Adventures in Heaven (novel) Zhang Baotong

In the morning, I got up very early, faced the rising morning light, stepped on the damp dew, came to the cave a few dozen meters away, opened the gate in front of the cave entrance, and let the sheep that had been in the cave all night into the valley to graze. There were about seventy or eighty sheep in the flock www.biquge.info the pen "Fun" Pavilion, and the head sheep led the hula to the depths of the valley. Then I took a spear about two meters long and followed the sheep to the heart of the valley with green grass, and sat on a high place by the stream and watched the sheep and the scenery around me. The sheep don't really need much management, just protection, because often one or two wolves steal in from the woods on the other side of the valley and want to attack the idea of the flock. Then I had to grab my spear and run towards the valley on the opposite side, and drive the wolf away as quickly as possible. The wolf tried several times like this, but when he couldn't succeed, he came less. But I can't let my guard down.

Time can turn regret and troubles into indifference, and it can also make silence and beauty hollow. No matter how beautiful the scenery is, if there is no emotion and a woman's dropout, it will lose its soul and charm, and it will no longer be wonderful and fresh after watching it for a few days. After a long time, I simply don't want to look at it more, or turn a blind eye. In order not to feel that I was alone in the empty valley, I lay on the grass by the stream, sometimes for a morning or an afternoon. By closing my eyes quietly in this way, I can put myself in a wonderful and romantic realm, and feel the longing and longing that cannot be realized in reality with the drifting of my thoughts and the yearning of my heart. Sometimes, I really don't want to open my eyes, and when I open them, I see the endless emptiness and loneliness under the sun, and my mood becomes depressed.

However, loneliness and loneliness can make people have unexpected feelings and experiences, can make you have a real and profound taste for an ideal and longing, and make many superficial understandings become deep and dignified after careful consideration. People may want their thoughts to be deep and solemn, but no one wants to experience this boundless emptiness and loneliness. Especially with my active and lustful nature, the surging blood and romantic and heroic passion will make me unable to bear this protracted and unchanging loneliness and loneliness. Loneliness, loneliness and lust and longing are like a poisonous snake wrapped around the heart. Gentle, courageous, loving and being loved by women, this has almost become the source of my life's constant vigor and nourishment. And without this source of heat, life will suffer like a silent withering in a rainless drought.

There is no longer the flow of time in the air, and there is no longer the echo of the heart in the wind. Life and life suddenly became so simple and monotonous. After failing to return again and again, even the lone wolf lost patience and stopped patronizing the place. The only thing I can do now is lie on the grass or sit on the top of a hill and dream out of thin air into the distance. Gradually, even the reverie became boring. I really don't know what else I can do. Maybe I can't do anything, I don't want to do anything. But what is the point of a person's life when he can't do anything, when he doesn't want to do anything?

More than once I remembered the scene of the shepherd holding the guard and weeping bitterly. This makes me wonder if people in the city would have changed their interpersonal relationships if they had lived in this environment for a while. I've been living in the city for more than 20 years, and the relationships in the city are as deeply ingrained in me as the air pollution in the city. Urban interpersonal relations are almost a relationship of interest and exclusion. People are constantly grinding and fighting in the operation of fast and efficient work and life, which makes the simple and friendly human nature gradually become indifferent and aggressive. In fact, the loneliness and loneliness they experience are due to the crowding and depression of the super-dense crowd, the suffering and helplessness in a man-made vicious environment, and the loneliness formed by the empty nature are two completely different natures. Because the causes of these two types of loneliness and loneliness are different, the results are naturally different. My experience in Heaven has taught me that human beings really want to be close to others. Whenever people are lonely and lonely, they will miss and miss their loved ones and close ones, and they will take a day to visit or visit. People in the city are different, when they are lonely and lonely, they think of some distant and uninhabited place. For some people, this dream sometimes never comes true.

Just when I was in a very bad mood, Ying'er suddenly came to see me. I don't know if Yingzi's glamorous beauty makes Qingshan Green Valley fresh and bright, or if Qingshan Green Valley makes Yingzi extremely beautiful, I almost regard her as a beautiful fairy in my dreams. When she descended from the mountain road in front of the house into the verdant valley, I woke up and shouted "Ying'er-" and ran towards her. Although I haven't seen each other for a few days, it seems like I've been looking forward to it for too long in a dream. When I ran in front of her, I felt an uncontrollable eagerness and affection surging violently in my heart. We looked at each other affectionately, and there were many, many things to say, but we were speechless and crying first when we met. "How did you become like this?" Her voice was a little slurred because of the tears, but it made her appearance more gentle and delicate. Seeing her crying, I couldn't help but shed tears. However, this is a tear of joy and relief, a tear of gratitude and heartbeat. She wiped tears from her face with her sleeve and told me, "Your Majesty has asked me to come and see you." "I am grateful, "Your Majesty King Xie has treated him so kindly, and Longhua will never forget His Majesty's holy grace until he dies." Ying'er said, "Your Majesty can't bear to punish you for coming here to shepherd sheep, but I am afraid that you will be dissatisfied, so I will punish you here, and there are many grievances." I hurriedly said, "If it weren't for Your Majesty and the princess trying their best to save them, Longhua would have been sent to a desert island long ago." Longhua only feels lucky, how can there be grievances? "On the way to the cottage, I eagerly inquired about the Princess's condition. Ying'er told me that His Majesty had sentenced her to three months of confinement and was not allowed to leave the palace. She can only stay in the Frangipani Garden every day, depressed and unhappy, and misses it very much, but she can't get out of the palace, so she can only play the song "Butterfly" alone. Ying'er said, handed me the long flute in her hand, and said, "The princess asked me to bring this flute to you, saying that as soon as you blow it, she can hear it." I took it with both hands, and was deeply moved by a very beautiful emotion in my heart, and I couldn't help but call out from the bottom of my heart, "Ah, my princess." ”

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