Fang Wuying thought for a while, and then asked, "Why did you go to the Audit Bureau?" ”

"I could have been on balance like you, but I don't want to stay in the institute." Shi Yuanzheng said, "Besides, Ling Juan doesn't want me to stay here any longer, she thinks I'd better not touch these things anymore." So ......"

Fang Wuying suddenly asked: "In the more than 20 years you have been here, are you still happy?" ”

Shi Yuanzheng looked at him in confusion, "Why do you ask that?" ”

Fang Wuying frowned, and he said with a little difficulty, "...... Listening to Xiaopeng's tone, it seems that you are not doing well. ”

Shi Yuanzheng lowered his head and raised it again: "There is no life that will be more unsatisfactory than death." ”

Shi Yuanzheng's answer indirectly verified Fang Wuying's inner guess.

"Before the stormy and stormy, the world swept through the world, and even usurped the imperial power...... That's it, you know. But then I came here, got married, had children, entered the audit bureau, and worked from 9 to 5 ......"

"Don't feel comfortable?"

"How?" He smiled, "Even if you don't adapt to it at first, will you still be bad at it after twenty years?" ”

“…… I want to lie down, can I? Fang Wuying suddenly said, "It's still a little painful." ”

"You should have been lying down." Shi Yuanzheng stood up, helped him adjust the bed to the level, and helped him raise the pillow a little.

Fang Wuying exhaled, half-lying made him feel a lot better, just now he straightened his body when he spoke, the wound on his collarbone was pulled in pain, and the power that he had cultivated for many years was now mostly lost.

"It's weird." He suddenly said, "This feels ......"

Shi Yuanzheng looked at him quietly, waiting for him to finish speaking.

"In my opinion, it seems that your two lives are too completely broken." Fang Wuying said slowly, "This kind of fracture has caused some kind of ...... Harm. ”

"Perhaps. But when I saw you, Captain Fang, I knew that you were borrowing some way to keep a little trace of the past. ”

Fang Wuying smiled noncommittally and didn't make a sound.

"Completely erasing the traces of the past, on the one hand, Ling Juan's request, of course, I myself have such a wish." Shi Yuanzheng said slowly, "I don't want to mention the past, and I don't want to talk to anyone, even if my poems become Zhang Yimou's movies, it doesn't matter." When I entered society, I had friends, friends who could give with their lives—but even if I were kind-hearted, I didn't want to talk to them about me. From the bottom of my heart, I don't want people who have died once to stop being obsessed with the life before that. ”

Fang Wuying nodded: "I understand." ”

"Because you're the one who died once, too." Shi Yuanzheng's gaze flashed with a hint of confusion, "Maybe Director Liang chose a short-lived emperor like us for this reason-if he brought a certain emperor back to the modern era, he would not be so willing." ”

Fang Wuying smiled bitterly: "That is to say, Ling Juan is the only one who knows who you are?" ”

"There were also a few staff members who were involved in the experiment at the time. In fact, when we got married, we had already agreed to live in this new identity, including our children, and we didn't want him to have anything to do with my past......"

"Now, it seems that your wish has not been fulfilled." Although he felt that these words were too sharp, Fang Wuying still expressed his meaning, "And from Xiaopeng's words, I also feel that you haven't really let go of the past." ”

Shi Yuanzheng was stunned and said with a smile: "Maybe this is what I can't control, my will and behavior can't be unified." ”

"It is impossible for people to cut off their past with a pair of scissors, and willpower can't do anything at this time." Fang Wuying said as if comforting, "Me too, Xiao Wu, Xiao Wei, it's all like this, you don't have to blame yourself too much." ”

"So when I learned that Xiaopeng ran away to the Tang Dynasty, I had a sense of destinedness in my heart." Shi Yuanzheng whispered, "I should have died in that era, but I didn't, so you see, my son went over instead of me...... Die. ”

There was silence for a moment.

Fang Wuying's thoughts were racing in his heart, he felt the strange trick of fate for the first time, in this case, he couldn't even say the words of comfort to Shi Yuanzheng.

However, Shi Yuanzheng's next words startled Fang Wuying!

"Captain Fang, can I participate in the next action?" He stared at Fang Wuying and asked, "I want to go over and see Xiaopeng." ”

"You passed?" Fang Wuying hesitated, "I don't know the danger of doing this, after all, you ......"

"I was from the Tang Dynasty, but I wasn't born yet." He smiled, "So, it won't cause disorder." ”

Fang Wuying's mind was a little confused, at that point, his father who was not yet born should have gone to see his son from another time and space, and no one could say what the consequences would be if he did so.

"Maybe I can talk to him." Shi Yuanzheng continued, "I'm his father, right? I haven't seen him in two years, and I don't know how he's doing now......"

"It's not impossible to get you involved." Fang Wuying said, "And you are not the only one who wants to increase the number of personnel this time." ”

Speaking of this, the nurse probe knocked lightly on the door: "The conversation is too long, and the patient needs to rest." Please leave. ”

Shi Yuanzheng nodded, and he stood up: "Then I'll go first, and I'll discuss this matter with Xiaopeng's mother." ”

Fang Wuying saw that he was about to leave, and he suddenly called out to him.

"There's a question...... he paused, "I hope you don't get off." ”

"Just ask."

"You...... Do you regret it? Fang Wuying struggled to support his body and looked at him cautiously, "Do you regret your life for so many years?" If you hadn't married Ling Juan and hadn't given birth to Xiaopeng, none of this would have happened now. ”

Shi Yuanzheng stared at him and said softly, "But what's the point of that?" ”

Fang Wuying was stunned!

"If you don't marry Xiaojuan, without Xiaopeng, no matter how well you mix in this society, no matter how high you climb in the unit...... No, even if I go back and continue to be my Great Qi Emperor - what's the point of that life? ”

"Well, but ......"

Shi Yuanzheng was silent for a moment before he spoke again:

"Captain Fang, you and I have both received the most noble thing in the world, and that thing has not brought us any benefits except for harming us." After he finished speaking, he sighed softly, "I thought about it twenty years ago, I can't hold back because I am afraid of the unknown result, I don't know what will happen ahead, Xiao Juan doesn't know, and Director Liang is still firmly against us being together......"

"Director Liang is against you being together?"

Shi Yuanzheng smiled self-deprecatingly: "He treats Xiao Juan as his daughter, so ...... Who would marry their daughter to a socially maladjusted? Even now, I don't want my children to marry a waste snack who has no car, no house, no understanding of the world, and can't do anything. At that time, I didn't even know how to write simplified Chinese. ”

“…… Everyone comes slowly, step by step. ”

Xiao Juan said the same. If she hadn't been holding me by the end, I wouldn't be where I am now, and if you've seen me at the beginning, you'll understand. In that way, I am afraid that I will not be able to integrate into the fringes of society all my life. ”

Only now did Fang Wuying understand why Shi Yuanzheng and Ling Juan were combined, and he had also had the pain of always being free and unable to integrate.

"So, are you willing to accept all this now?" Fang Wuying asked, "Now you ...... You're divorced, and your children are like that...... Sorry, I'm more direct. ”

Shi Yuanzheng's expression showed a hint of confusion, but he still shook his head slightly.

"Is there a better life than this?" Suddenly, he whispered.

Fang Wuying didn't understand what he meant for a while.

"If I can't enter the society all the time, I can't maintain my family, stay in the institute as a living specimen, and rely on the director for the rest of my life, it's too embarrassing, and it's not what I think about living a mess for a lifetime, it's already a mess before, it's rare to have one more life, what's the point of repeating it again? I don't want to choose someone else, no one will understand me better than Ling Juan, if even my wife can't understand me, then why do you need this marriage. ”

Fang Wuying looked at him and nodded lightly: "...... I see. There really is no better option. ”

"I don't want to be separated from Ling Juan, and I don't want to watch my son follow my old path and become a rebel in the Tang Dynasty, but no matter how much I don't want to, I can't change their decision. In that case, let's accept fate. He said, a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth, "At least they're all alive, right?" I'm still alive, and since life exists, who can say for sure? ”

"That'...... What do you plan to do in the future? Fang didn't answer.

Shi Yuanzheng raised his face and looked out of the white plastic steel window, the gray and dreary modern urban sky, for a long time, he shook his head.

"I don't know. Not only did I not know, but I was also very scared, and I was scared when I thought of my son like this now, and my spine trembled with fear: this is my second life, if this time it is messed up again......" he said, stopped, and then after a long while, he continued, "It's useless to accept fate, I am afraid while resigning to my fate, and I am worried that I will always be separated from Xiaojuan like this, and the family of three will never be reunited." ”

“……”

"But what should I do if I am afraid to come and go? I still have to get by, tomorrow when the phone alarm rings, I still have to go to work, the reports are all piled up there, I have to go for approval. Shi Yuanzheng suddenly laughed, "Don't you think it's funny?" I'm the way I am. ”

"A little." Fang Wuying tried to relax his expression, "Maybe we all think that you shouldn't be like this, including your son." ”

"Well, I know what he's thinking." Shi Yuanzheng nodded lightly, "He only remembers that his father occupied Chang'an, and remembers his father's pride in breaking into Daming Palace, but he doesn't remember that his father killed people like hemp, and the final result......"

Fang Wuying curled his fingers against his chin, he thought for a moment before he said: "He doesn't have the same experience as us, and he lacks a real sense of history, he doesn't understand what the four words 'killing people like hemp' mean, he thinks that those living people are NPCs - he doesn't need to do it himself." It is better to say that now Xiaopeng feels more like playing three-dimensional Warcraft with his real body. ”

Shi Yuanzheng sighed softly.

"Anyway, I'll try to convince them to bring you." Fang Wuying said, "Anyway, you ...... now Can you still hold a knife? ”

Shi Yuanzheng was stunned for a moment and shook his head: "I haven't touched it for more than 20 years, these hands ......"

He lowered his head and spread out his hand, and looked: "I have only hugged the child and touched the keyboard." ”

Fang Wuying couldn't help but smile bitterly: "It's okay, at least, well, you still have a foundation." ”

Authorps:

Because the two recommendations are on this week, it's a good thing that the update frequency has increased a little more ^_^, and I hope it can bring some happiness to the people who read~ Thank you to the readers who made suggestions and comments, I will try to consider it when revising.

Thank you again Sanjiang, thank you to the History Channel~