(a)

Time flies, in the blink of an eye, it has been more than four years since Zen Master Guangji led the people to fight the "Zen Seven" and eliminated the plague disaster in the Gyeonggi region.

I also gave birth to my fourth son with Liu Shen. Now, Liu Shen's harem has given birth to 18 sons and 10 daughters for him, and there are many royal heirs, and the inheritance foundation is solid.

In this case, Prime Minister Wei Guoqing led the ministers to immediately make the 12-year-old prince the crown prince, determine the country's foundation early, make the dignity and humility clear, and make the people of the harem stable and the foreign dynasty stable. Liu Shen agreed to the ministers' request, and after the four princes reached 100 days, he officially issued a decree to appoint the prince as the crown prince, and ordered him to move into the East Palace to live, and in addition to school, he followed his father to participate in political study.

Subsequently, our husband and wife made plans to choose the crown princess and the prince's side concubine for the crown prince.

After some careful selection, a daughter of Wei Guoqing's youngest brother and the youngest daughter of Chen Shouye's brother were selected to enter the palace, canonized as the crown princess and the prince's side concubine, after the grand wedding, the two gentle and gentle, humble and indisputable girls officially became members of the royal family, accompanied the prince to live in the East Palace, and went to school every day with the prince and the princes and princesses, but the prince and the princes learned the sages of the world, and the two princesses and the princesses learned to be women's virtue and female red.

Every day, the books in the study room are loud, the teachers and students ask questions and answers, and the poems are sung and harmonized, which is a diligent and upward moral governance atmosphere.

(b)

When the four princes were half a year old, I led the harem ladies and officials to hold a large-scale uncovered puja in Yunjing, donated their jewelry, exchanged for a large amount of food, clothing, medicines, etc., widely distributed the poor in the country, released a large number of animals to kill animals, continued to feed birds, insects and fish in the rivers, lakes, mountains and forests, and invited senior monks and Confucians to give public lectures in monasteries and Taixue, educate the people, and pray for the late queen mother and princesses.

In order to set an example of filial piety, support our good deeds, and celebrate the canonization of the crown prince, Liu Shen also ordered a national amnesty, pardoned the death row criminals nationwide, and after the bail review, released some misdemeanor criminals, stopped the autumn execution for three years, and exempted the world from taxation for five years. For a time, all the people praised it, and the four sides embraced it.

Shortly after the Unveiled Puja, there was an unexpected surprise.

Your master Dao Ji traveled all over the world, passed by Yunjing, and once again entered the palace to visit me.

I have not seen Daoji for many years, and there is no news, and when I heard that he had entered Beijing, I was really overjoyed, and immediately ordered Kyoto Yin to receive him ceremoniously, and placed him in the Baiyun Temple on the outskirts of Beijing to rest, and the next day summoned him to the palace to meet his old man.

The first time I saw Daoji, I felt a lot, and my heart fluctuated.

Now, his hair was all white, as white as frost and snow, and his ears were not very good, and he needed to speak loudly to hear him. Fortunately, the waist board is also straight and straight, and the eyes are still bright, and the fairy wind bones of the year can be vaguely seen.

The first time Daoji saw me, he knew that I hadn't forgotten you at all. He saw at a glance that I intended to never forget you.

The greetings were over, and they talked about the situation over the years.

Dao Ji is a monk, his life is pure, there are no major events, the only major thing is that he has found another disciple of the sect, and he is taking it with him to cultivate carefully, hoping to make him the second you, take over the sect, and inherit the Dao lineage. Now, this new disciple, who is nearly 18 years old, is painstakingly cultivating the Golden Bell Jar, and plans to try it as well, whether he can pass the test of the Qingliu Sect's sword array.

Dao Ji said, this new disciple, compared with you, although there are advantages in some aspects, but in general, in terms of open-mindedness and sharp understanding, in the end, he still owes you a chip, however, he is now old, time waits for no one, and he can only teach and carve.

Dao Ji heard that Liu Shen and I had many children, so he asked if he could meet the princes and princesses. I nodded and said sure. So, he sent the chief attendant to the study and the Nude Yuan to summon the prince and the princes and princesses who were in school, and visited Daoji one by one. Dao Ji saw the children, with a smile on his face, and after meeting the prince, he kindly looked at the bones of the princes and princesses one by one, inspected the temperament, made a loving comment, and sent many auspicious words of heartfelt blessings.

After the children left, a shadow fell over Daoji's face. I watched his face change and was aware of it, and asked him why, but he avoided the topic and did not answer it directly. Then I knew that these children, or their future descendants, might have a serious setback in their fate, and maybe it didn't end well. Dao Ji didn't want to say it, so as not to make me feel uneasy.

I explained to myself in my heart: Before Liu Shen opened a new dynasty, his brother's entire family died unexpectedly, and no one was spared, this bloody tragedy, although the truth is confusing, but careful scrutiny, always has nothing to do with Liu Shen's secret thoughts and wordless acquiescence, and is always not very kind, and it is detrimental to yin morality. If we suffer retribution because of this, and our future generations have a bad fate, it will be the fault of the year after all, and we will not complain that God is unfair.

Dao Ji is very fond of the four princes in my arms, and said to me, among all the princes, except for the crown prince, it is this prince who has the most blessed bones, and to some extent, even some blessings, even better than the prince.

He asked me if I could hug this chubby, chubby baby. I nodded in agreement, of course.

Dao Ji carefully took the child, held it in his arms and teased it.

Looking at the white-haired Daoji and the pink and cute baby, I felt an indescribable emotion in my heart.

(c)

At this time, Dao Ji said to me, "Queen, many years have passed since the past. Forget about the past. If you don't forget, you'll be lonely. ”

He said: "Jinglong has been dead for so many years. No matter how much you miss him and be loyal to your affection, he will never feel it again. ”

He said: "Queen, I know that you are strong-minded, however, you are also a woman after all. Like someone, you need to respond. If there is no response for a long time, there is always none, your heart will be very lonely and empty. ”

He said: "Moreover, in this deep palace, this kind of loneliness cannot be said to people, even if children and grandchildren are around their knees, there is no one to confide in, and even if they can confide, no one can forgive." ”

"No one will pay attention to your loneliness," he said. ”

"No one will respect either," he said. ”

His words pierced my heart like an awl.

I looked at the child with a flowing sparkle in my eyes.

Daoji said to me, "Forget him, Qin'er, you are still young, you can choose another life." ”

After listening to Daoji's persuasion, I was silent for a long time, and then slowly shook my head.

I said, "Master, I will not forget him. I won't let him just stay in the wilderness in silence, lonely behind him that no one remembers. Today's prosperity and stability are all bought back by him with his life. People are merciless and forgetful, and I can't do the same. ”

I said, "I know that he always wished I could forget him and choose another life, but for me, there is no way to live without him." If I live, I will live with him in my heart. That's all I can live. ”

Dao Ji sighed when he heard this, "You will suffer for this." ”

I said, "I know." But forgetting him, I really don't know how to live my life. ”

(iv)

While I was saying these words, my fourth son's clear, bright eyes kept looking at Dao Ji with interest. From time to time, he showed a small dimple, and showed an innocent and cute smile to Dao Ji, which made people feel distressed.

He smiled amicably and happily in Daoji's arms.

Dao Ji couldn't help but be deeply moved by the baby's angelic smile. He hooked the child's chubby little fingers.

He said: "The little prince's eyes are so clear, no scheming, no worries, warm and joyful, which reminds me of when Jinglong first came to live in Qingchuan." ”

I felt a sour feeling in my heart again. I bowed my head and tried hard to hold back tears.

Dao Ji said: "There is one thing, queen, maybe, you can help Jinglong do it." ”

I said, "What's the matter?" ”

Dao Ji said: "Maybe the emperor and empress can succeed a prince to be a righteous son of Jinglong." ”

Dao Ji said: "The heirs of the Cui family are not prosperous, Jinglong is the only son of the Cui family, after Jingyun died, he was a single line, and after he died, the Cui family was extinct." Before Jinglong died generously, presumably, the only regret in his heart was this, he failed to pass on the bloodline of the Cui family. ”

Dao Ji said: "Qin'er, maybe, you can pass on a son to the Cui family to continue the cigarettes."

A window in my heart was suddenly pushed open.

Yes, I promised my father that I would love you and carry on the Cui family. After all these years, I have been deeply saddened by the loss of you for a long time, but why didn't I think about it sooner. Why ignore this biggest regret of yours?

I couldn't help but feel a deep sense of shame.

After all, Dao Ji is the master who is like a father and son with you, and he immediately pointed out the most important and useful thing I can do for you.

I said gratefully, "Thank you, Master, for reminding me. It's really my fault. ”

I said, "Since you said that the four princes are the most blessed among the princes, then, if the child you are holding can grow up safely, I will ask the emperor to pass him on to the Cui family." A small worry for the emperor now is probably that he has too many sons. ”

(5)

That was the last time Daoji entered Yunjing.

Dao Ji stayed at the Baiyun Temple in Yunjing for three days, after which he left and went to Tongzhou to join his new disciples, and continued to travel the world and visit the masters.

Since then, I have never seen him again, and I have not heard from him.

Later, when I went to Qingchuan when I was more than half a hundred years old, I heard the disciples of the Qingliu Sect say that Dao Ji probably traveled to the snow-capped mountains near Mobei later, where he lived in seclusion and never returned to Qingchuan.

It's like I don't know what happened to your bones, and I don't know what happened to your master, what happened to him.

The people who made me feel warm and dependent, one by one, left my life.

Dao Ji is right. If I don't forget these old things, if I don't forget you, I will be lonely and suffer because of it.

People suffer because they don't want to give up what they love. People also suffer because they can't save their loved ones to death.

It's not a pain that I have alone.

This is the inevitable suffering of all living beings in the world.

And I really want to completely extinguish this pain for the sake of the world. (To be continued.) )