(a)

After listening to it for more than 20 seconds, I could tell that the singer who sang was Hong Kong's love song rock prince Du Dewei, and the song he is singing now is called "Spoil You", which seems to be included in an album called "Lover". Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

I silently listened to Du Dewei singing in the headphones:

"Open all the cells of love

The brain is full

Waiting for it

It's not that I want to spoil you

You're really amazing

I was reluctant to leave

I have a hunch that you are here for me

Don't be in a daze for a second

If I miss you

I have been emotionally moved for a hundred years

The so-called emotional road is narrow

It's all understood now

From now on

Look at hello

Watch you bad

I hold them all in my arms and love them all

Look at the present and look at the future

I want you to be loved in my pampering"

(iv)

My heart moved.

Why did he come over at this time and tell me this?

Immediately, I found out that Kaohsiung had set the music playback to a single loop mode.

He did it that way.

Du Dewei began to sing a rap in English.

I listened carefully to his quick recitation, and I could tell the general idea of RAP as follows:

"There is a little madness in my life, I have never met a girl like you, I want to hold your hand and surround you with sweet love from winter to autumn. Whether you are proud or failing, I will be there for you. It's the first time I've fallen in love so much, and believe it's a solemn commitment. ”

My heart was beating fast.

What is this? Another confession?

We're both married. Kaohsiung is already a father. I have already rejected his offer in the fields of Provence.

At this time, I saw Kaohsiung coming out of the bathroom in front.

Our eyes met in the air across the seats.

Kaohsiung saw the doubts and questions in my eyes.

He grinned again, a flash of white light.

I bit my lip and glared at him.

He didn't come any further, he went back to his seat and sat down. I could only see the back of his seat.

After a while, a flight attendant walked up to Kaohsiung's seat and leaned over to ask him something.

Then I saw the flight attendant coming towards me.

He handed me a note that the gentleman in the front row had given me.

I thanked and looked down at the note.

On it is Kaohsiung's handwriting: "In the long loneliness, I will send it to you." That's all. Don't take off the headphones. ”

I looked at the note and looked up at the seat in Kaohsiung.

I saw his arm raised and turned off the reading light on his head. He lowered the curtains and began to fold down his seat, ready for bed.

Seeing that he didn't mean to come over again, I also felt drowsy, and I also turned off the lights and windows, lowered my seat, covered myself with a blanket, and prepared to sleep.

I lay on the soft pillow and looked at the bulkhead above my head, and Du Dewei's singing echoed in my ears.

I didn't turn off the player. I pulled on my blindfold and listened to the song in the darkness as I flew over this coldest ancient wasteland.

(5)

I stood at the edge of the slide and watched the snow mist flying below and the reflection of the forest.

I shook my head desperately at Kaohsiung, saying that I didn't want to slide down.

Kaohsiung said, "Give it a try? You see, Sue and my son are both sliding down, and it's going to be fine. There are adequate safety facilities and safety ambulance personnel to cope with various situations. ”

I shook my head again. I said, "There is no safety facility that can prevent all life accidents. ”

Kaohsiung said: "I can't imagine that you are so afraid of death." ”

I said, "I don't want to waste my life on entertainment." ”

Kaohsiung said: "It's not entertainment, it's a challenge, it's a sport. ”

I said, "What about being healthy?" There are billions of ways in nature that can wipe out a healthy body in an instant. Muscles can't resist impermanence. ”

Kaohsiung rolled his eyes at me and said, "Incorrigible." ”

He bared his teeth and said to me, "As you say, impermanence is unstoppable and there is no safe place. If you don't slide down and stay here, you'll die at any time. ”

As he spoke, he dropped his hood, waved his snow pole with his teeth and claws, and slid down past me with a thud.

The snow foam he stirred up blew in the cold wind and fell on the skin of my face.

I still can't beat myself. Without you by my side, I couldn't control my crumbling and fear.

I feel ashamed.

I still haven't gained my strength.

Didn't I want to end my life a long time ago? Why can't you overcome your fear at this time?

I stood alone between the snowy peaks, watching the people sliding down the slopes in white lines.

I felt lost.

(f)

I stood under the shower in the hotel and bathed.

The warm massage water runs on the skin and makes me feel relaxed.

I closed my eyes and stood in the middle of the current, trying to push away all the things of the day without thinking about it.

After I don't know how long, I heard the doorbell ringing.

After another second or two, I realized that someone was outside trying to come in.

I hurriedly washed off the foam on my body, grabbed a towel to dry my body and hair, put on my bathrobe, and went out to open the door.

Kaohsiung appeared at the door.

I said, "Is there something wrong with this late hour?" Haven't you slept yet? ”

Kaohsiung pushed the door open with one hand and squeezed in without saying anything.

He reached out and grabbed one of my arms and squeezed it tightly.

I panicked, and I pumped my arm out.

I said, "What? What are you doing? ”

Kaohsiung stared me in the eye and said, "Originally, we were going to sleep." However, before going to bed, Sue told me one thing. I'll have to come over and check it out. ”

As soon as he finished speaking, he rolled up the sleeves of my bathrobe, revealing my entire arm.

He turned a deaf ear and said, "This arm." Show me! ”

He grabbed my other arm and did the same thing.

As I struggled, he ripped the bathrobe from my chest again, revealing my entire neck, half of my shoulders, and half of my chest.

I let out an exclamation, and with all the strength of my life, I broke free from his grasp and pushed him away with all my might.

I said, "You're crazy, your wife and son are sleeping opposite!" ”

Kaohsiung said: "There must be one of us who is crazy, but this person is definitely not me!" ”

He left me and walked to the cloakroom, where he took my swimsuit off the hanger and threw it head-on on my face.

He said, "Follow me to the pool." ”

I said, "It's so late, I don't want to swim." ”

Kaohsiung gritted his teeth and said, "Don't want to? Don't you dare? ”

He grabbed one of my arms and growled, "That's why you didn't dare go swimming with Sue earlier in the evening!" ”

He said, "I don't want to swim at all, I just want to see if you're all over your arms and all over your arms!" he said. ”

He said, "Tell me, how many places do you have all over your body?" ”

I tightened the bathrobe on my chest and remained silent.

He said: "Explain to me, what is the cause of these big and small ecchymosis? ”

I fastened the strap on my bathrobe. I said, "It's none of your business. ”

He said, "Do you have leukemia?" ”

I said angrily, "No! ”

Kaohsiung suddenly roared angrily: "This brute! Bastard! ”

I raised my voice and said again, "Whatever happens, it's none of your business." You don't have the right to break into my room like this in the middle of the night and tear my clothes! You also have no right to ask me such a question! I am not obligated to answer you. ”

Kaohsiung said with a hideous face: "He dares to do this to you!" No wonder you're always alone on vacation and never see you together! ”

I said angrily, "Please get out!" Who am you? We don't have to be nosy with you in the affairs of our husband and wife! ”

Kaohsiung took a step back.

He took a breath.

He said, "That's right. I'm not one of you. ”

He said: "I'm not here today to meddle in business. Just one thing to bring you. Before coming for the vacation, I specially went back to my parents' house, returned to the room where I used to live, and searched for a long time to find it, I asked you out for a vacation, just to find it and give it to you. ”

He reached into the pocket of his pajamas and pulled something out of it.

He said, "I wanted to wait for tomorrow to give it to you." This hour is given to you, I'm afraid you won't sleep well. ”

He said, "Since you are here, I will give it to you." ”

He said, "I think you need it." If you still cherish it, please take a good look and think about your current life. Is it the right way to spend this life? ”

He handed me what he had taken out of his pocket.

He bowed slightly and said, "I'm sorry to tear your clothes without permission and see the scenery inside." ”

He said, "Don't bother." Good night. ”

When he had finished speaking, he turned and walked over and unscrewed the lock on the door, and walked out.

(f)

I watched him walk out.

The door slowly closed on its own.

Did what I just say hurt him?

However, I really don't want him to know too much, and I really don't want him to get involved.

I put my sleeves down.

I looked down at what he had just handed me.

My heart stopped beating instantly.

I see your eyes.

You're on the picture in my hand, looking at me, smiling.

It was an old photo, a group photo of you with Instructor Wang and Principal Bosang during the Bosang training camp.

You and Director Wang stood beside the principal on the left and right, looking at the camera and smiling brightly.

You are as young as ever, as handsome as ever, gentle as ever, and gracious as ever.

My hands trembled.

I took your picture and sat down on the couch.

I've never seen this picture before. How could it be there in Kaohsiung?

Did you give it to Kaohsiung when you were alive? Or did he later manage to get it himself?

You never gave me a picture when you were alive.

You look at me with a smile on the photo. In the background behind you, I see the long-lost snow-capped mountain. And then there are the cabins dotted around the valley.

In an instant, too many memories came to me.

I was holding the photo and sitting alone on the couch.

I just took it like that and sat on the couch all night.

(g)

Sometimes, we fall into one kind of pain because we want to run away from it.

Sometimes, we fall deeper into loneliness because we want to avoid it.

In this way, Kaohsiung found out about my unhappy marriage.

Although this ending was expected by all of us, it really happened, and it was still painful to experience.