Zhang Fan pondered for a moment and continued: "I have to tell you a cruel truth, your mother and all the clansmen were killed by Dong Zhuo...... Now you may be the only survivor of the entire clan......"

He Shi's face was still as calm as water, but there was no intention of sadness and indulgence, nodded and said:

"I already expected ......"

Zhang Fan asked strangely: "Aren't you sad?" ”

He asked rhetorically: "I was sent to the palace at the age of twelve, and I have never received any love since I was a child. On www.biquge.info the contrary, after I became the queen, these people became relatives of the emperor through my connections, and they were rewarded one by one......"

"However, they did not bring me the slightest help, but again and again because of bribery and bullying, I was infamous and often criticized by the imperial historians...... If you were me, would you grieve for them? ”

Zhang Fan was speechless for a while, from the perspective of the He family, her clan can indeed be said to be insufficient in success and more than defeated. She was given the position of queen, and her family or clan did not give her the slightest support or help.

After all, their family used to be a pig killer, they wanted money but no money, they wanted connections without connections, they wanted fame without reputation, and they really couldn't interfere in such a big thing as competing for the queen.

But the He family is good to the family, the half-brother He Jin is a straw bag, and she was forced to become a general, the second brother He Miao was named a general of the chariot and cavalry, his father He Zhen was named the Marquis of Wuyang, and his mother was named the Marquis of Wuyang, and most of the rest of the clansmen were also wet with rain and dew, and they were all awarded official positions.

But these people, as He said, are all pig teammates who are dragging themselves down. Not only did she not help herself to make her position more stable, but she always made some illegal and unruly things and was caught, causing her to be impeached by the imperial historian, if it weren't for her extraordinary means and long-sleeved dancing, I am afraid that she would not even be able to keep the position of queen.

In fact, Zhang Fan thinks that this matter cannot be blamed entirely on those clansmen, after all, those people are not very educated, and most of them may not even be literate.

Looking at it this way, the exterminated He clan is humane enough if he doesn't beat gongs and drums, and it's really not okay to be sad or anything......

He continued: "My father died a few years ago, my mother is fifty and nine this year, her body has long been in her old age, and the lights are almost dry, anyway, she has enjoyed all the blessings that the old man should enjoy, even if Dong Zhuo doesn't kill her, the doctor said that she will not survive this winter." He Jin and He Miao have already died at the hands of the Ten Standing Servants......"

"As for the others, I'm inside the palace, they're outside the palace, I can barely remember what they look like, how can I feel sad for them?"

The height is unbearable, and in terms of the status of the He family, it is indeed difficult to draw the comfort of family affection from the clan, and I am more afraid of playing the role of being used.

Due to the asymmetry of status and identity between the two sides, the clansmen can only claim it unilaterally, because they have what the He clan has, and they don't have what the He clan doesn't have...... In the long run, even if the deep feelings are definitely getting thinner.

Judging from this, He is also a hard-working woman, how many tears and loneliness are behind Xuan He's respect, who knows? The reason why she formed her current personality has a lot to do with her life experience and environment.

Zhang Fan gently brushed the tips of her hair, she also obediently leaned on Zhang Fan's shoulder, Zhang Fan felt that this woman seemed to be really different, let go of all pretense and defense, and re-feel the simple happiness of being a woman.

Having lost the bonds of her family and the shackles of her posteriority, she unloaded all the pressure and burdens, traveled lightly, and started again.

He Shi suddenly spoke: "Do you say that I am sick, I actually feel that the current life is very quiet, fulfilling, and peaceful, even if I sit in front of the window and am in a daze under the moon for several hours in a row, I will not feel bored......

Zhang Fan stroked her back and said tentatively:

"Then don't you envy the life that used to be called and drunk?"

He said honestly: "I have thought about it occasionally. But I felt that it was too hard to live like that before, I lived in calculations and intrigues every day, I couldn't even sleep, I always felt that someone wanted to assassinate me, and I hardly felt real happiness......"

If she said that she never wanted to, Zhang Fan didn't believe it, but such a frank answer seemed real and credible.

Sure enough, only life and death can best sharpen a person's state of mind and make people rise to a higher level in the realm - nirvana and rebirth.

Zhang Fan couldn't help but ask: "Then do you sleep soundly here?" Aren't you afraid that I will suddenly change my mind one day and kill you? ”

He smiled: "Don't be afraid, if you want to kill me, you won't save me." Since you put me here, you are confident that I will not be able to convey any information. In other words, no one will be able to get in. Isn't this the safest place in the world? ”

He Shi's tone was a little emotional: "I have done a lot of wrong things along the way, set up a lot of enemies, even in the palace, I never felt that one day was safe." But I believe that under your protection, I can sleep peacefully...... I used to have nightmares almost every night, but since I came here, I haven't had them......"

Zhang Fan said softly: "It's not because I don't have nightmares, it's because your soul has been redeemed." Maybe you have done something wrong, but since your accident, you have lost everything, your reputation, your status, your wealth......"

"Everything you have ever obtained by any means has been taken away by heaven. You get punishment, but you also get redemption. You don't owe them anything, and the past grievances are written off. Empress Dowager He is Empress Dowager He, you are you, you have already been cut in two, and you have nothing to do with each other. ”

He said confusedly: "Then who am I now?" ”

Zhang Fan asked rhetorically: "Now you are a free person, and what kind of person you want to be in the future depends entirely on yourself." By the way, do you have a name? ”

He nodded, "Yes, yes, but I don't want to use it anymore." That name was not given to me by my parents, but was written by the female official who registered in the palace...... Why don't you get one for me? ”

Zhang Fan smiled and said, "Why don't you take it yourself?" ”

He Shi rubbed his face on Zhang Fan's chest, "Don't, I want you to get me ......"

Zhang Fan said casually: "Then let's call it He Yun!" The original meaning of rhyme refers to the sound of harmony, and also refers to the demeanor, temperament, and taste. You're quite a charming woman in your own right, and I think you're a good match......"

He Yun ...... He Yun ......" He read it twice, nodded and said:

"It's pretty good, then I'll call it He Yun in the future!" (To be continued.) )