(a)

"I'll show you something. "As you speak, you open the drawer in your office and take out a thick booklet from it.www.biquge.info

I took it curiously and said, "What is it?" ”

You say, "Album." My photo. From childhood to not so long ago. ”

I flipped through the photo album.

I saw you as a child standing in a fenced car with a bib. Look at the group photo of your kindergarten spring outing. You're standing at the very edge of the front row, and you're the only one in the row who turns your head to look at the other side.

I flipped through the pages. I watched you grow up little by little, and slowly become what you were when we met.

You say, "Xinxin, the way I look sick and haggard now makes you feel very sad, doesn't it?" ”

I said, "Well, yes." ”

You say, "You're sad because the way I look now has changed a lot from when I was at the training camp and when we first met, right?" ”

I nodded.

You say, "But, look at this album." I've been changing since I was born, haven't I? In fact, it changes every minute, every once in a while, the change accumulates significantly, and it changes even the very moment we speak. If you're looking closely, I'm not what I was before you opened the album. It was never fixed. Every look is actually normal. ”

You say, "The way I'm standing in the fence, the way I'm wearing a red scarf when I enter school, the way I'm wearing my school uniform when I graduate from high school, the way I met you, and the way you see it now, all these looks, they're normal." They are all manifestations formed by the convergence of various conditions at that time. Why should we treat the same normal situation differently? ”

"We can't like some normals, we can't reject some normals, we can't accept some normals, and we can't accept another normal. You can't like me to grow up, you don't like me to grow old, you can't like me to end a cold, and you don't like me to start other diseases, in the laws of nature, growing up and aging are the same change, and the beginning and end of disease are also the same change. We can't like it one moment and dislike it the next. ”

You say, "We don't have to be made happy and sad by the same normal change, can we?" ”

You say, "Remember, with the same eye that you see as a pine cone, with the same ability you see a target in the dark, look at everything, look at me, look at the changes that have taken place in me." Don't confuse everyone's eyes. When you look at things with that kind of eye, you don't get shrouded in sadness. ”

Say, "When the sun rises in the east and sets in the west, do you feel troubled and sorrowful?" No. Because you think it's normal, it's supposed to be this way. What about the sun rising in the west and setting in the east? It will cause troubles and sorrows. Because you don't think it's normal. When you think it's not normal, troubles and sorrows arise spontaneously. ”

You say, "People think it's normal to be strong when you're young, and it's abnormal to think you're seriously ill and dying when you're young, so you can't accept it. However, what I want to tell you is not to be fooled by this delusion that everyone has. It is also normal to be seriously ill and dying at a young age. It is the normal cause of death and normal death of countless lives. It's normal. You have to learn to treat it with the same eyes and attitude as you look at normal things. ”

You say, "Xinxin, I know you're feeling lonely right now." However, loneliness is only a temporary emotion, just as pain is only a temporary feeling, and we grit our teeth and endure it, and they all pass. ”

I bowed my head. I said, "I'll be patient." ”

(b)

You come in from the outside and see Director Wang sitting at his desk, looking at a pair of running shoes with a sad face.

You say, "What's wrong?" This expression? ”

It turned out that Mr. Wang had a pair of Nike brand custom sneakers, which were custom-made by Mr. Zhou from a specialty store in the United States, which was particularly comfortable to wear and was a favorite pair of shoes for Mr. Wang. At that time, it was also very expensive.

Mr. Zhou gave it to Mr. Wang as a gift for the couple's wedding anniversary. Director Wang is quite fond of it. Every time we go out for training or go to a game, Coach Wang wears it.

After returning from Bosan, I don't know if it was because of the big difference in climate, or because of the condition of the venue over there, the shoes broke down at the beginning of the new semester. Director Wang took it to the shoe store to repair it once, but it didn't last long and broke down again. This time, the damage looked like it couldn't be repaired.

Wang Gui took them back from the shoe store and put them on the table, looking at them with a worried brow, reluctant to throw them away anyway.

You listened to Director Wang's explanation of the cause and effect, and then looked at Director Wang's expression, and couldn't help but smile.

Director Wang glared at you and said, "You smiled so ambiguously." What's so ridiculous?. ”

You say, "I have read in books before that the ancient sages abandoned the world as if they were abandoning the world, but today I see Brother Wang, abandoning the world as if you were abandoning the world." ”

Director Wang was stunned when he heard this, and then laughed out loud.

After laughing, he stood up and said, "You boy. ”

He picked up the shoes on the table, walked to the door, sighed, let go, and threw them into the trash.

You watch Director Wang return from the door, and while you sort out the paper on the table, you say, "That's right." In this world, there is nothing that cannot be lost. ”

Director Wang looked at you. He whispered, "Even if you are strong, you can have fun all day long." ”

You say, "If a sad face doesn't stop things from changing, why not be happy?" ”

(c)

When Liu Wenli came in, you were cooking something on the stove.

Liu Wenli opened the lid of the pot and took a look. She said, "What? White porridge again? ”

She said: "How can you do it with white porridge every day? You need to eat something nutritious to make up for it. ”

You say, "White porridge is very good, it's very nourishing." ”

You say, "It's better to come early than to come at a good time." You're just in time to do me a favor. ”

"What's the busy?" Liu Wenli asked.

You say, "Do me a favor and drink this bowl of pork rib soup." ”

"Huh? Soup? Liu Wenli looked at you.

You say: "This bowl of soup was sent by the grandmother next door when she heard that I had just been discharged from the hospital, and after a while, her old man came to visit the door and saw that I didn't drink it, and the old man was going to be disappointed and poured the soup, and it was also very disappointing to the old man's heart." You drink it. ”

Liu Wenli looked at the soup bowl, and she said, "Do you feel greasy and can't drink it?" Otherwise, I will filter the oil with gauze, and you can add it to the porridge and drink as much as you want. ”

You shake your head.

She said, "Does your stomach still feel uncomfortable? ”

You say, "It's okay to be fine." There will also be a little discomfort when eating. ”

Liu Wenli watched you drink porridge worriedly.

You say, "Why are you looking at me with such sorrowful eyes?" Didn't I eat it deliciously? ”

Liu Wenli said: "Can you only drink white porridge?" What about vegetable porridge? What about fruit porridge? What about thin noodles? What about ravioli? What about egg soup? ....... As long as you can drink it, I can make it for you every day. ”

You smile, you make a helpless face.

Her heart was heavy. She knows that "there will be a little uncomfortable" meaning, even if it is white porridge, it is not easy for you.

You look at Liu Wenli's depressed expression, and you say, "After drinking the soup, help me go out and buy two bags of oral glucose powder, okay?" ”

Liu Wenli nodded and said, "No problem." ”

(iv)

When Wenli Liu came back from buying bags of glucose from outside, you were experiencing that "there will be a little bit" discomfort.

Liu Wenli silently helped you clean all the kitchen utensils and tableware, and she poured a hot water bottle and handed it to you.

She said, "Warm up your stomach, it'll feel better." ”

You straighten up with difficulty, and you look at her gratefully.

You take the hot water bottle. You lie on the table again, burying your face deep in your arms.

Liu Wenli sat down next to you silently, and she sat next to you to accompany you.

After a while, your face returns to normal.

You look at Liu Wenli's frown.

Liu Wenli said: "I can't eat like this, how long can you last?" ”

You say, "There are many ways to get energy, but eating is not the most important one. ”

She looks at you. She said, "Really? ”

You say, "It's true, and it's not a lie to comfort you." ”

You say, "When one is quiet enough, energy arises from within and fills the whole body. ”

"Internal?"

"Hmm. In a sufficiently peaceful situation, there is no need to even eat, sleep, or breathe. You won't feel hot when it's hot outside. When it's cold outside, you won't feel cold either. Everyone is fully satisfied, and there is no need to rely on various external material support. ”

"Really?" Liu Wenli will look at you suspiciously.

You nod and say, "Really." ”

She will look at you suspiciously: "Then why do you still cook white porridge, knowing that it will be so uncomfortable to eat?" ”

You smile, and you say, "Because if I keep eating nothing and still be alive, everyone will find it difficult to accept." No, I'm still eating white porridge, so you can't accept it. ”

Liu Wenli opened her mouth slightly.

You say, "Don't worry, I'm fine." Feel relieved. (To be continued.) )