(a)

Sister Wenli has finally returned from the city where your parents are. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Not only did she learn many advanced skills in the operation of precision machine tools, but she also made your parents have a very happy New Year.

With her help, your father was in a good mood and recovered quickly. Before Liu Wenli returned, your father had been discharged from the hospital and moved back to the house. Although it still needs a period of recuperation, it is still difficult to go out and move around by yourself, but there is no danger to life, and the whole person is also a lot more energetic, and the basic life can take care of himself.

Your mother's burden has been greatly lightened, and you can finally breathe a good breath.

As the weather warms up, you start to think about going home to see your parents one last time.

Director Wang has also found a few people who are interested in replacing you, and is in contact with them one by one to investigate in many ways.

You also met with Coach Wang with two or three candidates, and you are more interested in one of the retired professional players. You recommended him to Director Wang.

You plan to leave the city on sick leave and go home to recuperate when the new person is in place and the handover is completed with him.

However, this idea also makes you feel deeply contradictory.

If you go home and see your parents for the last time, and give them their last time, it means that you will leave me, and we will not be able to get along even in the last time.

The day you return home is the time when we will say goodbye forever in this life.

Every day and every night, you feel a sharp contradiction in your heart. Whether to go, to stay, the balance in your heart has been dangling.

No matter which side you choose, you feel pain inside.

And in the midst of your entanglement, your condition suddenly began to deteriorate again.

After relieving the pain for two or three months, it suddenly became worse again.

You toss and turn in pain all night long, and you can't sleep without the help of painkillers. When the pain is severe, you are sluggish, your diet is wasted, and you can only rely on glucose and royal jelly to stay alive. But you endure and try not to be noticed by others as much as possible.

You know very well in your heart that that sinister power, it is back again.

You leave and re-admit to the hospital, time is running out.

And this time, once you're admitted to the hospital, you don't know if you'll be able to make it to the time you're discharged.

(b)

After Sister Wenli came back, she encountered a happy thing.

Because someone got married and vacated the house, Liu Wenli changed to a room with better sunlight in the collective dormitory.

She plans to use the weekend to move.

After hearing about it from Director Wang, you decide to go over the weekend to see if she needs help, or if she has something heavier to move.

When you arrive at her dormitory, you see that the door to her room is open.

The room was littered with bits and pieces, which looked messy.

Liu Wenli was wearing work clothes and a headscarf, and was packing her things.

She was kneeling on the bed, squeezing a roll of cotton wool and bedding hard, hoping to shrink it in size so that it could be tied up smoothly.

You stand in the doorway and watch her fail on both attempts, and you watch her wipe the sweat off her head.

Just as she rolled up her sleeves and was about to pounce on the futon again to continue her struggle, she felt the rope in her hand be pulled out from behind.

She looks back and sees you in surprise.

You say, "Is it to be bundled?" I'll do it. ”

Your bundling action is so fast that Liu Wenli feels a little dazzled. She'd never seen how you tied the knot before.

Before she could say no, five seconds later, you tied the bundle and left a handle for easy carrying.

You lift up the roll and place it on the bed. Then, you ask, "Is there anything else that needs to be bundled?" ”

Liu Wenli only reacted at this time.

She pushes your arm out without saying a word. She said, "Why are you here?" You should rest at home! I don't want you to do this work. ”

She said, "Go back!" "She pushes you hard. You have to move a little.

You say, "Let me help you." ”

You say, "Let me help you again when I can help you at last." ”

These words hit Liu Wenli like a bullet. She was immediately silent. She didn't say no more.

(c)

By about half past one o'clock in the afternoon, the bulky things were almost packed.

You two are also sweating profusely.

Liu Wenli felt hungry, and she invited you to lunch at a small restaurant nearby.

You want to say to Liu Wenli that you don't need to eat anything, but you seem to hear her stomach rumbling for a while. You just nodded in agreement.

You sat down at the table, Liu Wenli picked up the menu, carefully selected the lightest flavors of the dishes and ordered a few.

You eat very little. You barely eat anything. You are almost eating with Liu Wenli.

Liu Wenli asked, "What's wrong?" Is it bad to eat now? Since when? ”

You say, "No, it's just that I didn't have an appetite today." Usually this is not the case. ”

Liu Wenli became worried, she said distressed and anxious: "I blamed you for letting you go back to rest, and I made you tired." ”

You say, it's nothing to do with moving. You're not paper-mâché, you're just playing two bags, it's not heavy physical work.

To show that you weren't tired, you forced yourself and insisted on drinking a small bowl of soup.

Seeing that you started to drink the soup, Liu Wenli was slightly relieved.

But she said that the things were almost moved, and she didn't want you to help me in the afternoon anyway.

She insisted that you go back to rest after eating.

You say, "Okay. I'll send you upstairs, help you open the big bunk, and then go back. ”

Liu Wenli sighed and agreed silently.

(iv)

You cross a small park in the middle of the street and take a shortcut back.

After coming out of the hotel, the cold wind outside blew, and your stomach began to hurt so much that it turned over, but you desperately held back and didn't say a word.

You're covered in a cold sweat. But Liu Wenli didn't notice it, because after you finished moving things, you were all sweating profusely.

As we approached the exit of the park, the pain intensified. You suddenly couldn't walk, and you were in so much pain that you couldn't keep standing.

You reach out and hold the trunk of a tree beside you, your lips white.

You feel the whole tree turn upside down and slowly flip upside down.

You grapple with a branch that sticks out diagonally. You hold on to it as hard as you can to prevent yourself from falling to the ground. The foliage trembled.

Five seconds later, you vomit all the little soup you've worked so hard to drink at noon.

(5)

Liu Wenli sat with you on a log bench on the side of the park path. You are so painful that you hold your hands on your stomach and can't straighten up.

You feel that the sky is full of swirling leaves flying, obscuring the sky and the sun, with no beginning and no end.

You close your eyes and wait for this whirlwind sensation to pass.

You feel like an army is trampling through your every nerve. You're dying in pain, and it's hard to breathe sustainably. You want to find a sharp blade that will dig the aching stomach out of your body at once, even if you die immediately!

Your terrible face made Liu Wenli stand up from her chair all of a sudden.

(f)

After a dozen or so seconds of black boiling, you feel a little more awake.

You hear Liu Wenli talking to you.

Immediately, you notice that she is in tears.

Liu Wenli was very sad and blamed herself for not agreeing to you doing manual work for such a long time. You've been fine, and you haven't had this pain in days.

You resist feelings of weakness.

Again, you say, it's not about moving.

You say, "Even if you lie down at home, the pain will come and go."

I sat down and rested for a while. Your condition has improved significantly.

But Liu Wenli's emotional recovery did not progress.

Ever since your second hospitalization, she has been suppressing her sadness and forcing a smile.

She finally couldn't take it anymore. She looked a little emotionally out of control.

She was caught in that self-reproach and couldn't help herself.

You want to comfort her and calm her down.

You think of a way.

(g)

"Would you like to hear a story?" You said.

"What?" Liu Wenli raised her face.

The surprise you caused was a great distraction for her.

You gather your strength.

Say, "Once upon a time there was a king." He has a very beautiful daughter. There are many princes who want to marry her. The king found it difficult to do so, for there was only one daughter, and the relations between the four neighbors could not be harmed. So, the king came up with a difficult problem. Anyone who wants to marry a princess must first answer it. ”

You say, "This is a question for the suitor to say." This sentence should make the sad people feel happy when they hear it, and make the happy people feel sad when they hear it. ”

"Many people can't answer this question, so they can't marry a princess."

You say, "Later, at last, a prince answered this question." ”

You said to Sister Wenli, "Do you know what this sentence is? ”

Liu Wenli thought for a while, said a few answers, and then denied herself.

She shook her head to indicate that she didn't know, and she asked, "What is it?" ”

You say, "That is the saying: This will all pass." ”

You look at the tears on Liu Wenli's face.

You say, "So, don't cry." ”

You say, "It's all going to pass." All. Not just the good moments, but also the bad ones. ”

You say, "No matter how bad the pain is, there will be a time when it will pass." I don't hurt that much all the time. ”

You whisper, "Wenli, don't cry. Seeing you crying like this makes my heart ache. ”

(viii)

Later, before marrying a Hong Konger and following him out of the city, Liu Wenli went to that small park alone for a while.

She sat alone in the same chair you sat in for an hour. Watch the fallen leaves on the ground spread layer by layer.

The sun shone on her hair and skirt. A lot of jumping spots are moving.

(ix)

Later, when we were having coffee together in Sha Tin, she said to me, "At that time, I was sitting in a chair and didn't think about anything. ”

"I keep thinking about what he said," she said. ”

"Everything will pass," she said. ”

She said, "This is the truth! ”

"The day he told the story, now, has passed," she said. ”

"The day I sat alone in a chair has passed."

"And the day we sat down for coffee will soon pass," she said. ”

She said, "So, listen to him, let's not cry." ”

"We have to face all this calmly," she said. ”

(x)

With the passage of time, it is not only age that grows.

Or, there is the ability.

I mean, the ability to see pain, to dwell in it.