"I've borrowed everything I can borrow, and I haven't paid it back if I borrow it, but why don't I open my mouth again?!" At this time, Shen Qinqi still couldn't help crying.

"With me here, you don't need to open your mouth, in short, you can't starve to death." Liu Xingmei said with certainty.

Mei Xiang saw her mother crying, and her eyes were hazy with tears. As for Chu Ge, he suddenly cried and urinated. There is no shelter here, and there is no wind, ten layers are not as good as a layer of cotton, but the cotton worn by this family is thin and pitiful, and it can survive without freezing in winter, not to say that it is a miracle!

Liu Xingmei loved her heart, but she said with a stiff face: "Don't cry, don't think that tears are worthless, can crying solve the problem?" Can you eat it as a meal?!"

And just like that, the four of them began to walk back from the field.

Suddenly, I heard a loud noise, and when I looked for a voice, I saw that several people on the surface of the river were in a panic, as if someone had really fallen into the ice cave. Liu Xingmei was startled, and thought about going over to help, but when she saw a few people as if they were dragging a person up, she stopped.

But no one spoke.

As soon as I entered the village, others didn't see it, but I was the first to see Zhu Le. He came out of an alley, holding a gong and a mallet in both hands, and spun in circles on the ground, as if he were amusing himself.

When Zhu Le saw these four people, he ran over with a loop, looked at him as if surprised, and asked, "What are you ——??"

Liu Xingmei has never been used to seeing this person, because she has experienced some unpleasant things, and she has no good feelings, so she said with a cold face: "It's none of your business, sell your cooking cakes, what do you ask!"

Mei Xiang wanted to laugh, but held back. Because she knows, let alone this dwarf, even others are not a problem, and she can't get a little cheap in front of Liu Xingmei, a shrew.