232. The First World. Chapter 15. Is that what you want?
Feng Xi often couldn't help but think, should she tell Shangguan Yu the fact that she saved him? However, she didn't want Shangguan Yu to be good to herself because she saved him, and she would be willing to be with her. If so, would he really fall in love with him? She didn't know......
If...... If Shangguan Yu had given all her love to Song Yingyu, then even if she told the truth of the matter, what was the use? If Shangguan Yu still loves Song Yingyu in his heart, he will inevitably marry her, even if he will have a different attitude towards himself, what can it mean? Is it to repay the favor? Is it gratitude? Or is it charity?
After all, she didn't want Shangguan Yu to be with her in order to repay her kindness. What she wants is a genuine, not the slightest false feeling.
Feng Xi is a natural goddess, the little princess of Phoenix Mountain in the divine realm, even if she has not been enterprising in the past 30,000 years, she also has her own pride and self-esteem!
She has read countless books, she doesn't like three wives and four concubines, three husbands and four men, she just wants a couple for the rest of her life.
Her pride, her self-esteem, makes her not want to be so embarrassed, not real love, not the only love, then she would rather not! But for Shangguan Yu like this now, facing Shangguan Yu who only has Song Yingyu in his eyes and heart, Feng Xi has put down his body again and again, wanting to regain the happiness that should have belonged to him.
However, Feng Xi had to admit that in the past five months, in the face of Shangguan Yu, who was cold to herself and cared for Song Yingyu, she was tired, and her heart had really grown cold in the past five months......
Feng Xi even began to wonder, if it was just to repay the favor, if he really loved someone, would it be good as long as that person was happy? Isn't it anyone, as long as he wants, he should help him get it?
She seems to have lost herself in this grievance, forgetting her original beginning, just to repay her kindness. Yes, how could she forget that in the beginning, she was just here to repay the favor?
Perhaps, it doesn't matter if the person who accompanies him to be happy is himself or not......
For this reason, Feng Xi avoided Situ Yinghan very entangledly, avoided everyone, sat alone on the grass in the wild, hugged his knees and pondered, did not eat or drink, did not sleep, did not move, and sat for three days.
Suddenly, the air in front of Feng Xi fluctuated, and I saw a flash of blue light, and a woman with a light and elegant appearance appeared out of thin air, looking at Feng Xi with complicated eyes at the moment.
"Xi'er, is this what you want?" Qing Qian frowned and looked at Feng Xi, with thousands of emotions in his eyes, and said in his heart, is this what you want at the cost of drugged me unconscious, at the cost of being eaten by mana, and at the cost of coming to the mortal world?
"I don't know. Shallow, what should you do if you love someone? Feng Xi raised his confused eyes and asked the woman beside him helplessly. Now she is really sad and entangled, and she needs someone by her side to accompany her, so that she has the strength to continue to support her.
Qing Qian couldn't help but be stunned when she heard this, her eyes narrowed slightly, and she only spoke after a while, and there was a tremor in her voice that she could only feel. She asked Fengxi, "You...... Fall in love with and go to Guanyu? β
Qing Qian couldn't stop worrying in her heart, and suddenly she was a little afraid of Feng Xi's reply. At this moment, she seemed to finally understand what a different part of Fengxi was for herself.
But Feng Xi didn't notice Qingqian's abnormality, just smiled slightly, and said bitterly: "Yes, I'm in love with him......"
"Boom", at this moment, Qing Qian only felt that there was a place in her heart that had collapsed, and she was out of breath.
It took a long time to find her voice, Qingqian stretched out her hands tremblingly, caressing Feng Xi's pale cheeks, her eyes were undisguised worry and distress, she had never seen such a fragile Feng Xi, and said worriedly: "Xi'er, what's wrong with you?" Didn't he treat you well? β
Feng Xi looked at Qing Qian in a stupid state for a long time, and just when Qing Qian thought she wouldn't answer, Feng Xi flew to Qing Qian's body, hugged Qing Qian and cried bitterly, like a drowning man grabbing the only life-saving straw, holding it tightly, and burying his head deep in Qing Qian's shoulder socket.
Tears wet Qingqian's clothes, and the cry of "wow" sounded in Qingqian's ears and echoed in the empty field.
Qing Qian stood stiffly in place, his hands hanging on both sides gradually clenched into fists, and slowly relaxed, before gently hugging Feng Xi's trembling body, wordlessly accompanying her, patting her back to smooth her, her eyes were full of unconcealable distress.
When had she ever seen Feng Xi so sad? When did Feng Xi cry so sadly? No, Fengxi has never been like this since he was born!
"Shallow, why? Why wouldn't he even look at me? Why doesn't he just love me? Why...... Why would he fall in love with a mortal woman and not want to love me? Woowoo...... What was there about me that was not as good as that woman, and why did he hurt me so much? Shallow ......" Feng Xi couldn't stop choking and sobbing in Qingqian's arms.
"You're fine, Xi'er, don't be sad, he's just a mortal now, and many things can't be told clearly." Qing Qian could have taken the opportunity to use words to make Feng Xi break off her thoughts about Bai Luoxun, but after all, she couldn't bear to see her sad. Enduring the discomfort in her heart, Qing Qian soothed Feng Xi's injured heart, reluctant to let her be so hurt.
If Feng Xi really loves Bai Luoxun, wouldn't it be a good thing? Though...... This good thing is the worst thing for herself, but as long as Feng Xi wants it, she will guard her and even help her get it.
"Hmm...... However, I was really sad this time. I love him like this, I'm really tired, physically and mentally exhausted. Little shallow, you know? He was so gentle with that Song Yingyu, and he cared for her, but he was so indifferent to me, as if he was desperately pushing me away...... I'm a girl, too, so I'm going to be sad! I love him so much, how can he do this to me? Not...... The most hateful thing is that Song Yingyu, she is actually pretending to be me! Bai Luoxun thought that more than two years ago, it was that woman who saved him! That woman also became his fiancΓ©e because of this, I, I, I'm unwilling, why can that woman get his love? β
Feng Xi's hoarse voice echoed in Qing Qian's ears, and every word pierced her heart like a sharp sword, making her hurt with it.
"Shallow, am I wrong? Shouldn't he be mixed into his reincarnation? Heh, anyway, my catastrophe is coming, and when the time comes, I don't know if I'm dead or alive, I ......."
"Shut up! Xi'er, don't be cranky! Well, calm down. How do you know that he really loves that mortal woman? You also said that he thought that the woman saved him, so he would be like this. Perhaps, his feelings for that woman are not love. Qing Qian interrupted Feng Xi's self-defeating words and comforted her as much as she could.
Qingqian also knew that Feng Xi's catastrophe was not far away, which was also something that she, Feng Wang, and Feng Yu had been worried about, if she couldn't withstand the three heavenly thunders, Feng Xi would definitely die! That's why they kept forcing her to cultivate, just because they were afraid of losing her.
Everyone knows that if God dies, then his soul will be scattered, and he will completely disappear between this heaven and earth, and there is no possibility of reincarnation.
She won't let Feng Xi die! Definitely not! What if Feng Xi falls in love with Bai Luoxun? What if Bai Luoxun really fell in love with that mortal girl?
"Xi'er, you forgot, that woman is just a mortal, even if Bai Luoxun really falls in love with her, what can she do? Bai Luoxun came to this human world to experience the suffering of the third reincarnation, and when he is reincarnated in the next life, will he still remember who that woman is? After he returned to his body, how could he care about a mortal woman? Qingqiu Young Lord Bai Luoxun is never emotional. Take 10,000 steps back, even if he is really emotional, Xianfan still has other rules, what can they do? β
Qingqian pulled Feng Xi out of her arms, let her look directly into her eyes, and said slowly: "Xi'er, human life is very fragile and short, if you can't bear it and can't do it, I can kill her for you." "She can do anything for Fengxi, as long as she can make Fengxi happy.
"Nope! No. If Bai Luoxun really loves her, and you kill her, he will die of sadness, and ...... And Song Yingyu is just a mortal, God has the virtue of a good life, you better not kill indiscriminately. Feng Xi hurriedly grabbed Qing Qian's hand, she didn't want to let people die in vain because of her selfishness.
"You...... You just said that you don't want Bai Luoxun to be sad! Really, according to your soft-heartedness, didn't you give people to others for nothing? I don't even know how to fight. Be good, from now on, I will be by your side, and if necessary, I must teach the mortal woman who dared to rob the man who dared to rob my family Xi'er of his fancy. Qingqian rolled her eyes helplessly, how could she not know Fengxi's kindness? No wonder it's been almost half a year, and I haven't snatched people back yet.
Feng Xi rubbed her head affectionately against Qingqian's neck, in the past six months, she has been so tired of living, she has never been so relaxed herself, only in front of the closest people, she can remove the layers of disguise, revealing the innocent girlish feelings that originally belonged to her.
She was coquettish in Qingqian's arms, "I know that Xiao Qianqian is the best!" β
"Don't rejoice too soon. Hmph, I remember a guy who took advantage of my trust in her and drugged me, huh? β
After the intimacy, Qing Qian began to settle accounts after autumn, with a bright smile, forcing Fengxi to retreat step by step.
Feng Xi smiled wryly, stepped back, and said in a humble heart: "Ah! Little shallow, do you remember! It's a good memory, huh...... In other words, shouldn't you be in a coma for at least a year, is that medicine expired? Feng Xi couldn't help but mutter, but it didn't escape Qingqian's ears.