14. Incomprehension and pain

"You should not lend money to Cicero, let alone help him invest, this man is not to be trusted, he is a little man who sways with the wind, and although his poetry and speech are very popular with the nobles, it seems to me that Cicero is not worthy of you to do this for him. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 Info remembers that during the civil war, he sided with Pompey, and when Caesar won a landslide victory, he leaned on Caesar's side to curry favor with Caesar. Such a person is not trustworthy at all, don't tell me that you are investing not only in overseas land, but also in Cicero, I have no confidence in him. ”

In the splendid mansion of Appis, the young Tertila pointed at Apis like a seasoned politician and talked endlessly, expressing his opinions and ideas. However, she was not a real politician, and her intellect was not up to the level of a good politician, she was still a child, and her mind was limited to ordinary life, limited to what she saw, and yet, what appeared on the surface was always so hypocritical, but the young girl did not understand, she did not understand her husband, which distressed Appis.

However, Appis couldn't tell her everything, and even if he did, Tertila wouldn't believe it, did he tell her that he had come through time? Do you know how Rome will develop in the future, and what will happen to some people? Not to mention this, even if he told him about his own political methods, Tertila would not understand, as her mother said, her daughter was still an ignorant child.

It's a pity that Appis was misunderstood, but he couldn't explain it, and some things might not be answered until two or three years later, and now, he is facing the fierce dissatisfaction of Tertilla.

"My love, why do you not believe in me so much, do not believe in my vision and determination? Cicero will play an important role in the future, I will not be wrong to invest in him, there are some things that I cannot explain to you clearly now, and you do not understand, but there is nothing I can do about this, and at the same time, I also know that not only you do not understand, but everyone may not understand, they will say that I, behold, that Apis is a madman, a fool, who throws money away, is a fool. Yes, they will say so. But ......"

Appis wanted to continue explaining, but found speechless. After all, there are some things that some people can understand, some people who are never able to understand the circumstances of her life, and this is the case with Tertila, who has been protected by her mother since she was a child, knows very little about the outside world, about Roman politics, and even more sadly, she thinks she knows a lot, and thinks that what she knows is the truth. But Apis didn't blame her, after all, it wasn't just her, but someone else didn't understand what she was doing, because it did seem like a dream.

"Why would you do it when everybody says so?"

Tertila asked in a sullen mood.

"Because I'm a man, in the current situation, I can only do this, I have to plan for our future, prepare for it. I'll go on my own way, you can trust me, if you don't believe me, I'll ......."

Apis could barely speak, and his heart was very tired. Hopefully, Tertila will be able to take care of it, but it's hard.

"Planning for our future? Aren't we very good now? Our life, our family, Caesar is your kinsman, Brutus is your brother, my mother admires you, we have a lot of wealth, a gorgeous mansion, isn't that enough? What else are you going to do to win them over? All I want is a safe and stable home, a safe, hard-working and down-to-earth Appis. ”

As she spoke, tears were almost coming out, her heart was very haggard, in her heart, she loved Appis, but too many estrangements caused too many misunderstandings and incomprehensions.

"The present life is not eternal, everything that seems to be peaceful and beautiful is an illusion, and Caesar hides turmoil and unrest under the reformed and stable society of Rome. Brutus? Don't you see that his clear gaze is becoming more cloudy and confused day by day? Seville, your mother, she may not know that far away in Egypt, Caesar's other lover, the Roman Senate, the countless pairs of eyes that yearn for power but dare not look at it, all of this is a crisis. There is no such thing as the absolutely beautiful and comfortable life you aspire to, and since the day I was promoted to commander of the legion by Caesar, I have stepped into the sands of the Colosseum with one foot, and it does not mean that others will not come to peep at your status and wealth. The turmoil in Rome is a danger you don't think about. Only by constantly planning and polishing the sword in your hand can you survive in this turbulent era. Oh, but I'm telling you this, you won't understand, at least not yet. ”

Appis reluctantly explained a lot, but shook his head sadly, how difficult it is for a young girl to understand the intricacies of Roman politics, and the pain is that she will ask you in turn.

"Well, you always think a lot, I don't understand."

Tertira pouted and returned dissatisfied.

Appis let out a long sigh of helplessness.

Octavia, alas, Apis suddenly remembered the woman, yes, if Sextus hadn't married her in the first place, would he have had a chance to be with her when the Gallic War was over? But there are no ifs, and Tertila is also very good to herself, but she doesn't understand herself in many things. If I had been with Octavia, maybe I would be much better now, maybe it would have been worse. Alas, alas, Appis sighed.

It's just that a few days later, Octavia dramatically appeared on Appis's way to the Senate, she took Apis's hand, it seems that because of the revival of old love, it seems that it is just because of loneliness, in short, the lonely Octavia and the "lonely" Apis walked together again, however, everything is just secretly, in the gorgeous temple of Venus, Apis took off Octavia's gorgeous clothes, although the skin is no longer as delicate as it was at the beginning, but the style remains, A woman's temperament does not pass with the passage of time. It's just that Apis at this time is no longer the simple and immature Apis at the beginning, looking at the still beautiful Octavia in front of him, Apis is conflicted and worried.