(a)

I sat side by side with you in the carriage.

Through the window, I looked at the scenery on the road.

You look at me and look out the window.

I know you're looking at me. I look out the window so you can look at me. If I look at you too, you'll look out the window. I love being watched by you. I prefer that you can watch what you really want to watch.

You say, "Is there anything to see?" Window? ”

You say, "It's all very commonplace." ”

I look back at you. I said, "With unusual people, all the scenery will become, unusual scenery." ”

You smiled. You say, "With unusual people, all unusual scenery will become, ordinary scenery." ”

"What are you thinking?" You ask.

"I'm thinking about dying." I said, "How nice it would be if we could die suddenly right now." ”

You say, "Don't think about it." ”

I said, "It's not a fantasy. This is something I thought deeply. If I can't live by your side, then I'm willing to die by your side. ”

Say, "If you die, I will no longer be in your heart." ”

I said, "I will take you through life and death." ”

You say, "That's hard. ”

I said, "It's not hard. I will think of you every day, every day. Thinking of you all the time. Thinking of you in all things, thinking of you in all things. I'll put you in flesh and blood, into every speck of dust in your body. I miss you when I wake up, and I miss you in my dreams. I miss you in the crowd and I miss you when I'm alone. I will be in the thoughts, if there are no thoughts, it will be you. In this way, there is you when you read it, and wherever you read it, you will be there. ”

You look at me. You say, "I'm not worth it." ”

I said, "You're worth it." ”

You say, "Forget about me." ”

I said, "No." ”

You say, "Life is long. I'm just a short dream for you. It's like a fleeting landscape outside the window. If you are reluctant to leave the scenery of the past, you will not see the scenery ahead. ”

I said, "No." You are the whole landscape. ”

I said, "You're the one that makes the whole landscape worth seeing." ”

You shake your head. You say, "No." ”

You say, "You're saying the opposite." Letting you enjoy all the scenery is the meaning of my dreams. ”

(b)

I opened my eyes. And so, the carriage, so, the scenery, so, you, so, myself, all disappeared. There was only a bend of the moon, shining in from the window. Silver light all over the ground.

I looked at the crescent moon.

At this moment, it shines on you in the same way.

Actually, in this way, I am very satisfied. Knowing that you are also breathing under the same moon, I am satisfied.

At this moment, in this city, in this country, between heaven and earth, how many husbands and wives are sleeping together with each other? Because of your blood, because of your hardships, because of your sacrifices, because of your renunciation, they can sleep together in such a quiet and sweet way. But they still don't feel happy. They don't understand how hard-won this kind of companionship is.

They won't remember you either.

All heroes will eventually be ruthlessly forgotten by the people they want to benefit.

(c)

So, I was awake like that. Look at this city full of companions, and our heavens are on the other side.

I was awake and watched, how the two blended together.

You know they won't remember you.

You know I'll remember you.

However, you chose to leave me. So that I can forget you, just as they do.

(iv)

I miss you so much.

They don't know all the people in this city, I miss you so much.

They don't care, I miss you so much.

They won't sympathize either, I miss you so much.

They won't remember, I miss you so much.

I miss you so much, it's always my own business.

Even if I sacrifice my life, marry into this city, and be confined here for the rest of my life, from youth to old age and death, no one will care, I miss you in my heart.

And this is exactly that, Taiping. The peace we strive for.

That, I can't even think of you, I'll never be able to say it, Taiping.