I was driven home by my uncle.

My uncle comforted me in the car and said that he was angry because my mother was beaten and was in a bad mood.

"She can't stand it, she has been the first for so many years." My uncle laughed, "As a result, everyone ...... in full view."

I grinned, I wanted to laugh too, but the expressions of my parents I had just witnessed made me unable to laugh.

When I got home, I realized that my mother had returned. She locked herself in her room, and I went up and pushed the door, only to find that it was locked from the inside!

I panicked and banged the door, but I ignored it inside, and I was so frightened that I had to apologize desperately outside the door, saying that I didn't think about beating her. I just want to try, who knows that I won by mistake, in fact, Murong Xuan Chapter 19 My strength is not good at all, and I will definitely not be able to defeat my mother if I compete seriously......

No matter how much I apologized outside the door, there was no sound at all in the room.

I was getting more and more scared, I started crying, I cried and begged her to open the door, I said I wouldn't dare anymore. I'll ask my mom to forgive me this time. I was crying a lot when my dad came back.

He told me not to cry and went up and knocked on the door.

"It's me, Su Hong, open the door." He whispered.

I sniffled next to me and waited for a while. The door lock rang.

My father told me to wait in the living room, and he opened the door and entered the room, and the moment I closed the door, I saw him come back again.

"Xuan Xuan ,......"

I looked up at him, and I waited for him to finish. But Dad only looked at me for a moment, and then, with a sigh, closed the door from the inside.

I went back to the living room and cried for a while before I got up and went to the bathroom to wash my face.

Now, my heart is full of remorse, why did I go to defeat my mother? It was originally for fun, but now it has become like this: Mom has never been defeated, and for so many years, Murong Xuan Chapter 19 has never been.

However, is it really so unbearable to be defeated by your own daughter?

I couldn't figure it out, and what I didn't understand even more was the kind of gaze they had, as if they were looking at an outsider who was a complete stranger.

I sat on the sofa in the living room for a long time, I felt that something was still wrong, I got up and walked to my parents' room, I wanted to apologize to my mother, if I apologized to her and she could be angry, then I could apologize, I could even tell her that I was a blind cat and a dead mouse......

I walked to the door of my parents' room and was about to raise my hand to knock on the door, when I heard a low cry coming from inside.

It's mom crying!

I gasped in fright! The raised hand also stopped in mid-air, and my heart was pounding! I didn't expect this incident to hit my mother so hard. I made her cry......

Just as my brain went blank, I heard a whisper inside, and when Dad entered, he didn't close the door tightly.

“…… How could it be her? Why is it our daughter? "It's Mom's voice. With crying.

"Are you really sure it's her? The tricks used, exactly the same? "It's Dad asking.

"It can't be someone else, I've lost this time, but this time...... How could I possibly forget? "Quiet.

I held my breath, I didn't know what they were talking about, but I could feel it, it was very important!

"It turns out that the younger brother she said is Xiaomo, it turns out that the people she is looking for are you and me, and it turns out that the home she said is here...... For so many years, we lived by her side like deaf and blind people. All the details matched, but we turned a blind eye and turned a deaf ear. ”

Mom's voice was shaking, she was still crying, crying and talking, I couldn't hear what Dad was saying. My brain was a little wooden, I was shaking, and I took two steps back.

What the hell are they talking about? Are you talking about me? So why does it sound like you're talking about a stranger?

It's like I'm not from this family, like I'm somebody else.

Aggrieved and frightened, I retreated into the living room and couldn't help but start crying again.

I don't know how long I cried in the couch. I heard a soft knock on the door of my room, and I looked up. I saw my dad come out.

I looked at him blankly with tears on my face, and he stared at me blankly, and that strange feeling came out of his gaze again.

It's like 1 small said α. tidying up

, he grew old in an instant, and I looked at my father in a daze, that kind of nameless sorrow, which I had never seen on his face......

Moments later, however, he returned to normal. Walk up to me quickly and bend down.

"Still crying?" He grinned, "It's not that you lost, it's that mom lost, why are you crying?" ”

I don't know what to say.

He pulled two tissues and handed them to me: "Wipe your tears, don't cry, Dad is going to cook." ”

I took the tissue and whispered, "Mom, she'........."

"Well, mom she...... Defeated by you. I'm so sad in my heart. He paused before speaking. Don't disturb her yet, let Mom be quiet for a while, she can always accept reality. ”

I don't think he's telling the truth.

The next day, Mom regained her composure.

She even laughed that it was because she hadn't been defeated for many years. As a result, he lost to his daughter, and his self-esteem was seriously bruised, so he couldn't stand it.

My dad said that the proud general will come one day, and now the whole world is up, ble i ning, and my dad even said that I can go and endorse Adidas.

The atmosphere in the house seemed to be back to its usual state, but I still didn't feel right.

Lately, mom's smile has been a lot less. She was always in a daze, her eyes were changing with strange sensations, and sometimes I even saw her crying secretly. My father would often talk to her, but when they noticed me coming in, they stopped immediately. Occasionally I can hear half-sentences on the topic, such as "Maybe that money fan can find her in the end", and "Send two, so she survives......"

It was as if there was some huge haze on the top of our family. A very ominous premonition pervades this home, and the cornerstone of happiness is sucked away...... But I don't know what the root cause is.

I still go to school every day, and my life hasn't changed much from before I went abroad, the only difference is that my boyfriend broke up with me.

In the second month of my return, he found me. Said he wanted to talk to me alone.

"I guess we'd better break up." He said.

I was a little surprised, but I vaguely felt that this was not a difficult to predict.

"People say I'm lucky to be the first beauty in the school, but am I really lucky?" He snorted, "Murong, I don't know what you're thinking at all, I don't think I'm bringing a girlfriend when I go out to play, everyone thinks I have face, but I really don't think I've ever got you."

I looked at him in amazement!

It makes me feel weird, like. He's a woman who has been left out in the cold, and I'm the man who knows nothing, and our relationship is reversed, and he's complaining about my lack of attention.

"When I first pursued you, you didn't refuse, and I think now that I propose to separate, you won't resist much." He smiled coldly, "What do you care about?" Murong, maybe you are a bottle of precious fairy dew, but I can't open this bottle of fairy dew. Maybe I'm just good for a frozen coke. ”

Since my boyfriend's words have come to this point, I don't need to force it. After a few nights of discomfort, I slowly figured it out. ”

After the conversation with my boyfriend collapsed, his phone calls to the house suddenly dropped to zero, and after a while, my parents found out and asked me what was wrong.

"Broke up." I grinned and said, "We didn't have to talk about it, so we broke up." ”

It was a very common sentence, but my mother's expression was extremely surprised!

"Broke up?!" My mom exclaimed, "Why?!" Why break up?! ”

"Okay...... It's not a good deal, is it? I muttered, "Maybe I haven't seen each other for a year, and we both feel strange, so I .........."

"Did you propose to break up?" My mom asked.

I shook my head and said, "It's people who say they want to break up." I don't really care, break up...... Don't break up. I don't think it makes a difference. ”

"It's you who don't care about people!"

My mother's categorical tone stunned me!

"Xuanxuan, it's because you're too arrogant that people can't stand it." My mom said, "Let's see if you can get it back?" Xiao Zhang shouldn't be the kind of person who is ruthless......"

I was so shocked by my mother's utter disregard for the facts that I could barely think of a rebuttal.

"Make a few more phone calls, soften your tone, it's okay for young men and women to quarrel occasionally......"

I was a little impatient and deliberately laughed: "Oh, if you blow it, you blow it, Mom, are you still afraid that I won't be able to get married?" ”

"Then you'll get me one!" She was a little anxious, "Xiao Zhang is very good, why can't he?" ”

"Who's good?" I rolled my eyes. "Didn't Dad dislike him? Said he 'looked like a vegetarian ball'......"

"No matter how pixel balls are, they are ...... than hooks"

Mom's words, speaking of which, were abruptly interrupted.

I stared at her curiously, "What? Tick what? ”

She looked at me, her expression suddenly darkened, and my mother lowered her eyes: "Forget it." ”

Then, she stopped looking at me and turned and went into the kitchen.

Leave me and sit in the living room in a daze, thinking about what my mother just said: no matter how pixel balls are ticked? Ditch? Hook? "What do you mean?

But Mom didn't seem to plan to stop there. A few days later, she offered to send me abroad to study.

"Going abroad again?" I looked at her in amazement. "But Mom, it's not been three months since I came back......"

"I've thought about it with your father, so don't waste your time staying in the country." My mother said, "It doesn't matter if you study in a domestic university or not, you should choose a school and major during this time......

"But I don't want to go abroad." I interrupted her, a little displeased, "Isn't it a good reading now, why do you give up halfway?" ”

"Your university is not a famous school, and if you talk about this kind of major, there won't be much way out in the future." When my mother said this, she suddenly became enthusiastic, "How about going to study art?" I've seen the paintings you brought back, isn't it more interesting to draw than to learn what kind of management? ”

I looked at my mom dumbfounded!

"How? Anyway, the family's savings are enough for you to study abroad. Mom continued. Find a handsome foreign guy again, and then do an immigration ...... in two years."

Mom, what the hell is going on?!

"But I don't want to go out." I frowned and said, "Mom, I'm doing well in China, what a handsome foreign guy, what are you talking about!" ”

When I was at home, I always had something to say, and my parents always respected my wishes.

Unexpectedly, this time, before I finished my words, my mother dropped the chopsticks on the table with a "snap".

"You kid! Why are you so disobedient?! She glared at me, "Mom, this is for your good!" ”

"For my sake, let me choose!" I was also angry, "How can I follow the path you paved?!" Mom was about to get angry again, but Dad grabbed her on the side: "Forget it, Su Hong, don't say it." ”

"Don't say anything?! Do you want me to watch her go that way?! Mom's face was as white as paper, and her voice was terrifyingly sharp, "She's my daughter!" Is it up to her to end up like that? I won't be willing to die! ”

"But don't forget, Xiaopeng was also sent to England back then," Dad said calmly, "what happened in the end?" Besides, if she really doesn't go, there will be ...... over there What to do? Do you really think we can control everything? ”

Mom was stunned, and suddenly, she slowly covered her face with her hands.

Dad put his hand on her shoulder, and after a while, he said slowly, "At least...... You see. Haven't I been promoted to a general yet, and it doesn't seem like it's going to be possible. ”

Like a fool, I stared at all this in front of me!

Dad's military rank that year was colonel, and he was in the General Staff.

It wasn't a place for ordinary people to go into, it was a very different place from the special forces. All the right things, once mixed into politics, will become extremely treacherous. The General Staff is such a huge military machine. All the time, it is subtly played with by various torrents. Politics is only a small part of it. In such a torrent, the insignificant individual will always have the feeling of losing himself, and the almost perverted sensitivity and high-intensity workload have poured the chilling perception that "what I am doing is controlling the fate of the country" into the soul of every bureaucrat over and over again.

My dad once laughed at himself, saying that the General Staff was a better fit for him than the control group. He does not shy away from speaking out about his ambitions. But I don't think he's the kind of vain and rigid bureaucrat, in fact, regardless of rank. He could never really leave his sense of justice.

Although in his heart, there is still a residual yearning for the top of power, and even when necessary, he will still be ruthless, but. My dad is no longer the "Murong Chong". He's completely different from before, compared to the simple vengeful ghost in history, he's now. More like a clever power manipulator. He knows what it takes to gain power, and he knows how to use it once it's in his hands. He knows when to be tough and when to be calm. He behaved dignified and elegant. Gentle and bright-eyed, with a noble temperament, he is generally taciturn, but he will never hesitate when he needs to speak.

Many people think that my father's career is full of golden light, and some people think that there is an indescribable shadow behind it, and in either case, it all boils down to one thing: the road he took was not smooth.

I once heard Uncle Li Jianguo say that the shadow came from the "fear" of others about his past.

"I don't believe that everyone has forgotten the captain's past." He was half-joking. Half-seriously, he said, "He once got the throne, which makes others look at him differently." Now he's only going to be better than he was before. He is a hundred times better than in the past. It is normal for some people to be uneasy. ”

I understood what he meant, no matter how high my dad climbed, there would always be mixed doubts in his eyes when he came down from a higher place.

What does my dad think?

"That's not what I'm concerned about." He once told me very calmly. "I'm more concerned about where I can go. Power or something, it's just a kind of signpost. "He had received the most precious thing in the world, and he was almost completely destroyed by it, so it was unlikely that he would be as interested in that thing as ordinary people!!