Every time I write a postscript, I feel terrified.

Is there really anything to be said that hasn't been said yet? If so, why not just finish it in the article? Is it that the article itself does not satisfy itself?

But there are really some things that can't fit into the article, so they can only stay outside.

Tell me how you came up with the idea to write such a thing.

During the Spring Festival of '09, I went with a group of friends to eat and drink, had a good time, and suffered from extremely rare insomnia after returning home.

That night, I listened to the sporadic sound of firecrackers outside the window, and a few words suddenly flashed in my mind: a man who worked in a space-time agency, in order to find his missing wife, privately opened up a parallel time and space, and he finally found his wife in that space-time orbit, but to his surprise, in that track, the good daughter became a rebellious street girl, and the country was also in a war...... So, how exactly should he choose?

This simple plot sounds like "Sophie's Choice", and readers who have read the whole story should already be able to glimpse some parts of these few sentences.

I was so interested in this simple idea that I wanted to try to make it a complete story, but as I continued to think about it, I realized that I had to make the characters more complex in order to be interesting, and the story could be bigger - what if this man was a historical figure?

In fact, initially, there were only three people in the office: Ling Juan, Lei Jun, and Su Hong.

There was no Xiao Wu and Wei Bin, and the control group was written in the back of the article, so I felt that it was inappropriate again, so I went back to add it. And at that time, I didn't know who they were, including Fang Wuying, I only knew that there was this person in this story, and I didn't even know what he was supposed to do, but I knew that he was very good-looking, he was an ancient, and then his name was Fang Wuying (sorry, the name that popped up in the dream).

It was written slowly, and their identities were determined one by one, and the first one to be determined was Fang Wuying, at that time, I was in a daze at these three words, thinking to myself, who is this person? However, he just stubbornly told me that his name was Fang Wuying, and then he was very good-looking...... I won't say anything else. Actually, I think it's embarrassing, yes, yes, I still think it's embarrassing!

I like plain names, and readers should be able to see this from other names, so I once consulted with the shadow in my head to persuade him to change his name, but he refused, he was very domineering, and let these three words be imprinted in my mind like a brand (look!). This guy is very willful! ）。

I couldn't, so I had to go online and scroll through posts for such an embarrassing name, find some legendary historical stories, and see who fits those three words.

After looking for two days, I happened to see the historical beauty male ranking in a forum, which mentioned Fenghuang.

After thinking about it for a while, I thought, well, this is the Phoenix.

But at that time, he was just a supporting role, and I pulled him out to fill the number, because the two women and one man in the office who had nothing to do with it were really not enough to support a story, and then this kid monopolized such a big scene, which even I didn't expect.

The same is true for Xiao Wu, when I wrote sentences like "No one of us here is more modern than his name", I didn't know who he was, I just knew that he was an ancient, very gentle, a little handsome, and then polite.

As for Wei Bin, he came out even later, he was a "special guest" that my friend Coco strongly asked me to bring in, ha.

Wei Bin is not the latest, the latest is Liang Yi, when I wrote almost 500,000 words, I suddenly saw his appearance, in my mind. He jumped around, giggling, and he said, "I'm here to make trouble!" "He came out at the right time, because the previous writing was too heavy, and it felt like I had to grab such a pinch of pepper noodles and sprinkle it.

However, at the beginning, Lei Jun and Liang Yi were originally the same person, and it was written that they felt that it was necessary, so they went back and added such a character as Liang Yi, and his character was set even later. So at first, Lei Jun was not Yang Guang, and the personality was not the kind of Liang Yi you see now, he was closer to the character of the real Fusu in history, but coco said, this kind of character is very annoying, oh she really hit me, you must know that she is the first reader of this book TT

I said that I like wilting people, and it's tragic to my liking, but Coco doesn't like it, she says that such characters can't arouse the reader's interest, you should change one as soon as possible.

I think she has a point, anyway, I don't have any obsession with Fusu. So for whom? Xiang Yu? No, I'm not interested in this person at all; Tang Taizong? Forget it, what's the point.

This person must be very contrasting to be interesting, otherwise, he is originally a good person, and after revealing the truth, he is still not a bad guy, there is no gap at all, what is the difference between that and eating boiled noodles in plain water?

Well, the problem is that I haven't been a fan of any historical figures.

In short, he is a tyrant! I told Coco that the tyrant was right! Only then can the veil be lifted to be scary!

Since it's a tyrant, it's not easy to do? Looking for the "Tyrant List" one by one, I am not familiar with the ancients, the name alone is enough to criticize the unpleasant of the Qingya, and it is not good to be too close, I have no opinion on the Qing Dynasty, I am not like Fang Wude, there should be dynastic discrimination (ha!). The only thing I have a big opinion about the Qing Dynasty is the hairstyle......

So, I can only find it in the middle of a thousand years.

But I barely had much effort, because this guy was at the top of the list, laughing.

Lei Jun's identity was written until the parallel universe chapter of Ling Juanlong, and it was finally determined. And after carefully checking Yang Guang's life, Jian Rou's identity has also been changed - because Lei Jun was Fusu before, the missing wife was also another woman.

Speaking of which, the name Lei Jun was taken down early, not the meaning of Thunderball, but the transliteration of legend, I originally planned to write an overhead. Let Li Yu change his surname to Wu, not because of "Zhige", but from the psychologist Wu Zhihong, I like his works very much. Ling Juan was originally called Ling Li, and her temper was very close, but later some friends thought that the anti-dog would make people think of men and be disgusted, so they changed it to three points of water. The meaning of her husband's Shi Yuanzheng's name is obvious, and there is not much to say. Su Hong thought of it from soho, and Lin Lan was for Mei Lan's bad taste of bamboo chrysanthemum (Mei is Su Hong, bamboo is Fang Wuying, and Ju is Shi Yuanzheng), as for the others, they are all taken casually, unless there is an explanation in the article, there is no deep meaning.

The above is the origin of the characters.

Readers should be able to see that what I am really interested in is not these real people in history, but their transformation after me, and it can also be said that I am not writing about Murong Chong Yang Guang...... It's Fang Wuying and Lei Jun, and what I want to write about is not history, but life itself, that is, the so-called "state of development of a single individual". Before, I wasn't very interested in ancient history, and I always tended to read. The historical knowledge I have mastered is also to the level of Baidu Encyclopedia, no, it is definitely not as good as Baidu Encyclopedia, fortunately, history is not the core of this article, it is just a "nail to hang a book", therefore, I only need a little common sense that is consistent with the public - at least Yamamoto fifty-six I will not say that he is a good person, Yue Fei I will not say that he is a bad person - this is enough. Leaving a lot of space, I can also try my best to lay out the play in my own heart.

What kind of drama is it?

It is the play that we ourselves play out every day, the life in fate.

It wasn't until I was about to finish writing that I suddenly realized what I was writing. I'm writing "face", that's it. How difficult it is to face! To face the true self, to face the dusty and even distorted by time and the world, and to face the family tree that has grown and continued from far away...... When you see the latter clearly, you will find that you are not a unique fruit, you are just a duck pear on the old pear tree, it is not easy to realize this, many pears have mistakenly believed that they are a rotten stone master all their lives - maybe when it was five years old, it saw an incomparably beautiful pomegranate advertising photo that was photoshopped~ As a result, this pear felt that it was too unreasonable! Why is it swollen, yellow, and covered in small acne?! So it suffered all its life for this, determined to make itself into a qualified pomegranate, laughing.

I have always believed that life is not just about these decades, and the fact is not as simple as what we usually see and think, our limited consciousness, the interpretation of the world is like a blind man touching an elephant, and will hold the trunk of the elephant and think that this is all there is. It is far better to fully accept what is uncertain than to assume that it does not exist. Even just the interpretation of dreams (a very interesting field) can make me realize the "undiscovered me".

This story contains a lot of my own cognition, maybe because I stuffed it too much, it was all deformed, laughs, and it is too long, I have never written such a long thing, close to ninety thousand, God, what story is worth writing so many words? Just because I'm also a free-range school of ants, so whether it's planting flowers or writing, I don't like to be too restrained, plants, just try its long branches and leaves and fruits before talking (my pets, the flowers I plant, all are amazingly robust~); I have to trust it first, and it will know what to do. And I always felt that it wasn't me writing the story, it was the story that was manipulating me. It, the story itself has existed for a long time, exists in some universe, and I only occasionally pass by, glance at it, and find "Huh? It's funny! So I stopped in front of that crevice, grabbed some tools, carefully tore off its protective film, tried to see more interesting things, and then, with a passion for spreading gossip, told it to my friends.

Therefore, this kind of "writing method" cannot have an outline, let alone get an outline to stick in front of it first, in that case, it is like putting a cement cover on a plant, and the text will be "dead". I can only write and wait for it to grow, gradually "self-appear", and it must be revised repeatedly. Frankly, over the years, I have never managed to "get the full picture" of the direction of the article before closing, because it simply doesn't listen to me. This article is a very ...... Strange plants, countless contradictions and conflicts are wrapped in it, and if anyone likes this from beginning to end, then I think he is really a big-hearted person.

In addition, the reason why the government is completely invisible in this story is because it does not need to appear, and what I want to write has nothing to do with the actual administrative operation, so it is better to say that the "above" mentioned in the text is actually a metaphor, a metaphor for the god of fate, if you call it the power of the universe.

Fate will allow you to make any choice, and sooner or later you will find that the results you get are all the 'attention' you want, not consciously, but subconsciously. That's why I never let the "above" interfere with the characters' choices, because the universe won't stop you from doing anything. There's an old saying, "If you can't get what you want no matter how hard you try, it means that deep down in your soul, you don't want it at all."

It's just that people's understanding of themselves is really pitiful, and there are many misunderstandings.

Speaking of which, I think maybe the husband in the article understands these things better than me, haha! He's also my favorite character in the whole book, not so much liking him, but rather being my ideal self in practice, laughs. However, his prototype is a golden retriever retriever who has been in the same room with me for more than ten days, and his name is king. Even the name is very suitable for the husband~ Ah King is the dog of his friend Mars, and he is also the most charming and handsome dog I have ever seen.

Regarding the problem of the "two" Xuanxuan in the Spring and Autumn Period, I have already explained some in the conversation between Bai Qi and Liang Yi, that is to say, all the previous crossing behaviors were carried out on the same timeline, so there will be a real Murong Chong being forcibly taken offline, but Wu Yue's shield is seriously broken, because there is more than one timeline, which is completely different from the previous one, similar to the difference between two-dimensional and three-dimensional, but also like the difference between square and cube, not only countless originally independent universes will overlap, There will even be countless "Shih Tzus" coexisting (and there is even a good chance that they are not the same person). Therefore, in my personal cognition, if Fang Wuying did not save his wife and daughter, then Xuan Xuan would not become Xi Shi, but one tragedy will be redeemed, and another tragedy may have to be born: those two have been female monkeys in the forest for a lifetime, and Fang Wuying should die alone in modern society.

However, he still rescued his wife and daughter, and after that, everything was settled, and a new direction was formed, although none of the characters knew about it.

But this is not clear, laugh, if it is really discussed, I will go to Sweden to receive the award.

What happens after the story ends?

I do not know.

I don't know what will happen to the rest of the children except Xuanxuan, I don't know at all - if anyone says he knows, then he must be lying.

The only thing that is certain is that there are two ancients who lived to the end: Fang Ying. Wei Bin.

Fang Ying, I don't worry about her much, although she is a woman, her flexibility cannot be underestimated, and at least her son is still alive.

As for Wei Bin, he should live for a long, long time like an ordinary old man...... Oh, I can't bear to say it anymore, a girl I know actually said that she wanted to cry when she heard the words "Huo Quai, who is over half a hundred years old", and wiped her sweat, human hearts, what a wonderful thing, is there anything worse in the world than the possibility of death reduced to zero? I prefer a sturdy old man to a heroic soul who died early - I just like my wife and children to have a hot kang head, well, I was born with no romantic cells. Orz

If he really became an old man, would Wei Bin feel lonely? Maybe. However, I have always felt that he is a very special existence in my writing, not as enthusiastic about huddling as other ancients, and he is always detached, even if he gets along well on weekdays. This is the opposite of him and Fang Wuying, with different personalities and different encounters, resulting in different people's needs.

This way of life of keeping a spiritual distance from others, so as to be able to preserve more "self", I can't say good, I can't say bad, it seems to be more suitable for genius - genius needs great concentration for his great cause - but not necessarily suitable for ordinary people, just like Fang Wuying's kind of life, he has been very involved in the past 60 years, but on the whole is it fortunate or unfortunate? Can it really be summed up in a simple way by the ending? Lei Jun's ending looks tragic, his son is missing and his daughter refuses to go home all the year round, but compared to being miserable, there are more miserable than him - the so-called "comparison" is meaningless in itself.

Moreover, I don't think they will regret it, even if their lives are arranged like this by me.

As for many things that the characters in the story talk about, including the concept of life and death, history, family psychology, genetics, and even early childhood education, etc., they are all recognized by me from long-term and complicated reading and thinking, and I do not intend to pull readers to agree and accept. I'm just trying to reinterpret the clichéd storyline with a new cognitive system, making it defamiliar, a bit like the "discordant effect" advocated by Brecht. However, regarding some of the non-traditional materialist ideas in it, I personally like what Wernher von Braun, the father of rocketry, said in the frontispiece of his strange book "The Rainbow of Gravity": "Nature is not about life and death, but only about vicissitudes." Everything science has given me, including the new knowledge I have learned, has given me a strong conviction that we have a spirit after death. ”

Perhaps our physical body is just a wire, and the "current" of cosmic energy passes through us during this time, even if the wire is old and broken, the current will always exist in this space.

Well, but what's next?

I don't know, after a whole year of grinding with this group of people and making changes to the point that it is crazy, I only have one wish left: to throw them all out of my mind. Until reflex vomiting occurs, don't meet these names again for the time being.

I don't know what I'm going to write next, and I don't even know when the desire to write will come back to me...... This article is almost out of force, whether it is Mr. Wang Xiaobo or Mr. Stephen King, a money-making machine, have put forward requirements for the length, I think I am with the mentality of stepping into the green, unconsciously ran a marathon, so the front seems loose and superficial, to the middle of the beginning to seriously move closer to their hearts, my time and hard work, 70% are spent in the second half. This time, I made a mistake by starting to post before I finished writing, which is not good, otherwise I would have followed Stephen King's instructions and cut out 10% of the total amount six weeks after the first draft was finished.

The article is eternal, and the gains and losses are known.

However, although there are regrets, it is better than becoming Wei Zhongxian, conformity and self-depreciation are the most tolerant things in the world, who can die in the pursuit of perfection? Perhaps, the key is not to have problems, but to "keep working with problems".

Fortunately, I still have a long chance to exercise, but fortunately, there is no law that requires me to become Eileen Chang or Dostoevsky before I can write, thank God.

If readers can really see the next one, I think it will probably be a long, long time later, I like to write it, revise it cleanly and then take it out, and throw it away halfway through the writing, and I've done it more than once, I'm willing to be more serious about writing things, it's rare to find such fun in this life, I have to play enough~

The next book I wanted to write about pure romance, but I was skeptical that I could, and I came to the conclusion that I seemed to like to be in a state of "undefinable". Of course, I know the reason very well, and I won't talk about it if it's too personal.

Of course, it doesn't have to be better than this one, and it may even regress by trying new things, but I hope I can be like Haruki Murakami. I admire Haruki Murakami not because of his fame, but because of his love to toss, he even tosses his writing style, even if the toss is not as good as before, but he is not afraid at all, I admire his "not afraid" the most, the kind of calmness that is never afraid of hands and feet, whether as a person or as a writer, it is very necessary to always maintain, so, if God can meet one of my requirements, then I hope I will always be full of courage.

Below, is the thank you time~

Thank you to all the imperial concubines, civil ministers and military generals who have accompanied me this year, and (do the leadership and wave your hand) comrades for your hard work!

Thanks to the starting point, I was given a platform, I wasn't very optimistic about the reading effect of this kind of thing on the Internet before, but fortunately the editors are more far-sighted than me, and now it seems that the situation is not bad? In fact, I've always wondered who can stand grinding a book a year like this. Orz

I also thank the good king who accompanied me in my cultivation (hug and kiss hard!) I would like to thank my friend Mars for providing me with a cultivation channel (she is a professional who has obtained a psychologist's qualification), and Coco who invited me to eat countless delicious meals in order to be the first to hear the story during the year (dear, we have finally made money from this thing that has flowed through countless tables!). I can finally get you back! Coco contributed a lot, Wei Bin's two children's names were chosen by her, and many plots were also generated after discussion with her - the above three gave birth to this article.

Thank you also to the readers who insist on not watching pirated copies, and even spend money to tip, you know why I am grateful.

a big hug ！

Lou Shengsheng 2009, christmasEve

Pierce: To clear up a misunderstanding that seems to be deep: I am not engaged in psychology, I am just a layman who has read a lot of books and done several consultations, I am ashamed, I am not a science student as some readers guess, I am an ordinary Chinese student and my grades are not good, laugh. However, the part about psychology that I wrote has passed the review of Mars, and she said that I write things, "verisimilitude is the norm, not verisimilitive, perverted", I think this is the biggest compliment, hehe!

Pierce of Pierce: There are two misspellings in the title, the American should be American, and the dynasty looks, which is the result of a fight between the subconscious (id) and the literal perfect obsessive-compulsive disorder (superego), and the "id" wins again, and it plays me Orz in the most striking place. In addition, "being a talented person is really peerless, and being a king with a poor life" is a sentence in the Qing people's work "Southern Tang Dynasty Miscellaneous Songs", which was quoted by Yuan Mei, not Wang Guowei's, I remembered wrong, if you find a mistake in the text in the future, please make up for it and correct it by yourself, I won't bother, thank you