(a)

"Actually, I wasn't born with a fear of heights. Pen ~ Fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info I was afraid of high places, and I started from a dream. ”

"When I was 10 years old, I had a strange dream. Although many years have passed, the scene in the dream is still vivid, as if I had experienced it myself. ”

"In the dream, I have grown up and become an adult. It was a morning, and I was climbing a mountain alone with my sports bag on my back. I started in a canyon and was going to climb to the peak above the canyon. ”

"The weather was fairly sunny that day, with the birds singing and flowers in the mountains, and the light lanterns wafting. It took me three and a half hours to climb that jungle-covered mountain. At the end of the peak, there is an extremely steep, bottomless cliff. ”

"In front of the cliff, I saw a stone pit about 4 meters in diameter on the ground. It's as if it was formed by a huge explosion a long time ago. ”

That was a scene I had never seen in my life as a woman of Liu Shen.

"Because of the passage of time, the pit is now filled with gravel and earth, and covered with many lush plants. But the cracks left by the explosion are still visible. ”

"I knelt down in front of the crack. I reached out and stroked the scars of the old days. I couldn't help but lean down and put my face against the scar on the rock. Suddenly, a long-standing and intense sadness rushed up from the bottom of my heart, and before I realized I was crying, the tears flowed. ”

"My heart was instantly flooded with a flood of sorrow. So, I lay alone on this uninhabited rock for more than ten miles, and cried bitterly. ”

"I cried so much, I cried so dark, I cried so much that my heart was broken, I cried so much that I cried so hard that I couldn't lift my head."

"I feel like this cry has been in my heart for thousands of years."

"I cried on that cliff so much that I didn't know what I was, what year it was."

It was a bitter cry that I had never been able to achieve in my life as a woman of Liu Shen.

(b)

"A cold wind blew on my face, and I could faintly feel my hair fluttering."

"I opened my eyes and saw the edges of ochre-red rocks and the abyss of black holes. That cold upper whirlwind was blowing out of that huge black hole. ”

"I felt a biting cold."

This whirlwind, it blew away everything that had ever appeared on this cliff. You, Moonlight, Hankel, the black pressed army, Sun Haocheng, and the Northern Han army's dragon-like torches.

All the changes of dynasties, the rise and fall of glory, wars and peaces, gatherings and dispersions, grievances and hatreds, good and evil, life and death, all of these have turned around like a marquee.

"I took off the watch on my wrist and held it in my hand. Now, like a dead snake, time loosens its coils and stiffens into my hands. ”

I let go of my hand, and a million eons of time slipped out of my hand and fell into that black hole. I watched it disappear into silence. ”

One day, in order to pull me back from death, you knelt in front of my bed, you shook me, and you made a vow to me.

You swear that if you can't fulfill this vow in this life, you're willing to be pierced by arrows, crushed to pieces, and exposed to the wilderness.

When you say this vow, you don't know that you can't keep it.

So, those punishments, they all cashed in.

You made this vow to save me back.

So, it's more than just your vows. It is also my vow.

I will not let those punishments be imposed on you alone. I'm going to share them with you.

- "Ever since I had this dream, I've been afraid of heights. ”

"I can't stand to go near the edge of a high place."

(c)

"Guide, when did you start being afraid of heights?"

"From as long as I can remember."

"So, how did you get better?"

"Because I found a secret recipe."

"Secret recipe?"

"Hmm. Xinxin, tonight we will stay in the electric guest house 200 meters down from here. After dinner, you wait for me in the woods outside the guest house. ”

"Where are we going?"

"I'll show you the secret recipe."

"Can I be cured?"

You look at me. You say, "It will be healed." ”

(iv)

In the dim light, we met in the grove.

You carry a bucket-shaped piece of equipment in your hand.

I looked at the bag and asked, "What is this?" ”

You say, "Medicine." ”

"Huh? Such a big bag?! I asked, surprised.

I'll follow you all the way east through the woods.

I feel like we've been walking in the woods for a long time. It's already dark. You turn on your flashlight and light the road ahead.

You say, "Watch your step." ”

I said, "Guide, where are you taking me?" ”

You say, "We're still a few minutes away." ”

(5)

We stopped in a particularly wooded area.

I walked profusely and stood there panting out of breath.

You take a towel from your gear bag and hand it to me.

You say, "Wipe your sweat." You just rest here for 10 minutes and drink some water. Walk forward after 10 minutes, come to me, I'll wait in front, you walk 20 meters and you'll see it. I've got a flashlight for you, and I still have one in my bag. ”

You say, "Look at the watch." It's 10 minutes away. ”

I nodded. I said, "Okay." ”

10 minutes passed quickly. I stood up, turned on my flashlight, and walked cautiously forward.

The moon came out of the clouds, and the light became brighter.

I saw a small cliff appear in front of me.

You stand on the edge of a cliff with your back to the abyss below.

You're less than 2 centimeters from that edge! Your heel is almost on the edgeline.

Loops of sturdy climbing ropes are tied to your feet.

The rope ties your feet tightly together. The other end of the rope was firmly tied to a large tree on the edge of the cliff.

I looked at you in amazement.

I stammered, "Guidance? What are you doing? ”

I was tempted to rush over and pull you back from the edge of the cliff, but my legs involuntarily went limp, and I couldn't move forward.

You say, "Listen, heart." I'm going to jump from here now. It was very windy below. When I jumped, I would be blown by the wind at the end of the rope. ”

You say, "You have to help me, come up to the edge of the cliff, grab this rope, and pull me up." ”

You say, "If you don't come, I risk hitting my head on the rocks of the cliff." ”

I covered my mouth. I looked at you in horror and I said, "No! No! Don't jump! Please don't jump! ”

I've never been so frightened!

You say, "Xinxin, you're going to come and help me, aren't you?" ”

I shook my head and I said, "No! I can't! I can't! ”

You say, "You can." I'm waiting for you. ”

I have to say more, but it's too late.

I see your body fall backwards! With your back to the abyss, you decisively fall backwards!

In just half a second, you're no longer on the cliff, you're falling off the edge of the cliff and disappearing into the darkness of the abyss.

I let out a scream, and my knees went limp, and I collapsed on the ground with a thud.

(f)

The clock ticked by. I heard the howling wind below the cliffs. I saw the white rope vibrating. I heard it make a creaking sound.

My heart hung in the air.

I gritted my teeth and struggled to get up from the ground with my hands and feet stiff.

I fell on all fours, and in the faint light of the flashlight, I fell to my knees and crawled towards the edge of the cliff step by step.

The closer I got to the edge of the cliff, the more my heart beat wildly. The bones of the whole body have become as weightless as air.

I couldn't even hold on to my knees.

I had to crawl on my whole body on the ground, little by little, towards the edge of the cliff.

I finally climbed to the edge, and I saw the white rope glittering under the moon, and it stretched all the way to the bottom of the black abyss.

I held my breath and grabbed the white rope at once.

I grabbed it so hard and dragged it upwards with all my might.

As long as you can get out of the dark abyss, even if I am broken, it doesn't matter at all!

I must pull you out of danger!

A few minutes later, as the rope was dragged up section by section, I saw the top of your head appear below. Your fingers cling to the edge of the cliff.

Then, in the blink of an eye, you're back on the cliff.

I stood up desperately and threw myself into your arms.

My voice was crying, and I said, "How can you just jump like that?" How can you do that! My soul is going out of my body! ”

You stretched out your arms and hugged me.

We hugged each other on the very edge of the cliff.

You say in my ear, "Heart." You see, we're all on the edge of a cliff now. ”

Say, "You came by yourself, you stood up on your own, you helped me up." You do it all yourself, just like when you climb down the drain pipe in a hospital. ”

You say, "That's the secret ingredient." ”

You say, "Are you healed?" ”

That day, when we were hugging each other on the edge of a cliff, you said to me, "Heart, everybody has his fears. But let's not be controlled by fear. We need to control our fears. ”

You say, "That secret recipe is self-forgetfulness." When you can completely forget yourself, all fear will disappear. ”

How can we be completely self-forgetful?

That day, deep in the woods, on the edge of a cliff, you taught me by risking your own periphery:

This can only be achieved when we love others more than ourselves, and we are completely selfless.

Only selflessness can be fearless. (To be continued.) )