(a)

The day after the mirror incident, with the medals and certificates in hand, we boarded the train back. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

Leaving the competitive atmosphere, the air is much fresher.

We looked out the window all the way and talked all the way, and we talked a lot of things.

Since we were surrounded by strangers, we didn't talk about anything special. It's about the kind of topics that any member of the public can come over and listen to at any time.

People who have feelings for each other have a lot of everyday conversations. It doesn't really matter what we say, we don't really say something to each other. We simply want to "connect each other in the form of words", to "keep the two sides in touch, to connect with each other, without interruption".

What we are looking for is "continuous engagement" itself. Words are just a layer of wrapping. Just like the role of a bridge is to get to the other side.

We use each other's words to "rub" each other, wrap each other in our own words, and touch each other gently.

So, although we didn't talk about anything special, and our inner feelings were suppressed and unexpressed, my heart sank and trembled because of it.

(b)

We had a light breakfast together on the train.

Since the events of the sea of flowers and the mirror incident have caused huge waves in our respective minds, we talk about the past and the future while eating.

The train was moving at a high speed through a vast hilly area, with houses and trees constantly entering the windows from the front and then disappearing backwards from the windows.

I tell you that I firmly believe that the future exists and that the past has not disappeared. With the right conditions, we can get to places that seem inaccessible.

I said, "It's like this train window in front of you." It is only when the car window passes by a house or tree that we can see the appearance and existence of the scene, but this does not mean that these scenes did not exist before we pass by, nor does it mean that they will disappear after we pass by. They're always there. We can't see them because we're not close enough or we're already far away from them. ”

I said, "We are now moving through space on a train and through time on a train." Just as we can have a way to go back to where we started, we also have a way to go back to what has just passed. Just as we were able to get to the terminal early in a helicopter, we also have a way to get to the future early. ”

I said, "I also believe that there are people in the world who can see the whole scenery from a higher place at a glance." ”

I said, "I believe that there are people who can see millions of eons at a glance, the world of Hengsha. ”

I said, "I believe in omniscience. ”

I said, "Guide, do you think I'm all cranky?" ”

You say, "Do you want to go back in time?" Or do you want to see the future? ”

I said, "I really want to." When I came, sitting in a sea of flowers, I sincerely hoped that I could have the power of omniscience and omnipotence, break through the confines of time and space, see everything before and after, and understand the ins and outs of why everything is so so. ”

I said: "I remember once reading a book by the female writer Lu Ying, her writing was very dark, very sad, and depressing, and I didn't like it very much, but there was one sentence from her that touched me deeply. She said that we human beings are actually quite blind people, and our lives are like walking in a thick fog, looking back and not seeing the way we came, and looking forward to the road we will take in the future. ”

I said, "I'm not that pessimistic, though. I firmly believe that there is a power that can cut through the fog and gain omniscience, omniscience, and insight into the past and the future. ”

(c)

I realized you were looking at me. There's something twinkling in your eyes.

I paused a little embarrassed and lowered my head. I said, "When you eat breakfast, you should eat breakfast with all your heart, and you shouldn't say so much." ”

You laugh a little and say, "What is hidden in our hearts, we all hope to say it in the end." The so-called no vomit is not happy. I love to hear you talk like this, and I'm always grateful that you can always say the deepest words to me like this. ”

You're the only one who can tolerate and is interested in talking to me about these kinds of topics.

You're the only one who doesn't think I'm ridiculous or crazy. The only one who doesn't criticize or stop me for it. Only by your side can I be recognized and resonated.

You have exempted me from enduring absolute loneliness.

I appreciate your company. Every life, every kind, every bit of companionship.

I said, "Guidance, ordinary people like us, can attain omniscience?" ”

You nodded.

You said to me, "Where there's a will, there's a way." As long as we keep working hard, what we hope for can become our future. ”

You say, "Did you know that there is a word in Chinese called 'instinct'?" ”

"What it means is that there are a lot of things that we don't think we can do, but in fact, it's a potential that we already have, but we just haven't tapped and don't know how to use it," you said. ”

You say, "Extraordinary people come from ordinary people." If you have a strong desire, keep working hard, and persevere, I believe that you will be able to go beyond the ordinary, see everything you want to see, and know everything you want to know. ”

(iv)

That day, on the train back, I said a lot to you.

Let me tell you, the strange thing that 10 shots did not hit the target that day is far from the first time.

Ever since I can remember things, I've often had the problem of time confusion, as if suddenly I went somewhere else, into someone else's house, and became someone else's life.

For example, one time, when I was in the first grade of elementary school, I went to the movies with my classmates. Sitting in the cinema, I saw that the show was almost over, and suddenly I noticed that the situation around me had changed.

I still sit, but the wooden chair has been turned into a leather chair, and I am no longer a child, but into a richly dressed adult woman, wearing a necklace encrusted with diamonds.

I sat with others in a row of leather chairs, and in front of me there was a podium where people were talking.

From time to time, like everyone else, I held up a small sign with a number written on it. Later, many people stopped holding signs, except for me and a tall, dark-skinned man next to me. Later, the man came up to me and said something important to him.

Then it was as if we were outside the movie theater, and I was walking up a staircase, and the man who looked like a black tower chased after me from behind. He stood at the top of the steps and shouted at me.

At this time, I heard the sound of a chair around me, and it turned out that the movie had ended. Those strange visions are gone.

I said that when I first encountered this strange thing, I would quickly tell someone. But people don't believe it and say it's all your fantasy.

Once, I wrote down an incident I encountered in my composition, and the Chinese teacher later gave a comment, saying that the writing was beautiful, far-reaching, imaginative, and sprinkled, but it was all imagination. Later, he also talked to me, saying that my writing is very good, and asked me to write more about the real life around me, and not always imagine. I said it wasn't imagination, and he shook his head and laughed.

After that, I slowly stopped talking. After I didn't say it, everyone thought I was normal.

Once the homeroom teacher came to visit my home, my mother praised me, saying that I used to like to imagine things and lie, but now I am much more honest and down-to-earth.

I said that after listening to it, I felt very lonely in the world, as if I had been abandoned in this world by someone.

I said that when I was a kid, I used to feel like aliens, and that the people on the street looked like me, but they didn't look like me at all. I think that only by finding the same kind of people can someone believe and understand what I say.

So, when the teacher first asked us to express our future life ideals, I said that I wanted to be an astronaut. But I didn't tell the teacher that I had that ideal because I felt that only far, far away, far away from the present time, could I find someone who could believe in me and understand me.

I said that since I was a child, I have loved reading stories and magazines that use mysterious events as a selling point and theme. It was only when I read about those same events that I felt a little comforted and believed that I hadn't gone crazy.

I know I can't say that to anyone. However, in the face of you, I will unconsciously say these words to you, just as the sun shines on the snow and ice, and the ice and snow will melt involuntarily.

I tell you, since I was a child, I have always wanted to find someone to talk about this, but if I did, no one would believe that it was true, so I felt as if I had been cursed by some witch. I was imprisoned by this curse, unable to truly communicate with the outside world, like being alone, banished to an island in the middle of the ocean, isolated.

When you hear this, you don't feel moved.

You say, "Idealism, I believe that what you say is all true." ”

You say, "As long as one person believes in you, the curse will be broken, even if it exists." ”

Hearing you say this, although I know that I am in public, I can't help but tears welling up in my eyes.

In this life, I was basically isolated from the normal world, like a meteorite from outer space forcibly inserted into the earth's surface. It was the words you said that merged me with the world.

Indeed, you have broken that curse.

(5)

On the way back, the train passed through the sea of flowers again.

I sat in front of the window and watched as it sped behind me, disappearing into the invisible space.

I watched it disappear into my life in front of the open window, greeted by the spring breeze blowing in my face.

I haven't looked back at it since.

We looked at the sea of flowers in silence.

When I said goodbye to it in silence, you said to me, "When you came, in this sea of flowers, you asked me if I believed in a past life. ”

I said, "Yes." You answered me logically, and you think that logically speaking, there is a possibility of existence in a past life. ”

You say, "That's a question, and now, I can answer you again." ”

I look back at you.

You look at me, and you say unequivocally, "I believe there are past lives." ”

You say, "From childhood to adulthood, I have always been steadfast in my belief that everyone has a past life. There are countless past lives. ”

I look at you with wide eyes.

You nod at me.

You say, "This is also the first time I've said it to someone else." (To be continued.) )