(a)

I'm standing on a cliff.

It's bright around, but there's no light source.

I want to find a way out. But there was a white fog all around, and nothing could be seen.

I'm in a hurry. I walked to the edge of the cliff and leaned out halfway to look down.

Big brother suddenly appeared behind me. He looked at me with that grim look on his face. I didn't notice him appearing.

He suddenly held out his hand. and shoved me hard from behind.

I screamed, unsteady on my feet, fell forward, and fell into the abyss.

(b)

You've woken up with a spirit.

You hear yourself coughing violently.

When the cough subsides, you see Wu Shun and Guan Wenliang standing by your side.

You're lying on a comfortable bed, covered with a blanket, and it's warm as spring. The sight in the dream continued to float in front of your eyes for a short while, dissipating like a mist.

You realize it's just a dream. You regain your senses.

You asked Wu Shun, "Is Mr. Xu here?" ”

Wu Shun said: "It's already an hour. You're asleep. I arranged for him to go to rest first. ”

You say, "I just want to close my eyes and rest for a while, and I don't want to fall asleep." ”

You say, "Why don't you wake me up?" ”

Guan Wenliang said: "It's Mr. Xu who won't let us wake you up." He said to let the general sleep well. ”

Wu Shun said, "Let's sleep a little longer." Mr. Xu hurried from Yunzhou non-stop, and it was just time to take a break. ”

You lean back on the pillow and don't want to talk anymore.

You feel very heavy with a black stone in your head.

You can't open your eyes, and you want to go back to sleep.

You struggle with your desire to be sleepy.

You're in the middle of the fight, and you can't help yourself and fall asleep again.

(c)

You are surrounded by warm air currents, as if you are in the arms of some greatness.

You seem to be floating in the fog, and you seem to be flying in the white clouds.

As far as you can see, there is a white mist everywhere, and you don't know day and night, and you can't distinguish things.

You can't see where you came, and you can't see the road ahead.

You don't know where you are, but you know where you are.

You see bright light seeping in from all directions, but you can't see where the source of the glow is. It is as if this light radiates from within the world itself, from your own heart.

You can't see a familiar person, a familiar thing, you feel very lonely, but in your heart it seems that you like this loneliness again.

You are concerned about something, but you kind of want to stay in this quiet and warm loneliness from now on.

Just as you hesitate, you find yourself in an empty hall, and you hear the echo of your own footsteps echoing across the hall.

You seem to hear someone calling you. You seem to hear your father's voice. Father's voice calls out to you out of nowhere.

You look around for your father's voice.

But you didn't see the father, you saw me.

I sat next to the throne in the main hall. I sat gracefully and magnificently beside the empty throne.

I'm looking at you. I looked at you with the same eyes you had when you gave me the amulet on the day of your wedding.

I look at you, tears slowly filling my eyes.

I was so sad that I couldn't help but burst into tears.

I suppressed my tears, and I didn't make a sound with tears streaming down my face.

All at once your heart contracts tightly together, and then it shatters.

You want to come in my direction, you want to come and comfort me, but you can't take a step. You can only stand there, looking at me from afar, and you can't help me. It's like I can only sit there and look at you, and there's nothing I can do.

I said, "You already have the army of the whole country of the King of Han, and I have obeyed your decision, why don't you even want to see me?" ”

I said, "Did you tell me that you still love me just to stop me from killing myself in despair, just to save me from death?" I turned out, after that incident, was it just your humiliation, your responsibility and your burden? Could it be that because of that incident, I have lost my qualification to marry you, and I have lost your love? ”

You say, "No." No. Jean. ”

I said, "Qin'er?" Why don't you call me Mrs. Jun? Why don't you bow down to me as a servant? ”

I said, "How dare you disobey you?" Why don't you bless me and King Han to grow old together? Why don't you ask me face to face, does King Han often visit me? Am I a pet in the palace? Why don't you ask me if I'm pregnant with King Han's child? ”

I said, "Isn't that what you're concerned about day and night?" Let me give birth to the King of Han as soon as possible, so that your alliance will be unbreakable from now on. ”

I said, "Why don't you kill me in these ways?" ”

I said, "Why don't you kill me with a knife in one fell stab?" ”

I said sadly, "Please be merciful, sooner, and kill me in many ways." Please be merciful and let this life end sooner. ”

I said, "I will give you a son, and your alliance will be made perpetuated." But, please, mercifully, let me end this life sooner rather than later. ”

I got up from my seat. I'm looking at you. I was so sad that my whole body was shaking.

I said, "I am really tired of not knowing your life and death day and night, worrying about your safety day and night, facing your lack of news day and night, facing the magnanimous love of the King of Han day and night, enduring the guilt of conscience day and night, and living in this luxurious prison cell day and night." I just want to end it sooner. ”

(iv)

You feel a sharp pain in your lungs that tear and tear.

You wake up with a violent cough for the second time. The scene before me dissipated into the white light again.

You're coughing and sweating, your clothes are soaking wet, and you feel out of breath.

You cough as you swing on the edge of sleep.

In a daze, it seems that someone is helping you to sit up and change your sweaty pillow and clothes.

You seem to have taken another pill.

It's as if you've heard yourself ask what time it is. It seems that someone answered you, but you were too sleepy to understand the answer. And then you fall asleep again.

(5)

When you opened your eyes for the third time, you vaguely seemed to see Xu Zaitian. But his figure and face rose and fell like waves.

You feel like there's a big black rock in your head that's very heavy. You're sliding around on the edge of sleep, and you can't hold on to the waking shore.

You hear some of the conversations around you intermittently.

Xu Zaitian asked: "Is the general like this a lot lately?" ”

Guan Wenliang replied: "Yes, he often feels very tired, and he often sleeps like this. ”

Xu Zaitian said: "Too Hospital"

Wu Shun said: "Not yet"

Xie Shuangcheng said: "He seems to be awake"

You try to make sense of the meanings of the sentences, but they are as unsalvageable as the moon in water.

You move, you want to wake up from your stupor.

But this action immediately caused a strong headache. A red-hot iron cone pierced through the top of the head.

You feel the inside of your skull boil at once, and the pain is smoking.

You feel yourself shivering. The surrounding voices drifted away all at once.

You want to grasp something to resist the pain, but you don't have any strength in your fingers, you can't grasp anything.

You twist your head on the pillow, trying to break your shell out of the shattering pain.

Just the moment you feel like you can't take it anymore, the pain suddenly disappears again. Immediately you fall into the void.

Drowsiness weighs on you like a boulder again.

(f)

This is how the first two days and nights of your arrival at the royal palace of Biyu Onsen passed.

Xu Zaitian came to see you at the behest of the King of Han and helped you to handle military affairs while you were recuperating in the Hot Spring Palace.

But you haven't been able to come to your senses and talk to him for two days.