Jun clutched Jian Rou's hand tightly. ［>

From just now, he held on to her like this and refused to let go. Jian Rou didn't mean to break free, she let him hold her like this, let him hold her tightly, just like many years ago, they were just an ordinary couple.

This sense of realism made Lei Jun a little dazed, he always felt that he was dreaming, in order to verify that this was not a dream, he had to hug Jian Rou tighter......

"I'm not going to run away anymore, and I'm not going to turn into smoke." Jian Rou finally smiled bitterly, "You can rest assured." ”

Lei Jun let go of his hand slightly.

He looked at the rou carefully.

Nine years have passed, she has changed a lot and is old.

Although it is the one hundred and fifty-seventh chapter of nature that relentlessly persists in that kind of aging, the joyful vitality that permeated Jian Rou in the past seems to have disappeared without a trace.

Her eyebrows were filled with nameless sorrow.

"I didn't expect you to look for it." Jian Rou whispered, "If you hadn't changed your words just now, I wouldn't have recognized you." ”

“…… I'm afraid even if I change my tune. You won't see me. ”

Lei Jun's words. Seems to have touched some kind of mechanism.

Jian Rou slowly removed from his hand. Withdrew his hand.

A painful silence hung between the two. No one knows how to speak.

“…… Ask you one thing. Jian Rou suddenly whispered. That one. Isn't it you? ”

"What?"

She looked down and pulled a red knot from her bosom.

"On the day of your accession to the throne, it wasn't you who gave this knot?" She stretched out her hand and looked at Lei Jun chisely, "Is it you, or Yang Guang?" ”

Lei Jun immediately recognized the concentric knot!

“…… It's me. He bowed his head in shame, "Yes...... I sent it to you. ”

"Why?"

"I'm afraid something will happen, I'm afraid... Chapter 157: Relentless Persistence... I'm afraid that the one himself will force you to be buried. Lei Jun's voice lowered.

Jian Rou's expression changed slightly.

"I'm not sure what I'm going to do with you, I'm going to have to go back to the modern day the next day, I mean, I'm not sure what I'm going to do with that one...... I remembered this knot, and I was afraid that you would be poisoned, so I ......"

Lei Jun was a little incoherent.

Jian Rou asked softly: "On the day the first emperor died, you were the one who chased me halfway, right?" ”

Her voice sounded a little sad.

Lei Jun only felt that his ears were roaring!

"It's because I just realized who I am, I ...... I saw you suddenly, and I was afraid that you would never be seen again, and I ...... I ...... at the time."

Before he finished his words, Jian Rou suddenly stretched out her hand and hugged him.

"I knew it was you, I knew it had to be you......" she choked up, "I don't remember what you said at the time, but I remember you...... I know it must not be what he knows, and he won't feel as sorry for me as you do. ”

Lei Jun was trembling all over, he cautiously stretched out his hand and hugged Jian Rou again.

"I'm sorry ......"

These three words, finally spoken, he was finally able to say these three words to his face.

After nine years of pursuit.

Later, they slowly talked about it all.

Time that had been blocked for many years began to flow again, as if they were holding the past on a plate, and then, carefully peeling and eating, continued their clumsy and difficult efforts.

“…… I learned the truth from Empress Xiao. Jian Rou whispered, "Remember?" Before I left, I went to the Tang Dynasty once, and I was very old, but she still remembered me. That's when I knew what was going on. ”

Lei Jun listened silently.

"I don't want to leave, Lei Lei has to coax me to sleep every day, she was so young back then......" Jian Rou lowered her head and looked sad, "But I can't say anything to one, the more sad I am, the more you care about me, the more you care about me, the more I don't know what to do...... In those days, life really couldn't go on. ”

"I understand." Lei Jun's voice was a little hoarse, "You don't have to explain, Jian Rou, it's all my fault." ”

There was silence for a long, long time before Jian Rou continued to speak: "I don't know where to go." Before in the living era of history, I couldn't go, otherwise I would have to repeat the mistakes of the past, and after that, although Mrs. Xuanhua was gone, the people in the palace still remembered my face, so I didn't dare to go to Chang'an. ”

She paused and continued, "My brother...... I don't want to see him anymore, so let him get drunk and die. Jian Rou sighed, "Although the destruction of the family and country is through your hands, but Lei Jun, it is really your responsibility." ”

So why come to Jiangdu? Lei Jun wanted to ask, but he didn't dare to speak.

"I wandered around, walking aimlessly for many years, I wanted to die, but when I thought about it, I couldn't think of why I wanted to die: for the Chen Dynasty? Although I am the princess of the Chen Dynasty, I don't think it should stand for 10,000 years; For your father's sake? I...... I don't have that much affection for him; For you? But you don't even know what's going on. ”

There were tears pouring out of his eyes again, and Lei Jun slowly lowered his head.

"Over the years, I've asked myself countless times, how did I get to this point? What went wrong? Later I realized that it was I who was weak that day, who refused to accept the facts, and who coveted your promises. One wrong step, one wrong step. Back then, if you had a glass of wine on hand, even if you poured it into your mouth, it was better than ...... It is better to be deceived by you and insulted by you. ”

Jian Rou's tone was so calm that she couldn't even hear the hatred in it, but every word she said was like an incomparably sharp whip, whipped on Lei Jun's heart!

"I don't even understand whether I love you or hate you. If there is really only hatred left, why did you go around in a big circle and finally marry you? I don't even remember you, but this knot has always been there, and I am reluctant to lose it for many years. Director Liang back then, so against us being together, he must know

, that's why I was told to break up with you quickly, and he also said, there are so many in the whole school? I really want to fall in love, he went to introduce me, and promised to find someone who is a hundred times better than you, when the director said this, he was so angry that he cried, I told him that I don't want anyone, no matter how good I am, I don't want you...... Is this hatred or love? ”

In the deep night, the palace was silent, and everyone slept, leaving only the man and woman, silently facing each other.

"I can't find a reason to die, then I can only live, all these years, I have lived in the cracks of time, no one knows who I am, I don't know where I should go and how I should live. I just think it's okay, I just can't go back to see you...... But I can't see you, I miss you again.

”

“……”

"I thought I'd forget it after a while, and I wanted to forget this ridiculous past, and if I could forget it completely, it would be as if it hadn't happened, and that would be nice — but I couldn't." Jian Rou said this, lowered her head, and her voice became very soft, "I can't help it, just come to Jiangdu, and when you can be lucky enough to come here this year, I will find a way to ...... it."

Jian Rou's expression seemed to be lost in thought.

After a long time, she raised her head and looked at Lei Jun in confusion: "Are you he?" I still can't figure it out. ”

There was a bitter silence.

"It's not that difficult to sneak into the palace, but I'm afraid that people will recognize me, and I'm even more afraid of being recognized by you......" she sighed, "I hate myself and refuse to leave, trying my best to stay here just so that I can see you again when you fall asleep." ”

She wept when she said this.

That night, Ray suddenly understood a lot of things.

He thought that Jian Rou, who had discovered the truth, was only full of hatred, and he thought that her only wish was to cut himself with a thousand knives, thinking that he could no longer hear her call himself "Lei Jun".

But in fact, Jian Rou still cared for him, and was deeply distressed by it.

“…… I didn't expect you to be Jiangdu. Lei Jun struggled and said with difficulty, "I didn't expect it...... I didn't expect to see you again. I should have come earlier. ”

"How did you come here alone?"

Lei Jun was silent for a moment before telling Jian Rou everything that happened in the bureau, including Bai Qi's warning to them.

In the end, he said: "I used to be in modern times, you can't go back." But now that I'm here, you can go back. ”

"Go back?"

"I want to ...... You still can't tolerate living with me, do you? ”

Jian Rou was stunned for a moment, and then slowly lowered her eyes.

Seeing her expression, Lei Jun felt that his heart hurt very much, but he couldn't help but continue: "That's right, you can go back to see Lei Lei, of course you should hate me, but don't hate Lei Lei, she doesn't know anything." ”

"How could I hate my own daughter......"

"I know, you will treat her well, Jian Rou, she has no father and no mother now, and she is living a miserable life alone...... She's still a kid, so you go help her, take care of her, okay? ”

Jian Rou didn't make a sound, she stretched out her hand and slowly held Lei Jun's hand.

"But what do you do?" She suddenly whispered, "Stay any longer, you'll die here......"

The cold and wet touch, Lei Jun could feel it, and tears were dripping on the back of his hand.

"Even then, I'll resign myself to my fate, really." He tugged at the corners of his mouth, "Just if I make some more contributions to history." ”

"No, I'm not leaving, I'm going to stay." She suddenly whimpered and said, "If you want to die, we will die together......

Her last words were like a pillar of warm sunshine, and the solid ice cubes in Lei Jun's heart finally began to melt under its soothing......

"Well, how can that work?" He pretended to be relaxed and said, "There's no place for you here." ”

Jian Rou finally cried.

Lei Jun hugged Jian Rou and patted her gently, as if to make her cry all the pain of all these years.

His face was tightly pressed against her hair, and Lei Jun comforted his wife, as if many years ago, Jian Rou had been wronged outside and came home to be comforted by him.

After that, Lei Jun asked her if she had a locator on her.

Jian Rou shook her head.

Lei Jun took out the locator from his arms, pulled Jian Rou's arm, and carefully tied it for her.

"They insisted that I bring it, I refused to ask for the newly developed subcutaneous locator, so they gave me this old-fashioned one, and said that if they found out that I didn't bring it, they would forcibly arrest me again," Lei Jun smiled, "Actually, it's useless for me to keep it, you can bring it, so you can go back." ”

That was his chance to survive, and Jian Rou fully understood that Jun was giving her the last chance to survive.

"But Lei Jun ......," her expression was sad.

"I'm not afraid at all now, really, my big head, in fact, whoever will cut it is the same thing." Lei Jun smiled and said, "Thinking that you and Lei Lei are there, I'm not scared at all." ”

His voice sounded like the gentle sound of the spring breeze brushing the petals of a flower.

His smile was gentle and brave.

Before dawn, while the people in the palace had not woken up, Lei Jun sent away Jian Rou, who was full of tears.

Although he was extremely reluctant, although they had been separated for nine years, they had only seen each other for a few hours now.

But in just one night, everything changed.

Now, even Jian Rou is gone, and he is the only one left in this time and space.

Lei Jun returned to the window and sat down slowly. The glimmer of dawn is gradually rising in the east.

Giving up everything, his life has only really begun here.

In the distant future, there is someone to love, that's all, and in the present, there is him to live, that's all.

The serpentine past, the present, the tide.

That's it.

Lei Jun's current mood is like a windless sea, vast, but extremely calm.

He felt that he could finally face the future, even if death was ahead.

Jian Rou's return, none, is a very shocking thing.

She has been missing for nine years, and suddenly appears after Lei Jun said goodbye to everyone, and it was Lei Jun who sent her back......

It makes everyone's heart

When Lei Lei rushed into the bureau after school, she cried when she saw Jian Rou sitting on the sofa.

She didn't even know her daughter anymore, Lei was only six years old when Jian Rou left, but now this girl is in her first year of high school. She was even as tall as Jian Rou, and when Jian Rou held her in her arms, she felt a familiar and unfamiliar aura.

No one could blame Jian Rou for the complexity of the matter beyond what they could be qualified to intervene in.

Besides, now it's not Lei Jun who loses his wife, but Jian Rou who loses her husband - everything is reversed.

For a long time in the next year, Su Hong acted as a "guide" for her friends, and she told Jian Rou everything that had happened in the past nine years. She wanted to help Jian Rou adapt again as much as she could.

It was not the crying daughter who greeted Jian Rou, but a bunch of punishments that must be given according to the regulations, on the other hand, because there was a minor daughter to raise, besides, the child's father had just left...... Considering this, Jian Rou was still allowed to return to her original unit to continue her employment.

"I've been a female savage for nine years, and I don't know if I can continue the same as before." Jian Rou smiled bitterly and said to her.

She used to be like a long flower, and even the edges of the petals were delicate and fragrant, but now, those moving beauties are silently hidden, which makes this woman have an indescribable calmness and melancholy.

Jian Rou's changes, Su Hong later told Fang Wuying, and when she said this, Su Hong felt very uncomfortable.

"The matter between her and Lei Jun is too complicated, so complicated that even she can't figure it out."

Fang Wuying listened silently, and he suddenly said, "Obviously, she still loves Lei Jun." ”

"But she refuses to live with Lei Jun," Su Hong sighed, "Although we all understand the hardships involved, but now that Lei Jun's life and death are uncertain, she still refuses to forgive him......

"Jian Rou will wait for Lei Jun to come back." Fang Wuying said, "When that day comes, I don't believe that she will be able to escape back to the Sui Dynasty and continue to avoid it." And in their state, divorce doesn't make much sense. ”

"But the current problem is also quite serious: she has been out of this society for too long, and she came back so suddenly, even the children don't know how to deal with it."

"You mean Leilei?" Fang didn't answer.

Su Hong nodded: "I can see that Jian Rou is a little lost, the child who was still glued to her before, and her mother kept calling her is 1.63 meters in a blink of an eye, and she is not as close to her as before......"

"Is it because of her father?" Fang Wuying asked, "Mom is back, but Dad hasn't been able to come back—the child will inevitably be resentful." ”

“…… Maybe.

”

Fang Wuying was silent for a moment before saying, "For Lei Lei, this mother fell from the sky, and she has been adapting to life without her mother for nine years. ”

"Well, Lei Lei didn't know how to face her mother, she whispered to me that she couldn't stand Jian Rou and always treated her as a child, Jian Rou couldn't change her mouth, she always called her 'baby' or something, her classmates were in front of her, Lei Lei felt too embarrassed......"

"It's natural for Lei Lei to be coquettish in front of Lei Jun." Fang Wuying said this, and didn't say any more.

"This family of three has many disasters and difficulties, less gathering and more separation, and some scars are not healed well." Su Hong whispered, "I also heard Jian Rou say that the director had opposed their marriage before. ”

"The director also objected to Ling Juan's marriage," Fang Wuying said, "As a result, these two couples are married, and it is useless for the director to oppose it." ”

"But none of them were doing well." Su Hong looked at the ceiling and said slowly, "The director understands everything, and he has seen the problems of these two marriages early." ”

Fang Wuying hugged her, and he slowly stroked Su Hong**'s warm shoulder.

"The director is a genius, a workaholic, such a person's view of marriage may be different from ordinary people."

"I can understand the matter of Lei Jun and Jian Rou, but why did he dislike Shi Yuanzheng so much back then?"

“…… Didn't you say that? Director Ling was so talented back then, but he had to go to the Tang Dynasty to 'wash his hands and make soup', as soon as a woman gets married and has children, her career will most likely be affected, and the director who is a mentor is of course annoyed. Fang Wuying thought for a while, and then said, "If you think about it a little more, I'm afraid it's the eldest son of the Ying family who has a prominent net worth and despises the reckless salt dealers." ”

"I really don't know what the director would say if he saw the two of us." Su Hong said suddenly.

"Well, he will say, born with a pair and a pair on the ground, this is a match made in heaven."

Su Hong sneered: "I'm not afraid of the wind flashing my tongue." ”

"Huh? Am I wrong? Fang Wuying deliberately asked, "Where are we not compatible?" In bed or under bed? ”

"Hey! You're a little serious, okay? ”

"How tired is serious...... he said with a grin and began to kiss Su Hong, "I just like to be improper." ”

They kissed sweetly, which made Su Hong feel very happy, but in this happiness, she gave birth to a slight trace of sadness.

"What's wrong?" Fang Wuying asked softly.

Su Hong suddenly said in a dumb voice: "Chong'er, let's not separate, okay?" ”

Fang Wuying stared at her, those deep eyes shining with a faint light.

"We're not going to be separated." He whispered, "There will be no separation." ”

Appendix

In fact, I think Lei Jun should be regarded as a sacrifice in the line of duty...... The pension should be given to Lei Lei before he !!