(a)

In the warmth of spring, you are finally discharged from the hospital once again. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

However, this time I was discharged from the hospital, and I did not feel the same joy as the last time. Because although you have left the hospital, your body is already very weak. You have a hard time going up and down the stairs, your heart hurts when you lift your legs up the stairs, your knees go weak when you walk down the stairs, not to mention taking a car or walking several kilometers to work every day. Even in the middle of the shift, you can't hold on anymore.

You can only continue to take sick leave and recuperate at your accommodation.

In recuperation, waiting for the future to come: to recover again, or, to fall again.

Principal Cheng came to visit you several times and asked you if you still needed help in your life, and in addition, he sent you condolences and special subsidies.

This money is a relief in disguise. You haven't been able to go to work for several months, and your salary has stopped, although your mother has already paid the medical expenses in advance before your mother left, and Kaohsiung has also paid the shortfall for you, but daily life always needs to be spent, and you don't want to ask your mother for money anymore. Although the family is well-off, after all, she has to bear two patients, and the financial pressure on my mother's shoulders is also very heavy.

You used the money to hire the wife of Master Zhang in the communication room downstairs to come and cook, wash your clothes, and clean up for you every day. Liu Wenli, Mr. and Mrs. Wang, Mr. Chai and his newly found girlfriend, our English teacher, Mr. Xu, who has freckles on her face but has a very bright and touching smile, also often come to visit you and help you with all kinds of firewood, rice, oil and salt chores.

Most of the time, you feel dizzy and weak, and you can only lie in bed to rest, and after a few or three words, you will lose your breath.

When things are better, you can take a walk in the hallway and sit at the window to soak up the sun.

You can barely eat, and even drinking water can cause you to vomit blood.

You'll also need to go to the hospital regularly to have your ascites removed.

Aside from the top-of-the-line painkillers, you don't need any medication anymore.

You know that you have very few days left to live, maybe less than a hundred.

Everyone knows this. However, everyone is smiling in front of you, as if you will soon be healthy. Everyone weighs the heaviness in their hearts, and they don't want to reveal anything for you to be aware of.

(b)

One day, when Coach Wang came to see you, he told you that the new mentor had passed the school's recruitment exam and would soon be officially transferred to work. He may need to hand you over before he comes to work. Coach Wang said that if you are not physically strong, you don't need to go to the shooting range, and he can come here with a new guide to meet you.

You are very relieved that Director Wang has finally found a new helper. That new guide is the person you recommended to Coach Wang before. He was born in the countryside, he had won a string of laurels on his own, and now that he was retired, he had nowhere else to go, and he didn't like the working atmosphere of the club that required maneuvering between the rich, preferring to come here to teach the children. He loves his job. Unlike your handsome and heroic, the new director is not very good-looking, with dark skin, thin looks, thick lips, and honest conversation, but he is very serious and responsible, and he has a very solid grasp of details, and his character is also quite upright.

You talked for a while about the handover.

Then, you said to Director Wang that you really want to go back to the shooting team to see the team members and say goodbye to everyone.

Director Wang immediately said that there is no problem with this. When you're in better shape one day, he'll bring a car to pick you up and take you back to the shooting range, meet with everyone, and pack up your things in the office.

You weakly say, "Thank you." ”

You told Director Wang that after this trip, you won't go to work again. You plan to quit your job, buy a ticket, and go back to your home after reporting to your new director.

Director Wang silently listened to your final arrangement, and felt indescribably sad in his heart.

But he nodded in agreement, and said, "I'll try to take time out and send you home." ”

You smile and say no, and you say, "Just take me to the station." I'm not a child, so I won't get lost. ”

After hesitating for a moment, Director Wang asked you: "Have you told Xinxin about this plan?" ”

You shake your head and say, "Not yet." I'm also thinking about how to phrase it better. ”

You say, "I'm gone, and I'll never see her again." ”

Director Wang was sad again, and tears rushed up, but he held back.

You say, "Still, I think she had this expectation in her heart, and I couldn't stay here forever without going home." If I don't go back, there's no way to go back. This is the last chance. ”

You say, "If I'm gone, I won't cause trouble for everyone." ”

Director Wang said: "Where to speak." You didn't bother us much. Everyone comes here consciously and voluntarily. You have never been a burden to us. Don't think so! ”

(c)

After a few days, Director Wang really brought Principal Cheng's car over as promised and picked you up to the shooting team.

The car stopped at the gate of the training ground, and you slowly got out of the car, and walked into the gate of the shooting range with Director Wang.

You feel emotional. How many times have you passed through here to enter the shooting range in the past few years, and you are already familiar with the fact that even with your eyes closed, you can walk to the office and the gun room without mistakes.

Soon, we will say goodbye to everything here.

All of a sudden, many past events from the first day we met came flooding back to me.

You're at the wall of the gate, standing down and not leaving.

You stare at the wall.

Director Wang looked at you and said, "What's wrong?" Can't walk? ”

You say, "No." It's nothing. Just look at my end. ”

Wang said: "Don't think nonsense. Aren't you discharged from the hospital now and feeling better? ”

You say, "It's not cranky. I know this is the end. ”

Director Wang said: "How can you know? ”

You say, "Even if you know it in your heart, I can't explain it." ”

You say, "Actually, a few years ago, the first time I followed you to the shooting range, the first time I passed through here, I already knew that this was the place where it ended. I just didn't say it to you at the time. ”

Director Wang now vaguely remembers the situation of that day. When he walks you into the shooting range, you seem to be staying here for a while, looking at the wall.

You say, "I don't know yet when it's going to happen and how it's going to happen, but I know it's going to happen here." ”

Director Wang looked at you and didn't know what to say.

You look at him, and you smile. You say, "Actually, there's nothing wrong with that. Optimistically, I can still give myself a moment of silence here. ”

Director Wang said: "Not long after being discharged from the hospital, do you have to make this kind of black joke? ”

You look at Director Wang. You smiled weakly.

You say, "Just because we can joke about something means we don't mind." ”

You say, "It's an ordinary thing that doesn't end there." We don't have to stress it like that. ”

Years later, Director Wang said to me, "It turns out that he really knows what is going to happen. He gave me advance notice. He's not kidding. He also told Lao Zhou that this is his destination, and he will not and cannot go anywhere else. ”

"He already knew what was going to happen at that time, and he wasn't scared at all. ”

I said, "Yes." He knows. ”

Director Wang said: "Do you also know that he sometimes has the ability to predict the future? ”

I nodded. I think of the Monaco album and the crystal dice left behind in Kaohsiung.

I said, "Yes." He showed me that more than once, he could see the future. ”