(a)

It was the 19th day that I took time off work to rehearse. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

In the afternoon, our English musical had its final make-up rehearsal.

The next day, we will welcome the arrival of the director and have a formal performance in the evening. All the teachers in the school, including you, will come to the small theater to see the performance.

But I'm worried that your condition is very unstable these days, and although you have taken new medicine and calmed that terrible pain, that doesn't slow down the speed at which the disease eats away at you.

The results of your follow-up last weekend haven't come out yet, but the foreboding feeling in my heart is getting stronger. I don't know why, but I seem to know that you won't have a chance to be in the audience, you won't see my performance.

With this feeling of uneasiness, I came to the small theater where I reported the performance.

I walked past the big mirror of the dance performance group's costume change and leg press, and walked through the various ropes and set boards hanging from the top of the stage by the set group, and came to the dressing room of our show.

Teacher Jiang of the music group had already arrived there, and when she saw me come in, she grabbed me. She said: "Xinxin, come with me to get the costume and let everyone change into it, and we will have to put on makeup after the change." ”

Without saying a word, she dragged me to the prop room, and as she went, she looked at me and said, "Huh? Why do you seem so preoccupied? Laugh a little, go on stage for a while, you can't cry like this! ”

(b)

Before I took my leave, we had a conversation about the musical.

The musical tells the story of Mendeleev's discovery of the periodic table, because when Mr. Brown was a student, his favorite subject was chemistry, and the chemist he admired the most was Mendeleev.

You ask me what role I play in musicals.

I said, "Guess what." ”

You say, "It must be playing some kind of element." Because Mendeleev is an old man, and there is certainly no one in this who plays God, the only remaining characters are the elements. ”

I said, "So, what kind of element do you think I'm going to play?" ”

You look at me and smile, and you say, "If you were to choose the role yourself, you would only be able to play two elements." ”

You say, "One possibility is that you will play the element that is most closely related to tears; Another possibility is that you will play the most stable and unchanging element. ”

You say, "I think you're more likely to play the latter element." Because, on the surface, you look more like the element of tears, but on the inside, you are more like the eternal element. ”

You say, "You're definitely not going to play that very active element." Even though it's a very glamorous, very numerous, very adaptable element. ”

You say, "The day I tested your stability, I knew you were the kind of element that was constant." You don't like to react so often with other things in the world. You also don't like to respond to all sorts of things. You don't like to be in such a hurry to mix with other things. You also don't like to be so anxious about avoiding being different. ”

You say, "You don't like to hide and jump around in other things, you actually prefer to stick to the core consistently, and prefer to maintain a kind of distance from everything." So, you're most likely playing an inert metal. ”

You say, "If you had a choice, you would definitely play AU." ”

I said, "You're always right." In that show, I played AU. ”

I said, "However, I don't want to play AU because I am always stable." ”

I said, "I like to play AU because I like its inertia." ”

I said, "It's the kind of inertia that sits in the back of someone else's car and lets someone else pedal it to take me home." ”

You listened, you smiled slightly, and you reached out and gently scraped the bridge of my nose.

You say, "Is that inertia?" That's lazy! ”

(c)

That day, the issue of how active the elements were, diverged and we talked about a few things. We talked about women from the elemental cycle. That's the first time I've heard you talk about women.

You say, "Just like on the periodic table there are two classes of elements that tend to be active and inactive in the structure of matter." There are also two kinds of women in the world who tend to be active and those who tend to be inactive in the structure of time. In one of these women, you can feel the action of time anytime and anywhere. She reacts easily to time. She herself will be very concerned about the loss of time and the speed of loss. Others will also be very concerned about the loss of time in her and the speed of loss. As a result, she will spend a lot of time in her life contending with the movement of time. Sometimes, she's been able to achieve amazing results. Sometimes she can even almost turn back the clock. She feels honored when she discovers that she can make time seem to stop or even turn back. ”

You say, "This kind of woman, I feel like a flower." ”

You say, "But there is another kind of woman." In her, time usually doesn't work. She was like that when she was 20, that when she was 30, when she was 40. At the age of 70 or 80, she was still like that. She can have the composure of an 80-year-old when she is 30 years old. And when she stands on the peak of 80 years old, she can still have the fullness and solidity of 30 years old. The more time passes, the more you can see her constancy. This kind of woman is the kind of woman who can make time feel interesting. This kind of woman is the kind of woman who can make time feel helpless. ”

You say, "This kind of woman, I feel like a tree." ”

You say, "Seeing the kind of woman in front of you makes people feel like seeing a flower." Seeing the kind of woman in the back makes people feel like seeing a tree. The role of flowers is to be pleasing to the eye and convey beauty. The role of the tree is to shelter from the wind and rain, relying on shade. ”

You say, "Nor can you say that one woman is better than another." They're all about making the most of it. ”

"And," you say, "just as the transition from the same active element to the inactive element is gradual, the line between the two types of women is not clear. There are often women who sometimes resemble flowers, sometimes resemble trees. The highest level of being a flower-like woman is to control time. And the highest level of being a tree-like woman is to transcend time. The former is versatile and versatile because of her vibrancy. The latter is a symbol of enduring value because of her constancy. ”

Hearing your words, I laughed. I said, "No wonder they always like to talk to you." ”

I said, "It turns out that you said that a woman can speak so well." ”

I ask you, "So, what kind of woman do you prefer?" ”

You say, "Me? ”

You look at me and say, "I prefer the kind of woman that God has made her stand in front of me now." ”

Then you ask me, "So, what kind of woman would you like to be in the future?" ”

I said, "Me? ”

I look at you and say, "I prefer to be the kind of woman that the guy who shaved my nose just now." ”