(a)

Unknowingly, with Liu Shen, he has lived for decades. For decades, I've become accustomed to his presence and to living as one with him. But all the things we get used to will eventually leave us.

Finally, the time has come for us to separate.

That year, after entering the late spring, Liu Shen's heart disease occurred many times, his body became weaker and weaker, and he could not handle the government most of the time. Looking at Liu Shen's more and more sallow face, his increasingly thin figure, and his more and more difficult actions, everyone knew in their hearts that the emperor's limit was approaching. Liu Shen himself is also very clear about this.

Both the palace and the outer court are secretly preparing for Liu Shen's funeral.

Just like I can't stop death from engulfing our parents, I can't stop death from engulfing you, and I can't stop death from going to Liu Shen. All I could do was endure the grief in my heart and spend as much time with him as I could.

That morning, I went to visit Liu Shen as usual. I didn't know it was the last day of his life. Because his condition seems to have improved in the past few days, his complexion that day seems very good, and his spirit is extraordinarily good, I thought he was starting to get better. However, he himself was aware of it.

I chatted with him for a while.

Liu Shen looked at me for a while. He hadn't looked at me like that in years.

He said, "Time flies. Qin'er, even you, your hair is about to turn silvery-white. ”

I said: "After many years of husband and wife, Qin'er should grow old with King Han." ”

He smiled: "I am very content to hear such affectionate words before I die." It doesn't matter if your feelings for me are true or false. ”

I said, "After so many years, what is Qin'er's heart for King Han, isn't King Han more clear than anyone else?" ”

Liu Shen took my hand and said, "Qin'er, although Liu Shen is not smart, he is not a foolish person. I've always known that you've never liked me in your life, I mean, the kind of liking that women like men is not the kind of liking between good friends. If you could choose, you wouldn't want to be my wife. You have lived with me for most of your life, and you have never forgotten him in your heart. In this life, from girlhood to sideburns, the only person you love deeply is him. No one can take his place in your heart, and no one can get the kind of affection you have for him. ”

My eyes turned slightly red when I heard him say this.

Liu Shen said: "But, despite this, you have followed me wholeheartedly for so many years and have had so many children with me. accompanied me, went through all the hardships and hardships, went through all the twists and turns, always lived and died with me, stood together through thick and thin, and never gave up taking care of me, guarding me, comforting me, and reminding me. ”

"So, sometimes, I'm also very messy," he said. I don't know if I should have some resentment against you, or if I should be deeply grateful. The only thing that can comfort me is that in this life, my love for you, from the first time I saw you in Yantang Pass, to this moment, has never decayed or changed. No matter how many women I have had around me for the sake of the country and for the sake of duty, in my heart, there is always only you as a woman. You are the only wife in my mind. I'm also single-minded. Not only single-mindedly, but willingly. I have a clear conscience about the feelings of this life, and I have done it from beginning to end. ”

Tears welled up in my eyes. I lowered my head and said in a trembling voice, "King Han." ”

I said, "Han Wang'en is affectionate, and Qin'er knows it completely in her heart." Qin'er is infinitely grateful for the love of King Han, and she also feels infinitely lucky. ”

Liu Shen said: "I know. Except for what you can't do, everything you can give me, you give me. If I hadn't been an insatiable person, I would have been very content, and I would have felt very happy. ”

I said, "Yes." In this life, those who can be given to the king of Han, the concubines have all their sacrifices to the king of Han. There is only one Han king. ”

Liu Shen said: "I know. ”

He reached out and stroked my hair. He said, "How could I not know. ”

Two lines of tears ran down my cheeks.

He reached out and put his arm around me and hugged me tightly in his arms. I snuggled into his arms, listened to his feeble heartbeat, and felt the warmth near his chest.

He said, "But I'm still greedy." After living with you for so many years, I don't feel enough. I really can't bear to leave you. I also hope to have another life and continue to live with you. I know that's not what you want. Your wish is to be able to meet him again in the next life, live with him, and love him. I don't want to let your wish come true. I just want to live by your side, see you often, be your closest friend, rely on you when you are in trouble, and be your companion when you are lonely. I just want to live by your side and protect your love for you. ”

I burst into tears and said, "King Han is still sick, why bother saying these inauspicious words." King Han is a generation of saints supported by all the people of the world, and this time he will definitely be auspicious and turn the crisis into peace. Like many times before. ”

Liu Shen said, "What about the Holy Monarch. The Holy Monarch can't be immortal. In the vicinity of Yunjing, how many ancient saints were buried. ”

I said, "King Han, you promised Qin'er that we would be with us until the end of our lives." You can't leave Qin'er, mother and son, so that we have no support in this world. ”

Liu Shen said: "My sons have grown up, and they will replace me, become the future of the country, and become your dependence." ”

I said, "No one can replace King Han in Qin'er's life. The position of King Han, too, is irreplaceable. ”

We hugged each other tightly.

Liu Shen said in my ear: "I am really reluctant to leave you." I really can't bear it. ”

My tears rolled down like a torrential rain.

This time, I know very clearly that it is for Liu Shen.

It's for Liu Shen, one person.

(c)

That day, Liu Shen said to me: "Qin'er, there are two things that have been in my heart for many years. I've always been hesitant to tell you or not, to let you know. It was in this hesitation that I lived my whole life. Now, I don't have much time, and I don't know if this kind of conversation with you will happen again after today. If I don't say it now, they will all disappear into the black hole of time, and no one will ever know about it again. ”

Liu Shen said: "Last night, I thought about it for most of the night, and finally decided, when you come to see me today, I still have to tell you. In the end, I couldn't resist my selfishness. I want you to know that in my life, I have sometimes, as he loves you, unselfishly, and deeply in love with you. (To be continued.) )