The rainy season has arrived in the Beitou Mountains. For four or five days, the rain continued to pour down. No matter day or night, at my father's bedside, I could only hear the roar of spring thunder and the sound of rain.

My father was so sick that he couldn't eat water and rice, and most of the time he was in a coma, and no one recognized him.

The moment of farewell has come like this.

That night, my father, who had been groggy all the time, suddenly became so conscious that he could even sit up and eat a little.

Dr. Sun told me privately with a heavy heart that this was the time to return to the light. Family, if there is anything to say to my father, this is the last chance. Before he could finish his sentence, he was already choked up and could no longer speak.

I was only 15 years old at the time, and I had not experienced the death of a loved one since I became sensible. I had absolutely no idea what to do.

I didn't dare to let my family go in and say goodbye to my father, for fear that he would not be able to endure such grief.

I could only kneel in front of him with tears streaming down my face, guarding him, ready at any time, and finally bidding him farewell.

My father knew very well that his end had come. He seemed very calm. He didn't want to see anyone else.

The room was quiet. It's just our father and daughter, opposite each other.

My father looked at me lovingly. He took my hand and said, "Qin'er, it has been fifteen years since our father and daughter played together in a blink of an eye. Now, fate is over, and it's time for us to say goodbye. ”

I couldn't help but let my tears rain down.

I cried and said, "Father, don't say such things. You'll be fine. ”

Father shook his head. He said: "In a hundred years of life, there will be one death, and there is nothing to be afraid of." It's just that in this life, there are two things that I have always been worried about. ”

My father said, "The first thing is that I am sorry for the Chen family no matter what. Your father is a lifelong friend of mine, he saved my life twice, and he entrusted me with one thing in total, but I didn't do it for him. I didn't take good care of your mother and let her die so young. I also didn't take good care of you and let you get hurt like this in my home. When I think about it, I feel guilty. I have no shame to meet your father underground. ”

With tears in my eyes, I said, "You are so kind to my mother and daughter, how can you bear it when you say this?" ”

The father said, "The second thing is that I am also sorry for my wife and your second brother. She was so devoted to me, but I couldn't do anything to save her from the sickness, and I didn't take good care of her and let her leave us in that way. She entrusted her only son to me, and I was not able to spare him from pain. ”

The father said, "Because I am such an incompetent father, God has made it impossible for me to see my son on my deathbed, which is also a punishment for me." ”

"But it's not the worst-case scenario," he said. I should have died in front. ”

I lay on my father's bed and cried.

I said, "Father, send someone to call them all back." Even if it's Kiyokawa, it's not too far. ”

The father said, "I still don't want it." I don't want to see Jingyun's rebel. And Jinglong, he can't be too emotionally fluctuating. I don't want to see my son go through that kind of pain again. Seeing him suffer like that, it was as if I was suffering from it. ”

On that day, my father said to me, "Daughter, after I die, after the funeral is done, go to my uncle's house." He'll come and pick you up. You will live there and wait for your second brother to recover from his illness and come back. I have already explained to Youren, and he will tell your second brother about my death slowly, and will help him take care of all kinds of aftermath. ”

My father said, "When I die, he will be the master of the house." He will know my mind and he will take care of you. ”

The father said, "Qin'er, no matter what happens in the future, you will follow your second brother." ”

"I know my son very well, even though we don't get along much," he said. He is a clear-headed, decisive and resolute person, and he never does foolish things. He has a lot of affection for you. He will surely give you a good home. He will spend his whole life doing this. He's much better than me when it comes to having no distractions. ”

The father said: "This son of mine can see things very broadly and far, so some of his decisions may seem difficult to accept and understand at the time. In the future, if you find something unacceptable and incomprehensible about him when you get along, you must remember what I said to you today. You have to believe in Him, you have to listen to Him, you have to understand Him. After a while, you'll find out that he's always right. ”

"He lost his mother when he was a child," his father said. He is accustomed to keeping everything in his heart. If he encounters any difficulties, any ups and downs that he can't get over, he won't tell anyone. He will carry it himself. You have to take care of him for his mother, and don't let him always carry it by himself. Because you are in his heart, you can do what others can't. You can give comfort that others can't give him. ”

I burst into tears and said: "Father, no matter what happens in the future, I will remember your words, I will obey him all my life, understand him, support him, comfort him, accompany him, I will accompany him through all the joys and pains, I will help you and mother, take care of him, I will not let him be alone." I will never leave him alone. ”

That night, my father finally said to me, "Daughter, my father can't avenge the Chen family in this life. Hopefully my son can do it for me. ”

He said: "You have lived in my house for fifteen years, and everything in my family that is sorry for you is my fault. I beg your forgiveness. ”

He said, "When I die, Qin'er, please stop holding a grudge against anyone in your family, and don't hurt yourself again." ”

The father said, "It's hard to say such a request, but I want you to forget about it." ”

The father said, "Forget about it." It will no longer be a burden and a pain for you. ”

I was speechless in grief at my father's bedside.

My heart was like a knife and I cried, "Father! It's me who didn't do it right. It's me who is confused. I'm not going to hate anyone anymore. I'll forget about it. Won't let it hurt more people. I swear to do it. Rest assured. Please rest assured. ”

After hearing my words, my father sighed and closed his eyes. I saw two lines of tears coming out of his eyes.

The father said, "Daughter, I'm tired. I'll sleep for a while. ”

I looked at my father and fell asleep before my eyes. I watched as his eyes slowly closed, and never again.

At around 4 a.m., my father died suddenly. The whole family mourned.

Since then, we have no fathers in the world.