(a)

Again, I sat at the dresser in my pajamas and removed my makeup.

You finished your shower and were also wearing a yukata, and you walked up behind me and looked at me in the mirror.

Your hands are gently pressed on my shoulders.

I look back. We looked at each other.

You leaned down and kissed me on the forehead, and then we kissed each other's lips.

"Do you want to know what your father and I talked about in the cigar room?" You whispered in my ear.

I said, "Can you let me know the content of your conversation between men?" ”

You say, "Esabelle, I don't have anything to hide from you." ”

I said, "Then tell me?" As a father, it is inevitable that he will be too harsh on the husband of his only daughter at times. If the father loves his daughter so much that he says anything too direct to you, my dear, I hope you don't take it to heart. ”

You say, "Whatever your father says, I won't mind." I will be happy for you to have a father who loves you so much and cares for you all the time. Wouldn't it be better if there was one more person who loved you? ”

I said, "I think my father is talking to you about your health." ”

You say, "It's really a father and a daughter." He was really talking to me about my physical condition. He has all of my medical files and knows the ins and outs of each of my patients. He asked me if I had shown Esabelle all of these medical records before marriage. He asked me how long I would live in this life, and if I had ever wondered what would happen to Esabelle if she were left alone to die alone. ”

Sure enough. My father was really able to find exactly who I was married to, and for me, the place that could pose the deadliest threat.

But is such frankness really good?

It's different from the last time. This time, Father is talking about your life.

I said, "What answer you will make to him?" ”

"I told him that before I got married, I told Esabelle about my physical condition. She knew all about my health. As for whether she can accompany her to the end of her life, on the one hand, there are personal efforts, and on the other hand, it also depends on the aggregation of karma. Results are not guaranteed by individual efforts alone, and even for people who are in very good health, the results are uncertain. I said that I would do my best and do my best to accompany her a little longer, a little longer, and let her spend every minute with me with happiness and no regrets. ”

I said, "You did tell me everything honestly, and I can confirm it to my father so that he should not worry." I didn't marry you without knowing it. ”

You say, "Thank you, dear." When your father heard this, he was silent for a while, and seemed to believe in my sincerity. He asked me again if I knew that Esabelle would love to have a child of her own and that she wanted to be a mother to the child, or if I knew that Esabelle had been pregnant in her last marriage but had a miscarriage. Your father asked me if I could give Esabelle a child and make her a mother. He asked me if I had spoken openly with Esabelle on this issue. He said to me, "You know, you're not young anymore. Such an opportunity is very precious for Esabelle. ”

I was stunned. I didn't expect my father to ask you like this.

It is true that we have not talked about this yet. Although we have known each other for a long time and are already very familiar with each other, after all, we are also a husband and wife for the first time, and although my relationship history is complicated, I am not a casual person, and I feel a little embarrassed to talk to you about this kind of thing so quickly.

This is obviously also a bit of a difficult question to answer for you.

My face couldn't help but get a little hot.

I lowered my head and whispered, "If this kind of question from my father makes you feel embarrassed, then I'm really sorry." I apologize to you on behalf of my father. ”

You say, "No need to apologize." Only a father who really cares about his daughter will ask his son-in-law this question directly. I am honored to be asked such a question by an affectionate father. ”

You say, "This is indeed an oversight on my part, a fault." I should have spoken to you more explicitly about this before I got married. ”

You say, "Because I have taken a lot of drugs in the process of treating my disease, it is not suitable for us to try to have children immediately after we get married." I, I really don't know, if I can make you a successful mother. If you need to be more specific, I can do another special check-up. If I don't have the ability to do this, I can try IVF, or genetic technology, and there are many ways to do this....."

Hearing you say this, I feel a soft pain in my heart.

With a gentle kiss, I choked the words behind you.

I said, "Let's stop talking about it." My dear. It's not your negligence or fault. It's just that we're still immersed in the happiness of meeting each other, and we haven't had time to talk about the follow-up, that's all. ”

I said: "In this life, I met you and married you, my wish for thousands of years has been successfully realized, for this, I am infinitely grateful, grateful together." As for how long we can be a husband and wife, whether we will have children or not, that is not the most important thing. I'm not so content. I don't need you to do that check-up. Let's all do our part, and then listen to the causes. If not, it's just the two of us, depending on each other, it's not so hard, there's not so much work, there's not so much to do, and we can have more time to do charity, isn't it just as good? ”

I said, "No test tubes, no genetic technology." There are so many children in the world who have lost their care, looking forward to the love of their parents. All of them can be our children. ”

I said, "As long as there is love in our hearts, we will always have children to take care of." ”

You say: "Esabelle......"

With another gentle kiss, I sealed your lips.

(b)

"Father. I am back. "Once again, I stood in my father's castle.

My father looked at me with a smile peculiar to an old man.

He said: "Before, when I married your mother, your mother's father used to tell me that the so-called conversation between men does not exist. If a man truly loves his wife, he will tell her everything. I told my mother what her father had said. Now, I am even more convinced of this conclusion. ”

My face flushed. I said, "Isn't it good for a husband and wife to be open and honest and have nothing to hide?" ”

The father said, "Very well. Very good. I'm glad he was able to tell you all about it all. I believe he didn't get mad at you because of that. Although the relationship is not deep, I can still see that this one is very different from the one you chose last time. If not radically different. ”

I said, "Do you have to ask such a direct question to every husband I choose?" ”

The father said, "Did I embarrass him?" ”

I said, "It's embarrassing for me." Because you are my father. He didn't mind much, he said that only a true father could ask such a question, and he said that he was glad to see you love me so much. ”

"He was a very sincere man," his father said. I already knew from his answer that day. He was frank and open-minded, without any intention of hiding anything. ”

I said, "Thank you for what you say about him." Father. ”

My father looked at me and said, "Esabelle, you already know exactly what he's doing, right?" ”

I said, "Yes." The first time we had dinner with him, he told me all about it. I've seen all those things you've seen. I've also met several of his doctors. I also accompanied him to the treatment and check-ups. ”

The father said, "So, are you ready for another way of parting?" A completely different form of parting from the previous marriage? ”

"It could also happen after I left this world, when you might be left alone in this world and have no relatives to have such a conversation," said the father. ”

The father said, "Do you remember when you were a child when your mother had just died? Remember how you climbed up on my knees and wrapped your arms around my neck? ”

I looked at my father gratefully. Now, I can understand more and more why my mother fell in love with this prodigal son.

Although so many years have passed since the pain of my mother's departure, the pain in my father's heart is still there. He didn't want me to go through moments like this.

- But my father didn't know that I had already experienced such heartbreaking moments over and over again in my past life. I have gradually grown up in the midst of such successive heavy blows, and have gained unprecedented spiritual strength.

I looked my father firmly in the eye and said to him, "I'm sure I'm ready, Father." ”

I said, "Father, do you believe that there is such a person in this world?" When you meet him, your whole life will be completely new, and you will never have want or fear again. ”

My father looked at me and said, "Is that what he is?" ”

I nodded. I said, "He is." To me, he is. ”

My father stared at me for several minutes. His vision went all the way to my heart.

"It seems that this is indeed the case," he said. He really ignites the light in your heart. ”

(c)

A person, when she depends on external gains to maintain happiness, her happiness is destined to be fragile.

Only when she relies on the light in her heart will that happiness remain untouched.

Father, indeed, in one word, told the truth about this earthly happiness.