(a)

The day before your trip to Yuanjue Temple, you came to the palace again and presented me with the prepared offering list and prayers. You also told me about the military and political activities in Yunjing these days and the old gatherings with the New Han Army.

At noon, I will leave you to eat in the palace. I have specially instructed the Imperial Dining Room to make dishes that you like more at home according to your usual tastes. When the head of the imperial dining room came to listen to the order, I realized that you have always been very selective about your meals, and you really don't have many obvious favorites. I remember that you said to me before that in Qingchuan, everything is tempering, everything is practice, even if it is eating, it is also training oneself to have an equanimity that does not love and hate.

Large plates and small plates filled the table. We sat opposite each other.

I felt like I was back in the water, back to the moment when we sat opposite each other in the dining room again after you healed. Time flies. How much has happened since then. Those good times, all of them can't be returned.

You tasted a little bit of everything, and after eating half a bowl of lotus leaf and winter melon porridge, you stopped eating.

I look at you and feel very sad in my heart.

I said, "Can't you eat such a light diet?" Do you eat so little every day? ”

You say, "Abstaining from luxury and living a light life was originally advocated by the sages." Now in Yunjing, it's too peaceful, and you don't have to go to the field to gallop and fight, eat less, it doesn't matter, and when you are occasionally dizzy, you don't have to vomit so hard. ”

When I heard this, I was silent with tears in my eyes.

You say, "Qin'er, everything is arranged, tomorrow morning, I will pick you up from the palace." ”

How long have I been looking forward to this moment? Since the day I arrived in Yunjing and entered the palace for the wedding, I have been looking forward to your arrival every day and every night. In countless dreams, I have longed for you to one day appear among these walls, longing for you to say to me that you will take me out, and that we will leave together.

Even if it's just for a few days.

(b)

There was a thud in the room, as if something had toppled over.

Wu Shun rolled over with a bone. He called Xie Shuangcheng: "Hurry up!" Go light the lights! ”

You watched Wu Shun and Xie Shuangcheng come in, and you tried your best to get up from the bed. Your arm goes limp, you lose your balance, and you fall headlong out of bed.

"Quick, give him medicine! He couldn't hold on to this painful method. "Wu Shun took you in his arms and called the attendant doctor loudly.

After a period of scramble, the pain finally came down again.

Seeing that you were lying on the bed with a blue face and struggling to breathe, the doctor said to Wu Shun: "It's best to stay in bed and recuperate, don't go out of the city to the mountains." ”

Wu Shun said: "I'm afraid not. Everything was arranged. This is a matter for the royal family, and it cannot be played with casually. ”

The doctor sighed and said, "Then, I have to add medicine again at noon every day, with a shorter interval, and I should be able to calm it." ”

After you woke up, Wu Shun asked you, "Otherwise, postpone going to Baojing Peak for a day or two." Wait until your situation is slightly better. ”

You shake your head. You say, "No need to postpone. If you postpone it, Qin'er will know that her condition has worsened again. She's going to be sad. ”

You try, and you still can't sit up. You fall heavily on the bed again.

Wu Shun said: "Give him a little more medicine, can you add more?" ”

The medic hesitated for a moment and said, "Add it again, once every three hours." If I add more, I am not sure if it will be safe. ”

(c)

The day has finally come to leave the palace.

I changed into my travel attire, covered my face with a light veil, and boarded the carriage engraved with the royal insignia.

I listened to the sound of wheels rolling on the bluestone road.

I hear the voices of the palace guards saluting you and the charioteers.

I gently lifted a corner of the curtain.

I saw you riding a horse in front of the side of the cart. I see the long tail of the moonlight, I see your back.

The horse caravan passed through one huge palace gate after another.

I watched as the eaves and walls of those palaces slowly faded into the pale gray sky in the doorway behind me.

Finally galloped out of Miyagi.

Finally galloped out of the urn city.

Finally galloped out of the north gate of Yunjing.

Finally left this huge city and this huge prison behind.

The claw that had been holding my throat for all these years suddenly loosened. Cold, sweet, fresh air poured into the internal organs. I felt a wave of excitement and tremors that I had never felt before.

Before I even found out I was crying, I was crying with joy.

At this time, I realized how depressed and suffocating I was in these days in Yunjing!

(iv)

I pulled back the curtain and tapped lightly on the wall.

You rode near me. You say, "What does Madame Jun command?" ”

I whispered, "I'm going to ride a horse." I'm going to get out of the car and ride with you. ”

You look left and right. You say, "No." The mountain roads are icy. You have just had a miscarriage, and you can't come down to blow the wind. ”

I said, "I don't care!" Let me ride with you. ”

Say, "The duty of a minister is to keep Mrs. Jun safe." ”

I said, "I want to be with you." Wants to look at you. I don't want to have anything to do with it. Even if it's just a plank, a layer of tulle. ”

You look at me. You continue to ride. You say, "No." ”

You know Liu Shen's style very well. Although he himself is not there, there will definitely be eyes in this team that are loyal to him.

I look at you with hatred. I said, "That's ruthless." ”

You look at me again. You shake your head at me.

I said, "If you're scared, then you can get in the car too." ”

You say, "No." ”

I said, "General, as a subordinate, you can't disobey the order. Or let me ride with you, or you come up and ride with me. You only have two options. ”

You sigh inwardly. You pursed your lips.

You say, "Minister, obey the decree of Mrs. Jun." ”

(5)

You sit down in the carriage. You're sitting across from me. You pull the curtain back a little.

I said, "It's windy outside." I'm cold. You said I had just had a miscarriage and couldn't blow the wind. ”

You look at me. You hand me the handstove on your seat. You say, "Take your hands warm." ”

I hugged the hand stove. I said, "I'm still cold." ”

You close the curtain a little bit.

I said, "It's still cold." ”

You say, "I'm not going to pull it up." ”

I bit my lip, and as soon as I reached out, I closed all the curtains.

You moved.

I'm looking at you with wide eyes.

You hesitate. You sit still.

You look at the car curtains.

I said, "Don't hide from my gaze. Look at me. Look me in the eye. ”

Your gaze turns to my face.

We looked at each other.

We appear in each other's eyes.

We are very close to each other.