This article is purely fictional and does not touch on sensitive topics such as politics, pornography, religion, etc

2017-6-3

It is said that there are three most important moments in everyone's life, one is to graduate from college, the second is to make progress in work and settle down in the year of establishment, and the third is to take care of the life of parents and children.

Just like the movies about youth have sprung up like mushrooms after a rain in these years, the shaky scenes filmed in those dilapidated dormitories and empty dormitories, the heroes and heroines have to face the end of breaking up as soon as they graduate, and one after another like a tide of youth tirelessly makes people who regret their youth cry in the cinema with the stars in the movie. I'm noncommittal about these things, because every time I see these movies, I will fall asleep silently in the cinema, plus I usually don't have much opportunity to sit in the cinema, plus my five-year college life (most medical majors usually have a five-year academic system, such as the clinical medicine major I studied) is the history I want to cover up and delete the most so far, I basically count the past minute by minute with the mentality of countdown to the college entrance examination, even in this society where graduating from college is equal to unemployment, I'm still looking forward to graduation, at least not letting me cycle through my nightmarish memories day and night, over and over again, never stopping.

In the dream, the blood-colored faces that were almost nameless grabbed my hands frantically, and the blood on their faces fell on my forehead one by one, and the bitter sweetness in my mouth made me sick. Those bloody eyes still stayed at the moment when I killed them, frightened and overwhelmed, turning into ghosts in my heart, tormenting me day and night. Surprisingly, for the first time last night, I didn't have these nightmares that I've become accustomed to. Yes, I have blood and life on my hands.

It took me less than a week to get used to my current life by crossing my finger against the annoying phone alarm clock, and I think it's better to be high-tech, and one day I'll sleep to the point of being woken up by an alarm clock. When I woke up, I found that there was no one in the dormitory. They may still be a little scared of me, after all, I am just an outsider to this dormitory, I just hope that they don't have nightmares because I have been in the dormitory during the days I came back to the dormitory, and every time I look at them and see their frightened and suspicious eyes, I smile lightly. I was like a plague god to them, including the entire major, and I was afraid to avoid them.

After washing my face, it's almost time to go to the lecture hall, today is the last day of my college life, and I want to take a graduation photo of all majors instead of bachelor's graduation photos, "Come on, Changwen, come and stand next to me, let's take a picture together." I looked up, and sure enough, it was Xu Xiaoge calling me, waving to me desperately, Xu Xiaoge was one of the few friends I had in the whole five years of college, and he was also the only one who knew my secret secret. With his funny character, he actually put on a bewitching pink wedding dress on this day and scratched his head at me, smiling and waving to me sexily, because there are nearly 200 people in my major, but there are only eleven boys among them, so I don't know which class committee member who pumped his brain proposed that all the boys wear wedding dresses to play the bride and the girls wear suits to play the bride, and the result was unanimously approved by everyone, seeing Xu Xiaoge's demeanor of being swaggering, The main thing is the wedding dress, what's the matter with the false eyelashes and flaming red lips, I almost threw up the overnight meal, but even if the pigeon is dressed like this, the little girls are almost wet, and the shining eyes are like seeing the prince in their hearts. Xu Xiaoge is worthy of his name, like a dazzling pigeon, destined to fly into the air, not only his parents' business in Binhai City is booming, when he was in school, he also saw the business opportunity of college takeaway, opened the first nearby takeaway shop and opened a coffee shop and hotel with hot business income, what kind of parents or children. He completely inherited his parents' business acumen, and every year at Christmas, he would drive his luxury car to buy apples on it, plus a good singing voice, and sing one or two tactful songs from time to time. Of course, there is a more important reason why I became a close friend with him, that is, he is the only person in Binhai City who knows my inside story.

I was pulled by him to stand next to him, and my sweat-stained T-shirt stood out at this time. There was a tingling feeling in my back, and I had an instinctive alertness after years of living with a knife, and I looked back at the second floor of the water conservancy building behind me, where there was really a slender figure looking at me, and smiled bitterly, it seems that the contract has not allowed me to successfully get rid of these people, and it seems that I am not equal to a peaceful road after graduation. It was almost the fiery back that stared at me that pushed my mediocre life into misery.

"Come, prepare, classmates, ants are not black!" But it was our substitute teacher who had already set up his camera and shouted for us to focus on him.

"Black!" Almost everyone roared out of joy to celebrate the transition of their college life to society, and with the sound of shutters and flashing lights, I was stunned to go back to the past.

My name is Changwen, and Chang is an extremely rare surname. On the day I was born, my grandfather almost broke the entire book in order to give me a good name, and rarely abandoned his military style, and for the first time put on reading glasses and looked at the combat map to read the dictionary carefully, and his face was full of a smile that could not be hidden, and as a result, after three days, he finally gave me a very traditional name, because I belonged to the German generation in the generation, so my name was Chang Dechao, it was really inferior to the explosion, I was unknown in elementary school, but fortunately, my mother fought hard, I found a feng shui gentleman of Xiangyan Temple to count the words for me, that Mr. doesn't know how old he is, at first glance it is the taste of a charlatan, full of disguised fairy wind bones, teeth are so sparse that he can't speak, after asking for my birthday, the name given to me at that time, when we left, Mr. looked up at me and said: The ancestors are all good life, why are there such fierce descendants of life, my mother was so frightened on the spot and almost knelt down to beg Mr., Father almost harshly called the old gentleman nonsense, but it was evident from his trembling arms that he was somewhat superstitious.

Fortune telling, generally gentlemen will say better, because no matter whether it is true or not, they will receive a lot of remuneration, plus this kind of old man who can see the age at a glance, and will not come to harm you with nonsense, the old gentleman can't comfort my mother's emotions at a glance, and endured a low cough and said: That's it, anyway, my life is not much, and it doesn't hurt to tell you more. Remember that the family should often invite a Guan Erye and a town house sword. On the first day of June every year, remember not to let the child go far away, so that he can be guaranteed to be free of illness and disaster until he is twenty years old. The old gentleman's cloudy eyes rarely flashed a hint of clarity, and he stared at me motionlessly, his eyes full of panic, and deeper, the fear he intended to hide.

From then on, I don't know what my parents communicated with my grandfather, but after a week my name was changed to Changwen on the household register. Since the old gentleman left, my father always looked at me with a jealous look, and my mother always scolded at this time: Which way to look at your children, where will there be cows, ghosts, snakes and gods in modern society!

Even if my mother said so, but they still went to Zhumashan Temple to invite Guan Erye's god back, and went all the way to Wudang, took me step by step to the top of the gold, and invited back to the town house sword, although these years have not talked to each other about this matter, but every year our family will go to Wudang Mountain in the autumn to eat and fast for a week, I will stay at home honestly on my birthday every year, which is the first day of June, which seems to have become a tacit understanding that our family does not talk about. My grandfather was an artillery battalion commander who fought in the Vietnam War, and the blood of the soldiers made him always disbelieve this, but my grandmother still took a bite to say: I would rather believe it or not, and gradually stopped arguing about it.

Maybe what the old man said really has some truth, since I did this, until I graduated from high school, although my academic performance was not very good, but I was really free from illness, because I caught up with the six-year education reform, I was 19 years old when I graduated from high school. Although my family had great expectations for myself, the score was still as sparse as the flowers and plants I planted, and with the attitude of preferring to be a chicken head rather than a phoenix tail, I resolutely chose to go to school in the most prosperous city besides the capital and the magic capital - Binhai City.

One of the most fortunate things about coming to this university life is that the people at home can no longer restrain me, before the high school for three years with my classmates to call my ears calloused, just on the first day of military training in college, I went to the Internet café to brush the night, before the body has been supervised habits at this time vividly, I seem to plunge into the Internet café and KTV, regardless of my studies all day long, finally one day my high school girlfriend took an eight-hour bus to visit me, When she found me in the Internet café, she turned away almost without saying anything. But after she left, I also thought very clearly, since you can't allow my hobbies, then why should I keep you, you take your Yangguan Road, and I will cross my single-plank bridge. She later said only one sentence to me in a text message: Your numb expression looking at the computer screen makes me feel terrible. Then she flew out of my life like a lark with flapping wings, and then had a girlfriend or two, all because of the Dota I played. Due to the Internet, living expenses are always spent extra fast, and before I know it, it has reached the summer of my freshman year, and the hot weather is like my wallet, which makes me extremely uncomfortable.

A year has passed, and there are few majors that I can name by name. The familiar Nokia mobile phone ringtone suddenly rang, in that Nokia common 2012, an N97 was also bought to me by my family for a long time, and I received a call and saw that the name was a class committee member who was almost about to burst into foul language: You say, what's wrong?

A very weak voice on the other end of the phone was a little dissatisfied: "I'm just informing you that your roommate can't contact you, today is our professional dinner at the end of the semester, each person pays fifty yuan to the hall on the second floor of Shengdexuan, before seven o'clock in the evening." With that, he hung up.

It was the head of the class who called me, a girl with a double ponytail and a pure and weak girl, her eyes that seemed to be innocent of the world I could see a lot of things, just when I just took a taxi to the door of Shengdexuan, the mobile phone suddenly vibrate, opened the text message of my mother, only a few words: Happy birthday son, rest early today, stay in the dormitory.

I was stunned for a moment, it turned out that today was my birthday, and for those reasons that I couldn't speak, I had always deliberately not remembered my own birthday. And since I opened the lock (we have a custom there, children over the age of 12 will open the lock and make a wine table. My parents deliberately went to Xiangyan Temple to find the old gentleman who told my fortune many times, but they didn't find it, and even the tiled house where he was located was demolished and rebuilt.

I actually have a lot of dissatisfaction with this in my heart, and because of the old man's few words, my birthday has become a day of misery, a day for the whole family to keep silent. And every time I think of the old gentleman's cloudy eyes, I feel a chill in my heart. I don't know where to muster the courage, I turned off my phone directly and walked in, it's okay, it's the same as taking a taxi back with a friend after drinking, it's just a little later.

There was a thunderclap in the gloomy sky, and it began to rain. I suddenly recalled the old gentleman's words in my mind: You shouldn't have been prolonged by my law, and the old man doesn't know whether he has done bad or good things, but I just hope that you will not do evil and kill in the future.