(a)

On the night of the outing, we were arranged to stay in the youth dormitory at the base. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

After dinner, we had a bonfire with the members of the base.

After the show ended, the music rang out. It's time to dance. The students joined the dancing circle in twos and threes.

As you walked past the dancing crowd and came to me from the other side of the campfire, you saw a young man step away from me. You watched him back away from me, and you said hello to him.

I sat alone on my knees beside the campfire and watched it crackle and burn. The leaping flames turned my eyes red.

You see the young man who retreated talking to his companions not far away. They whispered something for a while, looked in my direction, and then dispersed and went their separate ways to meet other girls.

You carry a military kettle and sit down next to me.

You unscrew the lid of the kettle and take a sip of water.

While you are covering the lid of the kettle, you ask me, "What did that man just say to you?" ”

I said, "He came and invited me to dance." He said that the people in their dormitory felt that I was the most different among the girls on our side, so they sent him to ask me to dance and bet on whether he would succeed. ”

You say, "You refused?" ”

I said, "Hmm. ”

You say, "It's hard to come out and have a trip, why don't you dance like your classmates?" ”

You and I watched the flames fly.

I said, "Why don't you go dancing with the guide?" Xiao Song and the others kept saying that they wanted the teacher to dance, but they were a little afraid to go. ”

You smiled. You say, "Am I that terrible?" ”

I said, "I'm sorry." They went to invite Director Wang before, and Director Wang said that you are trying to kill me, I dare to dance with you, and when I go home, your wife will punish me for mopping the floor for at least a month. ”

You can't help but smile.

When I saw you laughing, I couldn't help but laugh along.

You are reflected in the light of the fire, and the light flows in your dark eyes.

You looked at me and said to me silently, "I'm sorry, Xinxin, I can't invite you right now." ”

I also replied silently at a glance, "I know, I will wait for you to the right day." ”

(b)

We sat next to the campfire. From time to time, you pick up some firewood and throw it into the fire. The firewood was burning in the fire, making some popping sounds.

After a while, you will be approached by young women from the base, who will overcome their shyness and greet you and ask if you want to dance.

You shake your head apologetically and say, "I'm sorry, girls, I drank too much wine in the afternoon, and I was so lightheaded that I couldn't jump." I'll sit down and take a break and watch you jump. ”

The women workers left disappointed.

I said, "Why don't you go?" ”

You say, "I'll sit with you for a while, can't I?" Besides, I don't know how to dance. ”

I said, "After the meal, why didn't you tell Wang to guide them to fishing?" ”

I said, "I asked my wife, and she said that you are a little uncomfortable after drinking too much and are looking for a place to sleep." ”

I said, "Did you drink too much?" Feeling a little comfortable now? ”

You say, "Didn't drink much." It's just sweet wine, and it doesn't get me drunk. ”

You pick up a stick of firewood and fiddle with it in your hand. Your eyes are on the campfire.

You say, "I just want to be alone and quiet, so say that." ”

You say, "It's not every day that a girl says that French to me in public." ”

You turned your face to look at me again, and I bowed my head under your gaze and the reflection of the campfire.

We watched them dance to the ground in front of the campfire.

Together, we listened to the music echoing through the night.

(c)

You say, "Besides, I don't like fishing either." ”

You say, "What's the fun in bullying the weak." If you can't eat so much, why hunt so much? Watching the fish desperately dying on the hook, so painful, so frightened and desperate, how could it be happy. ”

You say, "When I was a child, my father and his comrades used to take me fishing, and I had to go with them, but I was always sad. Once, my dad stuffed me with a fishing rod and helped me hang the bait, it was a living sandworm, and I could feel the pain of watching my dad pierce it on the hook. My dad told me to throw my rod in the water, and I quietly moved the rod around, hoping to scare away the fish below so that they wouldn't bite. It turned out to be discovered by my father. Dad scolded me and said, "It's okay to move, you move so roughly, how can there be fish to bite the hook." Dad's comrades-in-arms came over and said that he was still a child, how could he sit motionless for so long. Dad said that other children can't, but he definitely can. He can definitely sit still for three days and three nights, he does it on purpose, he just doesn't want to fish. It's really a knowing son, Mo Ruo's father, my father saw through me at a glance, but unfortunately, he couldn't agree with me. My dad always wanted me to join the army, and he said that a soldier would not do anything if he could fish. ”

You say, "After a while, everyone came up with fish, but I didn't catch anything." The grown-ups came up and opened the food thrower, and threw a lot of bait into the water, attracting all the fish to my rod, and finally a fish bit the hook underneath, and I felt it moving, but I pretended not to notice it, and did not want to pull the rod up. Dad said, you stupid boy, the fish bites, you have to quickly close the rod. He came to help me and pulled the rod out of the water, and I saw that at the end of the rod was a fish weighing several pounds, its scales glittering in the sun. I felt really bad in my heart and felt very sorry for it. ”

You bow your head.

I'm looking at you. I said, "Guidance." ”

You say, "I never eat fish." ”

I said, "Guide, you're right. I don't like fishing either. Those fish are just trying to live. They just trust the food left behind by their owners. It is we who have failed their trust. In fact, we can't eat so many fishes, they are just sacrificed for our momentary pleasure. ”

You say, "Once, I saw an uncle who caught a very small fish, and he hated it being too small, so he took it off and threw it on the ground on the shore." I saw the little fish jumping and struggling on the ground, and I said, "Uncle, it's too small to eat, so let's throw it back into the water." The uncle looked at me and said, no, I'm just going to let it die. ”

You say, "At that time, I looked at this uncle and thought to myself a hundred times to go over and pick up the little fish and throw it into the water, but this uncle is my father's boss, and I don't know if it will make him embarrassed if he does this." I was there hesitating. The uncle fished for a while, and felt that there were not many fish here, so he got up and carried a small stool to find another place where there were many fish. Seeing him gone, I immediately rushed over and grabbed the fish and tried to throw it back into the water. But it was too late. It's dead. ”

You say, "I've been sad and blamed myself for this." Later, it was discovered by my mother. I said to my mom that it must have been a terrible feeling to have a sharp hook in her mouth and then she was suffocated. My mother comforted me and said, "Good boy, even if you pick it up in time and throw it back into the water, so that it can escape for a while, its mouth is already broken, it can't eat, and it won't live long." ”

You say, "I really don't think there's any fun in that." ”

You say, "If it were now, I would have picked up the fish and let it go back immediately." ”

You unscrew the kettle and take another sip of water.

I look at you with pity.

You cover the kettle again.

You say, "I wish I could save all the fish." ”

I said, "But there are so many anglers in the world." ”

You say, "yes." Too much. ”

You say, "I know." However, I still aspire to have this ability one day. ”

(iv)

We watched them dance song after song.

You open the lid again and drink water.

I said, "Guidance, are you thirsty?" Why do you keep drinking water like this today? ”

You say, "I don't know why." I always feel very thirsty. It's never been like this before. ”

You say, "It's like there's a fire burning in your heart." ”

A wave of pity welled up in my heart.

A softness welled up in my heart.

A wave of love welled up in my heart.

In the dark, with eyes shining under the campfire, I say to you: "Wait for me, I will soon grow up, I will moisten the longing of your heart, and I will quench the fire that makes you uncomfortable." ”

I said, "Guidance." ”

You look at me.

You say, "Thank you, Xinxin." ”

Once again, you see what is in my heart.

You say, "I know it all." ”

You say, "I know it all." (To be continued.) )