(a)

I opened my eyes. See you sitting in front of the bed. You look at me with a smile.

It's a dreamy scene. It made me feel like I had escaped from the world and entered eternal heaven.

You hold my hand.

You say, "Qin'er, are you awake?" You see, as I said, when you wake up, you can still see me here. I'm not going away. I'm still with you. ”

I hold your hand too. You no longer call me Mrs. Jun, no longer bow down and be a minister, you call me Qin'er. This makes me feel like I am back in the Yantang Pass period. I don't think it's real.

You say, "You look much better today." The whole person is shining. ”

I said, "I don't shine." Only the sun's light is reflected. When the sun shines, it naturally shines. If the sun shines all the time, the light will always be there, and it will not diminish or die. ”

You say, "But the sun always goes down." Therefore, I hope that you are a bright moon, even after the sun goes down, continue its light, replace it, and illuminate the mountains and rivers. ”

You say, "When the sun goes down, people can't see it." However, to the moon, it is always visible and never disappears from the sky. Because the moon knows that it never disappears, because the moon can always see it, the moon can always shine its light. ”

You say, "Look with your heart, Qin'er, not with your eyes." You'll see that nothing has ever disappeared, even if you can't see it anymore. ”

Yes, see with our hearts, not with our eyes.

If we can observe everything with our mind, we will see that nothing is gone. The rain fell to the ground and disappeared because it seeped into the area and became streams and rivers. The stream dried up and disappeared because it turned into water vapor, which was emitted into the air and condensed into snow-white clouds. The cloud disappeared because it descended, into the roots of the tree, and became the sap of the plant. A lot of things will disappear, but they won't disappear either. They just reappear in a different guise. They are always there for us. Nothing can go from "being" to "not being".

I said, "If I can see all the time, everything is going in such a cycle, nothing will disappear." That's right? ”

You say, "Yes." Just like today. It will pass and cannot be repeated, but it will also become a memory, always stored in your heart. Qin'er, everything about me already exists in your heart. When you need me, you can come back to memory at any time. I'll be there waiting for you. As long as you come, you will see me. I will face all the things you need to face with you. ”

You say, "We're not, we have to have bodies to be together." ”

I said, "My body is your body." If I still have a body, so will you. ”

You say, "Jean." ”

What else are you going to say, I hold out a finger and put it on your lips.

I'm looking at you. I said, "Don't speak." Don't speak. Nothing needs to be said. That's it, look at me, let me see you. As long as that's it, I'll be healed. You don't have to work yourself, keep telling me. ”

It is only when we can't see each other that I have a thousand words to say here. When we meet, we don't need to say a word. When each other falls into each other's eyes, everything has been achieved.

All languages have only one function: connectivity.

You say, "Okay." I'll watch you heal. All the stars, the stars that have shone on us on the roof of the Cui family's mansion. They're all my eyes as I look at you. ”

(b)

It was getting darker and darker, and you left the palace again and went back to the palace.

You say, "The palace gate is about to be keyed." I have to go. ”

I stood up.

I said, "Will you come to see me tomorrow?" ”

You say, "Yes." ”

I said, "How many tomorrows will you give me when you come back this time?" ”

You say, "It's up to you." Jean. It's up to you. If you wish to see me again tomorrow, I will come again tomorrow. ”

I said, "Then you will stay in Yunjing forever, and it will be impossible to finish the war." ”

You say, "Jean, if you need to, I don't have to go back to finish the war." ”

I said, "But that's not what you want." ”

You say, "There are some wishes that cannot be fulfilled at the same time." ”

I said, "By keeping you here, I'm prolonging the war." Is it? ”

You say, "Yes." ”

I said, "I'm doing this, it's too selfish, isn't it?" ”

You say, "Not really." I'm here, too, ending the war. End the future king's mother, the war in her heart. ”

Tears welled up in my eyes.

I looked away and said, "Actually, you don't have to put aside all the important things and come back from the steppe for my sake. ”

You say, "That's also important." As the mother of the future son, your peace of mind and strength are also very important things for the country. The state of your mind is the future of the country. If there is no peace in your heart, the country will not have a healthy son, and if the country does not have a healthy son, there will be no solid foundation for peace. ”

You say, "I can stop the war." However, a war that has been stopped can happen again at any time. I need your help to keep it from happening, Jean, there's no one else who can help me so powerfully. You have to help me achieve peace. ”

You say, "Qin'er, you have to have a calm heart and lay the foundation for the Han king's long-term peace, and this foundation is the heir of the Han king, the well-educated son who has inherited the generosity and benevolence of the Han king." You are the daughter of the Han army, the sister of the Han army, and your heir can get the natural support of the Han army. We must not let this foundation hang over and over again because of our own sorrows, or destroy it. ”

You say, "Qin'er, our marriage is not for ourselves, and our fertility cannot be for ourselves. I wish to serve the world in this way, that is, all important things in life must be chosen and engaged in for the benefit of the world. Just like King Han. There is no self, or, to be able to overcome, only for themselves. ”

You say, "Qin'er, the true peace is not under my horse's hooves, but in the hearts of men." In your heart. “

(c)

I sat alone in a room that was getting darker and darker.

The palace people came in quietly and prepared to light the lamps and candles.

I said, "No." No need to light up. I can see everything clearly. ”

The palace people looked at me in surprise, and then looked at each other, but they didn't say anything, and quietly retreated.

There are those who, when they appear, can make all the night as clear as day. “