Adventures in Heaven (novel) Zhang Baotong

In the sound of singing and music, the lights are shining, everyone is talking and laughing, and they are happy. At this time, someone came to report that the Queen Mother suddenly fell ill after returning from Taocun at noon, and she was hot, unconscious, and full of speculation.www.biquge.info When the king heard this, he hurriedly came to Ziwei Garden with his maids. The Queen Mother was lying on the bed, her eyes were closed, her head was shaking on the pillow, her forehead was covered with fine beads of sweat, she looked painful and uncomfortable, and her mouth was hoarse, "Childe, Childe-"

I was immediately shocked, and at the same time, I noticed that the princess's face was a little displeased. I know that there is some incompatibility between the princess and the queen mother, and they rarely interact with each other, and if it weren't for the king's request for everyone to come together, I'm afraid the princess herself wouldn't have come at all. But at this point, I couldn't avoid it anymore, so I walked to the Queen Mother's bedside and said, "Queen Mother, Your Majesty, Ying'er and Princess see you coming." The indulgent Queen Mother suddenly grabbed my hand and said, "But Childe? I said, "Queen Mother, it's me." The Queen Mother opened her eyes and looked at me, wanting to laugh but looking weak, but she just called softly, "Childe, you are here." I wanted to withdraw my hand from the Queen Mother's hand, but I didn't, so I said, "Your Majesty, Ying'er and the princess have seen you coming." ”

Only then did the Queen Mother notice that the king, Ying'er, and the princess were standing by the bed, and hurriedly let go of my hand, and waved it for everyone to sit down. The Queen Mother was too affectionate to me, which made everyone seem very uncomfortable. I myself felt embarrassed and embarrassed, and I didn't dare to look up at the princess. The king stood beside the queen mother's bed, bent down and said respectfully, "It's just that Wang Er didn't take good care of his mother today, which caused his mother to fall ill, and Wang Er really felt guilty." The Queen Mother looked at the king, breathed a long sigh of relief, and said, "These days are depressed and worried, and I can't sleep at night, and I am tired of running around today, so I am sick, how can I blame the king." Then, his face immediately sank, and he asked in a half-panting and half-gloomy tone, "I heard that Wang Er is called Avoiding the Cold in the Winter Palace, and he intends to make friends, secretly summon various villages to discuss matters, and privately install people and horses to demonstrate to me by gathering people to compete in martial arts?" The king was astonished, and quickly knelt down, and explained, "The prince is often bored, and the prince has been summoned by the queen mother for several days and has not returned, and has invited several close friends to drink and relax together, how can he make friends in private?" The contest is also the permission of the queen mother in advance, which is intended to strengthen the prestige of the palace, how dare you be disrespectful, disrespectful and unfilial, and demonstrate to the queen mother? ”

The king's words are clearly exculpatory explanations, but secretly they are revealing the secrets of the Queen Mother and me. This made me feel very unhappy in my heart, and I felt that the king was not righteous enough, and did not hesitate to betray others for his own sake. The Queen Mother's face was also a little unbearable, but she didn't want to get angry, so she said, "Momomura Yunbu was installed by you privately?" The king said, "Taocun is an important town in the kingdom of heaven, but there is a shortage of guards, so the prince was recommended by the prince of Longhua to transfer Yunbu to Taocun." The Queen Mother then asked me, "Is this true?" I nodded helplessly and said, "Exactly." The Queen Mother didn't speak, just sighed softly.

The king obviously felt a lack of heart, and was afraid that the queen mother would continue to pursue it, so he turned the topic elsewhere and said, "The king has not been able to fulfill his filial piety on weekdays, and today the queen mother is sick and sick, and the king does not know what filial piety he can give to the queen mother?" The Queen Mother asked me to wipe the sweat from her forehead with a towel, and then said to the king, "It's rare for the prince to be filial, just don't carry me behind my back to do those things that are contrary to yin and yang." The king bent down again and again to show respect, and then said, "The queen mother is not in good health, and the prince is inconvenient to disturb, so let the prince of Longhua stay with him, and tell some interesting anecdotes with the queen mother, so as to relieve the worries of the queen mother, I don't know what the queen mother thinks?" As soon as I heard this, I felt betrayed, betrayed, and fooled. The Queen Mother, why do you have to ask me to accompany you if she is not well. Even if I want to accompany me, I have to be willing, not delegated, dominated, or arranged. And this betrayal and betrayal of me is the one I regard as my dear friend, for whom I risk death, and for whom I give my most beloved lover. At this moment, I felt that the trust and sincerity between me and him was so naïve, so ridiculous, so worthless.

I was ashamed and angry, so I said to the king, "Forgive Longhua for not obeying his fate. Longhua is not a high-ranking official or a minister, nor a male servant or maid, how can he be at the mercy of others. Longhua said goodbye. With that, I turned and walked out of the house. Except for the Queen Mother, no one has ever dared to say a word to the king. Seeing that I was so impulsive and angry, the king was at a loss for a moment. Dao Ying'er and the princess chased out of the door and stopped me and said, "It's dark at night, where does the son want to go?" I said, "Longhua has long been a home all over the world, and it has its own place to live." With that, he dodged Ying'er and the princess and strode towards the outside of the palace. When they saw that they could not stop me, they did not stop me again. I went out of the harem, went down to the watchtower of the palace, and knocked on the iron door. Xuanyuan, who was on duty, heard my voice, opened the door and asked me, "In the middle of the night, where does the son want to go?" I said, "Go back." When Gengaki saw my angry look, he said, "Where are you going?" Why don't you rest in my house and leave tomorrow. I said, "Long Hua has already made up his mind, and Brother Xuan doesn't need to persuade him more." Xuanyuan had no choice but to put down the suspension bridge, send me across the city, and advised, "Childe be careful all the way." ”

When I returned to Yilan's house, it was already the third watch of the rooster. When Yilan saw the cold air on my body, he scolded me with a cough, "Why don't you come back early, I'm afraid I'm going to get sick from the cold." "I was full of resentment and irritability, and I didn't want to speak, so I took off my clothes and went into the quilt. When Yilan saw that my face was full of displeasure, he pulled me over and said to me in a flattering and amused tone, "I'm going to make you a bowl of tea?" I stroked her face with my hand and said, "Well, I'm not in a good mood today." Yilan hugged my head and asked with concern, "Why is Childe displeased?" I said, "I have done my best to be loyal to His Majesty, and I don't want him to be unkind to me." I will never associate with this man again. Yilan said, "There is a saying: power and affection cannot be both, and if people value power, they can no longer take care of affection." Childe doesn't have to worry about this. ”

Maybe Ylang has a point. Kings are different from ordinary people. Ordinary people generally do not give up their feelings because of their power and interests, and even if they violate their feelings, they will not cause too much harm to the other party, because the power and interests of ordinary people are too small and insignificant, while the power and interests of the king are related to the world. When you think about it, you will realize the meaning and results of associating with the powerful or serving the powerful. Maybe you can get yourself a small return, maybe it's just grievances and sacrifices. Ordinary people will feel sad and sad because they attach too much importance to affection, but you don't know that what power values is not your affection, but your usefulness. For this reason, you will feel that your feelings have been abandoned and your feelings have been deceived. This is the sorrow that ordinary people often have, and at the same time, it is also the sorrow of the powerful.

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