(a)

August of that year. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info Obon Eve. Kaohsiung flew from Canada to Asia. He called me and asked me to meet. He said he had business matters and stopped by to see me.

But I suspect that he flew here for the holiday. He may feel that I will feel lonely on this day.

I vaguely heard that Kaohsiung has been going on a peach blossom luck recently, and there is a French-Chinese woman, a very famous and good-looking fashion designer, who is fanatically pursuing him. However, Kaohsiung did not mention this matter to me.

Actually, I'm also dating a guy and I'm thinking about marrying him.

Deep down, I had no intention of getting married. However, if you don't get married for a day, the behaviors related to introduction, blind date, teasing, pursuit, persuasion, chatter, and persecution around you will not stop. These actions made me feel that the world was empty and uninteresting. I was disgusted to be surrounded by these behaviors.

The peaceful and prosperous world is full of mediocre men. The more I get in touch with these men, the more I love you.

I was forced to meet up with the men, eat with them on different occasions, drink different drinks, talk about different things, watch different movies, and visit different shops.

They approached me in all sorts of ways, and they probed me in all sorts of ways about my conditions and my intentions.

Once, I met a man with the surname Ding. We met in a park, talked about some topics, and then, we had a little drink together.

While drinking, he looked at me and asked, "You often go on dates like this, don't you?" ”

I nodded. There aren't many men who can see this kind of thing.

He said, "I'm curious about you. You don't want to get married at all, so why do you want to go on this kind of date? ”

He said, "I'm pretty sure you've never liked getting married. ”

I looked at him for a moment and said, "Well, let me pay for this meal." ”

I never saw this man surnamed Ding again.

I don't want anyone to see the old age and vicissitudes of my heart.

I don't want to be bothered by outsiders.

I'm not saying that there are no good men in the peaceful and prosperous world, and I don't think that women can't find heroes to admire and admire in the peaceful and prosperous times, and I don't think that spending a life with my wife, raising children, and working from 9 to 5 must be inferior to strategizing on the battlefield and winning a thousand miles, I fully understand the difficulty of the former, and always maintain enough respect.

However, the proportion of corrupt and incompetent men in the peaceful and prosperous era is indeed much higher, and that is because of the lack of necessary elimination.

I've seen so many men, and I haven't felt a slight ripple in my heart, just because they're not all you.

"Being a journalist is hard work for a woman, isn't it?"

"I also graduated from this university."

"Do you have any brothers and sisters?"

"What do you think of this place in Yunnan?"

"Would you like another drink?"

"Let's see it again, how about it?"

In the midst of all kinds of problems, I felt the exhaustion of old age.

They chatter around the image of my youth, they just want to fulfill their lusts, they don't know that I am an ancient fossil from hundreds of millions of years ago, they don't know that I am thousands of years old. Their words can only cross my surface and no longer enter my heart.

I answer their questions, I smile at them, I walk side by side with them, I look into their eyes and toast to them.

I can't find anyone in this world who can have even a single conversation.

I felt like I was like some meteor passing by on the way down.

I have seen countless deaths in progress and on different lines at these events.

In these activities, I knew I was dead.

Dear guide, I am really tired of this life, because I have witnessed your death twice in a row, so I cannot live for you another 82 years.

Just as you have your limits, I have my limits.

That night, the man surnamed Ding asked me, "What kind of woman are you?" ”

I didn't answer it.

Sitting in front of him was actually a dead woman. A woman who doesn't want people to know she's long dead.

(b)

I hated this kind of dating so much that I decided to stop it by getting married.

It's better to face a mediocre man than to face a large group.

I followed the regular flow of love step by step, slowly approaching marriage.

I don't feel happy at all. Looking to the future, all I see is endless burdens and entanglements, and there is nothing to be happy about. It's true.

However, if you don't get married, those troubles and entanglements will be difficult to stop. At least, it's hard to stop until I'm old.

There is a sense of the end of the road between heaven and earth.

I also didn't tell Kaohsiung that I was dating a man and was preparing to get married.

But he still knew about it.

(c)

When we met, across the coffee table, Kaohsiung looked at me with fierce eyes.

"I'm very sad," he said. With bitter hatred. ”

I said, "What hurts? Didn't you come back with business to do? ”

Kaohsiung said: "I came back because I heard that you were dating a man. ”

I said, "Can't you?" ”

Kaohsiung said, "Why didn't you tell me? ”

I said, "Who am I associating with, and I want to report it to you?" Am I your slave girl? ”

Kaohsiung said, "I'm your friend. ”

I said, "Aren't you happy to hear that I have come out of my grief and started my life anew, talking about marriage like a normal woman?" Don't you want to say congratulations to me? ”

Kaohsiung said: "Congratulations! ”

I glared at him. I said, "Vulgar." ”

Kaohsiung said: "Am I so terrible? Scary enough to hide in a hellish marriage? ”

I said, "I didn't marry to hide from you. ”

Kaohsiung said: "Then what are you hiding?" Suffering? Alone? Myself? Or is he an all-pervasive, never-dying shadow? ”

I felt a rush of rage.

I said, "You're so rude. ”

(iv)

The people at the tables around us looked back at us.

We were silent for a while.

Kaohsiung said, "Okay. I want to invite you to dinner, and I don't want to anger you. If I make you unhappy, then I apologize. You know I've always been rude, not the kind of Sven you like. ”

I think again of the day you fainted from the pain, and Kaohsiung and I went upstairs together and calmly rescued you. I think it's rude to treat him like that.

I lowered my eyes.

I said, "I'm not unhappy. ”

Kaohsiung said: "I just can't bear to look at you and walk into a situation you don't want to walk into." Marriage is a long time together. If you choose the wrong person, there will be many days ahead that will be dim and dull as a result. ”

Kaohsiung said: "Don't make such rash decisions. I beg you. It's true that I've always wanted to marry you, but I also know that you don't like me. I just hope you don't waste your own youth like this. ”

I said, "I don't have youth anymore." I have long since lost my youth, and I have nothing to spoil. ”

Kaohsiung said: "I know you hate dating and blind dates. You just want to abort it. Whether it's drinking poison or not to quench thirst. ”